puzzled.

I still think there's something bothering my dear Candice, and I still can't seem to find out what's wrong. And it's really taking a toll on me. It definitely is draining to keep up with her, but I'm not complaining about that. It's just that I wanna know what's wrong and help out or something. I'm getting really upset. It's when your most loved one is going through something on her own and you feel so helpless because you don't know what is wrong or how to help. That feeling sucks the most. Honestly.

awaken.

Jesus Christ, our Savior. Who is the propitiation, the satisfaction, if you would, for our sins. And not just for our sins, but for the sins of the whole world. The blood of Jesus Christ flowed from seven places:

The first place He bled from - the blood poured from His head that day. The blood from the thorns in His skull, cleanse you from thoughts.

The blood that was on His face - He has covered the things that you may not want to face up to, because of what you've seen or heard. Know this: The blood flowed for you.

Yeah, but then, you just don't know. I've backed away from the Lord. I've turned my back on Him.

Well, they took a flagellum and they beat His back. And blood flowed from His back. It was reduced to hamburger meat that day - His back was beaten so brutally. And if you've turned your back on Him and walked away from Him, know this: The blood, the blood that poured from His back cleanses you, sprinkles you.

Yeah, but then, you just don't know what I've done with these hands.

Those hands were pierced. Those hands were pinned to the tree. Spikes driven through those hands, where He bled to cleanse you, and cleanse me, from the stuff that we've handled that we'd ought not to have handled. The stuff that we've done that we ought not to have done. Hey, understand: The blood flowed from His hand.

Yeah, but it's stuff that's inside of me, it's just things that I feel in my gut. I have bitterness towards them. And I'm angry with hurt.

Jesus wants you to know that blood flowed from His side when they thrust that spear into Him, when He hung on the cross.

Feet that walked where I ought not to have walked. Blood flowed from His feet too. Where the spike pinned Him through the feet to the cross of Calvary.

And now I realize things that I can't face up to. Thoughts that I've had that are not right, not good, not true. Bitterness inside of me. Stuff I've touched that I ought not to have touched. Places I've gone where I ought not to have walked. And I look, and I realize the seven-fold flowing of the blood of Christ. Cleanses me in every area, from all sin, and I'm free, and I'm forgiven by the blood. What can wash away my sin? Nothing but the blood of Jesus. Seven times perfection. Seven places. That's what He went through. For me and for you.

oh, happy day!

I couldn't get to sleep last night, since I heard from Alvin and checked with Swee Lee that the stock for my dear maple piccolo is here. Rushed down to Swee Lee after school with En Hui to grab it before someone else took my snare. Been waiting so long for it. But! I finally got it. And I'm wuper glad about it. A little blurry, but hey, it's still a beauty. Woots!

thankful.

The day went pretty well today. Just would like to offer up my thanks to God, who provided the means for this happy day. First off, for the good weather and pleasant train ride to school, where I managed to get some prayer time in. Though short, but I believe fruitful, and that my prayers were heard.

Had a nice little sms from alvin, which told me to have nice day and all. Appreciative of it. Then in school, though it wasn't monotonous as usual, because of the exciting stats test which I almost screwed up, it went pretty well after that, like a big load off my chest.

Took the train ride back with Joshua Chew and sis. Joshua's really sweet man. Going all the way up to Malaysia to meet up with his girlfriend. And he was saying something like love without responsibility isn't love. Haha. He's always so deep, so profound, and yet, always so logical.

Slacked at home for awhile, arranging the music bits and all to chuck into the iPod and then went off to church. This was a little interesting, coz the meeting was so informal. And Ronald was like damn crappy and funny throughout the whole thing. Haha. But whatever that was said HAD to remain with us. So sorry, whatever few readers I have, gotta keep you guys in suspense. Grin. Anyways, back to about the church meeting, I felt that I was quite useless there. Haha. Could not contribute, coz I had nothing to do with it. But sis said to go, so alrights. :) But it was just fun and refreshing, being with all my loved ones there.

Day ended well and all, praise be to God. :)

the first, of many.

Everything in my life has been righted out. Time for a new start. A new start with a finish that would end with me being with God, in all His glory. All those I've offended, give me a chance to start anew, like I've given blogging the chance to begin it all again. It's just the right timing. It's the new year's too. :)

Went for Fusion last night, and boy, was I glad I went. The assurance of being cleansed, through and through. The reminder of how much God loves and care. The renewal of my Spirit. It's all I need. Your grace is indeed sufficient for me.

Really glad for my dear Candice, for everything that she has sorted out, though I still don't know what it is. It doesn't matter what it is as long as it's all settled and all's well once more. Seeing her smile today is like being uplifted emotionally. Just continue to pray that she'll continue to draw near and seek God always. And I'll always be there, for you.