A Normal LIFE with a twist.

☻A Normal LIFE with a twist. ☻

2010.

Saturday, March 20, 2010 / 4:20 AM

Well, its me.. I am back i guess. 2 Months have passed and alot alot have happen.. really wonder what the hell have happen. I don't know how to put it. I give up in explaining things, in making things better and seriously making me or others happy. I'm just not that 'Putra-you-know" anymore i guess.. I mean, what am i suppose to do? People already think differently how things are now. That's why i don't bother :D

Simply, i would make my life better by achieving whatever comes into my mind! Hopefully none of it is bad.. Cause i'm sick and tired of explaining/doing things.

"If it is yours, NICE. If it is not, too bad."

Am i right or wrong? When i'm about to get it.. others intrude and spoil the freaking picture.. You know why? Cause they want it all to themselves.. What the hell! There goes my long last dream. Get over it Putra.. Maybe there's a second chance right :)

I love it unconsciously.

But my greatest mistake was to hurt it. Dumbass :P Why the hell i even do that for. Don't get me wrong. I'm not emo-ing here or what-so-ever. I'm just, what you call that, writing my thoughts out! Yeah! That's right!

Imagine you took care of it, you'll be there for it but I need to leave it for my reasons. I came back. And i leave again. Won't it be frustrated? But it tolerated me.. But not for long i guess. haiz.. But now in good terms with it.

It is my pet cat Blacky! :P Hehehe.

Well, people who read this may felt something.. But seriously I was only mentioning about one person only.. So, if you have the guts to ask. Feel free to do so :D I will answer honestly.

woosh,

mR.pUtZ

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KOREA!!!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009 / 5:52 PM

ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

I MISS KOREA!!!

Ok ok.. I won't be like telling you the whole 5 day story here.. Everything is explained by my photoz in FACEBOOK and if can't get enough of it.. go search the other 14 who went with me! They also alot alot photoz!

Let me tell you that i really really miss them.. LIKE HELL!! CAN DIE LIAO! How how? I also don't know. Let me just tell you all that.. I'm currently in lovesick with KOREA and the KOREAN BUDDIES.. ARHHH!!!

Ok ok.. I can't continue cause later i cry.. That's it from me!

Lovesick,

mR.pUtZ

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Facts

Wednesday, October 14, 2009 / 9:36 PM

Wednesday, October 14, 2009. The day before the last EOY Paper. And it must end with this stupid subject called Principles Of Account! Haiz.. Anyway, I just updated myself by reading the latest post by my best friends. Well, I thought about what you both said and have alot to say but obviously i won't say the full version here right -.-

So what we waiting for.. Let's get started!

Ok, wait.. I decided to write about what i'm thinking first. So, don't get me wrong especially him.

Thoughts in my head

Well, let me start by.. It's exam period. It's only this year that i really started to do intensive revision and studying. I know you guys want to go out and play soccer but this time i really want to study. I know you invited me to study but what's the result if i go study with you guys. I heard you guys didn't study and laugh almost all the way. I really need someone to push me to study even when i say "No more" or "I can't take it." And for your information, She's the only one I can really think of. And yes! Confirm + Guarantee Chop Chop! This time i really put others aside first for my studies. Don't get me wrong, it's not i don't want to hang out with you guys or anything but can't you wait till tomorrow after our LAST EOY PAPER! And my plan tomorrow is to go out with you guys and play soccer as i promised Syafiq. Don't worry, i'm not angry..

To Him

Aiyoyo.. Let's start with the phrase: "Get your facts right!" Well, i think from your point of view, you think and confidently know that i'm losing something one way or another. Well, that's right. You need to lose in other to gain. But nobody said you can't gain it back after you lose it. Am i right? Anyway, some of the facts you wrote/type in your post wasn't really that true. Of course people will talk about me one way or another. About balancing, it's exam period so i will not really balance it. You can't always make both parties happy you know.

About the friends part.. You got most of the facts wrong. To me that is. Well, i'm not blaming you for what you have written in your previous post but whatever it is.. Nevermind. Like i said earlier, i won't say the full 100% here. Don't worry, i'm not angry at you. Just watch your words.. It sometimes hurt people feelings..

Good luck for your results, i hope this BIG drama is not going to affect you that much. And honestly, i agree with you that during exams.. I think alot alot.. If you know what i mean.

To Her

I can't say it here. I think, it's better if i talk to you. I too have some things to talk about with you. For the time being, be strong alright. I know you're strong lady. Don't fall now.

To Both

If either one of you feel that i am closer to the other one and ignoring you.. Please don't get me wrong. It's not i want ignore you. It is as if i could get both of you together and talk like one big happy family again. Well, it is possible but you know and i know what's happening. So, what i'm doing now is.. going one by one alright. Don't worry.. You won't be left out. And i just need one favor from both of you which is Patience..

All the best to both of you :D

Not 100% complete,
mR.pUtZ

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Chapter 2

Saturday, October 3, 2009 / 8:33 PM

It's Saturday, October 3 2009, 8.30pm. I'm starting to blog again and read some too. It's been a very long time and a lot has been happening. Life has a way to twist things around. We were happy once and the next we're wishing to kill someone or yourself; depends on the situation. Well, I've learn that you can't control what's coming to you but you can control what you do after that. That's my mistake.

People make mistakes but what's the point if you don't learn from it. That's my mistake.

Let me emphasize on that mistake:

BIG MISTAKE

The way i see things now is that,
He's stuck at a dead end.
She's making a new road
and me, walking my own road.

She, he and I know that things won't be the same again. Agreed. Neither of us could have done to change the whole situation now. But what i see now is that, we can change the Chapter 2 of the story. I can say we all having problems right now. From the tiny little problem to the biggest of them all.

To him:
Blue is your favourite colour right? Hehe. Anyway, i know i'm not the best person to give advice now but why not give her another chance. Well, as much i'm the idiot who is stubborn.. But like the big upstairs said, i'm passive. Well, what goes around comes around right? People treat you good if you're good to them (well, i know it has not been working for you) Just maintain the cool alright. You're just at the wrong place at the wrong time. Not you're fault. Blame it on me. And stop saying you have a sad life! PEOPLE AT AFRICA HAVE A VERY VERY SAD LIFE! and plus if you keep saying that, of course you have a sad life. Every word you say is a prayer.. Move ON! The sun rises every morning even on rainy days!

To her:
Purple your favourite? or changed? Tell me alright :D Well, i got alot to tell you but i don't know if it will be as long as yours or longer than "To him" part. I know when you speak the truth, It hurts like hell. And you have a personal way of saying/writing that. Luckily you said it now then never. I can't imagine what would happen if you drag it and say it later; a full-scale war that never ends i guess. I admit i failed you and lost your trust twice. And this time i bet i can't even get to know even the tiny little secret. I don't want you to lock yourself down because you felt i betray or left you. Because one day you will meet a guy you love and live with him. Different guys have diffrent personalities. So, don't think they all are the same.

I'm not asking you to let me know you secrets but accept all of us again. Let's start over. Step by step. And about the malay guys. Sorry i have to disagree. Guys are guys. Leave the race out. I didnt know i made a great impact on you. Well, you have a way of hiding that. I shouldn't have just left you like that cause i thought you and he was already stable by then. Plus, when i was there among the three of us, he was like left out so i did pity him. Chapter 2 is coming after EOY. Now, just study smart and do well. It's also mainly my fault that everything happen. Same as to him, blame it on me. I would like to see all of us happily again. And don't get me wrong, You were always what i wish for a sister.

To me:
It's time i need to pick myself up and move on. Alot of things i need to catch up. I can't believe what had happen. What now is just to wait after EOY and Chapter 2 starts. I know my mistakes now and it cause a huge hole in someones life and causes another to be misreable.

I'm sorry as i made her never to trust again.
I'm sorry as i made him thinks he don't have anyone else.

I hope the old her will stay.
I hope he will be himself.

Neither one of you are in wrong, MY FAULT.

End of chapter 1
mR.pUtZ

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July 11 - August 8

Friday, August 7, 2009 / 10:24 PM

Even in rainy days, The Sun never fails to rise

Hello hello! I know I haven't been updating this few weeks. Sorry to disappoint you guys: Yanling (Counsellor) and Jun rui (Angelina's LOYAL Reader) Lols. Anyway, I'm updating now, today on National Day EVE!!! WOOHOO! Ok, whatever.

JULY

Let me start on the update after July 11 alright. Guess What! My class kena ISOLATED! Did i told you? It's like super duper triple FUN lah! Thankful that happen! NOW we are like much more bonded than last time. Well, in the mids of it, the term: "When you gain something, you lose something" comes in. I'm not really going to elaborate on that. But ya, that week was like CRAZY! Half the class was gone due to some flu or something. But lucky me and some other survivors, we are still standing :x

Plus, it was on the Common Test week! As much I hit some of my targets, i not really happy lerh. I want more better grades. Hehs. Need to study study study already. EYA is in two months time and topics are alot alot especially for POA... Haiz.. I think that sums everthing up for July.

AUGUST

WAH!! August the best!! For now i mean. Got selected for National Day Flag Raising Ceremony in school. NPCC send 6 cadets which was Joel, Jia Ji, Asyraf, Khaliesah, Delvin AND ME!!! Asyraf and me was supposed to be Parade Commander but must give NCC as 080808 parade was lead by NPCC. So left one main position was RSM (Regional Sargeant Major) which i gave Asyraf be as he never got any main roles. But Delvin, Khaliesah, Jia ji and me got the Flag bearers position! WEEE! Joel was our reserve. Don't worry Joel, got alot more better parades and positions to be in the future. We train 3 days straight as it was a last minute thing from 3 to 7pm! Tired lerh but worth it!

Friday, which was yesterday was the real thing. No cock ups really except for one little mistake. FIND OUT YOURSELF! I'm not going to tell you. Ok ok, Now lets jump back to 1st August which was a Saturday! I went to watch Fireworks with her. Super nice i tell you. Tomorrow we'll be going again. We going ask our friends out. So ya, prepare your cameras!!

OK let me sum everything up by just telling you guys that:
I GOT 4th ON PRSS ANNUAL CROSS COUNTRY!!
YAAAYYY!!
LOLs.

Ok lerh, i wasn't really going to say that for my ending but I hope you guys enjoy yourself during this long long weekends and have lots lots of FUN alright.
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!

I hope everything's calm by now..

Red & White,
mR.pUtZ

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