Well, I guess I haven't kept up on blogging as much as I'd liked to! HA that's an understatement! Anyways, ALOT has changed since my last post...we sold our house, moved into our new one! Damian is almost 9 now, Matthew is 4 and Ashlyn almost 3! Wow my babies are growing up too fast! Damian is in Utah right now for his summer visit with his dad. I bought him a prepaid cell phone before he left so we can talk whenever we miss each other! He's such a great kiddo, I miss him like crazy!! I took Brian to the airport this morning at 4, with both the little ones...they are SO cranky as I expected but Brian refused to take a cab or leave his precious truck in the parking area over night. He's off to Jamaica this time...yes I'm jealous!! He's only there a few days then back for 2 days to celebrate his birthday and then he's off again for two weeks to Washington. He will get a layover in SLC on his way home and escort Damian home. I'm really bummed that my mom isn't getting to use the ticket this time and bring him home/stay a few weeks for a visit...on the other hand it would be great to see my family for a little bit if I got to use the ticket...oh well I guess this is cheaper...Brian's idea...I guess the money part is all that matters?
K&B Services has been "sleeping" for over a year now and I'm ready to get the ball rolling again! Since the kiddos are growing up, it gives me more time to focus on my career. I've been working with a wedding photographer Michelle with Peyronet Photography and also helping out my BFF Jenna with Fickel Zeal Photography! Which has been fun, but I'm now ready to have my own business and make some real money! So here's my thought, K&B services, prob won't be the name anymore...I'm directing the business more towards consulting and business management services with some interior decorating on the side of course! So for the next 6 months I've gotta make my game plan...I'm going to start some classes at TCC and get some certifications via the web! (Thank you technology!) The home "dining room" is getting a total makeover to my new office...Brian's office is big enough for us to share but let's be honest, I need my own space to think! ;)
So, if you know me well you know I'm not the "suzy homemaker entertainer" type and have never actually had anyone over for a fancy dinner in our dining room! So the space definitely will get used much more now!!
Damian and Matthew start school again in August, Ashlyn NEEDS to be in Pre-school...she is TOO smart and could benefit from the exposure. Now I just need to find one that is reasonable and meets my high expectations. When it comes to my babies I'm picky about where they spend their time, and believe me I check everything out...doesn't every good parent?
Anyways, life is good...I've been missing home ALOT lately, we haven't been to Utah in two years now ( the 2 days I spent over a year ago picking up Damian doesn't count) Soo yeah, I've been a little more than homesick. The fact that I've been battling depression doesn't help either, we had a miscarriage a few months ago...I was on BC so it probably wasn't a "healthy" pregnancy but here's the thing...my sister found out she was preggers the day before I did and we both would've been due right around my mom's birthday October 9th...not to mention two of my very loved friends are too preggers and we'd all be due about the same time. Was I "planning" on having another one? No...but does it mean that I can't wonder "what if?" and feel sad? I'm not sure... I think the part that made me the saddest was that Brian and Damian were SO excited...with Matthew and Ashlyn neither one of them were excited til closer to the middle but with this one they were thrilled even though I wasn't sure. The fact is we aren't ready to have another one...but a baby is always a blessing. I was thinking that maybe someday I'd have another one. I think adoption is the only way that I'll be a mommy again, I've always wanted to adopt someday. Brian isn't so sure about adoption, so who knows. It's definitely not in the plans anytime soon anyways! Well, that's my long drawn out mess of words! Maybe I'll keep up with this better? Feels good to let it out! Ahhhhh :)
Matty was in such a cute mood!
Damian was so worried about his scooter...he didn't even want to play catch!
She was cleaning the scooter! With her finger...then licking the mud! And it's not that she did this once...she kept doing it! She cried when I took her away from it to wash her up!! I swear I feed this child!
I felt like Medusa! Ya know the lady with Snakes in her hair! 
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