the past few days have been rather unpleasant but before i start on how awful the past few days (particularly today) have been, i want to say my thankyous to those who celebrated my birthday for me last week (:

my beloved clique- sheryl, chiewyong, subing, tzeyuen, joanne, geyi, melissa - for the surprise (although i kind of spoilt it by accident. lol. ) and the cake! it was still very enjoyable, and im very touched (: i love you all very very much!

the two darlings, xueqin and jiamin, for all the effort put in to arrange lunch and for surprising me with a cake even though our grades were so lousy and we werent quite in the mood to celebrate. i really really appreciate it. i love you all very much too! (:

the photog darlings - jiamin, helen, minjun, annette, weekeong, xina, spencer - for the top. i love it (:

gary, zitong, weekiat, yuxiang, and desmond for celebrating my bday for me over lunch!

and to everyone else who wished me happy birthday be it through sms or in school (: thank you all for remembering!

now back to hw terrible the past few days have been.. i have back my results and they are really quite disastrous. i failed maths again which is rather depressing and demoralising. obviously, i failed geog too but it was kind of already expected so i didnt feel particularly sad or anythg. physics was a disappointed though because i only managed to scrape a pass even though i had the specimen paper and a number of the questions came from there. but yesyes, i must move on and look ahead and work even harder. and like what melissa told me, i musnt think that i wont make it, or else half the battle is lost. today wasnt so good cos i still cldnt do the correlation question during time prac, and some stuff miss yiak said kinda made me rather demoralised. what she said was kind of true i guess. the stress is really killing me and i think its making me blank out during exams. but thankfully at times like this i still have my beloved clique and the two darlings to listen to me vent my fustrations and complain about this and that :D

its been a really long time since i last blogged. like really really long. around two mths or so. i havent been going out much except to celebrate birthdays or the occasional shopping trips which leave me feeling real guilty for not spending more time studying. i've been trying to revise but it hasnt been gg too well because i barely have time to finish all the assignments we're given. i did really terribly for midyrs. U for econs, U for geog and a subpass for maths, that says it all. the thing is, i really tried studying hard for econs during the june hols but it didnt help much, and because i spent so much time on econs(and on TV), i didnt finish revising maths which has almost always been my best subject, and so, i've failed both. that sucks, really. i got a B for physics but if you look at the percentile, around thirty to forty percent of the level managed an A, and that says a lot. alright, enought abt results.

i havent got to meet up with the clqiue for nearly a month, and when i say meet up, tuition doesnt count. we wont be meeting up anytime soon because prelims are just around the corner, maybe not just around the corner, but you know what i mean. just 4 to 5 weeks away. and i realised that i've nt gone back to crescent for almost a year. or is it more than a yr? AND I CANT GO BACK ON TEACHERS DAY cos prelims wld be starting. more than one and a half yrs since we graduated fr crescent, and still, I MISS CRESCENT SO BADLY. the canteen food, 4C3 classroom, the np room, the study pavillion, the consultations,and of course, the people.

but okay. school hasnt been all too bad lately. i have more than two friends nowadays. HAHAH. AJ library has recently become our(me, jm and xq's) favourite hangout. free periods, breaks, after school hours, all spent at the library mugging. in fact, my whole class is gg to the library. maybe not after school hrs, but definitely during breaks. if only we've been like that since j1, we wld be so much more ready to take our A's, and i think we might have been closer as a class. at least thats what i think.

i didnt go to school today! so i need to work extra hard now. i wont be blogging till like after prelims (((:

outings with the clique nvr fail to make me feel much happier ((: we went shopping two saturdays ago and we had a full clique reunion last thursday to watch pirates of the carribean.

PS seminar is finally over. well, it didnt go as smoothly as we had hoped because of CO and their makeshift extension thing, which cost us precious time dealing with the technical errors, and also the refreshments didnt come at all because of unknown reasons. BUT everything worked out in the end, so it was still rather successful ((: i went home before meeting up with helen, jiamin, minjun, xina, annette, weekeong, spencer and wilson again for dinner at vivo. we were at asian food kitchen and yesterday i found out that sheryl was just next door eating at thai express and i didnt see her at all! lol. so anyway, we went to helen's hse to stayover and some of us stopped at khatib to rent videos AND AND AND we got lost on our way back. HAHAH. we had to walk back cos there was NO MORE BUS. but anyway, it was fun :) and oh wilson bought for me shrek's ears and spencer happily wore it around like the ears were part of him. we got back at like 1 plus 2am, and i fell asleep by around 4. AND YES, I SLEPT THE MOST! OH OH, ONE MORE THING, I FINALLY DRANK ANYTHING. HAH.

im blogging again after 1 mth or so. i cabbed home yesterday and the cab driver said to me "girl, you must study hard this yr. alvls is a nightmare!" something along those lines. its scary how alvls is only abt 5 mths away and im still trying to catch up.

PS sessions have been spent on passport phototaking. i spent many many hrs keying in hundreds of IC numbers. anyway, we're done with all the phototaking and all the cropping and keying in, so whats left is going down to chinatown to develop the photos. i hope everything will turn out fine, and we can get it over and done with it.

i cant rmb much of what happened last mth. there was the PS camp which was OKAY i guess. we had interviews from like 11pm to 5 in the morn and then we had like a 2hr break before starting again. HAHAHA. i vaguely rmb watching aj idol with the ps ppl, and leaving before the results were announced. oh and there was the half an hour long scolding we got fr one of the pe teachers which was followed by threats that we wldnt be excused from afternoon pe. hahh.

oh oh oh i havent met up with half of the clique for quite a while. and the college day thing is spoiling our plans to meet up :(

you're never gonna read this so i can safely blog about how fucking pissed off you made me. then again, i probably wldnt care even if you do read this. it may all seem very trivial, and unimportant, but you're causing a whole load of inconvenience to everyone. first, since you agreed to upload the photos and burn them into a cd, you shld have done a proper job of it. its your fucking responsibility. its not like im asking you to help me filter the photos. if like you said, you were really busy, the least you cld do was to let me know so that i cld have done it myself, or get someone else to do it. you didnt say a thing until 655pm and you jolly well know that the cards have to be cleared by today and the darkroom has to be locked by 7pm or the alarm will go off, and im rather disgusted that you complained abt hw busy you were. come on lah, im nt asking you to stand by the laptop, you can just leave it to burn the cd or download the photos. if you think its not your business to upload the photos, then you shld have stuck to my suggestion to use only two cameras so that there wont be a need to clear the cf cards immediately.

and again, i feel so stupid and immatured blogging abt such stuff.