cadangan bodoh matyo

last nite after came back fron giant, i'm having a period pain.. the problem is i forgot to buy kotex.. then told to hubby and surprisingly he come out with veery2 stupid idea..ala pki pampers ayif je la dulu...esok org beli...WTH....aku tgk blk kt dia kot dia melawak..tp muka serius je duk dodoi kn ayif... pastu pusing kt aku..sengeh...

"dun wori la org x bgtau ayif py ibu dia pinjam pampers dia...ala sama je pad tu mcm pampers ayif..modified skit la..."

kali ni mmg nk kene la..

dah masuk rumah baru

pejam celik pejam celik dh 4 minggu smpi malaysia. best gila duk rumah. makan macam2. mama pun bising sekejap je masa br2 hbs pantang. sekarang dh x bising dah, nk beli teh ais pn dia x sound dah. yo pun dah start keje balik. the 1st 3 weeks tu dia ddk kat jb sorang2. settlekan urusan kat rumah baru. x buat apa pun just pasang grill, kipas n lampu. tu pn kipas ngan lampu kat bilik atas ad yg x pasang lagi.

dah 3 malam tido kat rumah baru yg serba kekurangan ni. papa raiff just beli set blk tidur dkt bilik bwh je. so ktrg mmg lepak kt bawah je la. rumah org lain siap renovate bagai. ad jg terfikir nk pasang kitchen kabinet tp since we all x kan stay sini lama so lupakan je hasrat tu. plus kalu alang2 nk buat mst nk yg bagus tp ongkos pn besar la..x mampu lagi la buat masa ni...

yeye nk balik dah

finally no more count down.will back 2moro. yo has packed everything last nite..laki aku juga lg buat keje...ye la time tu raiff nk susu..so aku jd mandur je..ambik ni..ambik tu..lipat ni..huhu

1 small bag fulled with chocholate n souveniers to my family..hehe..hr ni yo buat house cleaning..bersihkan dapur n do some laundry as well...dia dh x sbr2 ltk kn jawatan sbgi househusband slm 6 bulan...hehe..merdeka sayang!!!!

47kg please...

seriously i hate this feeling...i had bought jeans during my pregnancy n thought will be wear it after giving birth..all of them come in different size...1 exactly my actual size (meaning my size b4 got pregnant), another 2 i add extra 1 n 2 size bigger than usual..and damn i try all of them 2day n none are fit to me...bencinya...but still lucky coz all those jeans only coz 2 pound each..kalu convert to RM pn br around rm12...ms tu outlet tu buat sale gila babi...so ktrg pn rembat je apa yg ad dpn mata..kalu levis buat cam tu mau aku rembat seguni blk jual kt msia..

i know it's not the rite time for me to think on diet thingy as i'm breastfeeding raiff now..but still can't get out my mind from all those stupid thing...the worst i just bought a new jeans last weekend and the same thing happened..even aku dh up 2 size extra ok..n bangang ke tak even dh try pn kt fitting room n x bleh nk butang aku still ckp kt yo aku nk beli gak...padahal bleh je ambik size lain kan..but juz bcoz i can't face the fact that i have to wear the bigger size so end up buat pembaziran...motif???bodoh=ngada=perasan slim...

tp kt sini sgt sejuk..so bl sejuk kt akan jadi sgt lapar..so forget about diet ok...pegi makan..xpe aku dh ad anak 1..at least...

unregistered simcard

eee nyampah btul..ni sume yo py pasal..x topup sim aku..dia active kan yg dia je...kn dh x bleh guna..actually bp lama br celcom suspend or maybe terminate your account ek? rasanya br 2 bulan yo lupa nk topup. time nk blk ni la buat hal

hopefully still can get that number back..bleh kan..nnt nk try call celcom...mslh tu..all the official thingy aku registered under that number..plus dh guna number tu almost 6 years...

tolong ambik lemak di perut + bontot ku

finally settle raiff py passsport last friday. had already add on his flight tisket as well..yeye raiff dh bleh blk jumpa opah n tokwan. for the first time we went to london to register n get his birth certificate + passport. Arrived london at 10am. Took about 3 n half hours to be there even the actual distance is only 200km. We were the only one who intend to register the baby as others were the chinese peoples who want to extend their visa/renew passport,..but still we have to wait untill 3.30pm for collection. But after talking with their staff we managed to get raiff's passport much more earlier at 1pm...so straight away blah dr situ..next time bl raiff dh besar skit ibu ngan papa bw jalan2 kt london ye...

otw back stop jap kt junc 28..designer outlet...shopping skit..kunun nk cr baju la sbb dh lama sgt x bershopping..bought 3 shirt..and blame to myself coz x try dulu..think that all those shirts fit to my body..the worst i thought maybe longgar skit..but damn smpi rumah je try ad je x kene..ad yg ketat kat perut n bontot n the other one sendat mandat plak..kalu dulu akku x misah bj tu sendat pn tp ni dh buncit tu..buruk oii pki bj ketat perut buncit...misi berdiet lps ni..x kira apa nk jadi pn kene kurus blk especially fokus utama kt lower part...tp yg plg menyampah bl yo keep saying muka aku dh besar...ishh..x suka...

can't wait to go back..but...

another 16 days to go..dh x thn nnk duk kt sini..sejuk mcm haram..serius ktorg x tahan gila. risau jg tkt raiff pn x thn, tp so far dia mcm ok je..juz imagine the temp can be as low as 0 degree. even kalu psg heater dlm rumah pn mcm x membantu sgt. nk pasang heater 24 hours mmg bleh bankrup la coz bil gas sini mahal. dh x tau nk pki bj bape lapis. dulu kalu kt msia panas skit bising bagai..tp at least psg aircond settle mslh.huhu..

actually ms blk nnt aku x hbs pantang lg..tp dh 38 hari kut time tu so consider ok la kut. sampai je msia nk mkn western food..hr tu b4 fly punya la bangang x sentuh langsung western food. kata nk dtg tpt mat saleh. ambik ko smpi sini hr2 telan nasi. hoho...

satu je benda yg sedih..mkn cpt aku nk ms ni berlalu..so that mkn cepat la bleh blk kampung..meaning mkn cepat la aku nk kene tgl kat sini sorang2 for about 4 months. nnt bl nk blk nottingham semula on next february, yo n baby x ikut. baby maybe tgl ngan mama dulu n yo sambung keje blk for only 6 months. meaning till june. x tau camne nk hidup kt sini sorang2. dlm hati kalu bleh biar la yo berubah hati..x pyh la smbg keje..dtg la sini blk sama2...kt besarkan raiff sama2. x sanggup nk berpisah dn diorg. tp x terluah dkt dia coz tu je yg dia minta...yo minta aku korban 4 bulan je..dia korban lagi lama..nnt lps june dia trs resign n dtg bw baby. kalu dpt loan/scholarship from MARA yo nk smbg master on sep next year.smlm dh dpt results ielts dia. Alhamdulillah pass even x prepare pn..at first dia x nnk ambik kt sini..nk ambik kt msia sbb tgk requirement tk buat Msc in mechanical kene band 7. cam tinggi plak coz even nk buat phd in civil juz 6.5....tp sempat la dia buat ayat keji kat aku..kununnya civil kacang...

whatever pn aku hrp yg terbaik je tk ktrg..kalu perpisahan tu nnt yg terbaik..harap tuhan kuatkan je la semangat aku tuk hadapinya....

yo masak = BATUK!!

My hubby tgh msk ayam msk merah. yup that's for him...for me as usual ikan bkr/ikan bilis...tp bau dia punya la skt hidung..raiff pn batuk..trs bawalari raiff pg depan coz x thn sangat..actually x la skt sgt hidung tp sangat la sakit perut ni..xpecially kt bhgn luka jahitan tu bila terbatuk2..hukhuk...ni dh nk msk minggu ke4 tp still rs skt lg kt perut..luka kt luar tu dh kering...tp rsnya kt dalam belum lagi..ms nk jalan xde mslh..tp kalu dh baring then nk bgn blk ad rs sikit pedih n tegang dkt bhhgn kiri perut..betul la org kt ms bedah mmg x sakit..tp nk sembuh tu mkn masa btl..kalu bersalin normal confirm dh sihat skrg...

25 days to go...

instead of going back on 13/12, hubby amends the flight ticket to 26/11...meaning we will arrive at Msia on 27/11 which is on raya haji..and abah agree to arrange Raiff's qiqah either on Saturday or Sunday..But i think Sunday should be ok as we need some space and enough rest on Saturday...so another 25 days to go..can't wait till that day..will bring back Raiff to Malaysia..really hope everything goes well...have to settle Raiff's passport on 12/11 at London...reschedule all the medical appointment for raiff and of course have to finish up sample preparation procedures as soon as possible..then have to discuss it with Dr.Dariusz before taking a long break...

breastfeeding

my nipples was sore...i'm not realised it till the midwives told me that i need to put some nipple's cream on it. i thought it is normal to feel painful while breastfeed raif. last couple of days it became worst as my left nipple get bleeding. luckily raif nrstot suck it as that time i was pump my milk into the bottle..kalu x jadi raja bersiung anak aku....

hubby straight away go n buy a breastpump...manual.. as he said the electric stuff is quite expensive..so he asked me to try the manual first. if it is not working than we change..

first time when i saw the blood coming out from my breast i juz think to stop breastfeed my baby. but i start to think back when noticed there's a lot of advantages of breastfeeding to baby and me. mum's milk contains all the nutrients your baby need for growth and development. plus your baby is less likely to develop diarrhoea or constipation...and is always ready + it cost nothing.. except you will feel tired (for me).. the best part to all mums breastfeed help you to return your body to normal after birth...and that's what i'm looking forward.

welcome 2 d' world my baby..

sayang ibu n papa...LUTH RAIFF BIN HASRUN IZRA

alhamdulillah dh selamat bersalin.. baby selamat dilahirkan pkl 5.58pm (19/10/09)...x sangka sangat2 dpt tgk baby 3 wiks earlier..tu pun sbb yo paksa call je midwife pagi isnin tu..actually dh mula rasa sakit2 hr sabtu lagi..tp igt normal la..but then on sunday lg mcm teruk..every 5 minutes rasa sakit...sakit tu x la painful sangat..mcm period pain je..but the worst every time sakit mst kuar air..time tu x tau pun tu sbnrnya air ketuban..so abaikan je...mlm tu langsung x bleh tido..then pagi2 ckp dkt yo baby mcm x active..tp still pagi tu pg school lagi..siap jmp supervisor .tghari tu br call midwife tuk buat appointment..explain py la pnjg berjela dkt dia ..every details dia nak..air warna apa..sakit rs camne..tertekan gak ms tu...tkt x dpt buat maternity assessment kali diaorg x bleh yakinkan diorg...dlm pkl 1pm ktrg pg QMC hosp tuk buat check up..

surprisingly bila doktor dtg check dia kt baby sonsang..last time ms check ngan midwife every things ok..perfect..kepala baby dh dkt bwh...then ok lagi coz dr kt maybe still ad ms tuk baby turn around coz still ad 3 wiks b4 due..but then dia seluk kt serviks dh buka 2-3cm n air ketuban dh leaking..baby pn mcm dh x active...no choice kene operate by today coz tkt ad infection kt baby..ms tu dh mula nk nangis..cengeng btl..tkt tu dh la x ready langsung...yo duk pujuk kata x pe bedah x sakit...mmg x sakit..tp lps bedah tu kalu xmkn pain killer mmg sakit...

pengalaman bersalin kt sini mcm indah2 belaka..hehe..x de kene marah ngan midwife langsung..layanan mmg tip top..mmg respect cr diorg...communication skills mmg power..psikologi gila..buat kt relax n x stress langsung...mengada2 cam mana pun diorg layan je..dlm hati x tau la kan...

raiff with midwife..minum susu dlm cup coz time ni ibu x pndi breastfeed lagi...

raiff with ibu...

raiff with papa....thanx a lot papa...papa jg raiff n ibu baik2 ye...

story raya saya...

nothing interesting..juz wake up early morning and start preparing the food..mlm tu dh siap msk rendang n daging blck pepper (yg ni lupa nk hidangkan kat tetamu..)..so at 6.00am being such the buziieeest super woman at the kitchen...juz made kuah lodeh + rebus nasi impit + lemang segera + kuah kacang and put all the cookies made from msia in bekas kuih bought from ikea...that's all...oooo forgot we called my family at 1.00am as that time msia already 8.00am...n they juz ready to perform solat raya...spent about 15 minutes talking with abah..mama..anis..along n paksu....so sad expecially ms tgh ckp tu dgr takbir raya kt tv...air mata dh leleh..tp diorg x nmpk la kan...

then about 9.00am hubby went to Notts Islamia School where all the malaysian in notts having solat raya..n i'm no there as i thought org pompuan x pegi..and i'm totally wrong when knowing that almost every family were there...haha...maybe next year...

then straight away went to kak ani's house n followed by kak wati's house.. then blk rumah tgu tetamu....

this year no sedondon dondon..anak jantan bapak aku x mau pki kaler merah sbb diorg dh ad bj melayu kaler tu..then anak dara mak aku plak insist nk kaler merah...so ktrg dgn rela hati menerima je apa yg diorg bagi...tp next year kt pki pink ye matyo...x hilang la kejantanan seorang lelaki kalu pki pink...

ni anak2 kak ani aka matyo's frenz...matyo kalu seminggu x pg main dgn bdk2 ni x sah..mula la pura2 nk beli kuih dkt kak ani bagai..padahal bkn dia mkn sgt pun...

awat mulut saya senget????

dayah n kak riza dtg beraya....we prepared nasi tomato..first time ni..actually requested from hubby as his besday present..he said no hadiah2 dis year..juz make him something that i never cook yet...kek pn dia x nk...

tooo many open hall kat sini..normally malaysian kat sini ad klik msg2..so diorang end up buat open hall 2gether...plus rumah kat sini pn kecil..so kalu nk jemput ramai2 mmg x muat la...

that's all... ni pun nk pg mandi dulu...nk pg leicester..rumah kak fara...beraya di sana pula...

SALAM AIDILFITRI

Esok dh last pose...tahun ni igt bleh pose hbs tp semalam dh terbabas sbb pedih perut..so x nk paksa2 tkt effect kt baby...insyallah hr ni n esok bleh pose....dpt email dr along bgtau sume adik2 dh sampai rumah..paksu smpi pg sabtu coz nk dpt diskaun 20% tol...along kt x meriah la raya thn ni coz aku n yo x de..tp diorg x tau aku lagi rasa x meriah sbb diorg sume x de.....tp nape nk sedih?? sendiri yg pilih jalan hidup mcm ni..ni cuma 1 dugaan kecil je...

td buka la lagu raya..tp x sampai 5 minit dh tutup..mcm x bleh dgr plak..sayu je rasa hati..setiap tahun salam tgn mak ayah pagi raya..tp thn ni salam tangan laki je.....jap lagi blk rumah pun x tau nk buat apa..nk pasang langsir?..kemas rumah?...pasang lampu lip lap?..x perlu la kut..plus ad ke yg nk dtg rumah aku?...dkt sini sambut raya seadanya je..ni pun insyallah raya jatuh time wiken, kalu time keje alamatnya lps pg solat raya trs pg school...

insyallah meriah x meriah pun esok nk pg beli daging+ayam..pastu bekas bubuh kuih..pagi raya tu tetap nk msk kuah lodeh, kuah kacang, rebus nasi impit n lemang segera...maybe mkn lemang dgn daging black pepper kut...rendang ayam buat lmbt skit...baju raya br nk basuh ni..thn ni ktrg x sedondon..mama buat baju melayu yo warna kuning..aku punya warna merah sbb nk cover gemuk...haha....

duit raya dekat mama dh setel..dkt abah ktrg bagi 2k kununnya duit hutang..tp trs abah call (first time ni dia call) bgtau jgn duk kalut pasal duit hutang..abah x nak...dia kata dia nk ktrg hidup senang je dkt sini...huh trs rasa terharu..punya la besar pengorbanan mak ayah..patutnya aku yg kene bagi kesenangan dkt diorg tp smpi hr ni duk menyusahkan org tua tu je...pagi raya nnt nk tepon je family kt kampung..x nk web cam bagai..takut ternangis malu la.....

'Dari jauh ety nk pohon ampun dan maaf dekat mama dan abah atas segala tingkah laku yang menyakitkan hati (even confirm diorg x baca blog aku..)..

my besday (15/09/2009)

hepi besday to u...hepi besday to u..hepi besday to usuk...hepi besday to u...hehe my hubby was the first one wish my 27th besday.. of course la...n my mum was the last person...i mean till this moment la..ok lor better late than never...and none of my siblings done it...mmg patut aku x bg duit raya pun..haha...yo bought me a very2 delicious cheesecake...thank god at last we managed to find halal cheesecake shop at wallaton...

GIFT???? no la..my hubby is unemployed rite now...so don't ever2 thought about that...tp dia kt consider la handbag coach that he paid last month as a besday present..ok lar...hr tu ad la gak hint2 kat dia suruh beli bunga coz dkt sini bunga sgt la murah..mcm nk beli pen je..tp again i hv to admit that my hubby is not that type of guy...dia x pandai nk beli2 bunga ni..tp untung la aku pn bkn jenis minah bunga...and fyi since we all couple untill today dia always failed kalu bab nk surprise hadiah besday aku..sekali je aku x tau ms first year couple dulu dia bg rantai..lps2 tu hampeh sume aku dh tau...siap ad yg pg beli sama2 plak tu..and again dis year aku x tau coz xde hadiah..haha...

today we just received a gud news from hubby's colleague said that he got a bonus too..but slightly lowered than others as they calculated his portion up to May...coz he takes unpaid leave from may to this coming december....alhamdulillah...so this friday will go to the city and shopping...wanna buy compact powder...yehaa...



break fast at ahmed restaurant..we have a buffet there..don't have too much choices as they only served beriyani and some sort of kebab....not like typical buffet at msia...

yo tgh survey2 makanan yg x seberapa..but still worth it with only 7 pound per head...


me enjoyed the chicken beriyani

struggling to finish the cake....

AGAIN HEPI BESDAY TO ME..I'M A BIG2 WOMAN NOW....WILL BE A GREAT MUM IN FUTURE..INSYALLAH....

bonus???

dh confirm x de bonus thn ni..tp nasib baik ktrg kat sini so no budget for hari raya at all...tp hubby py bonus dis year masyuk...if....dia x ambik unpaid leave la as his appraisal for this year entitled him to get bonus + 2 month extra from others...coz he did well in his job through out dis year...but as a gud daughter i still give my mum 4rat as duit bantuan..ahaks..sejuk perut mak aku..abah maybe up skit..nk bagi 1k (duit hutang sbnrnya)..tp kunun2 nya duit raya..

this is the risk we as a gov servant have to face...everything depends on the current economic...and as reported everywhere gov has not enough budget to allocate us with juz a small portion of extra money...since dh 3 years aku keje br 2 kali merasa bonus..tu pn ms 2006 dpt ciput je coz br service less than 3 months..2007 no bonus..last year la btl2 rs bonus..tu pn suka bkn main pd hal dpt sebulan gaji je..half2 plak tu...time tu matyo dgn riaknya ckp duit bonus aku tu lekat celah gigi je...

hr ni gaji msk...jap lagi duit aku pun keluar la..emmm elaun kpt n utm bila plak nk msk ek?

ketukan abang posmen di pagi hari

pagi2 dh ad org ketuk pintu...kuat gila ok...at first i just ignored it..but then hubby insist me to check what happen..i checked through the window (kene check dulu tkt abg tabligh yg ketuk pintu) and saw abg posmen from downstair. he showed me a parcel then just blah after left my stuff outside the door. i asked hubby to take it and straight away bring to the upstairs. apa isinya...huhu...the thing that i'm waiting this whole week....

product from US

huhu...i know...big smile...

taraaa...my first coach handbag....

First of all, thanks to my hubby stlh bersusah payah aku memujuk n stlh kecewa bila x dpt beli handbag coach from farina coz toooo hard to get a permission from him....luckily i got an email from someone here told me that her frnz from US can take an order for this item....straight away email dia n copy the design from farina's blog..hehe..asking her to find the same design if possible...and she managed to get it with the same budget...thanks ita...

menu anak rantau

ini lah juadah berbuka kami laki bini last 2 days....tomyam made by my hubby..tu pn guna kiub tomyam yg just arrived from msia...sambal belacan also hubby yg buat...belacan hasil belas kasihan dari dayah..also from msia...udang msk merah specially cooked by me...and last but not least kuih kasturi/kacang ...of course la i yg buat...first time oo buat kuih ni....lebihan bubur kacang hijau the day b4....nk buang sayang so dgn kebijaksanaan ku ini maka terhasillah kuih kacang yg plg enak di muka bumi notts....not 2 forget kurma n mempelam...simple yet delicious..swear beb...

mempelam bought from kdi atuk

sambal belacan + timun....pembuka selera

udang msk merah

tomyam ayam

the best kuih kasturi

menu berbuka???

i know what 2 eat..but dunno how to cook...everyday when hubby asked what i'm gonna cook for break-fast..i just said whatever we have in the fridge...dammit..sian 'my sayang...' lg sian bila dia ty nk mkn kuih apa..then he type something on myresipi.com and showed it to me...tup tup i said i dunno how to do or we don't have the ingredients...that's why i felt very hepi when i got an invitation for break-fast from msian here...so that at least my hubby can eat some msian food...how i wish to fly away to msia...go to param and just buy whatever you want.

but luckily...hubby always helps me to prepare the menu..and normally he is the most busiest person in the kitchen...maybe today or 2moro he will make ayam percik..and my job is to make kuih lopes...

upss forgot..we will come back to msia this coming december by airasia. .13/12...just bought the ticket...can't wait!!!! and bring back our son..insyallah...x sabar nk minum teh ais mail kokdiang...ikan bakar tasik raban..kfc..mcd....putu buluh..uhhh many more...

my frenz wedding

3 of them (ira, rina, & chel) married on the same day (29/5/09) at different location.. and i not attend even one of their wedding...why??? because i'm already here...at least i got a reason...imagine la kalu aku still x fly lg time tu mau pening nk decide which one should i go...All of them are my close frnz..knowing rina since MRSM Gerik, ira since utmkl (became my rumet almost 3 years), and chel (officially became close during master's study)... And they choosed to marry on the same day...huh...But seriously i felt sad + guilty to them...especially to ira la....never thought that i can't be with her during her big day....To all of u soooo sori...

Here are some pics on their big222 day...

Maarof to ira

ira to maarof

lovely....



pelamin idaman ira...

at keri's side

sweet couple..rina n keri

perfect....

chel n rie

again...

gorgeous....

wish all of u a hepi ending story...berbahagia la mcm daku..ahaks...

lazy day

very lazy orr 2 day...juz manage to write up only 3 pages since morning..very bad in describing..elaborate...understand all those journals...plus very shock to hear that maybe 2moro we will start fasting...omg i thought saturday ooo as i had print the ramadhan schedule for nottingham community stated that the 1st ramadhan is this saturday not tomoro...suddenly je jadi malas nk sambung keje..

Just looking at old pics in my pc..all the memories happened in mrsm gerik..looking at all innocent and naughty faces...haha...tudung sepesen je sume...nk nmpk x skima skit x kelepek tudung.. then t-shirt kemain besarnya...the worst during form 1..huduh..wafa with the big glasses...huda huh x sanggup nk explain...rina not much different...me maintain je...ahaks matyo sooo ketot...

there were pics taken at tangki air dkt blkg blk huda n farah (oppps farah u should not looking at those pics...buat malu farisya je..)...cubaan tuk mengintai sang teruna dkt tangki blkg bilik aku ngan noorul kan..
if i'm not mistaken form 3 br ad kan tangki tu..imagine la how hard our life bila air xde..signal dia letrik x de je then everybody run to the toilet simpan air dlm baldi..baldi pn x igt mst lbh 1 punya plus big size..bilik tun+teh+syairah+syaf ad tong besar....hehe..selamat la air korang tu aku curi..selalu plak tu..ampun..minta dihalalka...then mandi sungai almost every weeks..tp best kan x pyh prep kalu x de letrik..tu yg x bijak2 ni..huh now i know the reason why i so bengong that time...HAHA...

another story kalu assembly kita nyanyi monyet kat hutan pun nyanyi sama kan..one more rama2 n kumbang besar kan...remember huda when u n noorul being scolded with cikgu zaharah time seni..kunun pg toilet...then gave a very stupid reason..looking at big butterfly..luckily i'm not sooo naughty like you cik huda..on that day la...one more..one more...still remember how we (me+yeen+huda+noorul+gabra) have to yell at dewan selera all bcoz of ustaz rahim..end up x lunch kita hr tu..yg sakit hati lg kak ana bleh siap perli plak ms mkn petang...

To bed, i dedicated this funny story when your head at guy's side and ur body at gurl's side time kat surau..hahahaha...sian bed..ni pun angkara ustaz rahim...but don't wori bed..wafa experienced it too but in different version..dia lg tragis siap kene halau kuar surau..haha..at least u re not too bad BED..

A lot of story to share..but if i revealed everything nmpk sgt nakal nya..so just keep the rest and save it permanently into my head n my heart...anyway that is the place that teach me about friendship...and lovee...(there i found my soulmate..mcm x caye..kalu aku tau jodoh aku kat situ mau lumat matyo aku kejekan...berani bercintan cintun dgn org lain)..

i love mrsm gerik of course la aku kn anak jati gerik...kalu lalu je kat depan maktab mst senyum sorang...skry maktab dh lain..a lot of changes...budak2 skrg dh x nakal mcm kita(ustaz rahim cakap la)..diorg dh x susah2 mandi kat sungai..but anyhow we should proud of ourself la..we managed to go through all the hard time with laughter and cheerful...all those thing yg buat kita semua sayang dkt maktab kan...plus i beleived not even one of us regret their moments in mrsmgerik...suddenly br teringat we have lost 2 frnz..arwah matjo n jem...al-fatihah...later nk upload la pic zaman dulu kala ni...skrg x sempat...

my journey

while waiting my husband for scanning appointment at QMC hospital, suddenly i wonder why i'm here? How come i choose to be an academician as i thought i'm not born to be a learner. If i thought about my childhood or during my school time.. the only thing in my mind was play..play..n play...I'm not an ambitious person who always dream to be the best but i still do put some bench mark in my life..But again i'm prefer go with the wind...

During my primary school, i was active in sports. I realized that i'm a fast learner when came to sport matters but not in academic. I am much happier if being awarded as the best co-curriculum student than academic. That's my aimed n i got it. But what made me extremely happy was i also got 4A's in UPSR even though i'm not among the target students. But some of my teacher quite shocked laa coz there were some students who kununnya more brilliant than me don't get 4A's..what the hell buat muka terkejut beruk...i'm still among top 10 in school....Then some rumours said that my UPSR result cukup2 makan je...kira nasib la..that's why i don't get any offer from boarding school except from MRSM..whatever..

Surrounded with many good students in MRSM Gerik didn't make me worried at all. I was in my own world. Never thought about study too much. I didn't put a great effort to compete with others. But still got the aimed lorr...at least i will not be in the last class and still can proceed to MRSM during form 4..Luckily i'm not in the last class but in 2nd last class...haha...ok what..n with 6A's 2B in PMR i still can entered MRSMBP..See how not ambitious i am...I realized that i started to put a little attention in my academic in BP. But still not too much laa coz my aimed only wanted to go to any university in Malaysia. I got 13 aggregate (5A's, 3B n 1 C)for my SPM's result and got the offered to do a Diploma in Civil Engineering at UTM. I'm happy with the offer but when my mom said..'diploma je...hangin la gua...She said along yg x penah msk boarding school pn straight away buat degree..Besides some of my friends who got result slightly lowered than me pun still got the opportunity to do a degree...doesn't matter what courses they took...Plus diploma holders don't have a big chances to further in degree level (mentioned about UTM) as UTM only allocate small places for us depends on the kuota. Starting from that i realized that i start berjinak2 pg library..do all the tutorial,,stay up (which i never concern pn ms nk ambik PMR dulu..At last i'm qualified to pursue my engineering knowledge in degree level. I can't beleived that i also can be as good as other people if i'm study...Huh x la bengap sangat rupanya..silap haribulan kalu aku study ms kat MRSM dulu dh top student kut..x la aku dapat SAP ms trial SPM...haha...

Now i'm doing a phd..thousand miles far away from my family..my friends...So my life now is only learn..learn..n learn.. That's make me wonder how come a person who only think about enjoy and play... turn to be someone who has to do a research, teaching n learning...But this will be my last stop. After this my priority is my family. Enough to make somebody else sacrifice on me..enough to let him put his dream aside...I will try my best and promise to support his future and his carrier..i'll always pray that he will be successful in his carrier one sweet day...perhaps...

Simple Doughnut

my donut wif small hole

I can't believed that i'm able to make a doughnut by my own..nobody helps me ok...oppss..forgot..might be my husband contributes a little effort but still consider it's my own work.. he just gave a guidance on what ingredients to be mix up together...thanks to myresipi.com for giving me a simple yet delicious doughnut recipes...To those housewife out there who never make their own cookies/cook just try your best...i promise you will felt a tremendous satisfaction while cooking and absolutely happy when somebody told that your food is delicious....in my case of course la my hubby...

next recipe in my list would be murtabak...just go through my friend's blog. she successfully made a murtabak also by looking at myresipi.com....look quite simple and i felt very inspired to try it 2moro...hopefully...have to buy kulit popia later...wonder why need to use kulit popia?? this is a simple version of murtabak..but i believe it's still works...

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LOYALTY...

i'm interested with tun's statement regarding on our responsible to build our lovely country..He emphasized on the migration of many professionals especially doctor and future doctors in abroad. He said that loyalty to the country was very important "if you want to build this country". It is part of our responsible to contribute our knowledge and expertise towards nation-building. They should realized that their achievements today was helped by country ( in terms of scholarship) to be whom they are today. Yes money might be the priority while considered the options. But for me if you really love your country..no matter how... you will come back and serve the country and people. Nobody can build our country except us..If others can see a golden oppurtunity of our country and hope to live in peaceful environment such ours..why we still can not appreciate it..It is not wrong to gain a knowledge abroad..but the main point is what you can steal n bring it back to ur country...

It was still fresh in my mind...the day i met a pakistanese and he said how he wished to have a country like malaysia..He said that we shoul be thankful to have the only best leader (he mentioned about Tun) in muslim's country even all over the world. Malaysia might not a rich country but we have more than anything...
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uk's hot weather

uk severe weather warnings have been issued..for the past 2 days i felt not comfortable living here just because of hot weather..yup it's summer right now but local people here told me that it is unusual hot temperature this year..If i'm not mistaken the temperature just approach 40degree celcius in london. Thus, probably nottingham would experience the same thing..mcm la malaysia x panaskan..yes i admit that i supposed could be familiar with the environment as i came from hot weather country... but the robust problem is my car doesn't equipt with aircond...we just got heater..plus even my house (most of the house in UK)don't install aircond and no fan...The worst things are all those stuff also not available in my office..so dgn rs mls nya msg hubby to pick up me right now n straight away go to starbucks...i need ice blended plz.....annnnnd to be surprised for the first time i saw my hubby wears his short (in uk)...

welcome to notts

strawbery picking....

Hari ni first time pg carboot (mcm petaling street kut kalu kt malaysia). Cuma dkt sini mostly individual yang jual brg2 terpakai diorg at reasonable price. still bleh tawar2 la. We all just bought rice cooker, keetle and ceramic storage canisters. The prices quite ok la since we all still x pndi nk menawar. Maybe later on br nk beli periuk n brg2 dapur yg lain. Ktorag still tmpg dkt rmh host so nk beli mcm2 pn nnt x tau nk ltk mana. Hopefully we can move to our own rental house ASAP. X best plak susahkan org lama2.

Yesterday dayah bawak ktorg jalan2 dkt notts city. not too big but nice to go. Surprisingly we can afford to buy branded stuff. The price is reasonable and affordable. This is a heaven of living abroad. But this statement doesn't resembles that i luv to stay here for a longer time. Even now i feel like want to going back to Malaysia right now. But like hubby told me... "we have to come here if we want to go back...we have no choice". This is the price that i have to pay for a better future.

The other main priority that we need to take into consideration is car. I talked to my husband and he agreed to find a used car immediately as i'm pregnant. So it will be much easier for us expecially to me if anything emergency occur. Ye la kalu dulu nk pg mana2 start je enjin kete...skrg hr2 naik bus..penat tu..mana nk bawak perut yg makin membesar ni lagi.

ok that's all 4 now... nnt bila rajin br upload pics.

PENGANGGUR

Yesterday my hubby was officially quit from his beloved job.... Yes, it's because of me. Just because he wants to be with me + our future baby. But definetely because of the baby. We have decided a few months ago (just before i'm proceed my application for pursuing phD at nottingham)... if i'm pregant he has to accompany me there. Alhamdulillah last march we received a good news that i was 2 months pregnant.

I did ask him..
"nyesal ke benti keje.."
"Sian dia korban tuk org..."
"x pe la bila org dh bersalin nnt, kalu ad org bleh jaga baby dia balik la...every 3 months dia dtg tgk org.."

But he said... "x nyesal pun..dh la x payah fikir..."
Of course i know deep inside he always hope that we will not going to UK. He loves his job very very much. Sometimes nop usually i don't have to wake up him every morning. Very excited kalu nk pg keje..Sometimes balik keje terus on laptop buat outside job (to get extra side income). As long as i remember, 14 years ago i thought my hubby was a terrible naughty boy (Yes he was..). He seems like don't even think about his future..Selalu ponteng kelas especially masa dkt balik pulau ..That's why his spm's result not so ok lor...Fortunately still can futher study at UTM...But today he is a hardworking + very responsible man. Thanks GOD for giving me the best partner. Hopefully he will be a good dad to our future kids as well.


TODAY HE SLEEPS ALMOST EVERY SINGLE TIME....never mind...he deserves to have a pleasure rest for a while...saya sayang kamu!!!

One Step 4ward

alhamdulillah at last dpt jg visa....benda yg kacau pala hotak aku lately ni...so let's pack everything...settlekan urusan dkt utm as well as kpt...kemas rumah....this weekend kene balik gerik n kelantan then probably next friday nite we will fly to UK. another strange place and we have to start a new life there...spend almost 3 years as wife+mummy 2 b+PhD student..how come time flies very quickly. rasa mcm br je nk selesa dgn kehidupan sekarang lps kawin then kene start bersusah2 semula...tp bukan ke semua kesenangan tu diiringi oleh dugaan...hopefully sgt ad hikmah yg terbaik in future especially to my hubby who alwayssss sacrifice for my happiness...