Adulthood

As I step into adulthood this year, I officially start to face uprising challenges in my everyday life.

I will not call them 'problems', nor I will label them.

21 is the new 12, as cliche as it sounds, to some.

I love my freedom now, as much as I love how unrestricted I was back years ago.

2010 was both a good and bad year for me. Losing a love one, gaining so much experience from Taiwan trip, and from Band Of Mischief.

Finding the love of my life and resting my back - letting dancing go for a little while (too long to be called a while). I miss Photography as well.

2011 -

Last March, Band Of Mischief's finally completed and wrapped.

Last April, found a freelance Assistant Director Job at the only TV Station in Singapore, began to gain as much experience as possible. Began Disciple Class.

Last May, I finally graduated from FSV after 3 years which fly by so quickly.

This June, thankful, I got to do a shoot over in Bintan (Club Med Bintan's full of nice and friendly G.Os who were utmost helpful and professional!), I miss the sand, the sea, and the whole atmosphere there! Missing all the friends I've made there.

I miss school, and I miss making something. It's like back in school, we got so many projects, a handful of shorts to make almost every week.

It feels weird to not think about anything creative or making something come through.

Missing all the process from Band Of Mischief. Missing all the shoots we had, all the casts and all the tough but fun times.

Searching back this blog, just made me want to jolt down a part of this journey of my life.

Wishing one day, that I could really make as many films as I can, travel around the world, and finally get over with all those stuff thats tying me down here.

Making good decisions now is important. I know certain things happen a certain way has its purpose and reason. I want to make a good decision which I will not regret. But, impossible.

Learning to take things easy and learning to love what I do.

I've made many decisions that I thought I shouldn't have.

Understand, that friends come and go. But He'll always be right beside me. Finding my way back to His Word's; my lifelong goal.

Enjoying life, to it's fullest (subtle goal).

Always, Yahweh.

One Faith, One Love, One Up.

Always Yahweh.

We're towards the end of April and school just began.

1st week of school is still alright. Workload seems to be manageable, well, if I were to complete them on time.

Sometimes I wished that I have got 36 hours every day. 24 hours seemed to be a little too short.

But come to think, if each day was 36 hours, we will be so tired!

His time is always right. :)

Good enough, so its actually up to us to use this 24 hours.

Cinematography (wooo Director of Photography :P), AFP (Advanced Film Production says it all; spend more time, more hands on film, more techniques, experience hard work by sweating and bleeding HAHA) , Regional Cinema (a better and appreciative view of Asian films), WISP (Ive got the coolest WISP Lecturer), Media Law (Its for our good. :[ ), Advanced Studio Production (It's not that slack okay).

AND IBP.

Love year 3 man.

I miss O School and I want to go back for dance soon. Coming May. :)

One Faith, One Love, One Up.

Did I say 2010 is a year full of hopes?

Hello first 2010 posting on the 56th day.

At the end of 2009, I said it will be a year full of hopes. After losing someone ever so dear to me, I thought I will lose that faith. Yea, I lost it and I found it back and its a cycle that one day I will lose it and wants to find it back again.

My Father is a Father to the fatherless.

I don't enjoy chocs. Cause I’ve got a pretty sensitive throat. I love just Whittaker's almond gold bar, mars bars and kinder surprises though.

I wanted to be an early childhood educator and I’m enrolled into film, sound and video diploma. I want ‘producer’ to become my designation. Maybe one day, I will have a call for theology. :]

Ever expressive, rather straight forward. Thinks photography, films, movies, theatre are artsy, contemporary, connecting and tells a deeper story than the story itself.

Creator drives my life and His Way is what I will always seek.

Day dreams and even in the night. They are far more enjoyable than nightmares. Big lights inspire me, dancing inspires me bigger time.

Impulsive feeler by heart, wanderer who wonders most of the time and wants to travel around the world to see and experience the wonders of a Father’s love.

A child of God who loves dancing and enjoy the gifts of life from her Heavenly Father.

I loved the people around me, I love the wonderful people that I met from around the world; nevertheless I enjoy being alone most.

If you understand, I hide well.

I’ve not changed, I’ve grown. Again.

I used to fear change. Now, I have gotten used to it. Nothing is permanent, and His love is forever.

"May God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

When I am down, I know His love will lift me up. God speaks, in many ways. Some says nine, but I think God speaks personally.

One Faith, One Love, One Up.

Just when you thought its random.

Stop influencing, and begin to inspire!

I think when people reach a certain age, they will start to talk about life issues and realize the important things, curious about the meaning of life, and even question their dreams. This is the time when you begin to ask yourself, what matters to you most.

Happiness, materials, joy, fun, or staying true/real?

When you walk past a old lady selling packets of tissues on the streets, what is your first reaction? What is the reaction that you will give, especially you see her walking towards your direction? Will you answer her request and buy it out of sympathy? Or because you needed a packet? Or your friends are buying and you have to do the same?

When it is dinner time, what kind of dining places would come to your mind? Should it be normal food court/hawker centre? Or would it be a rather posh or costly restaurant?

What kind of hobbies do you enjoy? Clubbing or jogging?

Perhaps all of the stuff that I asks becomes irrelevant or pure randomness.

So much freedom for us.

Yet...

Should re-instill the stop-abusing-the-freedom that we now have, back.

And, everything becomes so subjective, and so about ourselves and only ourselves.

What happens on the outside, do not match with the inner side.

So, do you know what is happening to the world now?

Whatever that you do, come from your heart.

What you get in return? You inspires.

More to come.

A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.

If you want to ask... why oh why.

It is so hard to smile sincerely now. But, I do learn from this is that; God really works mysteriously and when we think we know, we actually have no idea. Cos' the results can be that surprisingly opposite from what we have thought. I will be fine in Him.

I realised that everything that I just come to know, He will more or less let me experience it either right away, moments later, or after some days. In conclusion, it just happens. You got nowhere to hide cos' you just can't seem to avoid it. Which you never will.

If that is His Will, nobody can ever stop Him from delivering.

Now I have to seek and wait for the Man Upstairs to teach me how to handle my emotions and also to understand His purpose and the sufferings we go through.

There are always good times and they are really good. But, when bad times arrive, you wouldn't have time to even prepare for it.

What we'll gain from suffering?

We'll gain the gifts; Patience and Endurance

One Up wants us to know that we can get back on our feet is not because of ourselves, but because of Him. And so, He is our past, our present and also our future. He is the only one in control.

What proves it?

When we thought we are in control of a situation, the situation just goes the opposite way.

And yes, that's His Will that you can't go against.

That's an example.

He want us to know that whatever we do is not by the power of ourselves, but by the power of the Almighty One Upstairs.

:)

Why do He wants us to experience hardship and suffer?

It is not because of the reason that He don't love us. It is just that He loves us too much that He wants us to know that He is always there to comfort us. He wants to walk with us through the journey, be our bestest friend and telling us that we're not alone.

In Him, we will pull it through.

When we walk the suffering/hardship right through with Him, we will be His light to the rest of the world.

We have to be truthful about our emotions. He gave us the freedom of expressing ourselves. He want us to be who we are and trust in His character.

He has never forsaken us and most importantly, if we pray sincerely and wait for Him to grant it, He will answer and deliver.

Everything that happens, it is for a reason. One Up allows it to happen. It will always be for good, be it edifying others/ourselves. Even it is just making us learn from falling. :)

God is good all the time.

One day if you tell me God didn't exist, I still want to say; at least it make me a better person, spiritually, mentally and physically.

In this temporary body of mine, I will fulfill my purpose on Earth, as to Glorify the Lord and trust in Him. Give my best for Him.

There is no such things as forever standing straight and tall. There will be times when we fall. After all, we are just human beings. But, do remember that He will always be there to pick you up. Be open to Him. Be open about your emotions. Be open about the opportunities, about the gifts that you received. Be thankful and edify others. Open your eyes and look at the sky!

Most importantly, remain humble and never stop learning. That's my lesson learnt.

I know life will not be easy from now onwards. Times will be tougher...

But, I really hope that this fire in me will not be put out. Shall remain hopeful.

Most importantly, like always, put myself in One Up's hands. Definitely got a way out/for a good purpose. It is only a matter of time. There is so much more to go through, so much more to learn and experience. So much more to gain knowledge of. So much more waiting for me right in front of me.

I want to be able to stand up strong to face it with His strength. Fulfill my purpose on Earth and glorify Him in all that I do. Empower me and fill me with courage.

Learn to love.

All Stars, I still love you guys as much. Ya'll know we're always here.

Especially Kyxz, Laurence, Ken, Maya and Taks.

To me, you guys have already won the battle. Look at everyone uniting and coming together as one. Very soon... We'll be One Nation Eternally.

Life's gonna be tough, but He will be there and we'll all be there.

It's His-Story!

We're halfway there. Have to keep believing.

Congratulates Joyce and the Boys (Singapore represent) for coming in 3rd in the World's Hip Hop Championship! :)

Assignments and quizzes shall be conquered in 2 weeks time.

Leaving for WuHan in 26 days.

My shield, my guide, my light, my hope, my comfort, my shelter, my Father.

A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.