tired tired

tired today..lesson for 2 hrs..but stay in sch till 2pm..den go study with timo at bk - yishun..till abit brain dead... do math like fightin for war.. hahaha...

wan to put the pics up.. think got more comin up ba.. not goin to put the post i'm in 28a and 28 b..it's terrible.. hahaah saw the new batch le.. but i cant be there for the first duty.. sob sob.. no choice..i'm having test.. timo replacing me... i have things to talk to them also..guess have to wait till i go back ba.. haiz..time not enough.. cant go for meetings also..cos havin lesson outside.. ill try to keep myslef up to date..


learning how to dance in the middle of the night...ard 4am... dance in a blur state..

gal in orange got safety TOes.!!!.. got injured and i bandaged her toes... hope she's alright liao...



HAving Lunch together!!! with the 6th batch of fri CYAs...

camp

had my cya camp on the fri and sat... after schoolin from 8 to 5, camp starts at 7...went to club house early... saw the new batch of cya. first time campin in poly, it feels different. for once i noe the sch is so so soooodark without lights in the night and lights can just turn off in the middle of the captains ball..but the seniors still won ..hahah..

first day. didnt sleep for the whole night as we went to prepare for the next day's game and dance. the way to SB in the night was terrible. the walk with engene to SB was like worse den watchin a horror movie.. sat at the staircase in the end as lse, jess, timo, jw and alex came and we cross the red bridge as wat timo wanted to cross.... maybe it wasnt as scary as there were so many of us. it was also my first time there... learnt the dance and was totally tire...sleepin time.... at 6am den we went to bath...

2nd day: had tresure hunt for them. and in the end, the few of us, me, eugene, zirong, gz, jess, timo were the ones playin our own staion..hd a terrible photo taken by zirong..omg.. while waitin for the lunch at SB, jess and me taught zr and gz the dance and was danm funny... they were dancin with super action!!! had a 2hr nap in the club house..

many first time campin in sch, get to noe more of the seniors throu the short 2 day...became closer and thinkin of some things changes. wan to thank jee and vincent for being the 1st aider with me during the camp.. although there isnt really alot of first aid cases... notice one thing, guys in cya likes to pull ppl's hair..sob sob..i'm the victim.. lastly, the camp will be remembered for life.. :)

chionging for datasheet once again..and many quizzes comin up... after lots of fun. i think it's time to chiong for my work...

sch starts again..and tml's holiday again... so many things happening...inside , outside..

just thinkin ..wat does cryin means to many of us? a way to express sadness, heartbroken, useless, or is it somethin tt makes u win when u cry??? does cryin make one's one melt?? and when do one get heartless...or can anyone get heartless???
does a smile warms one's heart? and is smiling the best way to cover up the unhappiness inside ourselves?
i also dunno wat i wan to express...just many questions to ask and pondering...
i dun like to cry but i like to smile.. cos i dun like ppl to see me in a sad face..maybe when i'm really sad over things, it shows.. but i will just get over it with a smile... smiling makes me feels better cos it moves me on.. cryin does melt my heart..but when someone close to me cry, i will try to be strong... i may look like i dun care..but i do in my heart.. & and i dun to tell or say to make u noe...

many a times, i feel like cryin..but somethin just stop me from doin it..as i noe when i start to cry, it will be a neve endin one.. n i dun like the feelin of cryin cos i think it sux.. and i dun like ppl to see me cry..

sounds abit serious...and i think i dun have the time to think of other stuff like u..eventhoug i still miss... puttin u out for the time being eventhoug u neve even put my in at once....

nothin much to up date.. went to ms yester while studyin...cos just feel like runnin out of the house.. den walk ard with kailun, jinwei , sec sch de ppl.. not in v good mood loh..for this few days ba.. also cant really tell.. just got to study hard loh.. tt's my goal la..
had a hard time thinkin of somthin..and decided to go for it..hope tt u all will understand..

the fear in me!!!many many tt i cant tell.. and i dun wan...

here again..cos i'm feelin abit 'fan' about some things... all of a sudden, tt's so many things i get to now.. and in a mist of everything, i dunoo how to really decide for myself and to console other.. thought tt today will be a peaceful day for me.
ao many things to decide on and so many to deal with..wat should i do??? haiz...shall i let it go, or shall i grab it b4 it's too late? GOd...

tired,
running with time,
mIst....

MiSt.....

after a week of sch again... time to summries the week event for me.
went badminton on wed cos i got no gems on that day.. den the book we book was played by others.. den went bowling after tt at guild house.. looked abit shag... walked past the running track when goin back, saw alex.. and he say i'm dao.. i jus neve wave to him loh.. but i got smile ok... hmmm nvm loh..

fri went to orchard to got kylie's birthday present..and walked to esplanate..leg almost break.. the few of us, me, lihong,ame,des,keong,pat stay there for awhile and talk loh.. sbit siao..talk abit out of point tt time.. den take train alone..and keep pesting kailun to send me hm.. quite touch la..so late le still come..appricate loh.. though i neve say la.. when for prata at my house there den go hm..

sat, tiring day for me.. morning went for st john..den afternoon go celebrate my mdm's bdae..she treat us chocolate fondne...nice loh.. den go airport straight after..until 11 plus den reach hm.. tired tired...

today..was abit fustrating day for me..wanted to go bladding for my gems thing..but mummy dun let.. wat's wrong with learning tt??? she say let me to learn piano.. i like to learn tt..but i also dun wanna give up bladding..cos it's something i have set down for myself already... i will still continue to strive hard de..and i believe studies must balance with play... she dun understand why i wan to go learn blade...cos i felt it's easiler to make into smth i can present if someone is to learn how to blade..
ArHHHH!!!!!!!haiz.. i'll still go later...

somehoe, i'm in a mist again..talk to them and think i should tell..but next second..i felt tt i shouldnt.. hope u noe and give me a hint...

abit of everything....

long time since i last blog... abit lazy and busy la.. over the weekend, went to the sp musical with des, pat,kylie, liru, nellie, shuan, vic,terence, hankeong and new classmate jaron... quite nice but i think the seats we were allocated to were bad.. yup.. this is the pic we took after the musical...

this is taken at the top ..where our seats where.. when i'm abit bo liao, waiting for the musical to start..

duty was said to continue and cancelled last min due to the processing of pass.. had to find replacement at v last min..and abit angry.. anyway thanks to the peeps who help me la..heee
wnet to orchard and marina sq during sat cos last min no duty with my old sec sch friends, wearing my cya uniform. i noe it's abit hmmm... but nvm la..just close one eye loh.. went out and got bullied by them..... sob..

today was a tiring day.. had badminton and bowlin with des, kylie, nellie, and pat..lol..actually dun wanna bowl de..but cannot resist to temptation.. den played for a while loh... play until forget the time..cos actually meetin lh to go study de.. den abit pai sae again..

abit tire liao..maybe like v busy in sch or maybe i'm still at the mood of holiday.. seems like i have really got my brain on the right track.. time to tune back..:)

this few days has been seein u..just suddenly pop out de.. haiz.. the thing i have been thinkin has come back again.. how??? can i tell u? but i not the chance not high la..so not havin high expectation...

hazy day

had gems yester and thinkin of wat skills i wanna learn..if blade cannot den i;ll go for piano loh.. very difficult to choose.. gave vivian the present den went to the doc yester after sch...alone and waited for aome time.. the thing on my leg come back again.. so have to eat med loh.. it's alright de la.. lol...

have been eating kfc and pizza hut for the past two days...jus got the arch to eat thoug i noe it's quite fattening.. eat le den say la..

become super-bowler liao..with lihong cos of something tt happen when we went to bowl.. and we always share muscles..lol...

having headache since morning..also dunno why... it sux man.. just feel like hittin the head on the smth... think gonna sleep more ba.. god..tml's lesson can die..from 11 to 4 and actually i only go for 2 hr lesson cos in between got 3hrs break.. abit waste of time..but lucky got ppl to pei..lol...

-likes to look at the sky:)

it's childrens' day!!! just like normalday..

Happy birhtday to vivan & Happy belated birthday to Jessica!!!

yester is the last day of cya duty for all the sat ppl.. only the rovers are allow to contiune... abit sad, cos we thought still gt 2 more weeks with them.. sob sob..i'm gonna miss all of them... all of them... dunno when will see them again in sch.. all my GuGuzz family.. so fast half a yr has past...

abit stress if i go up to rover.. Jia wei wants me to be more firm..i think can ba.. have to prove smth to him loh.. changed my duty day to fri le..no more sat for me liao..cannot with jessica.. nvm..will see her when i do replacement..

1st week of sch just past like tt.. so fast and so slack.. cant imagine so fast... and i think tml will be the start of busy sch life.. just hope i'll be able to do the same like last sem..just chiong... heee

i noe tt there will be times where misunderstandin happens and times where we have to choose the right thing for ownself. havin 1's reason, just hope others can understand, if not, nothin could be done.
work and friendship are different things tt we have to handle properly.. it's difficult but i think it can be done.. just wan a class tt all ppl can understand each other, clear line b/w work and play... dun be unhappy with each other..

the person seems near..and seems to be not the one also.. wat to do??i dun wan to feel like to have any.. if it is to be, let it be.. if it is not, take them away... unpredictable and hidden, unspoken......

a better tml..!!! :)