Awwww.....

California....a lot of fun..until the last 3 hrs of the trip when we hit a snow storm but the rest was so much fun. Thank you for letting me come visit and stay in your home. (Sheas). But after I got back from California it has been a long week....I took the weekend off and played during midterm week...not the smartest thing to do. I have pulled almost two over-nighters this week and I'm sick and tired on top of it all. But today...is when I can finally catch up on everything. After my almost all nighter last night...I am finally caught up in all my classess...and it feels great. I will be going to bed early tonight..hopefully.So I am taking a break and updating this blog...I don't know if I'm going to be able to keep up on this....grrr. BUT today I got out of class, relaxed for a bit but I have been wanting to make bread. I've never made homemade in life. It will be my FIRST homemade bread...it will be done in 7 mintues...I have no Idea how it's going to turn out but I'm excited for it to be done.

ps...maybe I will be back to get pictures up!!

Thank you..........

This week seems to never end...I'm sooo excited for the 4 day weekend. I'm not doing anything exciting but just the fact that I have a break for awhile. It will be fun no matter what I do. I've been trying to get my best friend to take a crazzy adverature but he is just not down with it...o well. I will stay in rexburg and make it fun, but next break I get I am taking a TRIP. I might take the trip alone and go do something really crazzy. I'm just feeling in the mood to do something out of the "norm" for myself. This week has been such a long week. I feel like I have so much to do and not enough time to do everything. I feel like I have a ton of different things to fix in my life but just can't seem to figure out how to fix it. Not like even to do with me but to do with others around me. But it's really funny, I was thinking about High School the other day. I use to think High School was so hard, if I can just turn 21 and serve a mission my life will be grand. But I laugh now because thats not the case at all...I am now 21 and I thought for sure I would have my papers filled out and waiting for my mission call but not even close to that. I don't feel like a mission is what I'm suppose to do with my life right now, the hardest thing is I know what I'm suppose to do but doing what he wants me to do is facing my fears and not running away from them...a friend said last night " running away from your fears will only mask them for awhile..." that is true. I prepare everyday as if it's the last day on earth...I'm always waiting for a bomb shell....it's kinda sad. But what I woke up to realize is that yes...I look back now and High School is way easier but I have been prepared to face life trials that come this way. I am so happy that I am at BYU-I, I am so happy to be at college. I am so happy for how my life has turned out so far, even though it's hard, I wouldn't want to be anywhere else or not have anyone in my life that is here now. I am grateful to each and everyone of them.

ps....I don't have time to go back and read through them soooo this coould be one be long ramble and not make since!!!!

Yet Another Blog

As, I sat in the Library thinking...I should do my homework. I just couldn't seem to stay focused at all on it. I hate days like these. Where my brain is a thousdand different places. But I thought it's time to yet start ANOTHER blog. I go back in forth with blogs, just because sometimes I tend to use this as my journal, which isn't cool, or I don't update it for a long time and I just am afraided that I will send to much time on here trying to make it pretty. (So therefore if this blog is totally boring, I'm sorry don't read it and go somewhere else, I can't waste my life on this blog and facebook too. hahah). It's been an interesting semester back at school. I really came back with the whole idea to stay very focused and not let anything back in my life from the past or anything in besides school. I have realized that, that plan failed. But it was a well worth plan failed. I have realized a lot in the past two weeks, you shouldn't always plan to fail or that your dreams won't come true, but the fact of the matter is that your dreams will come true just not in the time that you think it will. I am very focused on school, but at the same time I still let those in that I love in and still make time for fun. I also have decided to return back to BYUI in the summer, I thought about taking a semester off from this place but as I really pondered and prayed about it. This where I'm suppose to be. Face you fears head on. Sooo, I will be here but just working, as of right now. Me and 4 other girls are looking to live in a house but I'm pretty sure it's going to be ghetto, beyound ghetto. One of my roommates is most likey going to get married by the end of the summer and whats to save money. Do I blame her? No, but it's going to be ghettooooo!!! mmmm.....whatelse are you SUPPOSE to say on this blogs.....?