This blog shall end with it's 345th post. However i will not shut this blog down.

Joel Yeo @ [9:08 PM]

I Believe I Can Fly - R Kelly

I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

[1]
I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first I know it starts inside of me, oh

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

[Repeat 1]

Hey, cause I believe in me, oh

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

[Repeat 1]

Hey, if I just spread my wings
I can fly
I can fly
I can fly, hey
If I just spread my wings
I can fly
Fly-eye-eye

Joel Yeo @ [10:55 AM]

Y am i on the verge of crying when i dun even know why i'm sad? Are u the cause for my sadness..maybe it really is. Maybe things will just nvr be the same again..i feel abit like a lost sheep lookin for it's herd. I just feel so aimless...maybe i shld just try to occupy myself or maybe i just need someone to guide me back to my path.

Joel Yeo @ [5:02 AM]

Ever since i came back from Tianjin...i suddenly dun haf the appetite to eat things? Duno y leh..is like im not hungry.. but im just eatin cos i know i need to eat. Issit cos i just came back from Tianjin, or issit cos i ... I just duno...i also feel a bit down for no apparent reason. Maybe i shld just be alone on that day.

Joel Yeo @ [7:37 PM]

5 weeks have passed since i'm in Tianjin for attachment(more of a study trip actually) As compared to the 1st week here, im starting to see life..surroundings are gettin greener more birds are coming back. It is life is restarting here.. is this wat hope feels like..haha. Here got very nice birds also..u know those birds drawn in chinese poetry with sharp tails (i think is magpie) ya that one.. they were making nests for their babies in the 1st week of winter.. quite cool.

I doubt anyone will read this post since most of u know that im in tianjin haha. 'Even as the sky is fallin down...'

Bb. fyi..i'll be back on 17th april at 10+pm. If it is of importance to anyone.

Joel Yeo @ [11:02 AM]

My mindset was too immature in the past.. i should have know that there is no such thing as fairytales. Fairytales only exist in our imagination, in tv shows. Wonderful things can only happen in movies and are near impossible to achieve in real life. Im on my way to becoming more mature...whee..nevertheless, i shall stay optimistic.

Joel Yeo @ [6:13 PM]

Sometimes i do wonder.. if there is any girl that i know in the past or now.. who likes me but didnt haf the courage to tell me.. I doubt so anyway...there's nothing good in me right? Whats so good about me as compared to any other guys

Joel Yeo @ [6:03 PM]

Left ACC on tues!! Den exam over... for most of u out there who dunno, im leaving Singapore for Tianjin, China. Will be leaving on 7th march (yeap u're right 5 days after my last exam paper. I need to check in at around 6.30am at terminal 1? Ya very early right.. so i dun expect anyone to send me off.. but if u really wan.. just sms me hehe=D U guys must be thinkin.. aiya for for holiday 1 week.. but nope.. im goin for 6 weeks.. for Industrial Attachment Programme though overseas ITP is mainly studyin den play at night!!! WOO

Nvr been away alone for more than 6 weeks.. im gonna miss u guys! esp u dear.. im gonna miss u day N night =(

P.s. did i say that the temp there is -5degrees to 10 degrees? COOL RIGHT... Singapore damn hot now.. can die man.. study also can study till sweat... o ya i should still be able to use msn.. but no facebook blog and anything...unless someone haf bypass softwares! anyone?

Joel Yeo @ [10:15 PM]

Tmr our first paper loo.. All the best DARE 04.. we're gonna be DARE 3A/04 TGT WHEEeee. Exam faster end haha...

Joel Yeo @ [7:30 PM]

Jiayou for ur exams! Take care of ur health also k? =D

Joel Yeo @ [8:17 AM]

Why do u haf to push me back into the well after i took so long to climb out of it. It really hurts me to hear u say those words. U told me to turn left at the crossroad but when i could already see the end, u tell me to turn back and take the right road. Im in a dilemma

But dun worry...i'll get over it. maybe 1 night or 2night.. but i'll still get over it. It is becos there's one thing i know. My heart still tells me that i love you.

*editted*
Random thought: *At least 50% of my problems originates from u N ur exs'. This is a problem which u will nvr know how it feels. U'll nvr be able to put urself in my shoes & dun say that u know how it feels*

Joel Yeo @ [10:03 PM]

I think stress is really getting to me.. i teared just awhile ago. My mood really damn sian now.. i feel expressionless and stone-hearted. At point like this is when i wan to dump everything one side N just be alone.

iwanutoknowthatireallydomissuandloveu

FCK AEIS .. SCREW AEIS..Y must u be so boring that u wan to make me sleep

Joel Yeo @ [6:01 PM]