hi everyone (i dont expect any reader actually)
yes....years of hiatus
so many things has change. my previous few posts mostly circling about my master journey. currently i am still in my master program. 3rd year to be exact after extra 6 months of extension and another 6 months for differing my study due to my pregnancy.
well pregnancy???
yes... i am a mother now. we are a family of three. Arif Iskandar was born on 20th of February 2018. it was quite eventful, unexpected arrival, prematurity and me... losing a lot of blood.
my study.... current in exam season. i just completed and passed my theory exam. now are busy preparing for coming clinical exam. wish me luck!!!
family... i just lost my father 2 weeks ago. he left us on 10th of April 2019 after a long battle with alzheimer's. al fatihah.
done.
Monday, April 22, 2019
Tuesday, February 2, 2016
a little bean in my tummy
assalamualaikum everyone!
my gosh...my last post is in october last year. i was being unfair to this blog by ignoring it. well...being a student (postgrad student exactly) really2 draining me out. i spent 8am-5pm on weekdays working at hospital, then back home tired...and expected to do extra reading.
since being in master programme, i already done my medical and paediatric (surprisingly) posting. and now, i am in my first week on ObGyn posting.
and january gave me a very beautiful gift - a baby
yes, i am pregnant.
after 3 years of marriage, and 2 year of expecting a baby.
dear Allah... blessed this pregnancy, bring this little bean to life as healthy baby. amin....
my gosh...my last post is in october last year. i was being unfair to this blog by ignoring it. well...being a student (postgrad student exactly) really2 draining me out. i spent 8am-5pm on weekdays working at hospital, then back home tired...and expected to do extra reading.
since being in master programme, i already done my medical and paediatric (surprisingly) posting. and now, i am in my first week on ObGyn posting.
and january gave me a very beautiful gift - a baby
yes, i am pregnant.
after 3 years of marriage, and 2 year of expecting a baby.
dear Allah... blessed this pregnancy, bring this little bean to life as healthy baby. amin....
Wednesday, October 21, 2015
medical posting ( as post graduate student )
6 months....
that is the duration that i need to be in medical department and currently i am in my 5th months already.
as in medical, everyday is medical.
but today... there is a death of my patient that left a mark in my heart. he showed me that no matter how unfortunate i feel about myself, there are a lot more out there that have been through rougher route than mine.
this guy... named hanafi. just 30 year old male, been diagnosed with HIV years ago.
when i did my morning round on his second day of admission, he did catch my attention. i saw him lying on bed, alone, and looking so calm. until i reach his bed... my HO presented his case to me. the word 'RVD positive' catch my attention.
why?
because usually the RVD positive guy rarely seen like that. we as medical personnel usually can guess the RVD patient just by the look. same with patient with renal disease or diabetic patient.
so this hanafi ... been admitted for upper GI bleed. he was vomited blood in large amount on the day of admission.
i approached him, trying to get a good rapport with him and he responded well to me. so after a few chit chat.... i asked him how did he get those RVD. and he answered me very well.
"saya kena sodomi doktor. masa sekolah dulu. saya sekolah agama kat kuala terengganu ni. masa tu, ade lelaki pecah masuk hostel pastu sodomi saya. saya tak tahu saya ada penyakit ni sampai saya nak kawin. buat test HIV tetiba positive. tunang saya tinggalkan saya lepas tu. lepas tu hidup saya huru hara. keluarga je tempat saya bergantung. mereka semua tahu masalah saya"
he was been admitted for about 3 weeks. i saw him almost everyday in ward. losing weight, getting pale and pale and pale. until yesterday, i went for round, i didnt see him in ward. when i asked my colleague, they said that hanafi requested for discharge.
today... i got the news. he left the world last night at 8pm.
Hanafi....terima kasih kerana mengajar saya erti kehidupan. saya kagum mendengar ketabahan awak melalui semua dugaan yang Allah turunkan kepada awak. semoga awak damai di sana. Al-fatihah.....
that is the duration that i need to be in medical department and currently i am in my 5th months already.
as in medical, everyday is medical.
but today... there is a death of my patient that left a mark in my heart. he showed me that no matter how unfortunate i feel about myself, there are a lot more out there that have been through rougher route than mine.
this guy... named hanafi. just 30 year old male, been diagnosed with HIV years ago.
when i did my morning round on his second day of admission, he did catch my attention. i saw him lying on bed, alone, and looking so calm. until i reach his bed... my HO presented his case to me. the word 'RVD positive' catch my attention.
why?
because usually the RVD positive guy rarely seen like that. we as medical personnel usually can guess the RVD patient just by the look. same with patient with renal disease or diabetic patient.
so this hanafi ... been admitted for upper GI bleed. he was vomited blood in large amount on the day of admission.
i approached him, trying to get a good rapport with him and he responded well to me. so after a few chit chat.... i asked him how did he get those RVD. and he answered me very well.
"saya kena sodomi doktor. masa sekolah dulu. saya sekolah agama kat kuala terengganu ni. masa tu, ade lelaki pecah masuk hostel pastu sodomi saya. saya tak tahu saya ada penyakit ni sampai saya nak kawin. buat test HIV tetiba positive. tunang saya tinggalkan saya lepas tu. lepas tu hidup saya huru hara. keluarga je tempat saya bergantung. mereka semua tahu masalah saya"
he was been admitted for about 3 weeks. i saw him almost everyday in ward. losing weight, getting pale and pale and pale. until yesterday, i went for round, i didnt see him in ward. when i asked my colleague, they said that hanafi requested for discharge.
today... i got the news. he left the world last night at 8pm.
Hanafi....terima kasih kerana mengajar saya erti kehidupan. saya kagum mendengar ketabahan awak melalui semua dugaan yang Allah turunkan kepada awak. semoga awak damai di sana. Al-fatihah.....
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
selamat hari raya!!
still not to late i guess to wish....
Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin!!!
here goes some family pics during raya.
Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin!!!
here goes some family pics during raya.
Monday, July 6, 2015
Belated birthday pressie
his birthday is in March
but just today ..... his birthday present arrived.
sorry my dear for the late. hope this will help you in your study.
I LOVE YOU!
infinite :)
but just today ..... his birthday present arrived.
sorry my dear for the late. hope this will help you in your study.
I LOVE YOU!
infinite :)
Wednesday, July 1, 2015
random thought
1 month passed
i was back working in hospital. my old place where i did my housemanship and later on start my mo-ship in surgical dept before i went out to public, learned about living within limitation in klinik kesihatan and be close to the society.
within this 1 month, i would say that my day change 100%. more involved in acute management. but most of the time...i kept on thinking about how lucky those MO working in this so luxurious condition. can simply start an expensive medication to patient while us in KK, stuck in between availability and budget.
in KK... i learned about optimizing every source i have.
in KK... i learned about being grateful
in KK... i learned about empathy to patient, considering their hardship to come to clinic, be compliance to medication and appointment given..
so when i return to hospital... i know that i am not the same person who left the hospital about 2 years ago.
yes...i am living under pressure currently. husband just back during weekend, struggling with so many topic to read and catch up all the new thing in the department.
but...i am full with zen. full with positivity. so as always....i am positive about this, and i will succeed in this journey.
amin.....
i was back working in hospital. my old place where i did my housemanship and later on start my mo-ship in surgical dept before i went out to public, learned about living within limitation in klinik kesihatan and be close to the society.
within this 1 month, i would say that my day change 100%. more involved in acute management. but most of the time...i kept on thinking about how lucky those MO working in this so luxurious condition. can simply start an expensive medication to patient while us in KK, stuck in between availability and budget.
in KK... i learned about optimizing every source i have.
in KK... i learned about being grateful
in KK... i learned about empathy to patient, considering their hardship to come to clinic, be compliance to medication and appointment given..
so when i return to hospital... i know that i am not the same person who left the hospital about 2 years ago.
yes...i am living under pressure currently. husband just back during weekend, struggling with so many topic to read and catch up all the new thing in the department.
but...i am full with zen. full with positivity. so as always....i am positive about this, and i will succeed in this journey.
amin.....
Wednesday, June 17, 2015
1 June 2015
1 June 2015
we became a student again. me and faisal registered as master students at USM on that date.
I'm doing M.Med Family Medicine and my hubby is doing M.Med Neurosurgery.
it is 3 weeks already. being a master student.
and i would say..... how can i live like this for the coming 4 years?
this 4 years....my husband wont be back working in Terengganu. Me? will be in Terengganu for 2 years then will spend another 2 years in USM. hopefully everything will go smoothly.
so...we will be weekend husband and wife. minimun for 4 years. so every week... i am waiting for thursday. for him to be back to our home.
dear heart...be strong. i know u can do it! this hardship will promise a better life for us later on. amin....
we became a student again. me and faisal registered as master students at USM on that date.
I'm doing M.Med Family Medicine and my hubby is doing M.Med Neurosurgery.
it is 3 weeks already. being a master student.
and i would say..... how can i live like this for the coming 4 years?
this 4 years....my husband wont be back working in Terengganu. Me? will be in Terengganu for 2 years then will spend another 2 years in USM. hopefully everything will go smoothly.
so...we will be weekend husband and wife. minimun for 4 years. so every week... i am waiting for thursday. for him to be back to our home.
dear heart...be strong. i know u can do it! this hardship will promise a better life for us later on. amin....
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
