At different points in our life, we need different mediums for reconnections. God knows how much I the needed the reconnection to my blog:
To recall all the countless false starts
The sleepless nights, counting the time difference in two worlds apart
To know GOD makes no mistakes, and I/We were picked to parent......
To allow me a safe place/zone of no judgment from those who said "You wanted this didn't you"
To remind myself, my kids will be ok......and to ask myself, "Now are you ok?
I recently saw an episode of a special presented by Jada Pickett called RED Table. First episode was with her husband's X, and they discussed how they co-parented the child Will Smith and his X had together. There were many ups and downs I assume, but what struck me was not the respect and love they developed for each other as co-parents, but the personal growth that allowed them both to love unconditional, aside from any insecurities and baggage, hurt, pain, and disappointments they carried.
Yes, there was a common thread, Will and Shree's son which is Jada's step son that had a profound effect on pushing all adult parties in the relationship to grow in love for his sake
As I continued to watch the show, I became drawn to Jada and wanted to know even more about her journey to this place of peace, love, and admiration, I felt this comfy place she was in, went way beyond maturity, her being a wife and parent........it was much deeper than that, and I wanted some of what she has!!!!!!
On a personal note:
The great thing about being in my 40's I have gotten to a very comfy spot in who and what I am, what matters and what doesn't. Still working on saying NO.......butttt.....I'm getting there!!!
I have worked hard on who and what I allow in my spirit, and if your spirit is not right, I cut you off!!! Now, I will say this as a disclaimer, I really try to work with you....but if you can't get right, I'm out.....After reflecting I had to ask myself why do I do that? Why do I isolate me from you and you from me, when I perceive you to be a threat to my inner peace? Is it normal? What triggers to do disconnect from people I have long histories with?......?????? ( I have lots of questions I ask myself) Well.......I am still working my journey one step at a time, understating, and unraveling some things.
To be continued.........
