520

Today it's 521 but we sort of celebrated 520 today......
I promise myself to drive safer, so she wouldn't need to be afriad while I'm driving wouldn't feel stressed out while I'm driving, so that she could feel so safe that she can sleep while I'm driving.....
Which I think I have improved at it already.....
I promise myself I won't make her do anything she wouldn't want.....
Surprise her and try to make her as happy as possible......
But I kinda ruined the ending tonight, I beared a hope and it couldn't make it and I got upset......
I hoped that she allow me for pda#1 maybe just that one night......
Few attempts and "failed" and I got upset still today is great......
Even though pda#2 lasted a second till she realised and let go I was happy for a second......
I understands why but just had some hope......

I love you <3

迷惘

昨晚在吉隆坡刚庆祝了好友的生日派对.........
今天回家路上非常开心四个人在车上唱歌, 唱着唱着就到马六甲了.........
真要疯了........
到家后我觉得我是时候把自己从一个可能遥不可及的地方走着........
有点害怕走向的是条不归路........

因为这生日我又和好多人联系会了.........
就特别有个人在生日会前几天都一直有在联络着.........
现在, 生日会结束了........
我觉得我的老毛病来了........
对着她有些心动, 我自己很担心只是现在假期无聊而突然有个人不断的跟自己聊才有的感觉, 但又不知所措........
希望只是自己自作多情然后这事开始慢慢淡掉.........
开心了一的weekend..........
也因该醒醒了~~

就算我又动了真心又怎样?
可能这回和上一回一样人家只把我当个好朋友看?
可能保持着状态也非常好了.........
可我就不喜欢分享.........
超不喜欢的........
非常自私吧我........^^
现在想想一路以来我都只顾着自己的想法罢了吧........
如果我能学会分享一切的我可能都会改变........

但是我也应该要知道她可能只是在配合我说的东西所以才这样的..........
希望有人可以来和我谈谈.........
Haih..........

忙碌的日子.....

忙碌的日子终于告一段落了.......
但是这只是半场休息的时间罢了.......
我呢.......不知为何有点想要再感觉到坠入爱河的感受.........
虽然最近身边没什么能让我心动的人但就是有这感觉........
可能是我太空闲了胡思乱想或是填补无聊的时间吧........

前几个礼拜真是没有一秒可以想些别的东西只有 assignment x 无限.........
忙得要死...........
一直告诉自己再过两年就可以轻松些了..........
我己经确定了不要读博士, 因为1）没这能力 xD 2）爸爸养我已经够了 3）不需要那学位也可以得到很好的工作了.........
所以在多两年吧........
就可以开始养家里的两老也有多点时间陪陪他们..........

HOHO..........
这假期我要去纹身咯~~~~
现在想到这假期蛮忙的就感到有点开心...........
可以看见一些很久不见的朋友...........
简直是有点期待.........
呵呵..........

要常常记得没有人有职责要对你好除了父母..........

记得小时候有一次被人欺负到很惨好友都在旁边看罢了.........
回到家很伤心跟妈妈说，妈妈居然告诉我身边的朋友有时还是会害怕惹上麻烦不前来帮你........
所以不要把朋友对你的好当作是他们应该的一样.........

话说回来现今的我还是有时会忘了这句话.........
好比说前几天早上我晾衣服，见天气不错就在出门前把衣服放着没收..........
怎知下午下起雨来我也忘了晾衣服这事了.........
下课后，回家路上好友突然说，“你今天不是有晾衣的咩?”，我才想起晾衣服的事.........
然后又说可能家里有人帮我收了，我一点希望会有人这样做的想法也没有，但是回到家衣服湿透了我非常无言..........
也顿时非常生气为什么没有人帮我收衣?
我气匆匆地把衣服收了进屋，也很想对人怒骂..........
但是回房后想了想突然想起妈妈的这段话，但是还是很气..........
回家前也约好朋友一起去健身房，所以收拾好就出门了..........
之后，我也差点忘了这回事........
不只这事了身边很多事情惹得我不开心没五分钟我的气就消了..........
现在想想我倒是很就没发脾气了.........
可能是根本就没有这闲情去记得一堆对自己不好的事...........

就写到这了，得去做功课了..........
^_^

一出戏让我掉泪了.........

好久没有感受到感动的感觉了.........

戏里说着一个非常正经的警察碰上一位刁蛮，任性的异乡女孩.........
故事简单，平常，但是它触碰着了我.........

我找不到字可形容我的感受，因为真爱是无法用言语来表达的........
有些现代女人会常常问她们男友 “你为何爱我啊?”，其实你要怎样要他回答妳呢?
妳能用言语形容妳有多爱他吗?我觉得不能........
因为它(爱)包含了太多因素了.........

这戏名叫 [不再让你孤单].........
看了可能你们也会被感动到吧..........
它是出中国自作的电影........
纯华语与广东语........
:')

Movie night........

Tonight went to watch movie with few friends then I suddenly remember that I used to watch movie alone.........
I have this habit to go watch movie alone in cinema...........
Weird huh?

Well it's been so LONG I've been to cinema alone maybe I should pick up this habit back..........
Kinda miss those times that I would go to cinema stand there for minutes deciding which movie to watch.........
Well this might sound quite sad but I kinda enjoy it.........
Hmmmm..........
Just some random thoughts I guess........
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When there is happiness there is always sadness behind..........

Saturday, 18th August 2012,

Today was my happiest day in this year, my "sis" and my best friend gave me a surprise.......
And hung out with my "sis" for the day which I haven't seen her in like 3 or MORE years.......
I so happy which I think makes everything I see so beautiful and nice.......

At night we went to Jonker Street separately due to my "sis" needs to go home to drop off some stuffs........
Then Aaron and I went to meet up with another high-school friend then we go walk around and talk bout old time stuffs......

After we finish walking at Jonker Street, we went to the regular mamak that we go everyday.......
At there we accidentally saw another two of our high-school classmates and I saw 2 of my primary-school classmates.......
Talk quite a lot and had fun.........

Then at 12 something my dad called which isn't normal thing he will do when I'm out.........
I picked up talk like how I usually do then he ask me don't raise my voice against him I was like huh??
The he start to lecture me that I should go back before 12 and well this isn't the 1st time I go back after 12 why such a big reaction this time?
Then he just keep going on and ask me not go home anymore then when I reach home he locked the door so I couldn't get back........
Then I went to my best friend's place overnight which I feel extremely humiliated due to my dad doesn't let me home.........
I really don't understand how can he just suddenly get so pissed off for just that?
Before buying anything I will try to find the cheapest store selling the same thing and buy from them instead getting expensive ones........
Am I still not good enough?What does he want from me??