At different points in our life, we need different mediums for reconnections. God knows how much I the needed the reconnection to my blog:
To recall all the countless false starts
The sleepless nights, counting the time difference in two worlds apart
To know GOD makes no mistakes, and I/We were picked to parent......
To allow me a safe place/zone of no judgment from those who said "You wanted this didn't you"
To remind myself, my kids will be ok......and to ask myself, "Now are you ok?
I recently saw an episode of a special presented by Jada Pickett called RED Table. First episode was with her husband's X, and they discussed how they co-parented the child Will Smith and his X had together. There were many ups and downs I assume, but what struck me was not the respect and love they developed for each other as co-parents, but the personal growth that allowed them both to love unconditional, aside from any insecurities and baggage, hurt, pain, and disappointments they carried.
Yes, there was a common thread, Will and Shree's son which is Jada's step son that had a profound effect on pushing all adult parties in the relationship to grow in love for his sake
As I continued to watch the show, I became drawn to Jada and wanted to know even more about her journey to this place of peace, love, and admiration, I felt this comfy place she was in, went way beyond maturity, her being a wife and parent........it was much deeper than that, and I wanted some of what she has!!!!!!
On a personal note:
The great thing about being in my 40's I have gotten to a very comfy spot in who and what I am, what matters and what doesn't. Still working on saying NO.......butttt.....I'm getting there!!!
I have worked hard on who and what I allow in my spirit, and if your spirit is not right, I cut you off!!! Now, I will say this as a disclaimer, I really try to work with you....but if you can't get right, I'm out.....After reflecting I had to ask myself why do I do that? Why do I isolate me from you and you from me, when I perceive you to be a threat to my inner peace? Is it normal? What triggers to do disconnect from people I have long histories with?......?????? ( I have lots of questions I ask myself) Well.......I am still working my journey one step at a time, understating, and unraveling some things.
To be continued.........
Tuesday, May 15, 2018
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Saturday, September 15, 2012
YOU GOT MAIL
THE GIRLS RECEIVED MAIL FROM THEIR MOM, AND FAMILY BACK IN ET....A CLOSE FRIEND TRAVELED THERE AND WAS ABLE TO MAKE CONTACT AND SHE WAS GIVEN LETTERS AND PICTURES TO BRING BACK TO THEM.....
LET THE PICS SPEAK FOR THEMSELVES!!!!!!!!
Thursday, August 9, 2012
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Random Shots!!!!
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Yes, I am still here
Loving the new blog format!
well lets see, with facebook, twitter, and all other media outlets, I really really enjoy my blog and miss it. I won't write much, I will just post some pics of my two little darlings.......
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