Back?

Hey yo!
Let's see. I've not blog a single thing ever since I joined KDUSS! haha and guess what?! I'm still there!

It's proven. Life is more interesting when I was in EY than now.

Read few of my posts in the past and I realised.. Oh ya.. that happened! Oh ya.. wow. Really brought a lot memories back.

Seemed as if I've disappeared from earth for almost 3 years with no FB update and blog at all.
Let's do one recap soon!


Love.

Don't want to be miserable anymore..

Lets refresh the last I blog..
7 April 2014. That was 5 months ago!

Funny how time cheated everyone..
Often we think how long a day or a week would be..
Often we start Monday with >=( look..
Often we wish everyday is Friday..
Then again.. I've lived through 20 Fridays since the last I blog.

Quit my first job.. had my happy/sad farewell..
Went to solo trip with Mum..
Lead the trip.. screw up some plans..
And then.. my new job.

KDU Smart School..

Yeah.. Am currently the FM there.
What is that position all about?
Have no freaking idea..and is currently doing what my boss asked me to.
Stupid enough that I told colleagues that I won't last long there.
Stupid enough that I tried to do more things then what I'm told..
That I've been thinking.. why am I doing all these?

Life was pretty bad since I left EY..
To be honest..
So much so that I want to have my life back..
I wonder if that feelings in EY.. will it still be the same?
My friends.. colleagues.. my war mates..
They have all continued with their journey in life.. with >=)

Perhaps I'm the only one with such issue?
I hate my job.. I hate what I'm doing everyday..
I can't sleep every night..
What was I thinking..
Why can't I sleep?

I have migraine in the day..
I have tummy ache in the dark..
What on earth is happening to me?!

Everything that matters to me changed ever since I leave EY.
My happiness.. my smile.. my love.. my friends.. and my job..
What happened in between.. have I taken too much of a weight one should carry?
What phase is this?

I need my sleep.. I need the man I love to hold me..
I need him most at these moments..
But.. he couldn't be there.

I'm tired.. restless.. My brain and body.. intoxicated with caffeine.
Beer used to hid my sorrow.. the pain killer..
But now.. what is it that I need to do to get through this?

I felt stupid.. I felt that I need to go back to Bali..
The moment.. that I felt I was all alone.. and smiling..
Feeling restored and confident when I'm back..
Will all that still be the same now?

 Life.. I've gone through a pretty hard life..
Can you give me a lift.. give me a happier and worry free life?

Its a long and emotional post yet again..
Guess there hasn't been much exciting things going on yeah..

Resignation >=)

7 April 2014

I've submitted my resignation letter to the Human Resource!
I've finally made this move!
After 3 years of complains... =)
Yet somehow, I felt a pinch of sadness..

Ernst & Young.. I joined this profession 5 years ago..
..3 Feb 2009..
 













My first group trip. LoL.

Crap.. I still look so young and thin.
5 years plus has gone by.. I'm a manager in EY now.
So much laughter and tears

As at now.. looking back.. i missed myself.
I miss who I used to be..
The ignorant playful and active girl.
Commitments have pulled me down..
And I hate it so much.

Is this all about grown ups?

Back to my resignation..
..6 July 2014.. would be my last day in EY. =)
Wonder if I will breakdown in tears..

For now.. I will complete what I can in EY...

Retreat?

Here I am again, figuring out what to do in my life.

Have been working non-stop for the past 2 months.
Am I really getting old.. or I just dislike this already?

Browsing through the fb.. and i wonder.. why does others so happy and enjoying themselves..
But me.

Why does unfairness falls upon me.
Why this. Why that.

I need a retreat.

All over again..

Has been such a long time since I last blogged.

It was always about love and relationships in my previous blogs..
Little did I notice that life is more than those..
Sadness are often seen in my blogs.

Today, I somehow felt different from yesterday.
Different from how I usually feels.
Did I change over the trip or did I just grown a little more mature?

10 days ago, I celebrated my 27th birthday. =)
I did not realise that my birthday is just tomorrow.. until Meiwah asked me.
"so.. where are you going tonite?"

Few years ago, my birthday seemed like such a big deal.
I remembered and always ensured a proper countdown the day before.
It seemed different this year. Why?
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4 days ago, I've attended the new manager training in Bangkok.
This training is something different, where you actually social with others.
Others include people from all around ASEAN.
I talked mostly with Singaporeans, which I then learnt that.. we are actually all the same.
The difference is, our attitude towards learning.

In the training, we were given the result of our social style tests..
I'm of the expressive type.. which somehow, I'm not surprised.
The descriptions given.. especially on how others perceive me..
I'm pretty impressed.

I guess I'm alright in this sense.
Somehow I really need to be more organised and hardworking.. LoL.

I miss the training somehow..
Probably one of those times that I need not worry about my work in KL..
Sigh..

If EY is able to provide such environment.. sufficient staffing.. team..
or just some time for us to break free and have fun..
It will be great!
But I tink EY is taking a tol on my health.. and the pressure..
I hate to worry about my engagements when I'm on holiday..

Okay.. It became another complain blog then after.
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Would like to post pictures of us.. having fun.
Probably another time.
Gotta work now. =)