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Monday, August 29, 2011
nobody understands

i nv knew asking for something could be so tough.
yes i understand, $$ plays a part.
i know. He has spent quite an amount for my 21st.
wasn't it the same for her?
she also had a party, spend almost the same amount of money.
and she gets her 21st present.

and when i ask for it, all he replied was "why don't you think if you deserve it?"

I don't know what to reply.
cos i don't know what's your definition of me deserving it. Is it in terms of academics? (i definitely not as good as her) is it cos i haven't been spending enough time at home due to dance rehearsals? what is it? why don't you just tell me.

someone asked me to understand from his pov.
I do. but who understands mine?

The noise this stupid laptop is making every day and night, makes me so irritated, i dont even feel like doing my work and research.
and because of the noise, i can't bring it to school or out for project meetings.
I have to ask him if i can borrow his laptop. And when i ask him, all he does is shout at me, saying why can't i bring mine out instead. and so what if it's noisy.

i've nv felt so lousy before.
nobody understands.
the choking feeling i get trying to hold back my tears feels so foreign.
it's been so long i felt so wei qu.

Maybe it's really time for me to be independent.

Saturday, August 06, 2011

This feels like back to primary school again.
wishlist. (haha!)

but i can understand how difficult it is to get 21st birthday gift. i have problems myself.
so here are a few of the things i've been looking for..

-ray bans new wayfarer (tortoise shell)
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-nice leather bucket bag (i guess can make do with good man made leather) I think my SIS got me this alr! :)
-nice Alexa kinda messenger bag.
-heels/wedges/nice sandals, size 38 (comfy ones = no THIN straps for me)
-pretty dresses (girls can never have enough of them! ok nv enough of CLOTHES! )
-macbook pro! (badly needs this. my laptop is dying.)
-watch
-anything from Marc by Marc Jacobs or Kate Spade (love those colours!)

pretty much what i can think of at the moment. =X
Honestly, I'm very blessed to already have everything I need.
So it's more than ok, if what you think of getting me is neither of the above.

To me, most importantly are my relationships with my friends and family. and money can't buy that. So.. thank you for being some part of my life journey till now. I'm blessed. :)

I really want my 21st to be a simple affair. Spending time with my loved ones.. looking forward to that day. (: