Random
Random things affect our thought process unconsciously. I have realized that when we are going through certain phase in life, we somehow start relating everything we see, read, watch to our situation. We see bits of pieces of it in everything. And how a simple movie can cause a havoc in your life. Because you start relating it. Before I saw more - As an after-thought it had nothing at all that i can relate to. But at that moment it made me restless & anxious. The pace of the movie made me uncomfortable. The storyline made me restless. That sounds & voices in it made me too anxious. It took me 2-3 days to get over that. If you ask me why - i have no answer to that. I find no reason to feel so or relate to that at all. I did like the movie after all. But watching it was - well, you know what!!
Similar thing happens while reading as well. Ofcourse not all the time. But sometimes.
Does it happen to you too?
Considering am writing about this 5 days after watching it shows, I still haven’t gotten over that. And that is making me more uncomfortable. I watched other movies since then but strangely enough i can’t even recall their names. Weird! Like often!
Similar thing happens while reading as well. Ofcourse not all the time. But sometimes.
Does it happen to you too?
Considering am writing about this 5 days after watching it shows, I still haven’t gotten over that. And that is making me more uncomfortable. I watched other movies since then but strangely enough i can’t even recall their names. Weird! Like often!
Reminder to self
You don’t feel like getting up. You don’t feel like taking shower. You start getting pains in shoulder, back and head. You lie down on couch for hours. Doing nothing. And you tell yourself- “oh you can do this sometimes, its Ok to do nothing sometimes.”
But then this becomes normal and repeated feeling.
And suddenly one day you start recognising this. A feeling of deja-vu!
This has happened before.
You pick up the signs.
Do you want to go back to the same place again?
The dark lonely place. The place which keeps dragging you down and puts the blame on physical issues like pains and aches. The place where tears roll down without warning. The place where outsiders are not allowed. The place which only keeps getting darker.
No no no no!
You remind yourself of that phase. You cannot go back to that. Noone would be able to bring you back if you go there again. You do not even have those saviours around anymore.
A lot of realisation comes along with this thought.
Get up. Keep going. Don’t give power to that darkness to pull you down.
~A reminder for self in times like this.
Kyun yeh aana jana laga rakha hai
क्यों यह आना जाना लगा रखा है
कुछ पल रुको इस पार
कुछ बातें हो जाएँ
कुछ तुम अपनी कहो
कुछ हम अपनी सुनाएं
जानों तो सही
क्यों यह दिल उदास रहता है
पूछो तो सही
क्या नींद यहाँ आती है
चलो चुप बैठे
कभी सर ही हिला देना
क्यों यह आना जाना लगा रखा है।
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कुछ पल रुको इस पार
कुछ बातें हो जाएँ
कुछ तुम अपनी कहो
कुछ हम अपनी सुनाएं
जानों तो सही
क्यों यह दिल उदास रहता है
पूछो तो सही
क्या नींद यहाँ आती है
चलो चुप बैठे
कभी सर ही हिला देना
क्यों यह आना जाना लगा रखा है।
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To you…
Dear unknown,
There are countless random things that come to my mind and i feel i must share with you. Some i remember and some i forget after that moment is passed. Some good some bad. Sometimes those are just mundane daily life things. You know like something i do, or something i watch, or just music. There is a different charm in sharing random stuff with you, even if it bores you to death - which probably it might do at times. It’s a strange phase in my life. I am not sure i should be happy or sad, should i be shedding tears or just laugh and smile on random moments of joy, Or should i just ignore and behave like nothing has changed in life!
Which one of these reactions will be normal?
What is right way to behave?
And then arises the ques, should i reach out to people for help and guidance and advise or decide what feels right to me! What if my decisions are not the right ones? What if i am only thinking one aspect and not all?
There are countless such “What - ifs..” which come to my mind every other minute.
What? How? When? …too many unanswered questions out there!
Too many decisions to make!
Too much action to be taken!
Too much thinking to be done!
I wish I could sit together so I say out all loud to you. So i could hear back your thoughts.
Or may be we could just sit and have coffee in silence.
Sometimes!
Keeping the faith!
Me
There are countless random things that come to my mind and i feel i must share with you. Some i remember and some i forget after that moment is passed. Some good some bad. Sometimes those are just mundane daily life things. You know like something i do, or something i watch, or just music. There is a different charm in sharing random stuff with you, even if it bores you to death - which probably it might do at times. It’s a strange phase in my life. I am not sure i should be happy or sad, should i be shedding tears or just laugh and smile on random moments of joy, Or should i just ignore and behave like nothing has changed in life!
Which one of these reactions will be normal?
What is right way to behave?
And then arises the ques, should i reach out to people for help and guidance and advise or decide what feels right to me! What if my decisions are not the right ones? What if i am only thinking one aspect and not all?
There are countless such “What - ifs..” which come to my mind every other minute.
What? How? When? …too many unanswered questions out there!
Too many decisions to make!
Too much action to be taken!
Too much thinking to be done!
I wish I could sit together so I say out all loud to you. So i could hear back your thoughts.
Or may be we could just sit and have coffee in silence.
Sometimes!
Keeping the faith!
Me
When Snow flakes bring a message
For months, i am having major reading and writing block. I have been itching to write - something… anything - for a very long time …but nothing would come out. No words, no inspiration, no ideas, no emotions. It’s either been blank or too chaotic to sort out and give it any form. Infact no communication or sharing of thoughts has been happening for last few weeks. Some friends have been trying to reach out and talk - with little success. Some others stopped bothering or making an effort. Some i expected to be around and to go that extra mile and make some effort but in vain…and eventual pain. All that pushed me further inside the layers i had been building around already. Life became loaded with feelings of hurt, sadness and detachment.
This morning was different.
As i got down from bus to walk to the office, it started snowing. Those light tiny puffs of cotton falling from sky. I looked up and smiled. As much as i hate walking in rain, its completely opposite feeling in snow. I walked slowly. Smiling. And felt as if some load is being lifted off my chest. Those tiny soft flakes made my heart feel lighter. I wonder, how we keep looking for comfort in our loved ones and expecting them to be there. While the comfort can come in any form, from anywhere at any time. Universe sends signals in many ways! May be this is it!
May be its time to Let go!
Let go of old thoughts
Let go of the hurt
Let go of expectations
Let go of fears
Let go of anger
Let go of people i don’t feel connected to
Let go of everything that’s not letting me rise
The times now need me to focus. Prioritize and Focus!
Just look up, let go and feel light and bright!
This morning was different.
As i got down from bus to walk to the office, it started snowing. Those light tiny puffs of cotton falling from sky. I looked up and smiled. As much as i hate walking in rain, its completely opposite feeling in snow. I walked slowly. Smiling. And felt as if some load is being lifted off my chest. Those tiny soft flakes made my heart feel lighter. I wonder, how we keep looking for comfort in our loved ones and expecting them to be there. While the comfort can come in any form, from anywhere at any time. Universe sends signals in many ways! May be this is it!
May be its time to Let go!
Let go of old thoughts
Let go of the hurt
Let go of expectations
Let go of fears
Let go of anger
Let go of people i don’t feel connected to
Let go of everything that’s not letting me rise
The times now need me to focus. Prioritize and Focus!
Just look up, let go and feel light and bright!
How?
Ever heard of the heartache
That is felt in the bones
Or that choking
Felt in the stomach
Thoughts
That tear the skin.
Or Tiredness
Felt in soul
And Exhaustion
In the brain!
How do i let go!
That is felt in the bones
Or that choking
Felt in the stomach
Thoughts
That tear the skin.
Or Tiredness
Felt in soul
And Exhaustion
In the brain!
How do i let go!
Time for change
“It is not the strongest who survives, neither the smartest,
but the one who copes best with changes”.
but the one who copes best with changes”.
~Darwin
What…Why…
Ponder
And wonder
What, Why…
of life
Of relationships
Of thoughts shared
and those not said
Of emotions felt
Of dreams stitched
Of hopes
and of fears
Of giving up
Or waiting just a little more
Of letting go
Or trying once more
…
Questions not asked
Answers that will never come
And wonder
What, Why…
of life
Of relationships
Of thoughts shared
and those not said
Of emotions felt
Of dreams stitched
Of hopes
and of fears
Of giving up
Or waiting just a little more
Of letting go
Or trying once more
…
Questions not asked
Answers that will never come
Bhuul gaye
Khud se milna milana bhul gae
ḳhud se milnā milānā bhuul ga.e
log apnā Thikānā bhuul ga.e
rañg hī se fareb khāte raheñ
ḳhushbueñ āzmānā bhuul ga.e
tere jaate hī ye huā mahsūs
aa.ine jagmagānā bhuul ga.e
jaane kis haal meñ haiñ kaise haiñ
ham jinheñ yaad aanā bhuul ga.e
paar utar to ga.e sabhī lekin
sāhiloñ par ḳhazāna bhuul ga.e
dostī bandagī vafā-o-ḳhulūs
ham ye sham.eñ jalānā bhuul ga.e
Source : rekhta.org
About me
I am a dreamer...i am a thinker. I live in my own world.~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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