The title represents the time I have lasted until I got the virus.

I am vaccinated, + boostered. I have done everything right so far. In Germany we have been wearing FFP2 or surgical masks for a year now. In school we test ourselves three times a week for the past year. Since December I have been testing myself first thing in the morning every day. I wear my mask properly, wash my hands, do not do stupid things.

On Tuesday I got a warning on the official app. Work told me to not bother because I am boosted and tested everyday, there’s nothing more I could do. Except there was, go get a PCR. Which I did, because in Germany is relatively easy and free in such a case. 48 h later I got the result, which was positive. I still can hardly believe it.

My symptoms are very mild, if I didn’t know better, I’d say I’m under the weather, but nothing serious to keep me off work. I hope it remains this way.

My kids are negative for the moment, and when their quarantine ends, their fully vaccinated status will be achieved. My husband will test tomorrow.

We have missed things before, we are missing things now, and still, the thing that I took really personal was that I could not book a dream vacation for February because we cannot cancel, unless we do it a week before the departure day. That week before, it’s when we would need to stay at home in order to make sure we can fly where we want (ok, where I want, but let’s not lose focus here, people). This is not doable. Who can do that?! I’m so angry with this unfairness. Everything else I can cope with. But this… 😖

I’m also looking for some answers that could explain what is going on with me. I’m not that well. The situation is very complex, and I know that taken individually, everything can be easily solved, together they are creating a synergy that makes my life not easy. And oh, lord, let’s not even touch that can of worms my head has turned into. We can be our own worst enemies.

Oh, and cherry on top: I have never had such a regular period, yet menopause is here for me. My hormones are whacked. I’ve got the foggy brain, which is what upsets me the most, I’m glad I finished the masters in March 2020 (firsts exams online🎊), right now I would not have been able to do it.

I do hope that where we are at means that we’re finishing the pandemic phase and entering the endemic one.

Let’s hope together.

Stay safe! Be well. ❤️🌈