what if...

• one day u found that u r all alone by urself
• no1 is there to comfort u when u needed most
• u realised that no1 truly understands u
• there is no1 to turn to
• ur existence is non-existence
• u shldn't even be living in his world to suffer

too much emotions yet i cant put them into words...i just want to escape from reality wishing tt all these hasn't happened...i hate myself for who i am...

random rants...pls allow me to vent my frustrations...

went for the NDP preview ytd with dear...won the tickets thru balloting...i would say this year's NDP show is the nicest as compared to last yr...i like the goodies in the goodie bag the most...hahaz...esp the heart touchlight...it look so nice when lighted up in the dark...pictures can be found on my facebook album...
somehow fated...last yr was seated at the green sector...this yr also the same...was quite front so the view still not tt bad...didn't meet any patriotic singaporeans like last yr...LOL...n the person who sitted next to me was funny...cuz i always accidentally hit her with the torchlight then both of us will laugh n say sorry...hahaz...
anw the performance this yr was quite enjoyable n funny...for those who had not seen shall wait for the actual day n watch tv...hahahaz...n the fireworks not tt fantastic but still nice...esp the 1 with the star shaped...but only a few so open ur eyes n watched closely...if u didn't catch it...i've the videos...hahaz...
after the show met quek n went home with him to get the car...then headed out for supper ata bedok 85 with zr n ber...was searchin for the sg flag for his car on the way...went so many petrol kiosk yet none has got the flag...so went home empty-handed...was really tiring...slpt immediately after i bathed...
hmm...till we meet again...n it's the start of august...counting down to my BIG day!!!

HELLO...i'm back again...hmm...it's been 1/2 yr since my last entry...i wonder who's still reading anw...LOL...was so caught up with work recently n of cuz been FB-ing almost everyday tt i hardly had the time to log in blogger...
been lots of changes at work over the past few months...n i'm still adapting to this lifestyle...with alot more chances of working OT...but then again there r always it's pros n cons...now i've alot more bonding with the colleagues as compared to when i handled another acc last time living in my own world...
we even organised a trip to genting during the holidays in april...it was my 1st time entering the casino...even b4 i reached the age of 21...hahaz...but tt's really nth much there except smokes and jackpot machines...u can't imagine how many jackpots they have...over hundreds and thousands i guess...anw really enjoy the trip although it's a real short 1...at least it was a break from the hectic work we had...recently had a family day at the bottle tree park...only the usual few turned up...played some games n my team won the 2nd prize...hahaz...
okay enough of my work...then was the late nitez supper almost every wkends with zr, quek, wl n teng...with quek's car we travel almost everywhere to look for gd food...n also the cv trip doing the paparazzi thingy...nv failed to reached home after 2...was finally locked out by my mom 1 day tt i had to slp in the car with zr n quek...LOL...i'll nv 4get tt day...n since then i've abided by the rules to reach home by 2am...hahaz...
next is my HK trip in may...intially was only wl, teng n quek...n zr joined us last min...had a fun yet fattening trip...everyday in HK was abt eating n more eating rather than shopping...LOL...went places like the Victoria Harbour, Da yu shan, Ocean park, the famous nu ren jie, etc etc etc...went to so many places yet there r still alot more yet to explore...
did i mention we took so many types of different tpt ranging from the "ding-ding" to their MTR, xiao ba and of cuz the cable cars...if there's another chance i dun mind going back again...however my destination would be australia or probably a short trip to some island for relaxation...a good massage is what i needed most now...hahaz...
after coming back to HK, was rather busy with work again...13 june zr asked us to help out in an event in Sentosa to pack the goodies bag...after tt headed to jurong hill for teppanyaki...i would say tt's the best teppanyaki i ever eaten...the atmosphere is good, the chef is funny...will definitely go back again...we travelled from west to east n back to central for dessert at udders...tt nitez nesh drove too...but he was the joker of the day...wanted to turn right at the junction instead go str8...n the funniest thing is tailgating wrong car...LOL...
then was some occasional meet ups for supper...b4 our ahmad was gone for OCS with 3 wks confinement...1 khaki down for supper...received a piece of good news on 21st July...yes i'm finally going to start my degree soon...my sch will officially start on the 13 sep...it's a sun but then again cant wait for it man...cuz studies would be my main priority soon...hopefully i will survive this 2 yrs...
what marks the end of july was the celebration for sharon's 21st bday...had steamboat dinner on thursday nitez after work...really eat till we dropped...we started at 7 n finished at 11...LOL...then was a small celebration in the office on the actual day...
n i'm gonna go for the ndp preview...tataz...

on the eve of new yr...went dear's hse...n headed kovan to meet wl, teng n nesh for dinner cum supper at thomson prata hse...n we end up taking a tour ard singapore...from kovan to toa payoh...n somehow ended in newton/novena n back to toa payoh again...n then finally on the right track...LOL...
afterall we still went to correct place...the funny thing is after we had eaten...went to get nesh's car n he 4got to off his head lights...hahaz...all of us were laughin like mad...n then he dropped us off at hg...took train home...n i spent a quiet countdown with dear...tiz yr everythin seemed so low profile...mayb every1 is juz too busy wif work n studies...not much energy left to celebrate all tiz ocassions...

anw happy new yr everyone...it's another yr 2009...last quarter of 2008 has been bad...juz hope that this yr would be better...n everythin will be smooth ahead...

my resolutions for this yr would be:

- to have less errors in my work, and hope everything goes smoothly for me

- to get approval letter from SIM for my degree in UOM

- n of cuz to lead a simple, happy and carefree life (plus a healthy life too)