Depressed...

After a long time.. i felt i need somewhere to let myself vent out wat all my feelings; be it happy, upset or the usual unhappiness..

Just felt depressed..stressed...
are u really the one who will be there with me??

LOST ME....

i have so many things in my mind.... i want to do so many things.. but i only have so little time...

25-05-09

It's the end of the day but tt's always not the end of all my problems. 本以为事情已经解决了，哪知道又把另一个问题拉近来。haiz!!! Tt's me, always with never ending problems. I'm sure a stupid person evrytime tt gives my family so many problems so many troubles and so many headaches... I just can't help it no matter hoe hard I've tried!! It always happens, even noe when I'm turning 22!!

I noe I'm an adult and many things I ought to noe and smart enough to noe wat to do. I try but I jus can't, there are always thing that I can't do well and I have not encounter. Why can't u give me a light when I'm lose? U always shine e light when I've decided on the path I've choosen, it may not be too late to change but I guess it will be difficult to change.

Ppl adapt to changes in life, environment, ppl. I can't adapt to changes so fast like u do, so smart, so informative. And so u think I deserves to be punished with e light tt comes late. Did I reject u when u need help with ppt, msw,? I neve ask u to do first den after tt tell u tt u are wrong ma? But why do u always do tt to me??? Always being so calculative, so picky, choosy, tt's not me and I'm not u!!!! I JUST HATE IT!!!!! AhhhhHhHh!!!!

Hope tt tml will be a better day!!! Pls bless Ling Li. Thanks you!!!
GivinG advise at the most critic point of time always better than giving it(a criticism) at the very last min when it's the end of the day- it doesn't really belo anymore.

Random...

Time is so slow this few days, hopefully will not be like tt everytime during work. Went running at NUS yesterday after work. Quite shiok ah. Den leg pain after. Began to like running but still prefer swimming and sports.

Mistakes made when u are too free or too busy. Too busy- u have no rush and mistakes tent to appear. Too free- u feel sleepy and lazy when there's nothin to do and e brain slow down. When brain don't work, mistake find u. When u admit ur mistakes u be a better person and u learn. BUT when others put blame, u rmb who is the one for long. And for me, I'll be super angry. The word fuck is just within me today when someone just scold me without checking and talk behind my back. Sucks man!!!

Going crocs sale coming fri. Hope I can get wat I wan. :D Also going movie coming sat, yeah!!

Stories are a neve ending, u choose the kind of story u wan to say.

Good night! May the night be longer, so that I dun have to work so long...
~Ling

Last night @ 0115 yongxiang went to check in and fly off @ 0255. To brunei. I'll then see him 3 weeks later. Didn't get to catch A&D cos all sold out yesterday, I guess he should be quite disappointed. He should be going to start his training alr, maybe tml? I now 3 weeks will pass fast for me but I think it will be tough for him. Of cos I have confident with him, I jus now he will safely complete evrything even though he's not really close with his mates. Haven really miss him yet for now, but soon I think, when I'm stress with work n stuffs. Anyway just hope tt weather will be fine and just right for them la.

As for me, tml is working day Mon again!!! After a week of hard work it's Mon again. Last week was terrible. Almost had a volcano erruption. I'm just too angry tt I almost wan to jsut shout and scold and cry. I've alr had tt much and it's like getting worse. Luckily recently we had new friends working here, quite fun la. If not will really die. As in die! At some point during work, I just hope tt I can just faint. Faint and go hm. LOL.

I guess this 3 weeks will be a challenging week for me. With no one to let out all my unhappiness during work. Tt ray I was telling how angry I was during work and I can actually perspire when talking to him and using all sort of not very nice words. Tt very Kua zhang la I think. Ok!! Anyway, I'll always try my best during work la.!!!

Jia you!!! Miss u!!!
~Ling

It's Vesak day today and it's also book in day for him. Time is always so short n not enough for me. But it's always a no
choice. Soon he's going to Brunei for 3weeks.

Hope he can do his best n have to make plans before doing.

Work place came a few new staff. 5a seems a little diff from last time. Good and bad. Ppl left and leaving too. When will it be my turn? When can I leave for my own passion and goal in life? ???

Wat sort of ppl are u? I take train to work, from work almost everyday. Why do ppl like to push and push when they are boarding , alighting? First to be in and also first to be out. Is having a sit so important. Once I was waiting for train at jurong east going hm. Train arrived, man and lady in standin side my side infront was pushing each other. They are already first, why still wan to push? Men shouted,:'war u wan?' to e lady. 'OMG' I sian diao. Why are there ppl like, ESP men tt is so not gentlemen?
Just a casual remark, it happens to me evrytime. LOL

Ling~

The never ending SABO

Hello, I noe I hAve not been blogging for years le. I'm fine, still surviving and trying to do my best.
Started with knowing nuts about meds ( geneic/ brand names n little of wat r they for)

It's quite hard and stress ESP when ppl keep pushing u, scolding( no packing error/ call for all intervention/ antibiotics not more than 2 weeks......) Everyday is like so stress and rushing for time.

Now, ppl start to give u reonsibilities and task to do, to learn new machine. It's nice to handle newt things cos u get to upgrade itself and make urself more useful. But ppl will try to take this opp to ask u do more and treat it as an excuse to say tt he/she dunno. I mean I'm willing and ok to do it ontop of my own duties. Some are very tactful a d I really do respect them during work. But some just treat it as u must do cos only u noe( tt kind of reason) which I think is just pushing it to others.

I noe these things are very common, I just dun understand why there're ppl like tt. Anyway, all I do most of e time to vent my anger is to eat- Eat and eat and eat!!! Eat my fav tt makes me full and satisfied!! :D

I think I'm going to have a new hobby-running. Hopefully I can run and run, let all my anger and unhappiness during work gins with all my sweat!!!

I fond out that shopping is a super nice thing to do. To shop for one whole daysl is super shiok! I just spent $100plus last week. I'm still going to buy what I'm planning. Of coz tt's not always, maybe few months ones. Of coz I will only shop when I reallyhave the time to.

Ok goodnight everybody,!! Hope I will update again soon ba!!! Haha
~Ling Li