A Living Angel!

I discovered a blog a few weeks ago called Pipecleaner Dreams & it really was quite by accident. I decided to visit there again today & catch up on this amazing ladies most recent blog entries.

Her words so heart felt & so beautifully written, they leave me with a warm fuzzy feeling. She is really quite remarkable. Her dedication, her positive attitude & her capacity to love seems immeasurable. There is so much to be learned from people like her & how wonderful would this world be if there were more like her!

After an hour of reading her blog, I close the window & feel quite differently about my experiences over the last few weeks. I imagine all the hurdles that she must face on a daily basis & try to compare my situation with hers. And what I discover is that it is impossible to compare because there really is no comparison. She is simply amazing!

I think to myself.... she is a living angel!

Thank you for the Years! All 22 of them!!

Thank you for the years! All 22 of them!! I am sure you would agree that it hasn't always been easy & through our shared lives together we have experienced many wonderful & joyous times but we have also endured many trying, difficult & treacherous times. It has been these less than wonderful times that showed me just how deep your love is for me. Your support & your strength at these times have saved me from coming unglued, so to speak!

I know that when I can look into your warm green eyes & you hold me in your arms all that may be worrying me at the time is lost & forgotten in those few short moments. Sometimes I don't even have to say anything to you , you just know, it is as though you can see into my soul. We are in tune, on the same wave length. I love this about you!

I remember when we were just 16 we were told by so many people that we had no idea what real love was. That we were making a terrible mistake that one day we would regret our decision. I would say the same thing to these people today that I did back then.

We do to know what love is!!

It is a feeling... a knowing that you couldn't live or breathe without this person. It is the rhythm of your heart when he is near, it is the tingling under your skin that undulates through your entire body when he touches you...even an accidental brush of his skin against yours as he passes by sends waves through your body. It is knowing what each other is thinking without a spoken word.

Love like this is once in a lifetime & neither of us were going to let that pass .... We knew what love was back then..... and still do now!! It is state of being that should never be taken for granted! Every tomorrow spent with the one you love is a gift to be treasured always!

Remembering to Live!

Oh my goodness...so many sad stories. What a week it has been! A friends old feline friend disappears without a trace, my brother becomes sick & is unable to fly home, our cat falls ill with some mysterious illness, on foreign shores an earthquake hits Haiti and thousands are killed, on Australian shores 3 children holidaying with their parents become orphans when their parents drown in the surf at Ballina as they watch on and then news of a friends friend whose life was taken much too soon. So much tragedy within the space of a few days.

It is times like this that I take stock & realise how very fortunate I am. It's also times like this that I realise that those everyday things that we stress about are really not worthy of all that time & worry. Tragedy can hit anyone at anytime & although it would not be healthy to be thinking this all way all the time,I think it is important that we realize this so as to make the most of everyone & everything, never taking things for granted.

Every breath is life giving!

Every day is a gift!

The morn of every tomorrow is a blessing!

It brings to mind a quote I heard once...

"You can't do anything about the length of your life, but you can do something about its width & its depth ... its not the years of your life but rather the life in your years!

Kirra

For years I never thought of myself as a cat person. I never had the desire to have a feline friend in my house. We have always been dog people. My youngest son from as early as I can remember had always wanted a cat. To my amazement my husband brought a beautiful little surprise home one day. A tiny little ball of fluff. So, so beautiful.

So now it's two years on & this little fluff ball has grown and so has our love for him. He has brought us so much happiness & love which is quite unexpected. I never thought that I could love an animal quite so much, especially a cat!

At the moment our little Kirra is sick. We're not sure what is wrong but he seems to have lost his sight (to a degree) & his legs on the left hand side are very weak.

He hasn't climbed or jumped up high for days & seems very disorientated. We've already visited the vets twice & we're back there again today. He is now part of our family & I hope that he gets better real soon.

Glossophobia

It is funny how a lot of us desire to be like someone else. We see in others qualities, gifts or special abilities that we wish for ourselves. Thoughts of : I wish I was thin like her, I wish I had skin like that, I wish I could wear beautiful dresses like that, wouldn't it be great if I had an imagination to write like that.

I am not sure what it is about the human condition that makes us feel jealousy. What it is that makes us want what others have.

I would be lying if I were to say that thoughts of envy have never permeated my mind. For me though my envious thoughts are centered around other peoples abilities in areas where I have a terrible weakness.

I would love to be more confident & be able to speak in front of a crowd of people without feeling like the bottom is falling out of my world. I would love to rid my life of Glossophobia ... the fear of public speaking. I have had several opportunities come my way which involved an element of public speaking & I was swift to find excuses as to why I couldn't do it!

My heart was yelling out , "Yes I would love to do that, go on & do it" but my stupid head was saying "No, you can't do that".

So it leaves me with the question of why I am like that. What happened to me that created or fed this fear?

I envy people that can stand proud, think clearly & speak with confidence in a crowd of people.

So the thoughts that come to me when I observe this in others are, "I wish I could be more like that".

Haiti!

Oh my Lord! I just heard the terrible news ... I haven't been watching T.V , reading the newspapers or listening to the radio much over the last few weeks. Tonight I decided to watch the news. I was gobsmacked at what I saw.

An earthquake has hit Haiti & leaving in its wake a broken country. I watch the footage through foggy tear filled eyes because the images I see before me a painful to watch. So many dead. There are bodies piled by the side of the roads & in the middle of the streets. Crumpled buildings that resemble nothing but piles of broken bricks & twisted metal .... . Survivors desperately seeking family & friends, picking through the rubble in the hope that they can retrieve the bodies of their loved ones, their friends or their work colleagues. My initial reaction is, "Where on earth is the help?" "Why isn't there anyone helping?" This terrible event happened more that 76 hours ago, surely there should be someone there by now. I feel so angry.

I see little babies, injured but still alive, lying on makeshift beds. Too sick & listless to even cry. I want to reach through the TV & bring them into my arms. I feel sick!

My thoughts and prayers go out to all those that have lost their lives or lost loved ones in the terrible, terrible event. My thoughts also go out to the survivors whom are now living a nightmare. Most of whom are now homeless & without the bare necessities such as water & food, they must now fight to survive the earthquakes aftermath.

BBQ with friends!

Oh what a lovely evening!

It's been months since I have seen some of these extraordinarily wonderful people. People whom I consider to be my friends.

An evening of wonderful companionship, laughter & good food! As part of my New Years resolution I feel the need to make more time for events such as these. These are the times when I feel most alive! Laughter is by far the very best of medicines for the sole. For in these few short hours, not one invasive, stressful thought entered my mind. No time for thoughts about what needs to be done, what problem needs to be solved. It was lovely!

Yes I need more of this! We need more of this as individuals, as a couple & as a family!