9 weeks 4 days

So this little raspberry has turned into a big juicy grape. I had my first appointment with the ob. Things went really well. I told her I was anxious about miscarriage and she put me right into the ultrasound tech. I was so surprised! It was a delight to see this little babe again. Heartbeat was good. Arm and leg buds are noticable in the bottom picture on the top half of it's body. It looked so much bigger than a week and a half ago. They also found a residual cyst from all the fertility drugs.  The cyst may be there the whole pregnancy because of the pregnancy hormones it has a difficult time shrinking. It won't hurt the baby, but if it burst it will be extremely painful. I am still in unbelief that this is happening. Honestly, I don't feel that sick, and I am getting use to being tried! I am grateful for these blessings, just wish I had more reasurrance (like puking) to make me feel more prego.... but then maybe I am just crazy (I am hormonally!).

Graduating

Look how this little grain of rice has grown to be  about the size of a raspberry! Hooray! Today we went in and this little one has a strong heartbeat of 164 bpm! I can't believe in just two weeks that it has grown so much--- compare the last picture with this one and you can see it is taking up much more of the sac! We had our exit interview with the fertility specialist. Gave hugs to all and walked out--- a place I will always cherish. They were so helpful, so positive, and so great!
I am an emotional wreck--- pregnancy hormones are really kicking in. My orneriness is horrible, but overall we are good. Nausea comes in waves and is usually very manageable. Wish I could sleep more, but that will probably always be the case when we had a newborn in to our mix! :)
We are thrilled! Thanks for all your prayers and support. Next apt is on November 14th, with the ob!

Celebrate!

So on Thursday Oct 6, we got a positive pregnancy blood test. My level was 120.... and all of the sudden I was scared to share my news with the blogging world. So I didn't. On Monday, Oct 10, went in for more blood work - my level was 680. Then on Wednesday, it jumped up to 1240. We were excited and yet so cautious, but so grateful to be at this point. Today, we went in for our first ultrasound. There is just one baby! It is has big as a grain of rice, but it's heart was beating!!!! I am thrilled! We will be six weeks tomorrow-- still really early and still possible for this to not work out, but for now, I am thrilled and allowing myself to get a little excited!!!! I am so grateful for a loving Heavenly Father who allowed us to see this sweet baby's heart going pitter patter! Prayers are really answered! Thank you for all of your love and support. I will keep you updated! Next ultrasound is in two weeks and my exit interview with the fertility specialist-- wow!

p.s. if you are in my ward please keep this quiet-- thanks!

Progestrone test

Yesterday I drove 25 minutes for a less-than 10 minutes appointment to have my blood drawn. The blood draw was to test my progestrone. My nurse, Agnes, called back later in the day to tell me that my level was 22.5- which is good. They want it to be between 10 and 20.  She also told me that this means nothing whether I am pregnant or not-- she has seen bad numbers and there is a pregnancy, and she has seen good numbers with no pregnancy. But the  progestrone level does say that I did ovulate ( a necessity to be prego :)) and  that I won't have to take a progestrone pill in another cycle if this cycle does not work out.

I am feeling extremely cautious in allowing myself to get positive about being pregnant. I am hopeful. But I think the miscarriage 8 months ago scared me. I have been reminded that I really have no control of whether this works or not. So I will just try to go about what I can control-- my attitude. I am hopeful that I will get good news and yet I feel somewhat prepared for bad news.  This week has been so long compared to the other weeks in September. This week I only had to drive up to Oakbrook once, instead of three times. I am sure it will feel like a long time until next Thursday. I can't wait for it to come-- I want to know-- not realy good with the waiting time. But this weekend will be fun-- Parker turns 4 and is having a party in-between conference sessions. And I love conference! Happy Weekend!

leave the rest in the hands of God

Everything went really smoothly today! I couldn't have asked for it to go any better than it went. Now we just wait-- which may be the hard part for me. I love doing things and not waiting.... but there is not much I can do now! :) It is hard to not think about how this day could have an impact on the rest of my life... but we will just leave that in the hands of God. It is a great miracle and blessing to be at this stage and I feel so grateful!

Trying not to get toooooo Excited! But I can't help it!

Well, I never thought I would share with anyone when any of my children were conceived.... but this is different. We have two eggs that are ready to be fertilized (one is 19.3, the other is 18.3). So tonight we give the ovulation shot and tomorrow we go in for the artificial insemination procedure. Then we are in the waiting game-- 2 weeks before we know if we are pregnant or not. I feel so excited but trying not to get too excited-- there are still lots of things that could go wrong. But it just feels so good to be at this point and to have more hope that this may work!!! Hooray!

Growing

My dear mommy has been here... so I haven't taken the time to update the blog. But here is the news-- after ultrasound and blood work on Monday morning, we have three follicles that are growing.  One is 13.9 mm, one at 13.5, and one at 11.5.  Tomorrow morning I will know more. Still mixed emotions going on but overall optimistic! They kept my dose at 100 units. There were a lot of little follicles showing up on the ultrasound.  Hopefully they stay little and the big ones grow!