I feel like I am in a stage of my life where it is time to move on from many things. I guess that is part of growing up. Sometimes I still feel as though I am eighteen and I just graduated high school but then I look at high schoolers and I wonder when they got so young and I realize it is me getting older. When I was eighteen I lived with my aunt and uncle for a short time and my uncle described this feeling to me and I thought it was somewhat weird because I was eighteen at the time but now I am in his shoes. I wonder what my young women of the ward think of me. When I was in their shoes and I had leaders with a small family, one or two kids I thought, "they are old". Well that is me now. Don't get me wrong I am not depressed or living in the past. I am so happy with where I am at. I love my family and our stage. Sometimes you look back to before kids or before this or that and remember how things were easier and more laid back. I feel like in the last few years we have gone through so many changes and had to say good bye but saying good bye means opening new doors in all fairness I should make a hello list but that isn't really my focus now. So here is good bye:
Good bye to my young adult life, I feel like just an adult lately.
Good bye to fun game nights with couples, it is just way too hard with little kids and working with their schedules.
Good bye to Aggie Village life as I call it. Those fun days when we would all hang out on the grass and chat and play games until mosquitos were eating us alive.
Good bye young, careless, spontaneous me, I am too responsible now. Have you seen that show on tv, "Up all Night" Kade and I relate to them. They have one little baby and most episodes are them trying to prove they are still young and hip but then they realize they can't do the things they used to and can't stay up late. I feel like them.
Good bye social life, it is way more fun and easy to just hang out with my cute little family.
Good bye being in style, I am so out of the loop when I just stay home with my two year old. My style as of lately is whatever is clean, and easy to crawl around in and play with my toddler. This doesn't equal fashionable.
Good bye dear friends. I feel like this one is happening often as we all are moving on from college. Going to grad school and getting jobs. This is just what happens when we grow up I guess.
Because of this I have had this song in my head and wanted to share it and all my other thoughts I have been feeling lately. Thanks for reading my brain dump. Sometimes I like to use my blog as a release. Camaree this is for you.
Each Life That Touches Ours for Good:
1. Each life that touches ours for good
reflects thine own great mercy. Lord:
thou sendest blessings from above
thru words and deeds of those who love
2. What greater gift dost thou bestow.
what greater goodness can we know
than Chrislike friends, whose gentle ways
strengthen our faith. enrich our days
3. When such a friend from us departs.
we hold forever in our hearts
a sweet and hallowed memory
bringing us nearer, Lord, to thee
4. For worthy friends whose lives proclaim
devotion to the Saviors name
who bless our days with peace and love.
we praise thy goodness, Lord, above.
I am so blessed to have such wonderful friends and it is hard to say goodbye.