Its my birthday

42 minute ago it was my birthday. It was supposed to be a great day as everything was planned initially but then destroyed as those plans crashed together. Well..It'd been sometime that I have not been writing any post for my blog. Out of the sudden, I felt like writing my blog. It was quite a happy day and a moment ago I was crying as plan are all ruined but currently felt that it was just okay. We went out to Midvalley for shopping and we just shop until our legs tired. It'd been quite a long time we never shop like this and spent so much $$. I was kinda contented having him by my side. Well.. sometimes I do think whether am I selfish? I just hoped that he will be by my side all the times but in the same time I want to stay with my family too. But I ain't sure whether I had been considering about his feelings. I ain't sure whether what my family felt about me. I was trying to be myself but being myself making me felt that I was selfish and hard to make decision. People asked me to be happy and don't think so much. But there is one thing known as dilemma where you are unsure of which way you do will be better and won't hurt other people's feeling. Perhaps this is the stage of growing up and staying more mature. To be honest, being an adult is absolutely not as good as you thought. There is a lot to consider. Well, I prefer being teenager again. 

Just forget about what that makes things unhappy.  I would like to thank all of them who celebrated my birthday tonight. I was kinda happy and thanks so much what you all done. You know who you are, Thanks so much. Thanks for accompanying me and giving me so much of your time. Forgive me and sacrifice for me. Thanks for the effort. Its the little that counts. ILY.

Thanks for the gift my family and red packets. Thanks for everything. I just loved what you all did for me but just I needs some time to get things back to one. I thought I could fix things up but actually it was so hard. 

Well, I just realized that I have not even snap a photo with my family on my birthday. Hope that I will remember tomorrow.

Not that I am not willing to stay or what but I just can't stop to get myself out of such situation. Whenever I closed my eyes and tried to forget but things come back again. Honestly, I wants to get things to be happier than ever but it seems like I can't. I can't make my heart to feel even a little better. Not even a second. But it is slowly recovering.
PS. Today is the release of Pokemon Go where everyone play all around. And yet we had dinner with relatives and after that we brought my cousins and brother go and seek for Pokemons in DPC. While hunting for Pokemon, we saw a lot of people playing on the road.  Kinda famous nowadays.
Some words from the birthday girl Leo Baby. <3

I will change. I promise.

Lately, I don't understand what exactly I need in my life and I am somehow lost sense of directions. I do not understand where am I suppose to go and how to overcome with my problems. I am facing so much problems with him lately. I started to lost myself and having serious empty hearts and minds. When I lost sense of direction, I met with this book of happiness in MPH bookstore. I was inspired by this book titled "Seven Steps to Lasting Happiness" by Robin Sharma. This book was amazingly open up my mind and get to understand more about life.

The first thing that discuss in this book is to discover yourself. After reading this chapter, I have no idea who am I, what I want in my life and how will I lead my life. This personal mission is so hard for me to set and achieve them. I really no idea. To discover about yourself is totally something that is hard to do and you really needs lots of experiences and time to think about what you actually wants. Never gets influenced by others cause it will not be one that you needed. I am never a positive thinker. I don know why but I really want to try to learn to be positive. I do hope that I am still belongs to you. If still continuing like this, I will never success in life. 

I will change, I promise.

I m so sorry for hurting you........

Fourth

Fourth chapter in our diaries. And it could be said as an unexpected one. Glad to have you all these while. Although sometimes we did fought but most of our moments are happy. I think that might be the reason of we tolerating each other. :) Thank you so much. 

 We planned to celebrate the special day by having our big feast in Sukiya, Paradigm mall.

Me with the steamboat stuffs.

Him <3

Can we manage to finish it? :O

Juice work. Watermelon, Strawberry, Apple.

After eating, we went to shop around paradigm mall. And our second round is movie! Yay!

Gone Girl

 Dinner after movie at some random place as it was late no where else for us to go.

While waiting for food, we spent our time with a book. XD

 

US

It's the fourth year. Happy Anniversary babe! Thanks for spending your time with me. <3
ILY <3

Memories of 2014

It had been quite sometime that I stopped blogging. But now... "I M BACK!" I had been busy around the whole year but I do not know what I am busy about. Here I would like to summarize my whole year progress. :)

This time I will speak less unless for captions. :) Let the pictures speaks.

January
First time dip dying my hair in red!

Daddy's Birthday celebration

February
February was supposed to be a great month but something happened :(. It'd been 3 years we are together and out of the sudden I just felt like getting away of it. Mostly is because of fears and pressures given by peoples. But we didn't and we got back later on. :)
It was a tough time after the break but thanks for my buddies continue giving encouragement to me. Grateful to have both of you!

A photo of me with autumn taken by the people
that doesn't wants to reveal himself.

Chinese new year bai nian with camp friend :)

In TJ's house

CNY celebration with le college mates in Nic's place :)

First year going out bai nian with my college mates :)

Met Jinny boy and Ian in Sushi Zanmai, One Utama

March
XW surprise celebration

A half failed surprise. XD

Win Nee's birthday celebration

Win Nee birthday partayy in Manjalara Shabu Shabu :) 

April
Cousin sister, Yan Yan's 21st birthday party :)

My dream party >.<

Five of us after presentation :)

Birthday celebration with Ann after presentation

Yumi's birthday party

May 
Malacca trip with college mates before we got tortured during intern. And this is my first trip going out with my friends. Sounds like growing up huh? Yeah...

 Outing with my bf :)

We are going for movie and shopping :)

June- August
Internship

I am serious in work? No. I am serious in drawing only. :P 

Yeah. We are all interns!

      

Bonsai Ice cream nearby my office :)

           

Intern with my sha po! :P

Celebration of almost finish intern with my sha po, Cherub :)

July
Port Dickson trip in July is a small get away from the stress of intern.

PAttern banyak XD

My entertaining uncle. XD

View from my apartment

Swimming time!

Me sitting by the beach

Morning exercise on the beach.

Amy's birthday party :)

 

August
A 21st birthday party planned by myself in the meantime busy over intern. Everything comes not that good but well, it's fine. It is all done by myself. I am not showing off or what. I just wan to share my happiness to people. :)

With grandpa and family. Yeah! :)

With aunt and uncles!

with my family <3

First photo with my bf for my 21st birthday <3

My necklace from my parents :)

My birthday cake

Presents. First time ever received so much presents in my life. 

First time doing manicure. Done by my cousin sis 

A cute gift from win nee!

Another cute one from Win nee!

This is what win nee gives me :)

A handmade card from my sista! It makes me tear! :'(

Present from high school girls  and one boy. Haha! :)

A gift from my mom's best friend 

A gift from him! A very lovely one. I wears it almost every day.

from David

From my darl, yumi.

From my aunt, Emy.

From cousie, Sandra and bf

From high school boys friends,

From Zhen Fei. P.s. All the way from Australia

From Pui yin

From cousie, Stephanie and husband

From aunt.

From neighbour.

From aunt and cousie

From my piano teacher and family

From my buddy Wai Hong

From my dear, Cherub

From my cousin, Kelly

From Jie Yan :)

From my college mates. Ann and gang :)

From my cousie, Jasmine and bf

From nic and gang. :)

From my uncle and family

From XW's mother

From Freedy and Sharon

This was the funniest gift i received that night. XD
From my uncle. He seriously thought that I am still a kid.

With both my sisters! Muacks *kiss*

Group photo with my high school mates.
I have no idea where we are looking cause too much cameras. 

Group picha with my college mates.
Sorry that day was so rush that u all did not able to take more photos.

31st August 2014 (National Day)

Lunch buffet from the boss of piano centre :)

September
Trip to Ipoh after intern with Cherub, Ann and Waihong.
First thing is FOOD! Hahaha!

My favourite. Kwai Fa Gou

Ipoh hor fun with seafood! This is the most tasty one!

Tau fu fah! The yummiest one I had eaten.

Egg Pudding was nice too! 

Darts time in Ipoh.

Four of us! :)

 My niece full moon party :)

Niece, Olivia.

 Yee lin's birthday party

Her fancy birthday party! A great birthday party.  

We are playing with the crops.

Mr pang's baby full moon

Greatest party for a baby. She will have a memorable one.

Girls with Yong Ling.

Baby Yong Ling.

A picture of us with the baby.

 After the party, we went to celebrate his birthday! :)

21st September was his birthday <3

The day before, 20th September 2014 night, we made a surprise for him but he wasn't surprise at all.
But he was totally surprised for the throwing "cake session attack". The most funny moment I ever experienced.

Dinner with his buddy at night! XD

 Melody's birthday party

Her birthday celebration in Silver Spoon.

 October
My Cousin, Andrea's birthday celebration

Outing with my "bitch"! :P

Jogoya Dinner with my ex-colleagues :)

Me and Cherub after make up :)

With le colleagues

 Outing with two sistas!

3 Wei's are apart in different far places. Miss u all! :(

 First time posting a video on me playing piano :)
 But it doesn't goes well :S

 Outing with him to a place where we wants to go 6 months ago due to some medical issues that time. :l

A visit to KPMG with the bunch of "monkeys" college mates XD

November
Mom's birthday

Birthday celebration in Sukiya Shabu Shabu

Mom with her favourite Nadeja cakes :)

Dad and Mom

Outing with le bf before going overseas as he helped me to hunt for clothes too :)

Went out to times square to hunt for clothes in Times Square
with Freedy, Agnes, Ann, Cherub and Wai Hong.

17th November: I finally bought a camera after struggling over 2 months :P

December
Trip to Guangzhou

We enjoying le sakura  ice-cream together.

In macau

with le cousie!

Wow! The desserts are so tempting. I missed the steam egg!

Group Picha in Macau

Group Picha in Zhuhai

24th December Christmas eve.

Celebration for Christmas Eve. We watched night in the museum 2. 

25th December Christmas

Christmas celebration with my sista!

26th December 2014 I went to Pulau Sembilan with my family and relatives to watch the

Aunt

Uncle

Sea Urchin

Oyster

Me in the "net"

Perhaps you may see it like blue thingy but it is the blue creature in the sea.The Blue tears at night view. Too bad I missed it :(

Another thing I had missed was the sunrise! :(

Le sea when I was on the boat. One thing I hate to sit the boat is because I have sea sick! :(

New Year Eve without countdown due to too tired :(

New Year Eve's dinner at home with family and relatives. Another year without countdown.

2014 was considered as one of my happiest moments in my life as the previous things that haunts me got away. Although 2014 brought too much airplane crashes cases but don't give up people. The coming ones will be better. Things will get better in 2015.