I want to be the guy that any other half of mine will be proud to have
I want to be the guy that any other half of mine will be happy to say "Im glad u're mine"
I want to be the fren where u guys can turn to in times of happiness, need or sorrow
I want to be the fren that will show concern when u're sick or when no one is there for u
I want to be the comedian there to cheer anywan of u up when u guys are pissed or sad
I want to be the punching bag u guys can vent ur anger at (this doesnt apply to the beast or muay thai ppl =D)


All I want is to haf at least that 1% in everyone's heart so that even if u haf NO ONE to turn to, u know that that at least there is 1 fren there for u at the btm of ur 'friend's list'
All i want is to at least be etched in ur memory even when we enter the workforce and it'll be hard for us to meet up
All i want is for ppl to like me for who I am... though i dun think i can be that childish, 'gay' or that happy when i become a full fledge adult

But u know what i really want? I want to have an other half im delighted to have, I want to have frens that i can open up to in times of happines need sorrow, frens to cheer me up or let me vent my anger when im down.

Call me ambitious, petty, greedy, jealous, envious or whatever. But i'll be the happiest guy if all this is fulfilled & i'll die without any regrets.

~fyi. this is NOT an EMO POST~
(Maybe i should put all this in my new year's resolution haha)

Joel Yeo @ [9:46 AM]

I really hope time will standstill today haha. Really enjoyed my day though i also really wanted to watch 2012=D. Did u have a great day? How i wish everyday could be like today but that wouldnt be reality right? haha

On the emo note... test in the next 2 weeks and presentation on wednesday. Anywan wan see me in formal wear? i'll be wearin it on wednesday... but u'll haf to find me HAHA.

On the wishing note... meiyi jia you for ur NUS exams... A lvl ppl jia you for ur last mcq paper =D

*Editted* The chrysanthemun(ju hua) tea today is so sweet =D. My sore throat sure cure

Joel Yeo @ [10:21 PM]

I think my body a bit problematic sia... yesterday i woke up in the middle of the night... my right arm was really in pain... took me half an hour before i can go back to sleep. I tried to numb the pain by lyin on my right hand itself... tried stretchin... but in the end i just sleep thru the pain since i cant do anything.

Anyway paiseh to anyone who call/sms me after 8.30pm yesterday. I was really feelin sick so yaa... slept till 8am today. Actually i know who u are laa

*oo ya dun forget choose ur electives guys. i chosen simulation followed by machine dynamics and lastly product design* =D

Joel Yeo @ [9:21 AM]

Why am i makin so much promises when i do not know whether if this will work out?
Why am i doing this when i dunno what the future will turn out to be
Why am i continuously cheatin myself... hurting myself over again & again...

Why?

Why?

Why?

Dont u feel that the incident liken to u in some way?

Joel Yeo @ [11:21 PM]

Today:

Went for another 10km run =D Aviation Run. Deproved by 5mins... last time 1h 7mins today was 1h 12mins. Was jogging halfway den saw this guy fainted. Hopefully he is ok. Route was quite nice.. since there are ppl in front of me... the road didnt look that straight... the worst part was actually the startin and the ending where the road was so straight and no shade at all. The route was windy as well... weather is good & QIAN i think while runnin confirm see at least 20 planes taking off =D



-End-

Yesterday:

Mini y1 had a lunch@sp. Luv them loads man! But eat awhile den fel need to go... den meiyi need to go back study le. Send meiyi back to hall since we all still haf time to spare.... meiyi hostel ar... wa lao food haven sia... den got some weird thing in her top shelf... eeyer! Cant imagine myself livin in hall... So stuffy sia! Y1 see you guys soon again! During chalet!

Thought of the day: The race taught me sth u know. During ur front 5km, everyone was joggin together but after awhile we haf to jog alone. Firstly... this scenario is likened to.. ur frens will be there for u initially but eventually it is up to urself to complete it urself.... in this case, it is up to me to complete the race. 2ndly... ur frens will nvr be there for u forever (i suppose) cherish them. *guys im not askin u all slow down for me horh! but this is really just life.. =D*

Joel Yeo @ [1:27 PM]

GUYS! MY PARENTS LET ME APPLY FOR OVERSEAS ATTACHMENT LIAO=D. Hopefully everyone of my classmate can get into the China, Tianjin & they include me, lky(my roomate =D... 6 weeks of no peace), clem, ho yin, wee shung, japheth, dan (still considering), ben(also considering) & jason (also considering). It will surely be a WONDERFUL experience... anywan wan send me off? i think my parents may send me off... but we can work things out =D

Some photos for the week:

Joel Yeo @ [9:19 PM]

Im sorry guys. I really dun wan to make u all angry over my problems and i really appreciated all ur advises. I really am thinking. Seriously.

If u really like me
- u would care for me
- u wouldnt be shy nor hesistant in sayin it
- u wouldnt keep spite-in me

If i were to let u go, would u try to keep me by ur side? I really wan to see if u're more than just words. I really do.

I will make a decision by Haji i really will.

爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上
一定会遇到
对的人出现在眼角
宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱

Joel Yeo @ [11:25 PM]

I read my chat logs for Nov and Oct ... lol y i doing this to myself sia.. Maybe i already know the reason for my emotion yesterday night. I need to keep my mind occupied.

Joel Yeo @ [4:45 PM]

Thx both of u for being there when i really needed someone esp u. Although u may not be able to cheer me up which is quite an impossible feat but the consoling was good enough for me.

It's sunshine after rain!

Joel Yeo @ [6:59 AM]

*editted*
Is it so painful to like someone.. why do i feel this way? I really thought i know you but i don't feel this way anymore. Dont be sad for me because i know it isn't worth it.

Meiyi told me " u deserve nth less den 100%. so does she"
How can i believe what u say when all u've been giving me is 50%. My heartaches real bad
I'll have to make my decision soon

^Apparently i always do things at the wrong time... first that... now this^ - Insomnia is describing my mood now

Joel Yeo @ [12:06 AM]

~300th Post~

*Since nothing really happened the past few days.. this shall be a super duper emo post*

At times i really feel like breaking down. Feel like a balloon about to burst or a rubber band snapping into 2. Everything isn't going the way i planned and i seemed to meet setback after setback. The rain this few days is also amplifying all the negative feelings in me.

Studies ain't going to well at the moment. Not that i'm saying it is going well for others but.. certain modules really makes it hard for me to study. Just can't to be on time for AEIS module. More and more symbols are coming out in circuits... but i already forgotten how to calculate them! Worried about the RWP module but there is nothing much i can do right now. Sleeping in class isn't helping me either. Haix

I still haven't got any approval from my parents for going overseas attachment. I know that just going overseas with my friends is part of the reason why i want to go for the overseas attachment but... the main reason is also the learning opportunity. Is there even an airbus assembly line in singapore? I don't think so. Even if i land myself in SIA or ST aero local attachment, i won't be able to touch aeroplane parts unlike overseas. Why can't you understand this is my main reason for going overseas attachment.

Sometimes it just feel no one understands me. It's hard to tell secrets when you have to tell the whole story so that there is no misunderstandings. Now i know why sometimes people just want to bottle up those feelings.

I do not know what is going through ur mind. Do you care for me? Sometimes i just feel that you dont care. Maybe i'm just too oversensitive... but i don't know. Even if it doesn't work out at the end of the day... i've realise some things about myself that i'm a BIT petty & possesive & i do get _______.

*Dun ask me anything about this post... cos i'll forget in 3 2 1*

+On the bright side, i finish quite a few tutorials today =D+

~EnD

Joel Yeo @ [5:45 PM]

*editted*
I'll get tired of false hopes and waiting someday

1 more post to my 300th post... i think my 300th post wun be wishin someone birthday liao.. maybe gonna be just a random outing haha

Photos photos photos...

Joel Yeo @ [12:33 PM]

Today DAMN SAD SIOL haha. Teacher totally forgotten about my comment for my RWP practise presentation den lky gf keep suaning me.... She say she dun like my face... cos she find my face a joke sia.. WA LIAO EH!!! haha

Feeling real tired past few days... i think it is just due to the lack of sleep. I think i'll get back my sleep on weekends (i know u'll say i blame u... but i not horhhh =D heex) My eyelids like always wan to close the past few days

* Thoughts of the day: I really dunno wat is goin thru my head right now & I WAN TO GO OVERSEAS ATTACHMENT! *

Joel Yeo @ [12:06 AM]

Day & night, ur name keeps popping up in my head at least once. I just cant stop thinkin bout u. Does the same thing applies to u?

3 more to my 300th post guys. I think it needs to be a damn meaningful post.. so it'll be awhile till i post again.

Unless something BAD happen...

Joel Yeo @ [11:16 PM]

Although im tired today, im quite happy. Play field soccer in school with my classmates 15 v 15 students vs lecturers. A bit crowded la... but ya. We lost ... 5-0 haha.. But i enjoyed it sia... SO FUN. Though i still kinda suck in soccer... slowly ba... i shall slowly improve train to sprint! woot!

Anthony sim quite zai siol... score 2 goals sia... power la he. Then got this yellow lecturer at my side horh... talk a lot sia...

L: "Cowherd.. nice name cowherd nice name. FYI that is the name on my shirt."

Then LKY say got one of this lecturer like so old then like scared he hit him only.. bone break haha... Damn funny la some of my lecturers! Tou ming also joke la... everytime he get the ball he woo hoooo

~thats all that i could recall for today... cos i very tired haha~

Joel Yeo @ [10:22 PM]

My certificate for prison run has come!!! If u guys cant see the word... let me read it for u. " Yeo Soon Yong Joel completed the 10km Inaugural yellow ribbon prison run on sunday, 6 sept 2009 with a timing of 01:07:30. Claireen... see! it is 10km horh... i nvr lie to u lorh. I feel SUPER happy to complete my 1st 1st 1st every 10km run.

Joel Yeo @ [9:00 AM]

A lvls coming le right? like less than 10 more days le. So im gonna wish all my frens good luck for a lvl.

*______* Jia You for 'A' lvls

Replace blanks with names
MJ: JH, Ced, Vince, Dom, Yj, Hk, Sf, Peter, Wendy, JX, SW, Josh, Reb
TPJC: Emer, SH, Grace, Hayden, JP, MJ, Sheryl, HX, Anees , WH
SRJC: Mohammad, Timothy, Khai
Rest: Heidi, Fiona

DO UR BEST GUYS & my X-e7 frens + my X pri sch frens also horh!. Zodiac Evo i haf high hopes on u guys! 加油！

*Random thought: Been thinkin... if there is no progress till the time that i've decided on, i think by then i'll draw a line & concentrate on other stuffs (not that im not concentrating on them now...) I shall just wait right now.*

Joel Yeo @ [10:57 PM]

I realised... i realised... that....





i got quite a weird eating habit... haha =D

Joel Yeo @ [7:26 PM]