1st post in taiwan, Hi Mr diary.....

Hi mr diary, i nw is at hsintsu, taiwan, and it is a wild dream for me to working here, and the great ambition which i dreamt of last sem, because everything can start new at here, and it is a remarkable achievement for me to reach this far. But i dont know why should i write in the circumstances which i was really emotional, mr diary, i only remember you whenever there is

trouble arise....

And the other blog, that is my robocon blog, actually it turned out having good feedback, as i check the statue and it get a great feedback from whole world, i get 2 reply from india which is interested with my sketchup drawing. However mr diary, i was unable to keep up much of my blog, because i havent learn to be a good programmer and electronic player yet, so what i can do now is remain silence and rely on the knowledge of my solidworks drawing. I did want to analyst out the drawing of the critical section of the every competition robot in the robocon contest, however it is time consuming and did not give me anything in return... I think i get back of study analog and digital electronics. This is more practical. I wish one day i will hand over my robocon blog to the other more potential ppl around me....

Yeap she is right, the yiruma song is nice =) But i still got miss her, that's why she blocked me, and that is really sad. I dont know the situation can be turned out like this, but in certain circumstances, i was free, free from these few years, i was free from myself, everyday i was blaming and criticising every step i taken, but now, these are no matter already. The memory of the past become even more treasured, the old memory can only be happen again in my sweet dream, i did not regret fight for her every single day, yelled for self improvement, and self crying one night in regularly each month. My sin has been forgiven to myself. I wish for a happy starting, and no more emotional self which has been hell training myself for almost 5 years. Like her, still yes, but only in my happy dream. I still like you.

Sngh, forget about this case, mr diary. I wish to start a blog, concerning my taiwan trip, because it is a great chance in my life to reach here, but still, there is some goals which i still haven achieved yet =.= Like going to the Hsintsu church ( I will going to be killed by bro at sis at kl when i get back @@) and like my friend say, get a taiwan girl. LOL if i do so, i will have a record of having an american gf and a taiwan gf without even start to find a malaysian gf, so why i like to find girls which is so damn far from me zzzz..... I never feel like living with gf, but who cares, i dont mind already, i wan to study, that is my ambition now. I want to build a fuel cell with integrted with electric motor car, for my fyp, to join shell. And yes, I am telling my future self, remember start to do homework and find is there anyway to do so!!

Happy Chinese New Year~~~~

Hi Mr.Diary, hey i am back to penang again. And the train is delay to reach bm , causing me only reach at 7am. And ohya, i nw planning to have a small gathering for our secondary schoolmate. It is long time since we are met all together again. Well again it is not easy to make everyone happy with the time place and event, but hope to come out a plan which is really fun and interesting~~~

Hey the saddest of all is that i am going back to kl at the 1st day of the new year! What a tragic. So i really do hope to meet all my friends before i depart back. Well much of plan in my mind, but when starting to think about the trouble which i am going to encounter, i start to feel sleepy again =.=. Anyway i only have 5 days staying at penang, so i must make use of these few days. Time is passing fast, and ohya, Happy chinese new Year Mr. Diary, hope everything is fine this sem, and bless that i am find a good company in the internship this time =)

Hi Mr. Diary,I just came back from the church prayer meeting, and i started to note that i am losing my feel to Lord, I feel like I am no longer live in a healthy church life already. I dont know..... I think that going to church is wsting my time, and i have lots of things that i need to do before that. But what really worry me, is that i am going to left out in the church life. In sum, what already happen to me..? >< Even now i feel like i din care about the church stuff again. I am totally sick already....

And now, i am going to search for the textbook which is available for me to read online, and now i have successfully found some useful textbook, which i maybe wont choose to buy the textbook already hahaha. But still i am going to make a change this semester. I have been quite for a long long time already. It is time for me to having some comeback in the study mood. And I am now right on track. So i maybe stay away for robotic learning stuff for a little while. No bluff, i am going to aim myself at President list. Now Ning is oversea and i have notting to distract my time to study already. I will start a new target to achieve again.

And now, i think i should start to looking for the internship stuff already. Now this sem is the sem i prepare for the internship job. I hope i wont pick a wrong company, and yes, it is time to do some research on the net already =)...

And ohya, i have something that really bother me, am i speaking too fast and nervous? Maybe this bad habit is something i should be avoided. Usually i also have another bad habit, that is i am afraid of talking to a big group of friends, because i dont know who should i talking to 1st, maybe next time i should talk to them one by one.. And i really hope that these changes in this new sem will bring me some different than last sem. And i am sleepy nw.....


And ohya Mr. Diary, I am

Hi i now is already at kl, and to be honest Mr. Diary I dont have a feel to coming back yet, and what worse is that i am actualy driving back@@. Anyway tomorrow i need to wake up damn early, i dont have any energy left to do something further, so i think i choose to make short here, i feel like miss home nw@@( And ohya, welcome back my 4MG Streamyx =) =) ) Welcome back kl again, and i go sleep nw. Night @@

Worry...

Hi Mr. Diary, I start to worry this problem, is this blog publicity start to grow up? I have left this blog unwritten anything for past few months. And just i started to write my blog again continuously and i suddenly gain more publicity again? Sounds like impossible phenomenon, coz it is impossible for my friend to sense that i love to write blog again. And when this cases comes up, it is better to lock u up to become a personal blog to me, without sharing to anyone anymore. But blog suppose to be somewhere i put out my happiness and sadness and joy. I wish my friend know how happy am i, how sad am i, or how stressful am i. I not a person who love to hide myself away from anything....

Since this blog publicity is increasing, i think i should control even strict guideline on my post from now on. But anyway, i not afraid to say about myself, i dont like hiding from my friends. But i also dont like publicity. Being balance within this guideline is hard, but i will only achieve my best of best. No trying.

And talking about robotic again, i really feel happy and stressful, coz i was entrusted to the secretary post at robocon team. I never take this post before and to be honest, i afraid i cant handle to their statisfaction. But i have take the responsibility to take this post again even i know how i feel. From the most bottom of the heart i know that it is time for me to take up some responsibilty for my age now. Think like a mature 21 years old university student, and do like it. I will start look through the net finding the possible responsibility about this post, and hope for any advice too Mr. Diary....... ( P.S, Tom, any rough idea?? ><)

ANGRY

All right the 1st thing that really fire me up this morning. Really fired up i mean, that someone can put my name wrongly from auto2 into auto1. I know i didnt contributing anything yet, but isn't be that angry when someone never tell me about the meeting started at short semester and later then like :" oh i suddenly i remember raymond because my hand is not enough." and then put me in auto 2 without let me do anything, and later a few weeks later maybe because of forget my existance, suddenly forget where am i belong to and simply just put my name into auto 1?? Without even asking me if dunno anything?? Now i really fed up!

Now that's it, i am going to start the robotic blog i planned for long time. Dont think that I am someone like I dont know anything about robotic. I am once the jit sin student who was once reject UTM mechatronic and MMU mechanical. If I make a change that time I might be one of the UTM or MMU robocon member. Dont take me as someone that easy. My ability proven i can learn anything i want.

Hey Mr. Diary, i finally propose me to get the secetary post in robocon! I feel so excited for having things to do already! But they havent decide yet. But at least i tried, so i have no regret. I think i need to start to find the resources about secetary post di on the net. Now i just arrive home at 5am morning, and have a sleep till 11am coz of ning sudden call from USA @@

Ohya i have an idea pop up on my mind, really serious matter Mr. diary, I want to start a new blog concerning the robotic stuff for my own, and share my learning and ideas on it. Through this i hope that i can share the knowledge with others, and hope learn from ohers in return. I think this is sounds like a great idea, but i afraid that i will going to left this blog blank. Maybe i still like to chat with u the way like this Mr. Diary ahaha. Maybe after a little short while?? =)

Ok so later i maybe or NOT maybe i will go out. They still undertermine whether wan come out or not! lolz! Chee liang will back to kl tonight, Hope i can meet him somehow.

ROBOCON

Hi mr diary, now my feel is full with tiredness, but full with strength and fire. I just passby UTM Robocon website, and i was really fully inspired by them again, their activity involved, their vision and mission, it is just like a fired up team! =0 Sometimes i really did regret why i reject UTM offer letter in the first place, talking about robocon, it is dramatic and full of energy! Notting other than that, robocon is thrilling! ( But i also already know that they have finished the game field and talking about the money they throw and spend! @@)

And ohya after i coming back i go do some research about the line following robot stuff, and i found out that the advice given by the website is useful, and i think i understand the best method for line following by just a snap! But what really suprise me, UTM is one of the institute which does not apply line following method on their robot! @@ I really dont know what else can they apply on navigate the direction. After that, i was too tired to read further, and really is keep my eye close. I think i continue tomorrow morning

And talk about tomorrow, i will passby the cabin for further discussion about the game plan. And to be honest Mr. Diary, i finally tell someone about my problem in the club, and he started noted. His advice to me and comfortation really make me warm again. I cant find a better describtion to tell my eagerness to join the robocon stuff. I feel like much energetic again! I will do all i can to the club, and hope i can learn and do it better this time! Gambatte!

Hi Mr Diary, I just reach kl here, and without rest i rush to the cabin. And no thanks to the delay train again! But luckily i reach there finally in time, so i didnt need to miss anything on the activity..

Well my eye now is already want to close down already, maybe because i feel tired about all happen today. And what really make me dissapoint is that tomorrow and coming thursday i didnt have activity to the workshop. So wed and thur i am totally free, wtf? If not that i was agreed to discuss in the join discussion about new design with senior menbers, i will straight go home, and i swear i will NEVER JOIN ANY KIND OF ROBOTIC EVENT ANYMORE. This dissapointment is really come from my heart. I actually have most of the resources of the robotic production, i just need time to scratch myself will do. So theoritically i can learn robotic knowledge myself from now on. I no need to make myself so hard and susah everytime i join the robotic event. I am really low profile about my other ability, but talking about self learning, i always full of confidence as this skills is just like myself. But i choose to keep going there because i still love robotic, now i really pull my dad's nerve, he never want me to come back kl so early. I should never let him know that i come here without known that i was left notting to do for rest 2 days and assumed as KEPO.

This is the moral i learnt for the day, EITHER I PULL ALL MYSELF ON IT, OR I QUIT. Later i will continue about the game planning as i agree. And decide whether i will stay at friday morning too. Mr. Diary this is really the 1st time i really dissapoint on something i always looking forward to. Please teach me what to do next. Or i really no longer sacrifice my time like that on this society again, i sure will join new clubs this coming sem. I want to get out of this sadness. So what should i do for these 2 days..? Hmm......

Mr Diary, today is a cold afternoon, with a great storm which is started at mid of 11am, and today my sis is undecided whether want to dye her hair or not. And because of her decision, i come and go the kampung baru pasar many times =.= ( And gt passby jie house few times...) But maybe she wan to decide more later, so i put her alone decide la.

Later midnight i will depart to kl for the robotic activity, and to be honest, i dont know what will i going to do when i reach there. I dont know what suprise i will get this time? Maybe like start the workshop and u just do just what i say? I dont know. I didnt have anything on them actually. Some of my friends say i actually wasting my time on doing something simple and easy at there. I dont care. I just love robotic. There is no 2nd robotic there. But I try to gain a place so they let me do more things, hope so.

Anyway i dont think that i want to come back to kl, actually. Because everything trouble will start at kl, and start to drive me nuts again. Assignment, test group stuff.... These are something i dont want to bother actually. And after that church meeting gathering, and bla bla. But I shouldnt be so afraid of being busy after all. I choose this road myself, and what more important, I shouldnt afraid facing people. Just a humble heart will do.

Dont know what am i going to said Mr. Diary, i think i will be quiet for a while, maybe till I start emo? But i dont want that happen again..

Hi Mr Diary, I just came back from kl train station to buy cny ticket, and yeap, I can feel that my holiday is passed by with a speed of light. I really try to grab the time properly, not to do something serious, but to do something like restig my soul and mind. Ifeel like 2010 has waste lots of my energy indeed. I feel like wacation, even is at home, it is a statisfactory. I love to live at house like that, now everyday watching tv, listen to song, and having lots of nap at noon. I feel like heaven at home, feeling a rest after war in kl. And my soul is much rested, but later 4th Jan i need to head back to robotic activity again, i donno what are thay plan to this time, but i am going to stay at kl for 3 more day. Because i still love to enjoy at my home, my corner

I like to find somewhere no one is around, and leaving myself left blank and think notting, maybe this is my best meditation. So my sis is always called me a house boy, but no matter, she cant feel hw busy am i in kl. Really exhausting. Or maybe the way i control my exhaustion is not proper enough? Anyway this is the problem i need to look through about it.

Like i mention, i already feel a new year fresh air, even i have already ave a fresh taste about wearing clothes already! And really i feel that maybe i need to start to enjoy reading, i always feel that reading is a burden to myself, i dont know can i go buy an ipad or not? But maybe not now, ipad is expensive, seriously! And what is the notable change this year? Yeap, no more shopping to me anymore! Uhuh yeap! I have pass these golden triangle too much and enough for me! And seriously i am lazy to go out already! Taste the feel that everyday go sit LRT just to go play and date? Well these days are far over! And i am not going anywhere this time! I will always stay at hostel and feel the taste of houseboy. No more shopping for me again! I already having a phobia on it already!

And what's i need to look through about myself this year? Yeap, attitude. And some arrangement of friend relationships, i always feels that i am not done enough. Maybe i need go get down to it and look through my feel. Maybe i did not go look through them enough. I afraid to keep myself a close distance wit them, and therefore fail to establish a close communication with them. I need to allocate the time for friendship too. But still that, I am lazy to go around KL anymore! No more shopping and hanging around of the area, i have sick of it.

I feel bad to myself, i love to make authority on somebody, i think this is something i need to change, i need to be humble, but not afraid of people but God. Afraid no people, this homework i still need to done more often, and it is not easy as it sometimes will lead to disregard other people feel. I aim no God so I cant understand all my friends feel all the time, but with certain wisdom and cunderstanding, i try to avoid such problem. Anyway i understand myself, i try to get along perfectly with everyone, but sometimes i also need to look through myself too, i need to care about my feel. I shouldn't make myself too tired about my life. Maybe this is the reason I always feel tired at KL, i dont know how to reject other's offer. Maybe i should start to look through this problem more seriously.

But still that, i can write so much crap with u Mr Diary, because i still not as busy as i will going to experience at kl coming soon. A word for my future, hope I can make a rest on my mind, and stay healthy food always. Remember a good thinking and positive mind is come from a healthy routine, and this is all started by establishing a fixed day life cycle.

And there is something that need to be noted, u can be restful, but not delay or lazy. Lazy is never an excuse. U need to build up your image for a stronger authority among people. This is also a homework. Delay is a really bad habit. Be respectful on yourself, and start to behave, act as an adult among your friends. Let them feel your responsibility and capability. This is also important. Do look into the matter.

Starting to craping again Mr Diary, I feel like love to stay quiet after i reach to bm, the school is open at 17th Jan but i start to feel lazy already. I wish to stay at this holiday mood forever. But i should think like that, after all, i am still YOUNG! I am a energetic teen supposing. I shouldnt rest up my fired heart pernamently. But still importantly, be responsible, there is no homework more important than this. And yeap, these are the advice i give myself in the future, hope i can look into it in future.