Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Welcome to the world, #LittleChamp. Hope you're ready for a wild ride!


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well, no turning back now!

I’m not much of a journaler.  I’m the type that documents everything about my life via photography (a term I use loosely since it’s mainly Instagram!)  I think photos tell more than my words ever could.
Six weeks ago today we welcomed our miracle baby, Joshua Michael.  With the exception of gestational diabetes (which I controlled with diet only), my pregnancy was uncomplicated.  Perfect weight gain, perfect ultrasounds, perfect fetal heart rate.  My OB, Dr Dianne Edgar of Parkwest Women’s Health was absolutely amazing, every step of the way.


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Who loves induction with pitocin and cytotec?  THIS GIRL!

I was induced three days after my original due date of May 29.  And on June 2 we welcomed our beautiful baby boy (actually, he torpedoed his way out after 30 minutes of pushing.  Don’t ask what that did to my body!).  He was a little yellow, and the next morning, the pediatrician noted his right hip would dislocate.  The plan was to monitor, as sometimes this is a result of a hormone called relaxin, something my body produces to facilitate labor, that circulates in a newborns body after birth.  So, we were discharged two days after my delivery.

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Welcome, Little Champ.  55 minutes old...

We had a few hiccups the first week:  Josh was readmitted the day after discharge when his bilirubin jumped from 9 to 20.  The jaundice resolved with about 28 hours of phototherapy.  But a few hours after, a doctor noted some decreased tone in his neck and arms.  While that could be nothing, normally tone improves after jaundice is resolved.  So Josh was sent to the Neonatal ICU.  NICU is scary even for an ICU nurse like me.  They were talking “blood cultures” and “possible spinal tap”.  Amazingly I was able to get a hold of my husband, who was plowing fields in Palmyra, to tell him to come to the hospital immediately.
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admitted to the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit...our worst nightmare

Scooby doo fast forward, Josh was in NICU for 48 hours (the “standard” to rule out sepsis), over which he received antibiotics.  The pediatric orthopedic surgeon also evaluated him, and said he should come in for a formal evaluation right after his discharge, as the right hip continued to come easily dislocated.  He did briefly explain the course of treatment:  harness, then case, then surgery if necessary, although in about 90% of the cases, the harness will do the trick.  He said we were fortunate to find the condition early, and reflected  how one case which was referred to him wasn’t noted until the child was 2 years old, and thus surgery was the only option.  To hear that Josh needed more treatment to an already busy 7-days of life was disheartening.  We were exhausted.  But in a way we were ready to get the treatment started, quite frankly so we could get it over with an not have to think about it again.  Josh’s case was a little unusual:  Developmental Hip Dysplasia typically happens in girls, often times the left hip, and in breech babies.   Josh is none of these.

Josh’s bloodwork and blood cultures came back completely normal his bilirubin remained stable with minimal rebound, and his muscle tone resolved.  The neonatologist was confident that this was not a neuro or infection issue and allowed us to go home at 45 hours.  She was kind enough to call the next day to see how we were.  In closing that chapter, I cannot say enough wonderful things about the lactation consultants, nurses, mid-levels, residents and attendings at Golisano Children’s Hospital.  Every single one was incredibly patient with our incessant questions.  One of my  nursing school instructors, a DNP, happened to be on Josh’s treatment team.  I remember in nursing school thinking “if anything was wrong with my baby, I want him to be there”.  God works in mysterious ways like that.
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Going home, take 2

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Get over it

 
I can't remember the last time I was this nervous.  Actually, not even nervous.  It was a near panic attack.
 
Riding on a busy road is nothing I haven't done before.  Hell, I've been on Elmwood Avenue during rush hour.  But Monday was different.
 
The trial of Megan Merkel and Mark Scerbo started a couple weeks ago.  They are both charged with the death of Heather Boyum, a local mother, teacher, and triathlete.  Both Merkel and Scerbo were drunk, doing bath salts (according to the lab work), and operating a car and motorcycle, respectively, without a license.  This week, Heather's training partner recounted how she saw Heather look back and scream right before Scerbo hit her with the motorcycle.  She was then thrown in front of the car driven by Merkel.

I figured that's how it went down.  But riding in Geneva, on a road I've ridden a couple times before, I was more worried.  Maybe it was because D texted me "look out for drunk drivers.  Especially in Geneva".  I'm always cautious, but that just made me scared.  And for the first time in a really long time in my training, my fear got the best of me. 
 
My plan was to ride 30 miles.  I only rode 17.  Every car that drove by, despite the good clearance they gave me, threw me off balance.  I literally was whimpering with every wind gust, certain I'd go down.  I couldn't get a groove.  My speed was fine, but I felt horrible.  Even stopping intimidated me, wondering if I would brake smoothly enough and unclip.
 
I was frustrated.  In tears.  I survive 2 tours in Iraq, driving streets full of debris, bad drivers, and people who actually wanted to kill me. 
 
And I let East Lake Road get the best of me.  I suck.