SNOW

I've been so excited for snow this year! :) What can I say?! It's just been a long wait! It usually snows a little before Halloween comes around. . . and it did. . . But since we live in the cute state UT without consistent weather it was blue skys and sunshine in literally less than then mins. Ugh! Haha So expecting it to snow yesterday I was expecting it to be sunshine and blue skys today--it's only common sense to have a pattern right? NOPE! I get up and there are still clouds hopefully promising more snow!!
I guess I'm not the only one excited for the snow because before I know it Sticky (Beckah) comes bouncing in the house and yells, "Hannah! I made 3 snowmen!!"  So she drags me outside in my flip flops to some me these:

My Divine Potential

My Divine Potential!

I am the daughter of wonderful earthly parents

 And sister to amazing brothers and sisters!

I am a friend to fantastic people who make me want to be better!

I am LOVED!

I am intelligent, talented, and Beautiful!

I am a Princess!

I am meant to Shine!

I am moving forward to unlimited opportunities and blessings!

I am the future wife of the man of my dreams

And the future mother to my incredible children!

I have a healthy body and a beautiful smile!

I have the ability to help others every single day!

I am a daughter of God!

He knows me! He loves me!

He has a  plan for me!

I will strive to live each day to reach my very own

Divine Potential!

Feb 9,2014

I have so missed writing on my blog  and I'm not sure I will publish all these but I feel I have so much going on in my life.  If I don't write it down I will forget it and lose it.  I love my life and all that is happening and I don't want to lose it. 
I love being the Relief Society President It is truly a blessing.  I love the ladies in our ward and what a blessing they are in my life.  There was a lady today who needed a food order and she went to talk to the Bishop and he told her that she could get one but that she needed to come to church and work on doing what was important in her life.  She seemed fine and then during the Sacrament I had to leave and make sure they had taken the Sacrament to Elane and this lady followed me down stairs and I could see that she had been crying.  I asked her if she was all right and she said Yes, I'm fine but I don't like how I'm being talked too like I'm not good enough and I don't think that I should be judged because I have seizures and can's come to church.  I thought that maybe it was a deacon that did something but come to find out it was the Bishop.  I truly feel like she was looking for an excuse to quit coming to church but I feel bad for her.    I will try to go and see her again but if she wants an excuse she will find one not matter what.  I love her and it was my first time as the Rs president that she had a seizure and it was during the middle of class but we just loved her and Rachel brought her home and it was fine.  It is hard to have seizures and be in public especially if you remember it.  I'm so thankful that me Mom didn't know/ remember the seizures that she had.  I will pray for this lady and hope that she has the desire to come back to church
I'm going to do a fire side for the YW in spring City.  IT was so fun.  For YW camp this year they are going to have a month long camp and do pageant.  I thought it was a wonderful idea.  It was fun to go and tell them about pageant.  how we have 2 seasons at our house Christmas and pageant.  It was fun to tell experiences. I told how Ben was pulling the hand cart across the scene and how it got away from him and Randy and how it went head over heel down the hill.  How Pres. Swenson talked about how exciting it was and how dramatic it was to have it there and we are so thankful to have everyone ok but we won't have any more excitement like that.  I also told the Story about Matthew how he felt there was not a place for him in Pageant until Nate heard about it and he went over and gave Matthew a special part.  I love how good Nate is in involving everyone and helping everyone feel loved.  I told how neat it was when everyone was there for when Angela came up the stairs and we had grandparents and cousins and it was like Heaven having everyone all together.  I told how I had made it a goal for my Faith in YW to act like I was really there for Christ in America.  It was really my most year in pageant because I truly tired to be there and it made all the difference.. 
I'm walking again with Becky Olsen in the morning.  I get more done when I'm up and running well walking but I do accomplish more.
I went to Parent teacher conference and I was so pleased.  Rebeckah is doing good and I knew that.  She has adjusted to her teacher and yes she still get nervous but she is doing fine.  Matthew teacher Mrs. Hirschi has helped Matthew come so far.  He is up to grade level and is doing so wonderful!!!  He loves to read and he is getting his times tables and he loves it. I feel like she has instilled it in him and he is happy. What a tender mercy.
We talked in RS today about how we never have it until we are in the Celestial Kingdom and how Presidents of the church pray for help to be strong and to continue in the faith.  Well if they have to pray for help like that we all do!!!  We all need help and we can't do it alone but we all need to be praying for help./
Pres. Hintze couldn't get Mark in today so I guess we will have to wait one more week before he gets his papers turned in.  I know that the Lord has him time on this so I'm just being patient.  It feels like we are trying to get stuff done and there is one more thing.  I'm just smiling and I believe next week that we will get this done.  Patience is a virtue and I'm still struggling working on it.  I like my answers now on my time frame now someone elses!!
Well this is kind of boring but this is how life it.  I feel like I don't have anything to write but I hope you don't get bored with it.
I'm so thankful for bothof you.  You are the VERY BEST MISSIONARIES THE WORLD HAS EVER KNOW!!!  F COURSE MY CHILDREN ARE THE VERY BEST!!!  No conceit in this family I have it all!!!I love you and pray for you and I believe that you are doing the best you can and striving to be the best. thanks for your example.  I love you both so much!!!  I know it is hard but I also believe that you are being blessed!!  Thanks!!!  we are all praying for you and your missionary strength!!!
Love you
Love Mom

Sometimes I win andsometimes I lose!

I have heard lately to pray each morning to know who I can serve today, so  did.  I went through the day and didn't think much more of it.  The tonight as I went to the store to get some bread and milk for lunches tomorrow I grabbed some bananas and apples and then I thought I should go visit Kris.  As I was getting ready to go to the door, the thought came to me take some food to her. I took the food and asked her what she was doing for work because she quit all of her jobs when her Mom had a knee operation and it took a month for her to recover enough for her to come home.  Kris spent time there taking care of her Dad.  She told me she didn't have work now but her mother just paid her electricity and she was going to have to go out and find a job.  I worry about what she will do so I did listen to that today.
I blew last week though when I stayed with B. Walser so his wife Suzie could go to church.  she told me that she had a flood and she used every towel to clean it up. the thought came tome that I should go help her with it on Monday.  She doesn't like help and it is hard to do it in the right way so she will let you.  I didn't follow that thought and I found out to night what a hard job that was for her to get that done.  She used every towel and then threw them in the wash.  I wish I had followed through witht he thought and helped her. 

The Lord can work through me

There are times when I am just an air head.  I have worried about it and been frustrated with it but I'm not sure what to do about it.  For our last Rs activity I forgot half the things I was suppose to do.  I don't know why but it did turn out all right and I was thankful that the Lord was in charge.  I so appreciate him taking over my life and stepping in when I fall so short!!!
This week I had a food order that I needed to get for Rhiannon.  She is a member but has not been brought up in the church and really doesn't know much about the church.  Bisho asked me to do a food order for her and then because she had school and stuff that she had to go too I pick up her stuff and I almost forgot, then I missed part of it in my truck andfound it a day later and had to run it to her.  AmI an airhead or what!!!!

LIFE! :)

Sometimes it's like life is going GREAT!!. . . and then you wake up and realize, This is real life?! WHAT?! Since when?! I was just barely playing catch on the hill with my twin that I absolutely love (Ben)! He is on a mission in Portugal now?! Oh and P.S. Diana will be married to the love of her life in less than 23 hours!
Since when did all this happen?! I guess the list can go on an on of crazy things happening!--I'll spare you all the whole long list! Life is funny how it just kinda throws you little twists and turns and you look back and think, "Why in the world was I put in that situation. . . and exactly WHAT did I learn from it?!" haha Some are good and some are. . . blessings in disguise! Those blessings in disguise list could go on too--one I'm still trying to figure out how it benefitted me and  WHAT I learned from it I still question in the back of my mind, was that one date with that one boy (PS funny how situations like that always relate to boys huh!)  where he told me he could feel everyone's emotions. . . oh and by the way. . . can see spirits!! HAHA AHHHH alright!! That's where you take me home and I crawl in a hole and hide from you the rest of my life! ;) but It makes for a good story!
I guess all this really boils down to is not taking the little things for granted! Cuz one day you wake up and realize. . . Oh ya! What was I thinking?! That little thing I didn't take time to appreciate or got super annoying all the sudden you missed it and kinda lost your chance to take back all the time you could have had to enjoy the moment!--YEP! I miss my twin brother BENL!! haha I keep thinking hooray I can see him tomorrow and we can dance at her reception. . . Oh. . . JK I guess we'll just send him pictures and miss him like crazy cuz he won't be there!

It's hard being a Mom

Dear Hannah,                                                   Feb. 11 2014

Being a Mom is one of the most rewarding, and  by far the hardest job that I do.  I worry I pray and I study and I try to spend time with my children. I know that I don't do the best job but I know that I have special help.  I have been blessed with wonderful children. So in writing this, I have to go back to me being a missionary and how I felt which I will bet is how you feel some days.  I remember a time for quite a while after I got out there that I wished I had a good reason to go home. I was homesick but I knew I couldn't go home without a reason.  As I left for my mission my Dad said to me “whatever you do don't come home early”.  I remember being offended... but now I'm thankful that he said that. Hannah, don't come home early!!!!    You were the one that told me that a mission was right for you.  There have been many times in the past that I have been a nag!  I know this is true but I also believe that they were times when I believe that the Lord saved you.  I know there were times when he saved me and I know the same is true for all of us. 

Hannah being on a mission is not easy. You write and I can tell you are homesick!  Well that is part of life.  The best way to not be homesick is just not to let your mind dwell us... or like Matthew said, “Don’t think about us. Hannah you need to get so busy in the work that it becomes a part of you. I don't care what you do just serve, love, work, and pray!!!  It's the small and simple things that make a difference.  It's the little things like going the extra mile!!! It's the little things like prayer, smiling at someone, putting a little more into it rather than just being the normal.  It is kind of like what your Dad has always said, It is crowded at the bottom but there is plenty of room at the top. Most people don't want to make the little extra effort to be at the top.  It is easier to stay at the bottom.  Hannah I need you to make that effort.   I was reading my scriptures this morning and I read some scriptures that made me think of you so I will try to put them the way I saw them as I read..

3 And thus we see that the commandments of God must be fulfilled. And if it so be that the children of men keep the commandments of God he doth nourish them, and ^astrengthen them, and provide means whereby they can accomplish the thing which he has commanded them; wherefore, he did ^bprovide means for Hannah while she did sojourn from Manti Ut .

 4 And she was called to sojourn for the space of 18 months, yea, even 78.25 weeks in the Chicago Ill. Mission.

 5 And She did come to the land which we called ^{Chicago Illinois}, because of its much fruit and also wild honey; and all these things were prepared of the Lord that she might not perish. And she beheld the sea, which was called lake Michigan which, being interpreted, is many waters.

 6 And it came to pass that she did find an apartment by the seashore; and notwithstanding she had suffered many ^aafflictions and much difficulty, yea, even so much that we cannot write them all, we were exceedingly rejoiced when we came to the seashore; and we called the place Libertyville, because of its much fruit.

 7 And it came to pass that after I, Hannah, had been in the land of Libertyville for the space of many days, the voice of the Lord came unto me, saying: ^aArise, and get thee into the mountain. And it came to pass that I arose and went up into the mountain, and cried unto the Lord.

 8 And it came to pass that the Lord spake unto me, saying: Thou shalt ^{be a missionary and shalt teach these people} , after the ^bmanner which I shall show thee, which is the new teaching method found in PMG that I may carry these people through the afflictions which shall come up on them.

 9 And she said: Lord, whither shall I go that I  may find the small and simple things , that I may use ^atools to bring souls unto Thee after the manner which thou hast shown unto me?

 10 And it came to pass that the Lord told her whither she should go to find PMG, that she might use tools.

 11 And it came to pass that  Hannah, did use  small and simple things that she might be a mighty missionary, yea that she would make prayer, fasting, scripture study, service and many things that she might be an example unto those whom she should come into contact with.

 13 And Christ  will also be your ^alight in the wilderness; and He will prepare the way before you, if it so be that ye shall keep His commandments; wherefore, inasmuch as ye shall keep my commandments ye shall be led towards the ^bpromised land; or the Celestial Kingdom and ye shall ^cknow that it is by me that ye are led.

 14 Yea, and the Lord said also that: After ye have arrived in the land of your mission, ye shall ^aknow that I, the Lord, am ^bGod; and that I, the Lord, did ^cdeliver you from destruction; yea, that I did bring you out of the land of Manti Ut.

 15 Wherefore, I, Nephi, did strive to keep the ^acommandments of the Lord, and I did ^bexhort my brethren to faithfulness and diligence.

Hannah

Please be the best you can be. I'm so proud of you and I love you so much,  I pray for your happiness and I know that out there you can find it. 

I'm sending this little package, prayers are coming your way.  You will be blessed!!  You can do hard things and Life is so wonderful.  The church is true and the most important thing we can do.  I love you.  Remember who you are and your Purpose.  You chose to be there so make the best of it!!

I love you!!!!   Love Mom