Awaiting His coming...

In this wait for His second coming, the event is actually a progression of events in which the gospel must be preached. The coming is not one singular miraculous event but rather a series of events that must happen first before the coming of the saviour and the judge.

In the wait for His coming, one has to cultivate in oneself the 3 characteristics: Hope, Grace, Trust.

Everyone is waiting for their time to come where they will stand before the ultimate judge of our lives. Lets face it, in one way or another, we're sinners. His standards are so high that He considers evil thoughts to be adultery and intentions to be murder although nothing was done. With such a high standard, there is no way of saying confidently that we are saints and free of sins. In fact, if one is able to say that, he might have lost his way in some way or another already.

Everyone hopes to go to heaven someday. Many can proclaim that they are not afraid of death as they know where they will be ultimately when they die. However, can anyone even be so sure of that? Frankly, i am not so sure myself. I hope the doors of heaven is open to me. That's all actually. Before our judge says so that we belong with Him, the only thing we can surely assume is that we have a higher chance of going to hell than stepping into heaven. We might not have done any mortal sins, but our words, our thoughts and our actions or inactions are enough to break His heart. 

The fear of the judge is one aspect that keeps our paths clean in life. The next is loving Him and trusting Him. If we think we're good enough to step into heaven, that will be the first steps towards complacency. We should keep in mind that we're sinners all the time and we should watch our ways of life carefully.

Expectant Hope

This hope entails 2 aspects which is a patient watch and a sure outcome. We all know that the eternal destiny is to be with the Lord. 

James 5:7 says that we should be patient till the Lord's coming. Why should we be patient?? The answer is simple. The journey on this wait will be a long and gruesome one which is going to make us disappointed and sad. There are many trials which we will go through and this doesn't even include those challenges posted to us by the evil one. Our faith and trust is tested and our minds starts to play tricks on ourselves. The only thing we can do really is just to keep a patient watch for His coming as there WILL be signs of His coming. 

We should never be distracted by the well-being of people who are not believing and focus on what is important, the eternal life that will be waiting for us at the ultimate end. 

This wait is indeed a wait akin to that of a farmer for his rain. A farmer needs a autumn rain for seed germinations and the spring rain for maturation of his crops. Without rain, his plants will not grow! Thus, everything has its time and sequence. We wait and trust that God will send His rain and when it comes, it will be after a series of process of preparation of our hearts like how the farmer will plow his fields and sow his seeds even though he is never sure when the rain is going to come.

We are all waiting. But it does not mean that we simple stand around. There are must to be done. Gospels have to be preached, many lives should be saved. Evangelism is important.

Forgiving Grace

Beloved, do not grumble against one another, so that you may not be judged.  James 5:9 

Grumbling is an act of blaming others for setbacks and misfortunes. Its very common in our world that we learn blaming since we gain consciousness. When we detect an impending beating from our parent, the first thing we do is to blame whatever possible thing that could have caused that thing to go wrong. Be it an animated object like your siblings or an inanimated chair, we can always put the blamed to someone else. If you realised, we never got away from whichever trouble we caused and that is because they know we are guilty! Its the same in this case. God sees everything. In fact, He sees beyond our actions. He sees our hearts. Our intentions are what we are judged on. So keep them pure or risk being judged.

Everytime we grumble, He knows. He listens and the only thing about this communication is that we only talk. The thing is, LISTEN! This communication should never only be about us complaining to Him. It should also be us stilling our heart and try to listen at what he is trying to say! Well... I treat my time with Him as a complain session sometimes. But after that, it is only right that we leave have trust and leave everything in His hands. Complaining doesn't mean that i point my finger at Him and ask WHY?! 

There are many things that i do not understand and thus, i ask. I ask for enlightenment, for wisdom to understand, the knowledge to teach, the humility to keep myself humble, a big heart to forgive. I try to listen. Sometimes i get my answers, sometimes i don't. Time is just not ripe yet.

Stedfast Trust

Lastly, we should always be stedfast in our faith. Just like Job, we can complain but we should never turn our back against God. He is full of compassion and mercy. We should be truthful. In our ways, we should never have the need to swear! People should be able to take our words or real and not doubt us. We speak of the truth and would never try to push the blame. We should always trust that He is coming and that if we are truly repentant, there is always forgiveness for our sins. Trust in Him, trust in your faith and never let that trust wither.

This is the wait. We should put on our eternal perspective and be still. He will come to judge the living and the death.

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There's Holy Communion today! I always liked having the HC. It signifies the cleansing of sins as well as reminds me of the initial reason why we had our sacrament of baptism. And that is because of His love for us.

The bread and the wine. His flesh and blood. Thanks be to God.

God Bless,

khengsoon =)

It is a good day out from early in the morning till night today. Ben and Wenhao was already at woodlands at about 0955 and my guess is that they are guessing that i might be late because i stay the nearest. In the end, i wasn't, i reached at 0958. =) We were on time on target... Haha..

The weather today has been kind. We swam from around 1030 from all the walking to the swimming pool till 12 

i guess? At least i finished my 16 laps, 1.6km... Haha... Woo... And we got a bit of the tan and absolutely no sunburn. It has been such a long time since i swam.

I had a stroll down orchard road tonight too. From dhoby ghaut till orchard, the light's were nice but not splendid yet. I wonder when will the christmas light up be as it would be nice to stroll down admiring the lights again. I sure hope this is not all as the trees at the roadsides looked really dull and half empty. =(

There are a few shopping centre which really did a splendid job doing up their decorations. Paragon and Ion are one of the best. I think the one i like best is this one below.

Ngee Ann City's Christmas Tree

This is one huge as conventional christmas tree which everyone should have! =D I mean, of course not that huge but a scaled down one. I din't go close enough to see but i am guessing the tree might be fake. However, how cool is that if the tree was a real pine tree?! It will have ants and all but oh well, just look at the lights and ornaments! The most important feature of the tree? The most awesome star on top of the tree which in this case is huge ass. I am awed by this and what puzzles me even more is how they got it in the shopping centre and all the decoration efforts would be mega huge.

Paragon Front

Paragon Tree

The front of paragon looks really nice which all the static displays. I haven't seen Tang's and Wheelock's decorations yet. It is many a times that i just wish that my eyes can be my camera to the world, and that when i blink my eyes, i'll take a photo instantly without the need to care about the effects of lights and aperture size. A blink of an eye, a photographic memory of places, displays, decorations and lastly, people. 

It is an unexplainable joy that i just wish to share with everyone and that these feeling is so exuberantly filled with happiness and goodness that this can actually cure diseases. When the dates draw nearer, we can actually see roadside performers caroling and that the spirit starts to become tangible in an audio sense complementing the present visual marvels. Besides performers, churches would actually carol along orchard road too and there was this once where YCC(A) did caroling performance. It is just such an enjoyment to stand there and listen to them. 

The birth of Christ... The good news.. The best thing that ever happened to mankind. The ultimate grace of God. I can't help but wonder... If its already so awesome on earth, how more else can Heaven be? I'm excited to know =D

Presents and toys always go hand in hand. Thus, i went to The Toy Store and guess what i found?!

Hudsy!

YES! HUDSY! I got so excited when i saw this as it reminded me of Joey Tribbiani. Its his favourite sleep plushie and he can't do without it. Haha.. I used to have a present too! Its a huge garfield cushion with the shape of  garfield's head and it had always been my pillow. I guess... Everyone will use to have their own versions of Hudsy at some time of their lives. There was a few bean bags too and the price was like ~$500. Total craziness. This reminded me of something.

"HEY! I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED A BEAN BAG TO RELAX IN!" I just never got either the money or time to look for one. 

Nevertheless, good exercise today, good popeyes chicken and nice stroll along orchard road... I can do that as many times i want.. =)

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Even the simplest and most bo liao text brings about a message.. And that is simply the message,

"You were on my mind."

That is all...

Christmas Magic...

Its just 15 more days the Christmas day and its the day i have been waiting for annually in the whole of my life. Yup, although CNY gives me more holiday days, my favourite is still Christmas...

Glee reminded me of something precious. Everyone used to think Christmas was the most magical time of the year and that Santa used to be the person we're waiting for every year. Come to think of it, i really did think that Santa was going come on Christmas night and give me presents! From as early as we can remember, Christmas used to be this most awesome holiday where i would spend with my favourite aunt for 3-5 days..

Being the naive little boy, i used to think that Singapore would snow in the Christmas season. Its actually just because i din't have any air con in my old house and that the entire of my aunt's house is air conditioned. So, i literally took the coolness as the result of snowing outside of the house! Silly i know, but everything falls in place for this little doted kid named khengsoon or as they called, kenken.

There would be a Christmas party which i was too young to comprehend. There would be a log cake for sure, champagne, i forgot whether there was turkey and really lots of food laid up on the table. There would be music and lights are dimmed or off and all that lights up the house was the Christmas decorations. The tv was gigantic for that time as it was 48 inch and at that time, it was really a big deal to me. We did have karaoke and we sang with LDs which were like mega huge. My all time favourite, Michael Jackson. =D Yup... There was a time where i would take up the mic and sing out loud and all my aunties would cheer me on.. =) Of course, that was before my voice broke.

Not to forget actually was the presents that i would recieve! It is actually not a lot that i recieved as i think we do have this secret santa thing where all the presents would be place under the huge ass Christmas tree which was awesomely decorated. Haha... I did recall believing that Santa would come and deliver my presents as i would do my best to be a good boy throughout the year. Maybe, on a certain level, besides from my mum's cane, Santa was a great reminder that i should behave. Why do i remember this? The sole reason was that i did remember wanting to sleep on the sofa bed beside the Christmas tree so that i can talk to Santa when he comes. However, i always slept before "Santa" would put the present down under the tree. =D

As i grew up, the magic disappeared slowly bit by bit due to reality that strikes us in the face, real hard. I got to know my "santa" for a few years on as they would pass me the present. I have always remembered Auntie Sharon and Uncle Ah Shi3. It is really funny though.. I used to auntie sharon as sharon auntie... So whenever i told my uncle who gave me the present, he would be so confused as he would have thought that auntie sharon's auntie was around.

It is really what you don't have that makes you so fascinated too. The Christmas tree was one beautiful thing that i am really sad that i do not have one. I loved lying under the tree and just look at the dazzling lights and decorations. I would help though! But i was too little though. =) Thus, it would be my utmost aim to get one big christmas tree next time i have my own house. One which i can decorated and lie down under of. Exciting! =)

The meaning of Christmas changed further when i grew up further. The true meaning of Christmas is no more about Santa but about Jesus. Christmas carols starts making perfect sense in every aspect and that as a Christian, it is one holiday that is most important to me besides my initial love for the season already.

However, i will not talk about the meaning of Christmas now. I'm just basking myself in Glee carols and enjoying the festive spirit now. The magic of Christmas should never be broken. Its the festival to be for friends and family to come together and just enjoy each other's company and forget about all that din't end up well before. Its the season to be jolly and celebrate the fellowship we have with each other, man and woman, believers and non-believers.

It is the season that i love most. I'm the happiest man in this season. =D

*smiles widely*

God Bless,

khengsoon =)

U-turns

The first week of holidays had officially started. The air of freedom, is indeed, very refreshing. There isn't any projects or tests for now to bog us down with its fog of dullness. At least for now, all i have to think about is what time should i go into lab to do my FYP. No rush for results for presentation, i can do my labs properly with adequate rests already. =)

After missing church for a Sunday, things feels a little weird. Its like i haven't been to church for quite a while. I guess its the exam stress and the constant school going that makes church going seem so "special". Today was different, Luther hall looked much more spacious as compared to before. Weird.

DG was fun today. Oh wait. There wasn't any DG to speak of in the first place. There wasn't any notice from Boon Chun that there isn't any DG today and thus i assumed as usual that it is going on as usual. So... I dragged Chun kit along. Well, if i have to grow my branch wide, i'll start by sheltering kit as he is literally and figuratively closest to me. Well... Realising that there isn't any DG, we went for breakfast! Amazing, Chun kit wasn't worked up cause i called him to a DG that never happened. Haha.. Guess that is what 10 years of standing by each other gets you. =)

Well, having no materials, no praying sessions, no worships or praise, we did still have our "DG". Just the 2 of us. We simply catch up on our lives, shared about our atrocious exams and projects. Discussed whether we should play squash after church or just go home and play DotA. Well, it is like this, every sunday that we seem to have our fellowship. There was this part of the conversation where i thought it was really funny.

KS,"Wa.. I felt so lethargic this morning that i din't feel like coming to DG.. But bo bian, commitment... And i called you here with me also... LOL."

Chunkit,"I felt this way this morning also! But the reason why i came is because i'm scared that you'll be angry."

When i heard this, i LOLed and almost fell onto the floor. This is like so weird to hear la. Well, i guess he is the only one who is really worried that i might get angry with him. Haha.. After all, he might be the only who i had scolded before. Haha... Guess he is the only one who had seen me really mad before. Of course, Jack and Tim had to come to his rescue and cool me off. LOL.

DG never happened. But this fellowship, priceless.

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Pastor Soh had this weird while meaningful activity during sermon today in church. He had this bowl of water, signifying the water used for our baptism and that we are to dip our finger into the water, mark a cross and do a U-turn around him and go back to our seat.

The sermon title today is: U-turn to God.

We're all on this journey in life where we are supposedly in our own ways walk towards the gates of heaven where God will be waiting for us with His gates wide open. Technology improved and we start to drive. We start to go faster and faster and at the same time, we get distracted at many junctions in our lives that we start to make the wrong turns or fail to turn to the right direction. There are even times where we are just traveling blindly and we have no whatsoever sense of direction as to where we should be going towards. It is when we are ignorant of the good news that we are blindly driving on our road of life.

To us Christians, we had our first major U-turn in our lives when we were first baptised. Our baptism is a baptism of repentance where we truly reflect on our past sins and seek forgiveness. This major U-turn sets our course in life straight again for the kingdom in heaven. This is a realignment which is put in place by our faith and His grace. Through baptism, something else happens too. That is the gaining of a new character in us. This is one which us unique to us Christians as God sets in place a new character in us, one that strives to be Christ-like. With this character, we strive to follow each and every one of Jesus's footstep so that we'll be worthy enough.

On this route of faith, there is a need for absolute trust in Him. That is what true faith is all about. Our faith will act like our concentration on the route. If we lose faith due to distractions like temptations on the road sides or blockages on the road, we will start to deviate from the original alignment to God and thus we will need another U-turn again. Sometimes, distractions are not the only things that causes us to deviate from our alignment to God. It is the rear view mirror in our cars. It enables us to look back at our old ways which might seem to be much more enjoyable with all the temptations lined up for our pleasure and enjoyment. This doesn't only happen when we are on the road, it happens exceptionally frequently when we are about to make the U-turn. We may see that our old ways is much more attractive then what we are going to go through after the U-turn and we'll start to doubt our decision. This is why at U-turns, we must be sure and stedfast so that we can accelerate away from our old ways and embrace the new saint way of living. We cannot let ourselves be stuck at such junctions.

If we are stuck at U-turn junctions, we should start examining ourselves. If it is that we are U-turning because we know of the imminent coming of the fire of judgement and thus we're running towards the waters of baptism and confession, then we are hypocrites who do not believe strongly in the gospel. It will all be a show. However, God doesn't see our appearance or our actions, He sees our heart and He examines it carefully. It is at this time that we must remind ourselves that our old ways of sinning might be delicious, but it leaves a really bad aftertaste if you go back to those ways.

In our each and every lives, we should always strive to examine ourselves, our thoughts, words and actions. We should not play games with God in a way that we might think it is ok to commit a small minute sin because there will be confession on sunday in church. This is the wrong mindset. We have to learn to deal with these sins one by one as these are the little things that seems harmless yet are the most harmful as they will only deviate you a little by a little. You will not notice that you have already gone off track.

Treat confessions in church/service seriously and never be late for it. It is the time where you humble yourself down in front of God and repent for all the wrongs we should have right. It is the time when we ask for forgiveness and from there learn from our mistakes. 

I think it is very important to remember the feeling we had when we were baptised. It is the day where you have been renewed and born into the Kingdom of God. It signifies our baptism into the family of God. It is the day when we are marked with a cross on our forehead and from then on became the church of God. 

Marking the cross on ourselves doesn't make us Catholics. Marking the cross on ourselves is a tradition of the oldest of Christians before the Roman Catholics. 

U-turns.... It doesn't matter how many U-turns you had taken before you reach the destination. All it matter is that you reach the destination, the gates of heaven, justified.

This is the second sunday of Advent. Christmas is soon! =D

God Bless,

Khengsoon =)

Band-Aid

There are so many things is life that you just want to get them over and done as soon as possible even though you know you may have no time to prepare for what is to come. This is very vivid in the description of final exams in NUS...

After 3 years of NUS, exams are still a pain in the ass none the less. However, what comes after that is usually tonnes of happiness that lies ahead especially when you have the right company. =) Yes... You people reading this are the company. =P

Band-Aid is the first thing that came to my mind tonight as i start this post. Thanks to louelle, this post is not called plasters because of your story of band-aid and plaster and erasers and rubbers. Yup. I am definitely trying to rip off my band-aid now. Sadly, i can only wait till friday before the band-aid is off. On the up-side, the band-aid is 3/4 out already and what's left is just some minute pain before full release from the piece of sterilised cloth.

The festive occasion is upon us! Its a time to commemorate and celebrate the birth of our Christ, Jesus our Saviour. Well... Let me see... I'm probably gonna bask myself in so much Christmas carols that i'll be able to sing all of them out by Christmas. One other thing beside attending Christmas services, i LOVE looking at bightly lit Christmas trees! When you see them, its like all your troubles will go away. And that is why i loved to lie down under the huge Christmas tree which my aunt has in her place with all the presents under it too! Its just an amazing feeling. =)

Christmas is near, Mousehunt is celebrating Christmas too with its event, i am sort of high on the festive spirit right now. =D And partly maybe because i have been awake since 0630 this morning. Ok.. I should rest soon.

God Bless,
khengsoon

Final week... =)

Humans are habitual animals. We do things in our own ways. We get used to how we do things. We gathered information on cause and effects and when the outcome is good, we tend to repeat our actions.

Church camp is this weekend and because my exam is in this period, i can't go. =( There isn't any youth service today as they moved to vision farm for it. The feeling is kinda, weird that i din't go to church. Oh well, it be my turn to do announcements next week. =) Guess i got used to doing that too.

The exams are coming to an end. I have 3 more papers and i can't wait to clear them. One is tomorrow (29th), tues (30th) and last one the fri (3rd). Did all i could. All in His hands now. =)

Christmas is coming. Ar.. My favourite season of the year. Can't wait to bask myself in tonnes of Christmas Carols, worry free. =)

To those who are study having exams, JIAYOU!

To those who finished theirs, Happy Holidays!

God Bless,
khengsoon =)

Puzzled...

Today has been good. My paper was ok. At least i think i will do just fine. I caught my nugget mouse yesterday. I caught 2 dragons today and i caught my Balack on my first cheese in Balack's cove. I am very happy today.

However,

As soon as i caught my Balack, this notice came on my phone's screen. It says,

"Tonight when you sleep, i will be watching you from afar"

I never know my phone can do this, my wifi is off and it is definitely not a sms. All i can do is to dismiss it. If anyone played a prank on me, thanks and i do not appreciate it. =( It is creepy.

I only hope its you, my guardian angel...

The prayer our Lord Jesus had taught us...

Our Father, who art in heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come,
Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven

Give us this day our daily bread,
and forgive our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.

Let us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil,
for thine is the Kingdom,
the Power and the Glory,
Amen.

The battle is starting...

The word has been passed throughout the ranks. All marched in fresh and eager for battle against the evil one. Yes...

In this semesterly battle, everyone does their best and polishes their sword and armour. Mentalities varies according to the different ranks. Some rushes in with the mindset of being slaughtered and yet does their best anyway. Some are ready, they are going in for a slaughter, but are they ready?

Besides this battle, we as human fight our own battles everyday constantly. We encounter countless situations whereby decisions are to be made in a jiffy and when made, a part of you degrades in the eyes of God. Stand firm, no matter what. This looks easy but in fact this is the hardest thing to do when you want a long-term spiritual health. Most of the time, when you think that you are standing firm, you might have already been led out of the trench of God that you had dug in and had become lost. This is where you need someone, a mentor, to call out to you saying,

"kheng soon!!! come back!!!"

As i shared in dg today, i think this is the hardest thing to do. The world is a scary place where many things can lead you astray. We need someone to look after us as we watch over them too. We all need a spiritual compass that will ultimately lead us back to our trench where we will stand firm till the day when the evil one brings the battle to us. Then, we will be ready for what may come and that light will be restored. People say that as long as there is light, there will be shadows and thus darkness. My reply is....

"No no no... His light is like no other light. Shadows will flee in the face of His Holy light. It will be so awesome that all we see are just light and that everywhere we stand will be Holy ground." =)

Ephesians 6:10-17 talks about the armour of God. Besides those, there is one more thing which i think is very important. It comes with the helmet actually which signifies the our salvation from God. One very important aspect that i treasure very much in me. That is, the mark of the cross on our forehead.

This mark, which is marked on us on our baptism is the mark which tells us that we have been saved. That we are now the church of Christ, His witnesses in which He had annointed in us. I had always thought that i still do not have a calling, but i believe i am wrong. I am one of His witness, a first generation Christian who has so much to think about and share. This mark on my forehead is forever. This mark is the mark on us that protects us from evil. This mark will shine so brightly when the evil ones wants to touch us and when they try, they will be incinerated by our cross which is fueled solely by our faith in God. This is true and that without the Gospel, the Word, nothing would have been possible.

I like to picture myself as a soldier of Christ actually. I am a boy. Though i do wander a lot out of my trench, i will strive to take our my spiritual compass, my little red book. I am not interested in petty fights of words. I am not interested in winning in seeing who is more eloquent. I admit withdrawing and keeping my mouth well disciplined is actually a bitter pill to swallow. But, stand firm like what i have learnt. I will defend myself as i defend my friends.

Yes. Just like fighting in exams, my spiritual armour will be ready. Each piece put on with a prayer. Each one signifying an annointing for God. Everyone's cross shining brightly. When judgement comes and hell breaks loose, we will be ready, we shall not even shudder a bit. We will bring glory to Him. And with that, all my friends will be there... That is a vision.

As i get ready for my spiritual battle, the worldly battle starts tomorrow. I think i am prepared.

A word of prayer for my friends and me....

"Dear Lord... As we fight internally in our selves against the evils of the world, let us not forget that there are always resources that we can get from You. Let us not forget that you are there always. Some of my friends had already started their first paper or some had already ended, Lord let us have faith in You that no matter what, You will provide. All we need to do is to be faithful and dutiful, and do all that we can to prepare for Your rain. No matter our grades, good or bad, we will give you our thanksgiving, for it is what we deserve and what you had allocated for us. Since the beginning of time. Thank you Lord. Bless me! Bless my friends. Bless the whole world to find your love. Amen."

Music and lyrics.. =)

Dance with me tonight - Hugh Grant

It's been so long

Since I've known right from wrong

Got no job, sometimes I just sit down and sob

Wondering if anything will go right

Or will you dance with me tonight

When the sun departs

I feel a hole down in my heart

Put on some shoes

Come down here and listen to the blues

Wondering if anything will go right

Or will you dance with me tonight

I'm looking at you

You're looking at me

We're the only two off the dance floor

Do you see what I see

Two broken lives working in harmony

Might make for a decent time

So get up and dance with me

I know that it seems that the grass will grow 

Better on the other side of the barb wire fence

But that other side is not in sight

So I'm fine with what I have now 

If you'll dance with me tonight

What's the point of life

If risk is just a board game

You roll the dice

But you're just hoping that the rules change

What's the point if you can't bring yourself to say

Things you wanna say like 

Dance with me tonight

There are 2 songs in particular which i loved. One is mentioned above, Dance with me tonight and Don't write me off (Below). These are the genre of songs where i clique with the most. There can express what i keep in my heart the best. =) They're slow and easy to sing. Maybe cause i'm from the 80s too =)


The association of dance in this song really do have an impact on me. I guess it is the same thing that happened for Shall we dance too. I think i associate ballroom dance with a loving relationship a little too much. Its is most prevalent in waltz which explains my unexplainable attraction for waltz. In a dance, the guy will lead and the girl will follow. That is like how God made men to be. The guy assuming his role and taking the lead while the girl follows him. There's not need for words but just eye interactions. Throughout the entire dance, all is said and done with every smile and giggle. Its sometimes just marvelous when you see that couples can just look into each other's eye and laugh out loud like they just had the most amazing conversation ever.


A love life is just like a dance. Wherever one goes, the other will follow. There may be accidents on the waltz of life but guess what, your partner will always be there to hold you up as the waltz continue. That is why we, the guys are like the frames showing off our partners. Besides showing off, we're there always to hold them up, for the better and the worse. In a waltz, all will start off wobbly and incompatible. Nevertheless, it is our job to make a choice to choose our partner. We will not live forever for eternity starts only when we see Him. =)


God puts 2 persons in His very own hands, 1 on the left and 1 on the right. The 2 persons are unsuspecting of His greater plan and looks only forward and not at God Himself. It is when He puts both His hands together that we'll turn around and ask,


"Is she the one for me?" Only then will our face light up with the brightest smiles ever and run towards Him for a hug.


I loved this quote from Shall we dance. Its from the character who played Richard Gere's wife. She said," We need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on the planet... I mean, what does any one life really mean? But in a marriage, you're promising to care about everything. The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things... all of it, all of the time, every day. You're saying 'Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it. Your life will not go un-witnessed because I will be your witness'." 

I'm not the most charismatic person, not the most music talented and definitely not the best singer around. I am, however, very pro-romantic. Maybe that is why i might be just a little captivated by Music and Lyrics. =) It's really just a normal simple love story. However, its the expression of feelings in the show that captivates me. Sort of why i loved Shall we dance too. =)

Don't write me off - Hugh Grant

It's never been easy for me

To find words to go along with a melody

But this time there's actually something, on my mind

So please forgive these few brief awkward lines

Since I met you, my whole life has changed

It's not just my furniture you've rearranged

I was living in the past, but somehow you've brought me back

And I haven't felt like this since before Frankie said relax

And while I know, based on my track record,

I might not seem like the safest bet

All I'm asking you is don't write me off, just yet

For years I've been telling myself the same old story

That I'm happy to live off my so-called former glories

But you've given me a reason to take another chance

Now I need you, despite the fact that you've killed all my plants

And though I know, I've already blown more chances

Than anyone should ever get

All I'm asking you is don't write me off, just yet

Don't write me off just yet

Music and lyrics... Works wonders too huh.. =)

Free..... to study.... =)

Milestones after milestones over. The semester is coming to an end and i would think that this is the worst semester in my whole 4 years ever. Maybe, it is because this is the most independent semester ever and that i have never felt so left on my own before.

For all my semesters, i always had people doing lab together with me, going to viva together with me, doing projects together with me. This semester, well.. there are still group mates but none of them are closer friend anymore. No shimon who endured IA with me, no Eddi who endured countless vivas with me, no sebas for me to make fun off.... Oh well, guess what, i actually survived with the mse cohort. LOL...

FYP presentation was really crappy. The profs asked questions that totally had no link to my project.. They really had the cheek to ask me where's the materials sci aspect of my project... -.-" Pls profs.. You can smoke us in lecture, but for Q&A, pls don't make me lost like you are.

Well.... Recovered from the strains from all the projects, it is time to study hard!

Call out for grace....

FYP presentation..... I'm ready.... I think i am ready.... I hope i am... =)

I rehearsed.... 9 minutes for a 10 minutes presentation.... I wrote down answers to questions i am spotting for my Q&A... Hmmm....

I just pray grace with be upon me tomorrow... Amen. =)

Last round of the fight. =)

First of all... Jiayou ks! Jiayou everyone! =)

The end is near. The final battle looms ahead. The toughest where we can easily lose heart. Its here.

Almost all the milestones in the entire sem has passed! WOohoo! What's left? Hmmmm.... FYP presentation! Friday... 2nd last person of the cohort. I think the profs will be too tired to ask anything also.. Haha.. Cross my fingers.

Anyway.... I'm glad today. =D Lab reports and test down too. I'm on schedule... =)

Jiayou everyone!

Thanksgiving: Test being so easy and though i made a silly mistake, still glad that its over! Woohoo!

Stand firm....

Take comfort in our Lord Jesus Christ, for He is here, to comfort and strengthen out hearts. =)

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Solid Ground

He is the rock, the neverchanging rock on which we are standing on. Uncle Geok Seng mentioned something that is true. How many of us can say with much conviction that God loves us very much?

The foundation of our faith is purely on one thing, Love. =) It is when we start to love God so much that faith becomes a by-product. It doesn't come with much knowledge of the Word, it comes out of pure love. To stand firm in faith, it is important that we have a solid bedrock that we can stand on. If not, we will just fall even if we're not pushed.

This bedrock is the kind of emotion bedrock He had provided for us. Its is something out of divine love that links us to Him. This entails complete trust in Him that aslong as we love Him, we will be in His keep. It is not simple but yet, it is not hard. There is no need for very much reasoning, just a thirst, a hunger to get to know Him more and that to remember what God the Father had done for us. He gave His only Son up to wash away all our sins. ='(

What does this mean? This mean that while we were rebels, while we went against His ways, He still had us in His mind. This is the active grace of our God. We din't choose Him to be our Father, He chose us even when He knows that we will go against Him. How wonderful is that? His active pursuing love mean that there is constant sanctification by the Holy Spirit and that we are constantly saved by the Truth. His love is everlasting and like a father to his child, He is always concerned. All we have to do, is to respond out of our love. Simple enough =)

To be able to respond in love, this will thus result in pure, real faith. This faith will thus be as strong as your love for Him. This is where you know, that your bedrock, your faith is firm. With this, you will know that, you love God and you can in turn exclaim without any reserves that,

God loves me very much!


Resolute Hold

He called you to this through our gospel, that you might share in the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ.

2 Thessalonians 2:14

Simply put, we are chosen by Him to be called into His glory. There is no other way we can share His glory. We are the chosen ones of whom He has to complete His works on. Through His word, His miracles and His annointing, we are following a path which He had set forth for each of us. There is only this way which His kingdom be glorified and of course we can stray too. We're sinners after all. However! YES THERE IS A HOWEVER! He will not give up on us! =) He will never let His works go unfinished! He loves us very much. It is till the point where His love is so much that it seems wasteful to be put on us.

All we have to do here, now at this place in wherever we are to do our part to let God do His work on us. It is simply done by holding on tight to the teaching. It is a damned difficult thing to do if you realised. But be sure to hold on tight with all our strength that only when we do not have any ounce of strength left, we fall. But fear not! For His love will never allow Him to let us fall. He will catch us. =) Believe me =)

Never try to ask yourself whether God will catch you if you let go. Do not question His authority. All we have to do is to hold on tight, and pray hard for grace and i am sure He will be there.


Bracing Grace

The last part of this series... Divine brace and active support. This is the part where God comes in when we are weary and can no longer stand. He comes in with His braces that will help support us and keep us standing while we recuperate. =)

This is His eternal encouragement in our stand and from this, we recieve hope that we will never be alone. These braces are never mean for us to be lazy and thus they will never be always there. It is neither that they will be late or missing when required. This is His master plan. His encouragements comes in time when we are in need and that this timeliness is constant. This in a way shows His every active and persistent love for us as we are always on His mind. =)

This active support involves God the Father and God the Son. An entity who you see no form and one who we are reminded of when we see the cross. They are our source of strength and comfort. They should be the source of our unfaltering confidence.

Summing everything up, standing firm in faith can be thought as a very difficult thing to do and yet, it might not be undo-able after all... Think about it... With our love for Him, all we are required to do is to hold firmly! He will provide the bedrock on which we stand on and when we are weak, He'll come with braces to help us. How great is our God?!

Brothers and sisters! Hold firm to your faith by renewing your love for Him everyday! Encourage one another and help each other in our walks in life. You'll never know that we may be God's braces from one another. =) Be annointed!

Lastly, start your prayers everyday with a word of thanksgiving! There is always something you can give thanks for. Loving God will be as easy as ABC. =)

Prayer request: People! Pray for me! For i will have my design presentation on monday and fyp presentation on friday! I have a test on tuesday for my tissue engineering too! Gosh... O.o I know i will be alright. But yup! Pray for me!! =D

听说

梦里寻她千百度， 末然回首，那人却在灯火燃煽处。你到底是我在寻找的那个人吗？但是，在我内心为何有哪么大的不安感呢？这么简单的我，有这么难明白吗? 我在说什么，你到底听得到吗？我内心深处在呐喊着什么，你难道不知道吗？

Movie 1: Chronicles of Narnia - Prince Caspian

Well... Chronicles of Narnia is well known to be a christian movie. Kudos =) Throughout almost the entire movie, Aslan was deemed to have left and "forsaken" the Narnians. The Narnian kingdom was lost and their kings and queens weren't around to defend them. Not even Aslan.

When the children of Adam and Eve came back, the kingdom was lost. With the people attacked and killed, the Narnians retreated so deep into their hidings that they were thought to have been extinct. Lucy was the only one who saw Aslan over on the other side of the cliff in one of the scene. She exclaimed loud and clear that Aslan was back! But to little acknowledgement as she was thought to be seeing things. The whole movie went on with the siblings waiting for Aslan to come back and save them, but little by little, they lost faith.

There was this scene i was awed particularly. Its when Caspian almost helped the witch escape, with a drop of blood. The siblings stopped him. But with the great invasion imminent, King Peter became tempted when the witch offered to help to fight off the Timurinds. The Witch was in this block of ice which trapped her in and that Peter was swayed by the power of the witch.

Here came a sword! Struck into the very heart of the witch in the ice prison and the whole thing fell into pieces. There stood King Edmund. He destroyed the witch who was the one who led him astray. He saved Peter from the temptation. Behind the broken ice prison was the stone cast image of Aslan on the wall.

This was a vivid painting of the lack of faith and patience. The devil tends to make use of our worldly situations and tempt us into his powers. He offers immediately solutions which seems so tempting and that all we need to do is accept his help! However, this will also mean that we will become his slave, so dead in sin that we will start falling away from the Way, the Truth and the Life. Besides hardening our hearts with so much satisfaction with our worldly powers and possessions, he can too, instill guilt so heavy that when we are burdened with this guilt, we become too ashamed and think that it is impossible for us to turn back to the Light.

Aslan, here represented the Way, the Truth and the Life and the witch, the devil. Aslan din't do anything to stop the witch from tempting the siblings, as like Him who is most high. He is always there, but He lets you make your own choices. He is always there looking...

The picture painted in this scene is marvelous. Let me be patient for His works on me for i will be too ashamed when He has to say to me... "Ye who has little faith!"

Never lose hope. Not seeing and yet believing... That is faith. =)


Movie 2: 听说

This is a beautiful love story where love and the art of communication comes together. It doesn't mean that there isn't any misunderstanding. In fact, they got into a heated quarrel. But... Well... Maybe Hmmm... Its simply touching when they found out that they can hear each other. Here i quote from the movie:

爱情跟梦想都是很奇妙的事情，不用听，不用说，也不用被翻译，就能感受到它。


2 great movies! Everyone should watch it. =D

Every tribe and every nation

I just watched a video on dailymotion on Christopher Hitchen debating with William Lane Craig on whether God exists. Its like watching a boxing match totally, and i'm definitely supporting William!

Aethists always say that there isn't any proof that God exists. Thus, no reason to believe that there is a God! Well... There isn't any proof that God doesn't exist too! Does that mean that God exist? Its like a roundhouse punch from William on Chris.

When its is Chris's turn to post a question, he asked," Are there any christian denominations that you think are preaching the wrong things?" William said that of course there are denominations which he thinks is preaching wrongly but everyone's not perfect, even he might hold the wrong thinking now.

I think...

One important issue he made is that though there are many differences among Christians, we are still ONE Christian camp with many different bethrens underneath it. We may hold certain minor differences in thinking, but the one King who we serve is never doubtful. He is Jesus Christ.


World Youth Day is a darn cool thing... Louelle always say that ours is in the form of Festival of Praise. In a way, yup i agree with that! However, it is not that close too. Imagine Christians of the whole world come together! Youths of every nation and tribe.. People you see, like japanese, chinese, russians, north koreans! When i hear this from Shimon, i am indeed overwhelmed. Yes i agree with him greatly. Imagine people from these nations whereby their religions are so strong and yet you still see catholics from these countries. Imagine North Koreans being Catholics, i mean... HOW COOL IS THAT?! That their god is not Kim Jong Il??

I am waiting for the day to come... I want to meet people from not only other denominations, but also other countries! It would be so touching to see Christians from these countries cause you know that it is just so hard for them to bear the mark of the cross and yet still live strong! Festival of Praise brings Christians from all denominations of a nation together, yet we dun interact that much! We listen to sermons and sings out heart out during praise and worship. It is not satisfying enough for me. 3 days ain't enough.

It should be a festival you know... Like for a whole month for carefully planned events! Everyday has got sermons in every single church. There're different activities like prayer meetings or testimonial sharing. There can be talks by speakers all over the world! This can last as long as a month! Merchandises will be so cool and Christian bands from all over the world can be invited to perform and lead worships! Magnificent churches can be opened up and let the Christians be awed. There will be so much interactions. I mean, if the Catholics can do it, why not us too?

I am guessing its because we do not have a single figure head like the Pope for Catholics. But it doesn't really matter doesn't it? When all churches come together, and when we are all together for a purpose and when that is to glorify God, what is impossible?

We speak with different languages and tongues. We come from different places. BUT.. We are not building a ladder towards heaven, we're gathering together to worship Him. WILL HE NOT UNIFY US? We will be so harmonious that the whole world will come to know that He is indeed our God. Imagine all our Bishops come together and for a month, millions and millions of Christians come together to say," We are all as one... As a family in His Holy Place..."

I don't know why i am so emotional. I guess i would be so happy if .... You know.... Everyone gets to come together in one place and that i would be part of it.

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Title: Recieve the Power

Every nation, every tribe,
come together to worsip you.
In Your presence we delight,
we will follow to the ends of the earth.

Chorus:
Alleluia! Alleluia!
Recieve the Power, form the Holy Spirit!
Alleluia! Alleluia!
Recieve the Power to be a light unto the world!

As Your Spirit calls to rise
we will answer and do Your Will.
We'll forever testify
of Your mercy and unfailing love.

Chorus

Bridge
Lamb of God, we worship You,
Holy One, we worship you,
Bread of Life, we worship you,
Emmanuel, we worship you.
Lamb of God, we worship You,
Holy One, we worship You,
Bread of Life, we worship you,
Emmanuel, we will sing forever.

Chorus

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I guess.... There will be this day... One day there will be this miracle.

Life's choices...

Week 12 is coming to an end and that also means, my projects and presentations all all coming to an end. =) Not to be too happy yet! But ya... I'm sorta prepared for the rest of my presentations already. Whats left? Q&A session for design and FYP interim presentation. Slides are up. Whats left is some rehearsals by myself =)

I keep telling everyone this... "Who says year 4 is the slackest?!" That is something which i came to terms with since i stepped back into school for the start of my last year. Year 4 isn't slack at all. Throughout the whole semester, it is filled with punches and blows to the face so hard that i just want to go straight to the MSE office and ask why is our curriculum so screwed up. I'm pretty sure sebas agrees with me on this. Even shimon thought he was in depression last last friday. These deadlines are like milestones that we have to get over and while waiting for the time to come, we have to fight the neverending battle of trying to perfect our work and presentation slides.

Here is a quote from Rocky Balboa.....

"The world aint all sunshine and rainbows... Its a very mean and nasty place and i don't care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you permanently there if you let it. You need to know that nobody is gonna hit as hard as life, but it ain't about how hard you hit, its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward, how much you can take and keep moving forward! THAT'S HOW WINNING IS DONE!"

Be willng to take the hits and thats how you get things done!

Well.... The last leg is coming soon... The exams and after which the timeout is in effect where it'll be time to recover from any injuries.

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Many people overspiritualise the decision of whom they marry. Instead of realising that God lead us by providing wisdom and allowing us to make our own choices, many people wait for a mystical experience that will tell them what to do. It is your choice....

-Harris

Reformation day...

Thanksgiving: Christ, Lord Jesus... You are great.. =)

Woke up this early morning and a thought flashed in my mind....

"There's no dg today... Chunkit's not attending church today... Maybe i can take the hours in church and stay at home to slack instead..."

Clearly, i was being plain lazy and din't want to get my lazy ass off my bed.

"No..." I told myself... "Going to church is not an obligation... It is my sanctuary... Where i get my peace with Him..."

And so i dragged my lazy ass off my bed and played music on my phone.

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Today is Reformation Day. By today, I mean 31st Oct. It is the day where Martin Luther nailed the 95 these on the door of the castle church in Germany. He had lots of questions about the proceedings of the church then and wanted answers from the council. The church needed to rebuild the St Peter Church. Thus the need for funds. The church wanted offerings from the church members and thus there was this selling of indulgences too.

Indulgences were letters signed by the pope to absolve sins of christians completely. The more you buy, the more people in your family benefits fromt his absolution. This will in a way save them from purgatory time and let them go to heaven directly. We as Christians, do not believe in purgatory.

In the 95 theses, Martin Luther touched issues that were touchy. The most important is the 62nd theses...

62. The true treasure of the Church is the Most Holy Gospel of the glory and the grace of God.

Most christian teachings teaches justification by grace through faith alone. This is what divides us from Roman Catholics. No deeds or good works will justify us. It is only through Jesus Christ himself that we can be forgiven.

Anyway... It so happens that Reformation Day falls on the 31st of Oct, the same date as Halloween. Ok... Halloween is a pagan festival so they have no link. Martin Luther chose this day to nail the notice, the 95 theses maybe because he wanted everyone to see his questions when all they people came to church on the next day, the 1st of nov to celebrate All Saints Day.

Anyway.. He was excommunicated and thus the divide began.

This is the history of our church. My Lutheran church... Don't get me wrong... I do think all churches are the same as long as they teach the right things. It is just that seeing such rich history, i am fascinated. I see my pastors wearing albs and i thought to myself," HOW COOL IS THAT?" Seriously... Its especially cool when their sash colour is red today. Its cause the liturgy colour today is red. It was always green before. To be wearing the robes outside and walking will be a bit weird and WEIRD. But in church, things are different. I think its really cool to wear the robes. Not anyone can wear that k... It really shows your anointing and your calling. Besides being a shepherd for fellow brothers and sisters, its really a kind of spiritual fufillment.

I guess its really like what shimon said... Its the calling that is important. I guess my spiritual fulfillment will only come when i figure out my calling.

The huge wooden cross in from of the sanctuary above the altar always looked magnificent. It gives me the feeling that whenever i am troubled, i can run to it and seek it out as my hiding place. Probably said this a thousand times... =)

So i pray.... That not only me... But everyone shall find their calling when they are ready... To take up our christian duties. Amen! =D

Imagine me without you...

No i can't imagine that. Maybe my world will just crumble instantly if i do not have you to rely on. Maybe, i will become a devil in disguise. Nahz....

Personal cultivation is maintained by constant reminder. Patience... Applies to everything else... That includes giving my fyp mentor her chance to complete her sentence. I was very impatient with her cause she takes quite some time to complete her sentences because she cannot express herself properly in english. *guilty* Guess its a bit rude too. Thus, i remind myself constantly.

On my fyp, i got quite fed up today in lab that i almost blew up. At 4 temperatures where crystallisation were supposed to happen, my samples screwed up. All 4 of them!!! Spent about 1 and 1/2 hours to figure out that the melted polymers were flowing in between the slides which disturbed the entire crystallisation process. On the brightside, i found out the problem. =)

Here's something i wonder. Issues or things between 2 persons. Shouldn't there be a limit to how much you share with others? Haiz..

Nevertheless... Its being a fruitful day working in lab... Wenhao and wendy are real good conversation companions. I do not need to explain everything down to the last details which can be pinpointed as wrong. Haha... Well... Orlulu is good too. =)

Thanksgiving: Good food, fyp results that din't go wrong that much. =)

Work work...

Thanksgiving to Him who blessed my day. Nothing special happened. It is only right to give thanks to Him. =)

Just a thought...

Just like minions, we students from NUS strives to learn things from books that might have already been outdated. We do not give up on knowledge in our ways. We strive to be the best in each of our courses and departments. A simple distinction can be seen in between Chem Eng and MSE. In Chem eng, everyone do their best to pass their exam. Passing alone is already a task that seems impossible. However, in MSE, passing is never quite a problem. The only thing is... we need to get as close to full marks as possible. It is as though it is all natural that we should know all that is in the notes.

Don't get me wrong... I am not complaining.

The point i am trying to make is that in our different ways, we struggle to gain knowledge. It may be till the point that we are studying just because we want an edge against others. We want to be better. We want to say that we know more. We may no longer study because we're interested in the subject. Then again, who would be interested in subjects like thermodynamics?!

Haha... People always say that when you study, remember to study subjects that you are interested in. This doesn't necessarily mean that you'll like the entire package of what you think you like. It comes with cons as well. Nevertheless, i do agree that finding motivation in something that you might be interested is something much easily achieved as compared to something that you are totally turned off by.

Ok i'm rambling.....

Sometimes we have to slow down our pace in live and ponder... What do we really want to do in our free time? Shopping? L4Ding? Eating?

or

Playing music with real guitar? drumming? keyboard? Enjoy the scenaries... (iLight at marina sands) Maybe its reading about something interesting like the history of the church. Maybe its just spending more time with someone you like. Talk about interests... Talk about what we think... Talk about our perspective in life. What we believe in...

Well... It is time for me to say good night to the world now. =) FYP lab tml!

Bless my day tml. Bless everyone who i know.. Grant us mercy and peace so that we do our work efficiently. Glory be unto You. =) Amen...

Busy but fruitful day...

A day of thanksgiving, safety training was a simple enough and completed my first set of data...


0730: *yawns* gosh... Its a monday... *changes alarm to 0800*

0800: Argh crap.... Gotta go lab.... *plays music from phone*

0830: Outta house....

0945: Started on first sample of the day in IMRE.

1100: Safety test... Passed =)

1130: Not hungry and no one to eat with... Back to lab for second sample...

1330: Finished crystallisation study on 4th sample.... *stomach growls*

1400: Found Sebas doing design proj in pavilion. Sat down to eat my 2 kou rou bao and packet of strawberry milk.

1500: Design meeting.

1600: Design meeting with Dr Xue.

1730: Found Sebas, Shimon and Greg for dinner at pepper lunch... again... =)

1900: Do work in E1 classroom with Sebas.

2115: Result analysis for the day's lab done. Met Clar, Hong and George to go for dinner... again.. Khai and Seok came along too. =) but seok din eat.

2200: Honey milktea, Rojak and Popiah....

Finally now.... Its a good thing that i am busy. Eng prof paper submission is on ths wed. I think we're quite all set for submission which is a good thing. On the Nov 3rd, there's a eng prof and fyp presentation to prof double whammy. Somehow i'm the least worried. 8th Nov i will need to submit my FYP presentation slides. So happens on that day we have our design project presentation too. Then, on the 12th, it'll be the FYP presentation.

Well well well... I know i will only have my peace when i'm focused on work. So i shall work...

dear Lord.. tell me what to do...

A.S.K

Firstly... dear Lord... thank You that by Your grace, we have showers that took away the haze that has been plaguing our air.


"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you"

Matt7:7


I asked for humility to be granted on me yesterday. To my surprise, God replied me in sermon today. =D Its been so long since God had done miracles for me or had spoken to me. It was exciting today. Felt like my pastor was really annointed and that God was speaking to me face to face. =)


"For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted."

Luke 18:14


For people who do not own a bible (aka wenhao, george etc), let me tell you a story. The name of this story is called The Parable of the Pharisee and the Tax Collector.

There was this time when 2 men was going towards the temple to pray. One was a Pharisee (respectable religious leader) and the other a tax collector. In the temple in the presence of the tax collector, the Pharisee started to pray...

"God i thank you that i am not like other men - robbers, evildoers and even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all i get."

But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up at heaven, but beat his breast and said,

"God, have mercy on me, a sinner."

Jesus said,"I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted."

Many of us will agree with what Jesus said at the end of the story. However, how many times have we all been so proud and clouded in our judgements of others that more than often, we judge them according to their deeds and not their hearts. In the first place, who are we to start judging people? A common struggle in me was an inexplicable urge to poke fun of huimin (xavier to you people who do not know her name). I can't say that i had rid off the urge completely but i do smile and say hello when i see her.

As what we had seen from the story, God looks at the heart of men, not what you did. Deeds, good or bad are already a thing of the past. God sees the heart of repentance. He was a heart seeking forgiveness. He holds dearly the future of you being in His kingdom. He exalts you who are humble in His presence.

Even though this is taught in a spiritual sense, this applies the same to our daily lives.

1. Do not boast of our achievements.
2. Do not be impatient and finish other people's sentences.
3. Listen more and speak less.
4. Pass no judgement.
5. Be loving and forgiving.
6. Exalt those who done well as a form of encouragement.
7. Do not let our actions have ulterior motives.

There are many things that should be natural for us Christians to be a living testimony. But, we are all sinners. Till we can be a natural living testimony, lets all follow the footsteps of our role models in Christ and keep our actions in check.


"Young men, in the same way be submissive to those who are older. All of you, clothe yourselves in humility toward one another, because, God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble."

1 Pet 5:5


So happens that the Prayer of the Week is:

Lord, help me put others ahead of myself. Teach me to be humble. Amen.


Dg today was great. The topic today was on Spiritual Reproduction. Chun kit was in our fellowship today and all is good... Even though only chun kit, boon chun and i was physically present, i am sure that the Holy Spirit is dwelling in our congregation too. For that, i am truely thankful.

Spiritual Reproduction is leaving an everlasting spiritual influence on someone even after you had died. Its an investment which will cause a ripple effect on generations of young ones and this is more fruitful than anything you can have done. Being a mentor, it is like being a spiritual father. Besides strengthening a persons spiritual root, you have to let them grow wings and fly too. In this way, mentees can grow and become mentors themselves.

I have a mentor... He's Boon Chun. We do not meet out on weekdays or saturdays. Thus, sunday dg is more than a dg... It is also a time for me to tell him my problems and lay my worries on someone who will pray for me. He is the only spiritual support system i have now. =

I have dreams. I want to share my faith outside dg. More people should come to know Him. Let me not be dismayed easily.


Lord... If i stray, bring me back to you... If it is not your plan, bring me out of the thing i am in... If i ever displease you, give me grace that i can find forgiveness in you. Lord... I need comfort... Would you just take me under your wings?

In His name..... Amen...

Revamped!

Wizard for template editing is much more user friendly now! Hurray!! No more HMTL editing if i want to change my blog template anymore... =D

The background pic serves as a form of reminder.

1. God is always watching. Watch my actions and speech.

2. I want to travel the world. Take pictures of the great nature God had crafted with His own hands. I want to see magnificent buildings with my own eyes. I want to visit HUGE cathedrals that may take my breathe away. That is the dream.

I went to school today to do work. Mainly, i went there to do up my FYP slides which i will be presenting on the 12th of Nov. It was a good effort as i did up my presentation till experimental procedures. Next will be literature reviews and current results in which i do not have much. Guess i will have to work hard after church tomorrow.

Munchkin was evidently a good investment by George. We played for 2+ hrs and finished only 1 game. Imagine how "money not well spent" it will be if we were to play munchkins in Minds cafe or Playnation. Today's players were George himself, Sebas, Wendy, Gregory, Hong and me. Who says studying in school on a saturday would be a crazy idea?? We just proved that it can be cool too. =)

I realised something today. I found out that i do not actually dislike research work even though my FYP is as boring as it can get. Once i get a clear motivation, i get interested easily in what i am doing. Of course, it must be biomaterials related. Would have died if i was in nanotech. However, my career path remains undetermined and i have not sent out CVs yet. God please guide me......

dear Lord... Give me more patience and grant me humility.

Good night world....

It is time for me to take a rest... =)

A sudden ringing in my head!

Give me oil in my lamp,
keep me burning, burning, burning
give me oil in my lamp i pray.... I PRAY!

Give me oil in my lamp,
keep my burning, burning, burning
keep me burning til the end of the day.....

Sing Hosannah! Sing Hosannah!
SINGGG HOSANNAH!! to the
King of Kings!

Sing Hosannah! Sing Hosannah!
SINGGG HOSANNAH to the
King of Kings!

As i become weak, i grow stronger. As i am met with more obstacles, my faith will rise like an eagle. As long as i fill my lamp with oil, i will glorify Him with my victories!

It is cause i am tired, that my fire becomes stronger.

CHARGE OF FAITH!!!

Troubling week...

*rants*

Much to do... Much has been done. For now, i settle my parts for design project, engin prof project and i'm gonna have my tissue engineering project presentation on tuesday. So far, i am still good.

I had planned to start doing up my FYP presentation slides from tml onwards. I want it to be good. I do not have any results and neither do i have any substantial help from anywhere.

Next week will be a tough week too. I have EHS training tml in the morning. It is going to suck out all my life listening to safety.. Bla bla bla.... On tuesday, i will have absolutely no lunch and breakfast as the EHS is a whole day affair from 9 till 1630... In between during the lunch break, i will have to rush to tissue engineering lecture to give presentation on my project.

My heart didn't have a minute of peace this week. My mind was preoccupied with many stuff..


On the upside...

I got chunkit to promise to come to dg every week. That is one promise i know i can count on cause he is chunkit. I'm glad. Seeing Daniel in front as the worship leader, i knew that i will have a joyous praise and worship. I know that i will see kit's sulky face every sunday morning and i know i dun want to start my day facing a sulky face... But, for a while, joy finally filled my heart for the first time when he said coming to dg isn't a problem.

I thought to myself.. Instead of trying to light wax covered candles, i should share my flame and help existing candles burn more brightly first. The youth ministry is going to undergo a major revamp. The DGL route or the service leader route. Without realising, i have already embarked on my journey as a service leader.

As we talked during dg, i got to know that the usher, announcer/befriending team is going to be our evangelistic wing of the church. I said before... Someday i will wanna start a deaf community in YCCL or be part of it. It seems far fetched now... But if i am in Him, who can stop me?

Things in church is starting to fall in place for me. I used to be DG-less, i have Anchor now... I din't used to serve in church except in church camp, i'm a befriender/announcer now. I din have passion. Now i believe that there is a purpose in me learning sign language and being in the evangelistic wing.

I pray that instead of being afraid of failure, i would be inspired.

Still my heart dear Lord.....

*Quote*

A person is not who they are during the last conversation you had with them... They're who they have been throughout the whole relationship...

Hmmm... =

Tests over... Projects to be cleared...

I am actually thankful that the 3 tests are over! Well, an outing would be great to end the day with my last test but i guess going to a seminar about faith and reason works too! =D The speaker was good. The PA system was bad.... I got so tired trying to hear what the preacher was saying but i caught most of his jokes. Buahaha...

The thing is, I know who i believe in and i gladly profess it in the apostle's creed. I am thankful that this ONE God who i believe in is not a man servng God, but a God who ensures that we mature through His plans from the beginning of time.

Believing and Faith is actually the same thing. Even the hand signs for faith and believe are about the same. I do not need reason to believe at all, cause its the unexplainable and intangible that i seek.

Hell week over soon...

I want to complain!

Actually, my hell week started since straight after the recess week ended. I had a "great"time catching up on project work for the whole of recess week and straight after that, a hell week, not... actually 2 and tomorrow will mark the end of the mid terms hell week.

The fact is that, PROJECT DEADLINES ARE COMING 2 weeks after! O.o!!! That means i have to be on my laptop typing my fingers off again. T.T

ARGHHH.. ks.... this is all for a much relaxing next sem!! TONG!!!

Haiya... At least i still have my lollipop to eat when i try to churn out some research after my test. Thanks you lou.. =)

Hmmm..
"If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you." Luke 17:6

Each step forged with prayers, so all that obstructs will crumble.

Haiz...

when what is done is done, and what is undone is left undone

There is only one thing we can do.... And it is to pray that tomorrow will be better. =)

A spiritual roadmap...

DG was kind of great today cause with respect to what was taught from the video material, there is a particular aspect out of the foundational aspects of the Christian Faith. They are as follows:


1. It is a message with a cost attached to it.
2. It is a message with a responsibility attached to it.
3. It is a message with power attached to it.

Pick a guess as to which did i had most to share! =)

1. Cost

Believing in the gospel is not an easy thing. We can see this fact from history itself. The number of persecuted people in the early times is just astonishing. We always think that in these times where free will is spoken for and everyone has the freedom to pick their religion, MORE Christians are persecuted for believing! Hmmm... It is true. One example will be a new born Christian in a family of idol worshippers. i.e. Me. Ok... Maybe using myself as an example is totally off cause i wasn't in anyway persecuted. All i had to do was to pick up my courage and make my stand and hold it there. I was glad that on that sunday, i made my choice and i got baptised. Persecution is always thought of as physical punishment or being thrown out of your homes.

Anyway, i think persecution is not only all these physical treatments that we get. Its also the intangible. Things like stereotypes and labels on our heads has caused many of us to not be able to tell others properly that we are indeed Christians. Many of us are afraid that we are blacksheeps of His kingdom. We are not perfect beings! We should never be afraid to tell people that we're Christians cause it is like a citizenship! Being a Christian says that we're God's people and we belong to His kingdom! I believe that when we go forth from now on, we should never be afraid to proclaim this identity. People may point and persecute you in their mind, but as long as we are in Him, He is in us and that will be how His glory be seen through us.

3. Power

We gain this power when we turn to God from idols as we begin out wait for Christ's return. When we turn to God, salvation is here and all that is needed from us is repentance. This also means that while we are turning to God, we're turning away from our idols. This doesn't mean only god of other religion literally. It also meant previous addictions that had held us captive in our old lives! We're to throw them all away. He went to heaven and will come again to save us from the coming wrath.

2. Responsibility

This is the one i had most to share about. As Christians, we have the responsibility to glorify His kingdom as well as leading others to it. We are all little children of God. We are seed of Him and goodness is our nature when we are bornt cause we are made from His image. However, the world corrupts us so terribly that eventually when we have conscious to the world, we're as bad a sinner as anyone else is. Thus, in our faith with God, we need a role model!

Mimicing is the first step. We all have ourselves a role model in mind in our Christian faith. I have this person i envied right from the start. We get right with God by mimicing Godly behaviours first. It doesn't mean its fake, its just a way of tuning out actions to make ourselves as unsinful as possible. We take on characteristics of those who we mimic and in turn, we will become Godly as well. As we do that, they will show us the way to grow in our faith and thus we will be able to glorify Him in our words and actions.

Modeling is the second phase. We have grown in one way or the other as we become adults. It is time for younglings to look up on us and emulate our behaviours. It is not only to the new Christians but also to our closest friends, family and even strangers. We want to show others that God is good, all the time! The only way unbelievers can see this God who we so proclaimed is but looking at us and will understand and come to know the goodness of Him.

Megaphone. Spreading His message and love. I believe this should be an instrinsic characteristic in us. At anytime, we should be able to show His love and concern for His people. We should be able to tell stories (parables) to unbelievers in a simple way so that they understand what you are talking about and are not repulsed by the gospel. This are little things that we should be absolutely careful of as we do not want to scare people away. We want to interest them and only in that way, they are interested in coming to know God.

Hmmm... This responsibility is actually very hard as it requires immense discipline. But i promise, i will do my best to watch my words and actions. =)

ARGH.... Its late..... I better sleep...