...Friday, March 16, 2012
Finally gotten my set of uniform today!
Looks like PJs.
Im hanging it at my door to scare my mum LOL
Not excited for nationals..
My results are all time shit =.=
Majority all Cs... Sighs..
On the birght side I landed my first few gainers on the floor!! So proud lol
Cant wait for this to be over. Ugh..
Life can be fair or unfair, its just how you look at it I guess...
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B-Boy rocks my live...# ;
...Thursday, March 15, 2012
Aww man.. Life is tough suck it up mofos
Im a bastard like that.
Im bitchy like that too.
Aww too bad if shit is gonna change.
I still thought you changed.
You didnt , you just hid that side of you so well that I go deceived.
LAME
No one changes for the better. That like the fucking rule of nature =.=
Although there are supernatural people la.
This is stupid. I am stupid
Even Richie got fed up. Richie leh walao ...
But mad props his actions deserves so much respect
He is like now officially the guy that I respect the most among my peers.
I need to vent out all my frustration somewhere perhaps even better someone.
Nobody knows me Im cold walk down this road all alone
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B-Boy rocks my live...# ;
...Wednesday, March 14, 2012
I need to find another avenue to vent out all my anger and hatred
I have no idea how long more I can control myself..
If psychiatric treatment wasnt so expensive i probably would have went a long time ago..
Too much drama today, too eventful =.=
And its not good drama.
Nigel got knocked out
I nearly burst my blood vessels
So much shit happened
At the end, Im tired and this shit.
After Im done, Im done
Next year, I wont compete in anymore competitions
I need my free and happy life back.
People are stupid.
I dont give a fuck who are you.
Lay a finger on my friend, I will fuck you.
Despite he is not that important and all the crap.
I totally lost all my dignity and face today.
Not just to my team. To denvers. To some part of TPDE . To tkd
God knows what the fuck are they gonna say about me.
I lost all the respect I have for myself
Today i finally can see that there are people that dont give a shit and yet they still call you bro
I aint gonna put my trust or faith in anyone anymore
THe world is fucked. Im all alone other than Ali
I hate how this fucked up this place is.
After this Im gonna have a long ass break.
Met up with XH and Jing just now too
Certain things may have change
but the bond we have is still there.
I love you guys no shit, my whole life would have been so different without yall
Nuff said, my eyes are tired from all the crying today
My body is tired from my rage fit
I shall sleep and hope that tmr will be a better day
A day where I will hit all my stunts and no one will look down upon me
Fuck this shit
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B-Boy rocks my live...# ;
...Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Nationals is coming in less than 2 weeks time.
Im excited and nervous at the same time.
Never in my life i had felt that something actually mattered that much to me.
Last year this time I was doing GEMS 6.
The only memorable thing was performing on stage for that short short while.
The rest of the stuff were real sketchy and not too happy?
THis year its different, I found a place where I sort of belong.
A place where I could actually shine and not be outshined by everyone else.
Despite all that crap, I still miss dancing. I want to dance.
I would even go back to dance just to dance and suffer like last year.
Doing stuff like this isnt really my kind of thing.
I only love the tumbling aspect of cheer.
Only when i flip , I feel free from gravity.
I dont feel bounded to this world for that short split second
I am truely happy when I flip and learn new elements.
No matter how high level a stunt is, a simple high layout will garner more applause.
I dont like the fact that how dependent that we have to be in the sport.
Its is not a good thing that I cannot control the outcome of things purely by my actions.
I am happy when I help juniors achieve their basic stunts.
That is what that is keeping me stunting.
I dont want to be a senior that is fucking zai but wont help juniors like the rest.
Im not the best, I dont aim to be.
I just want to do whatever that is right for the team to grow and mature.
Perhaps some people might think that I am full of shit or way over myself.
I DONT CARE
I may not be better skill wise but I am a better person than some people.
I doubt I will have a post in the committee next season
But oh well :/ I'll leave it to higher power to decide if that is for me.
If it isnt I just hope that next season would be better.
Not having a captain that has nothing to offer other than his mouth
Not having a vice captain that always whines
Not having a quarter master that got attitude problem
Not having a secretary that left us when we needed her the most ;(
Despite all this trainings that are really mentally and physically draining.
I know I will survive, because I want this shit.
Every one is giving excuses and 'perfect reasons' i dont think it will help
At the end of the day, we probably wouldnt win , but its the journey that mattered.
Because of the bidaily trainings, I'm somewhat getting closer to the Bros once more.
To some, our fight may be for nothing.
To us, we fight to better ourselves and show the scene that we arent like last time
I just wish people can put in more effort.
Because got 2 training doesnt mean can dont gym
Because got 2 training doesnt mean can be late for one
Because got 2 trainings doesnt mean that the competition is 2 months away
Attitude is bad here, idk, Im just gonna do my part and pray that everyone does the same
If they dont then we are just gonna lose
Jiayou BLAZERS ^^
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B-Boy rocks my live...# ;