its my 23rd birthday today =)

23 years into this world in which i have grew quite confortably in... true to wat eugene said.. i'm gonna be in the cat y soon. yes... i'm that old... =D

Had a celebration with the power rangers and khai and shimon in clubroom today. i have a cake and apple strudle and cream puffs! all of which are good stuffs! especially the apple struddle. dear mr wenhao, shimon eddi..... everyone!!! your msg is also very impt lo.... gonna slap you all sometime. anyway... thank you... her card is simple but nicee =D. loved it. the white cross.....

it was quite a pleasant surprise. =)

all my friends who wished me... whether you are from naga, 31st, 19th, church..... you know who you all are... thank you!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

its been a good day today. met many of my relatives from both my parent's sides and they all look good. =) Thats good.

Went to my mum's side first this morning. I saw all my cousins. The 2 girls are gorgeous in their individual dresses and the 2 kids are still as adorable as ever! I really love them! And as usual, i'll never forget to take photos!

And this is a picture of us altogether... Not exactly though. My youngest brother got so frustrated by our upper gen's inability to use his camera phone that he went to take it for us. Hahah... All i need to do is to put fang fang on my thigh. And smile!!! In case you're wondering what happened in the first pic on the left, we were unprepared! Fang fang was obviously tired from the bejeweled game i let her play on my phone. LOLZ.. Both the small ones... obviously are not interested in taking the pic. Know why??? COS THEY WANNA PLAY WITH MY PHONE! Had a hard time trying to pry it from fang fang. Den Boon boon wanna get from me... I simple slided it into my pocket. End of story. =)

i believe some introduction is required. fyi, these are my brothers and cousin! ok i'll use the centre pic. from the left in green and white, thats my brother who's in army now. not bad worx! officer. good for him. to the right is me.... and my second youngest cousin fang fang. she's the one i love most. maybe cos i love kids and she's the cousin that i literally took care of since she was 3. yup! she came to live with my family for quite a while cos my uncle and his wife is visually challenged. anyway, she's so sianz cos i took my phone from her.. haha.. moving to the right somemore.. is fang fang's younger brother, the youngest of us all, boon boon. Haha... He is seriously increasingly adorable as he is positively more "happy" than her sis. ok... people has got their pms times.. the one carrying her? She's huiting... i call her ar ting.. She's the youngest before fang fang and boon boon came along and joined us. And she has grown up a lot... To be very pretty. on the right... huijun! she's the "ar girl" of my family... my counterpart. cos i'm "ar boy" hahah... she is pretty now... haha.. =D next pic on the right. my youngest bro who got so fed up. haha... all 7 of us...

Me trying to take pics when we're rushing to other place... All my cousins. I just realise.. i din manage to take one with boon boon... hahaha... ok i'm biased.... next time i'll grab him. =)

here's some more pics my bro has taken. see a future apple lover? hahaa.. this is called passing the influence... though i'm not there yet.. compared to somebody... =D

what can i say... when you're young, you're always cute no matter what you're doing... **not you khai!

hope to bring them out sometime... =D

i was late for church today.. =( no excuse... i forgot its combined service today.

todays service is an eye opener. its chinese and english together! amazing to see a chi and a english pastor administering to a congregation in 2 different language, one after the other. seems almost like the mandarin pastor is just translating what the english pastor is saying. oh well... guess that has to happen huh.

today's sermon is about hope for the hopeless. this sermon seems so familiar to me... yes. i read about this from my daily bread before. see my post below about my qt and module allocation problem and you'll understand. of course, huan tendency when you've heard the sermon before, get distracted. but i did listen here and there k... =P

my thoughts:

we, men by ourselves are totally hopeless. sometimes we do have some tricks up our sleeves, we make things work, but there are always times where we are lost for words, aspects where we are totally hopeless in. whenever that happens, god is the only solution to problems where we are "gone case" in. all you have to do is simply just ask. for me, it really works... just keep the faith and BELIEVE. well it works for me! =D

my friend once said after we prayed for a fellow BB officer whose going into the army. whenever things goes hard on you, think of god and pray for help. there is no need to start your prayer with "dear heavenly father lord" or end with "in jesus name i pray, amen". there is really no need for all these when you are at your breaking point. all you need to do is to close your eyes and talk to god... in a way, i do agree with him. these prayers, we deemed them as emergency prayers when time is of the essence.

no matter wat, i believe god answers to his peoples calls, their cries..

its the new year now.. hopefully, all things get better in this new year =D

You can - David Archuleta

Mmmmm....

Take me where I've never been,
Help me on my feet again.
Show me that good things
come to those who wait.

Tell me I'm not on my own.
Tell me I won't be alone.
Tell me what I'm feelin' isn't some mistake.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Save me from myself, you can.
And it's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Baby, when you look at me,
Tell me, what do you see?
Are these the eyes of
someone you could love?

'Cause everything that brought me here,
Well, now it all seems so clear.
Baby, you're the one I've been dreamin' of.
If anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Save me from myself, you can.
And it's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love...

Only you can take me sailin'in your deepest eyes.
Bring me to my knees and make me cry.
And no one's ever done this,
Everything was just a lie.
And I know, yes I know...

This is where it all begins,
So tell me it'll never end.
I can't fool myself, It's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
If anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Show me that good things
come to those who wait

haha.. ok this is the back of my new phone!. the nicest i can find from all the gmask album. hmm... happy colours huh!. i like it with my white background. now i have lotsa applications on my phone! can play, can listen, can call... i'm so gonna regret if i have gotten omnia. =D

school started and i haven really gotten into the study mood. maybe cause its th cny ba. i have to remind myself. the last sem 2 was horror. chuiied cos i slacked too much. will die if i dun buck up soon. second lower pls dun run away further.

today's daily bread is about true strength to choose not to retaliate. for me, i was taught to take revenge in a very bad way. not retaliate so i can be in a position to point my finger. cos all injuries on me. maybe thats how a lawyer would have behaved. i believe there's more to not retaliating... and its called a forgiving heart. the chant for it? forgive and forget.

hmmm... forgive. more often than not, i forgive easily if the wrongdoing on me is trivial. however, if i ever were maligned or something, i tend to just forget about it and let the matter rest if it is ok for me. one example is by my mum. oh well.. family squabbles. you know... can a person just do one of the 2? as i agree that its really hard to do both at the same time, especially when you wanna resume normality fast. normally, i just pretend that nothing has happened. and if my mum wants to play war, i'll simply treat them as transparent till they wanna talk again.

conflict is something that i try to avoid. however, its what makes us stronger too. i dun argue if i'm in the wrong. thats cos i'm in the wrong. but if not, i'll usually try to talk it out and if i burst, i'll start shouting cause i know i will not lose and if i ever start shouting, i'll make sure you're dumbfounded. so far, only my mum has the ability to make me really really pissed. oh well... what are mums for?

who am i to recieve such love...

today is a good day. i made the promise to do my daily bread again. and with her reminder, i remembered to do it today. all my close friends knows that i have been having so much problems with my module allocation. it is indeed very frustrating and that unrest has been in my heart for the past few days since round 2A of bidding. to be frank, i was really worried.

when i was about to step out of my house today, something struck my mind. yes.. i did not bring my daily bread. in fact, i din even remember when i left it. thats how backdated i am. as i walked to the mrt station, i called the sci department, no one answered. i really needed help.

as i got on the train, i decided to wait till its 9 before i called again. so i took out my daily bread and began my qt.

Jan 14th.

verse of the day: Do not fear therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows. - matt 10:31

gist of the qt: when we face problems, fear may cause us to wonder if god is aware of our situation. Jesus's teaching assures us that God cares deeply and is in control. His tracking in our lives will never fail.

i have tried to keep my problems to myself. i may rant on and on about it, but i do not expect any help. i just need an avenue to release my frustration. what struck my mind is that, i had never prayed to God to help me through this problem before. i have been trying to solve it with my own power. and evidently, we are helpless without our father. if i hide my feelings from my friends, its just that i do not want them to worry for me. but then why do i hide my feelings from my father? do i think its too small a problem that he might feel irritated to be bothered? or is it that i just think i can solve it on my own? God seemed to be bringing me back again as i might have strayed a little. I haven really thank him from the KL trip. Yes i've lost my phone, i have gotten food poisoning... But looking at a diff aspect, God had allowed the to happen, but he planned for me a route, that minimised my losses to a point that i can smile and still say, god is good. eddie and wenhao will understand what i mean.

after spending some time to read the daily bread standing, i called sci. this time, i got my reply. i was pre-allocated! something went wrong somewhere else. at the moment, i was really thankful. and i was beginning to see the light. God is helping me out already.

still a bit worried, i got my mind off the issue and backtracked.

Jan 13th
verse of the day: i will speak in the anguish of my spirit. -Job 7:11

gist:God wants us to come to him with our complaints. If we march through life pretending to smile while inside we bleed, we dishonor the relationship.

this struck me even more. its like this qt compliments to today's qt. maybe, its God's miraculous way to teach me something, something which i have been practising... it was like a light shone througha door in the darkness. i followed.

Jan 12th

verse of the day: Jesus said to him,"Assuredly, i say to you, today you will be in heaven with me." - Luke 23:43

gist: Do you know someone who seems beyond help today? Perhaps you think you are without hope.(that really applied to my feelings for the past few days) The God of the Bible specialises in giving help to those regarded as so old, so guilty, or so weak as to be beyond help.

These was the qt from this monday to today.i really regretted i din come to God for help earlier. i believe with his powers, i would have had the module long ago.

as usual, i did my fair share of calling and emailing today. finally... by God i have got my CM1121 already. In my CORS and they are fixing up my IVLE. Thank God.

i just finish downloading fireproof today. i've watched it. i've teared. i really liked the movie. it taught me how to love.

http://www.fireproofthemovie.com/main.php

its a christian movie. a movie which i have been waiting for. and it answers my qns which i had posted to daniel. how do you love god and another person at the same? it seems to be mutually exclusive.

58:10 gave me a new revelation. a stronger affirmation. the meaning of love. how can someone show love ove and over again when they are constantly rejected? answer is... you can't love her cause you can't give her what you don't have. its not whether i get something out of it. its not whether she deserves it or not. God sent his son down to die for us even though we were sinners.

i love God. and never denied him. another phrase i loved. "i know where i'm going when i'm gone, i just dun wanna go by getting hit by a train." i know where i'm going too. at least i hope i am.

i'm like an empty vessel at the start of the day. and now i feel as if i'm overflowing spiritually. i thank him. Amen! there's a lot i know, but there's even more in which i have to learn from his word. i promise i will do my daily bread. i promise.

on my secular life,

i played squash today. nv moved much though. taught eddi and wendy a bit. i hope everyone will learn it. cos its one of the sport i love the most. and its not boring.

school's started and i'm not really in the mood to study yet. next week i will start studying. but i'll listen to lect!

iphone's coming tml! but my line's porting only on the 16th.

and my claims are coming in soon. by the grace of god, i'm getting what i deserve. i'm so glad. i did not upsize my loss in the police report just to make a bigger claim. the temptation was there. a parasite waiting to pounce on me. i stood my ground unshakened. i held my integrity. and i'm proud to say that.

lotsa thoughts went through my mind when i was watching fireproof. its really a good movie. alike its counterpart, facing the giant. its 2 movies that should be bought. i will get them to spread the msg. =D

hope everyone learnt a bit at least from my entry. =)

我的心想唱首歌给你听 歌词是多么的甜密

可是我害羞我没有勇气 对你说一句我爱你

为什么你还是不言不语 难道你不懂我的心

不管你用什么方式表明 我会对你说我愿意

千言万语里 只有一句话能 表白我的心

千言万语里 只有一句话就 能够让我们相偎相依

Arr crap... My chinese is getting weaker. I have no problem speaking in mandarin, writing in chinese is now. First day of school. 8am lecture. straight 4 hours till noon.

Today's a mix of feelings. I should do my daily bread. Or rather... remember to do my daily bread. its the first day of school! all of us who's on the mc trip wore our superhero shirt(except weijie) -.-" and we attracted quite some attention. woah! not bad. i really really had fun with my clique man. my freshies... my buddies.. no to mention the stunt i pulled in which louelle went along with. hahaa.

i'm superman today!

on the down side. i haven being allocated my cm1121 yet. crap. so many emails shot. and balloting was today. screwed. see what happens tml ba...

i admit i had lost my flame for engin club these holidays. especially when i know i wont do well for the semester after all the work. i had not studied so much before. i swear. the flame doused even more when i feel damn sick in church camp and after that, i just wanted to take a break and rest. that is why i din really do much for the mc trip. thank god lawrence was roped in.

the mc trip was a good thing. i'm not a good multi-tasker. i serve in church, i'll forget bout club stuff. and i'll need time to adjust back. the mc trip provided a good path for me to go back to the club. i'm personally accountable to nat, and i'm responsible for wende. that is the chain of command. After church camp, i found myself sought of detached from the engineers and more close with my BB officers. thats not a good thing. i wanna be close to both side. but they always pull in different direction 180 degrees from each other such that i have to be splitted. thats not good too. when i saw guo quan's face asking me to be duty officer for a parade, i felt so bad when i turned him down. its just that i no longer really recognise any of the boys. too detached from the senior section such that an immersion course is required.

These 2 weeks without any tutorials and labs will provide me with a chance and time to think.

I got to know that wende is doing up the noticeboard today. i'm really glad he has the initiative. i'm right about him. he's quiet but he works. and that is why i tell myself i cannot let him think that he's alone and his boss doesn't care. so i try my best to support him. the mc trip has rekindled my passion for engin club again. its especially strong when i saw everyone in their own superhero shirt. it made me wonder. i was really crazy, but RIGHT to suggest that we all buy a shirt each. Though not all mc members have the shirt, i'm sure the unity of the club has strengthen a lot.

where can you see this? you'll ask..

i so sure that as long as anyone asked for an mc outing, we'll have 80 percent of the attendance and on top of it, we'll have the friends of engin club joining us! i am having my whole clique in engin club literally. lets see.

naga: eddi(VP), me(HonA), wenhao(RagVPD), kinloong(Rag Sec?),yiling(oweek comm)
not to say siqian, sara, sebas and many more. we're all in engin club.

hydra: all became mc members. lawrence a friend of engin club. even xuelin and gwen

my freshies:
oyster: tengjin, john, shuyi, liwei, chun kit....

omgosh.. all my friends. my big big family. what would i have becomed if i din join naga.

these are the people that kept me going in engin club. wendy was so sad when we always have our outings on her rehearsal dates. hahaa.. ouch... khai organising mc sports day, zihong asking whether we wan to dine not when me lawrence and wenhao already reached clementi on our way home. this are what tells me that engin club is strong. this is also why BB 19th coy is strong! we're never alone. i'm sure i wont leave wenhao or eddie alone. not to mention louelle whom i literally brought into the club. =D now i feel so contented.

i wish i had a rocking chair. ponder on life. take a rock on the chair. write down my thoughts. just like now. maybe this is why people cry when they graduate.

so many things to say.

haha~ this is what khengsoon do when he's got lotsa of time and wants to do nothing at all.

drums rock! soon soon..

i need to get my module tml. guess i'll sleep already. good night everybody. good night to you.

the sunday before sem starts. sad huhh... holiday's gonna be over just in a couple of minutes.

had a fruitful day today. church as usual. joined the bunch of BB officers group one the right as usual. the question which i last wondered had been answered today. the question was, "if ever i disappeared from church for a sunday, would anyone even notice it?" i'm glad that the answer is "yes". At the very moment i sat down, guo quan was like," where were you last sunday?!" Hahaha... I was in KL... And i went on about the loss of handphone and stuff.. Apparently they tried to contact me, but i lost my phone. =D Maybe i made a grand entrance or something, or i just did something funny unknowingly, kenneth and andrew's gfs burst into laughter when they saw me. hehehee... i brighten up everyone's day. hahah..

there was holy communion! i went up for prayer. started going up last year. still struggling with my decision for baptism. th forms in my room for 1 year plus since i took baptism class le. someday somehow...

after church i rushed down to woodlands. its time for naga potluck cum movie marathon at si qian's! We had a food overkill again. Seriously... 20 otahs, 20 nuggets, 14 donuts(all diff flavours), 3 bottle (crysanthemum, green tea, peach tea), noodles by si qian's mum, and a trifold(if thats how you spell it) by navin. Yum.... And of cause. I'm super full now. Since afternoon. Haven had my dinner which i think can be skipped already. heheh~

we rented 4 movie... watched 2.. very tiring ar... without chips and all. watched harold and kumar and Thank you for smoking. we had Made of Honour and I am Sam also. But oh well.. too tiring. 2 rounds of Bang and a camwhoring session brought us to 9+ at night. Its like... Time flies la! Si qian is really cute when she first became the Sheriff at her first game. hahaa..

all in all... this has been the naga outing i have been waiting for. though its not all, its still quality time spent with the naga. i love naga!

si qian's going for noc le... maybe we can meet up again before she flies off. hahaha... ok!...

school's starting tml. i haven go my cm1121 yet. worried. *prays* maybe i'll need to go mse office le.

school's gonna suck this sem. 8 am lects on mon and thurs. sucks. but i'm gonna be faithful. i promise to work harder this sem. =)

sleep le.. good night everyone. superman shirt tml.

=D hahha... to someone's request... time to do some updating...

seems like i haven really done much about my church camp huh.... Hahaha... The theme of the camp this year is The Exodus.. To those who has never touched a bible before, its the second book of the bible. Yep.. Thats a start for everyone! Now you all who reads this knows... ok let me see...

Pictures speaks a thousand words! It doesn't entails the whole 4 days... but its the gist..

Amanda and Weiyong Me! HockAnn, Pam, Guo Quan, Nelson

The sermon....... And the cool cool drums!!! Hahaha... Chris dropped his sticks on the LAST drum roll... HAHAHHA

BERNICE!!! The super cute girl! She really brightens up my day with her ever cute "in her own bubble" stuns. "sir yes sir!" The last picture on the right? Its the campus doing the algorithm march. Dunno where the video went to. It sure looks nice!

The people rejoicing when we popped the bazooka! Haha... Just after that finish the algorithm march. They went estactic! I see also happy. =D... There dear exodus.... Our promised "fireworks". And regarding the last picture... I dunno why and when i looked stunned. Hahaha.

The camp's a sweet 4 days 3 night... Its a moving camp as i have said so many time... Sentosa, Camp Christine and the YTSS... God has been faithful to us... Answering to all our prayers... And looking over us. No casualties, no real need for wet weather programme and i'm sure everyone got to know the book exodus even more through life experience in the camp. That reminds me..

Bernice," Hey! Whats that!!!?

Me," Frogs! You're gonna catch one and take picture with it."

Bernice," So cute!!!!" as she carries one around.

The camp had me sick for almost everyday. The complete flu package. Sometimes i just feel like giving up and go and take a rest. But good thing i went on. I gained.

After that was the Engin MC trip to KL!!! 4 days and lotsa fun!!!! Total ownage with the engin ppl!!!

first day

It was raining... So we went to petaling street(aka chinatown) to shop and makan.. Everywhere's leaking la! And i'm in slippers. Dunno whether to be happy or sad. LOL... Anyway... We had this wanton mee which we think we had been chopped... 5.30 ringgit. weird amount to pay but we never really care also. cause it converts to 2 plus sing. =D And there's the last picture of my so long beloved phone. You've served me well.

Highlight of the day. I got pickpocketed. Lost my phone. Had my second police report of my life. In a foreign country somemore. Went to malaysian tourism centre with wendy, eddi, wenhao and khai. thanks friends for being with me. very much appreciated.

second day

Sunway Lagoon... Omg... The rides had me screamed to my mum and dad and maybe my whole ancestry in anxiety. The tomahawk and the pirate ship. Both which went 360. Not being scared is never a real feeling la! But its damn fun. Hahha... Scared but fun. I must be crazy. Center pic shows all who conquered the tomahawk. =D. Including the survivors from the 360 pirate ship.

We went to the wet part of the lagoon to play. The slides were... BAGUS! Especially the one with the blue slide. The double slide which was higher was like omgosh... good thing i din sit with someone big... dun wanna fly out of the track.

After sunway was the shopping time at times i think? hahahaha.. being camwhores... here's the third photo...

third day

Paintball = painball. Had a long time looking for cabs to takeus to kuang... finally did and we had fun! and of cos pain. HAAHA.. Its like back to army days... Take cover!!! And amazingly... Louelle fitted into my army pants. My belt no need to use liao. total 7 shots on me. 3 on top of my head, 1 on the back of my head, 1 on my finger and 2 on my back. out of 4 game??? or 5..

After that we went shopping again.. Camwhore in the life... Played bang in our room.... lol... can make out whether this is 2nd or 3rd day... bt all the same... everyone on my bed. lolz..

oh i bought my court shoes!

and this is the ownage bak kut teh we had!

last day

pure shopping... Got another pair of everlast sneaker and a superman shirt! everyone's got one. hahaha. had this crazy idea to et everyone one so we can wear together.

oh well... after thats a long ride to KLIA where we checked in and had KFC! Thanks to weilei's craving and my hungry stomach. hahaha...

Leaving on a plane every year is my wish. i love taking flights! haha~

Bad thing the food poisoning i had after i touched down... And i'm getting my iphone! Coming next week though... So i'll wait.... yet again....

so next time!!! off to my maggi mee liao!

new year... met up with xinyu to catch up. ahahha.

went to suntec today... haha... the shop selling movie posters caught my eyes...

maybe a new hobby? collecting posters? ahhaha.. they're nice and... but they're like 35 bucks OR above above each. crap... i have no place to place them too. hahah

haven really thought of new new year resolutions. haha.. will think of it soon!

ouch.....

yup... the picture explains it all. again... thank goodness there were no cars behind. 2 bikes though.

hahha... same incident happened. kit jammed brake suddenly. i had to jam too. so i flew as usual. =)

no worries kit. =D i'm ok. hahaa.

new year le! everything will be better right? hee~