Hallelujah, I am still alive and kicking!

I have kept the same job/career for 18 months now. Longer than I have stayed/not released anywhere except for delivering pizzas.

Doing better than ever. I have been employed with a technology company since last November, working full time in the Spanish department. Ivy my 5th child was born 18 months ago.

p-doc

Going to see a p-doc this morning after a 3 year hiatus. I will let you know how it went.

4 Weeks from Baby Girl Freeman

Alison and I are expecting our 1st child (my 5th). What a joyous event it shall be. My health has progressively improved. Rare are the days that I have anxiety that debilitates.

If a doctor were to look at my resume. They would have to ask if i had the challenge of bipolar in my life (chuckle). Laughing is almost always better than crying.

I had 3.5 hours of sleep. Not good but I think it was more due to trying to sleep with a very pregnant hence uncomfortable sweet wife.

Wow!!!!

Not a bad day since August 15th. I am not sure why but sooooo very greatful. Maybe this has something to do with it. http://joe-ali.blogspot.com/

Why?

I just don't know why. It isn't mine to figure out, just to fight each day and work as hard as I can. I have a medical condition known as bipolar disorder. I am not bipolar. I am Joe Freeman and this struggle might be with me my whole life but it isn't me. I am Joe. Giving in or giving up isn't the answer. My God loves me, my family loves me and I love me too.

Hey I am back.

Since my last post many things have happened and I don't know just how to describe it. Some things were good and other were not.

A challenge for a bipolar person is to now when they are going down or up and fight w/pdocs, exercise, sleep patterns and so on. This too will pass is something that I tell myself often and I have to because being bipolar isn't easy. It is the toughest challenge that I have ever taken on (I really had no choice.). I am going to have to fight it till I reach 100 years of age.

I have been working hard to make things up for my kids. A divorce is the last thing imaginable but my kids are great and need my love. It definitely wasn't their fault. I love each and everyone of them. Zack 15, Zoey & Zane 11, Quinn 7.