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Friday, March 31, 2006
well,today went to S.I.T for my 2nd day of orientation...i feel more comfortable today than few days ago when i was kind of being forced to went into this programme...after i myself pray to GOD...n others who helped me as well...i started to understand WHY...WHY am i in this programme..is because of HIS will...i think this is to prepare me for da next challenge in life...mayb i was so wrong bout my 1st choice...o mayb not...wutever...we'll c in da future...today Dr.Yim brief us roughly bout da lab's rules n regulation n all other stuff...followed by a few pharmacist & also da CEO of SIT n da uniSA representative to speaked to us...well...din listen very clearly bout who is tis guy...but he is a well-known pp in da malaysia's pharmacy field...if i'm not mistaken he is Mr.John Chan i think...so after da health talk...he asked few of us bout wut v think bout pharmacy...n i was like..i'm not realy sure...so he asked me wut am i not sure about...so the conversation started....it let me know more n more bout this programme...n it also help mi to c da reality of being a doct n a pharmacist...i think...okay..well..kind of interesting...;) da most scary part in this entire programme...i think it will be my weak point...CHEMISTRY...hmmp!once again..i think it is GOD decision for me as well..mayb he wanted me to overcome da fear in CHEM and also all those practical work....well then,i really hope he will really guide me n help me throughout this programme n also in da future..
okay...after everything i went to JJ to get all my stationary stuff,practical exercise book etc...n of course if i went to get those stuff...i already kind of ready n prepared to start the new journey in my life...just hope i wont mess up avting tat is important n dun screw up during lab work ad...
finally...da last but not least...i need to finish up my puzzle that have been left out for a month i think...n clean up my rak...n my room...ready a new environment for my upcoming ASSIGNMENT!!! ;)
also i'll hope that i really improve myself in many aspect during UNI life...like for example my english..my communication with others..n also my independency...etc...
bless me n pray for me always ya!!!!
and also..hope av1 of my frens will choose something that is right n well,of course no REGRETS!!! cheer up!! cz HE is looking after us from ABOVE!!!
KAMBATE!!!!
Thursday, March 30, 2006
~*theEND*~
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stars stars!!!so cute!!!hehe
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leng chai huh??future doc!
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alfred n mr chong!
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tea time!
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girl power!
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BINGO~
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lunch time!
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mdm wong!!leng lui popo!!
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mi & mdm lam!
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yeah!
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me & a new patient!
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mi & soran!!
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mi & mdm khong!
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mi.mdm lim.ms yam
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mr chong & mi!
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mdm tham & mi!
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mdm liew n mi!!
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uncle mo& me!
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") aunt irene
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dr.gan & a new patient!!
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water treatment massage!
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massage time!
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qigong!!
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stretching time!
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tis morning as usual went to hospis....feel very happy of course...but went home with tears....because today was my last day to serve there as a volunteer...although i stil welcome back when i hav study break o free time...but i mean 'officially' today is my last day....try to be there as early as i could to prepare all da plate,tags..etc for da patient...who knows when reach there all ad prepared by raymond ad (occupational therapist)..so i just look around..wanna take a real last look at the whole day care unit...
patient started to came in...then i welcomed them n greet them 'good morning'!!then began my work!!!...serve da drinks for them...food..etc...then is da time for strecthing exercise!!...followed by a light n easy 'qi gong'!!....halfway during da exercise i began to snap photos...wanna let me refresh my memories of av moment that i spent in there...so later after that..volunteers will start to do some massage for the patients...girl patients had da priority to do 'water treament massage'!!haha/..not bad!!...i try to do a little bit longer for each patient n also try to do for more patient...hehe...
ok,is 1 o'clock time!!time for lunch~~yummy yummy..!!hehe...today dr.gan ordered some food because da 'chef' who is suppose to cook for today falled sick..so cannot come over..okay..after lunch...today,ladies hv a manicure session!!hehe..i ad tried my very best to do it nicely...i tink not so bad kua da motif on da nail polish~~haha...hmm...then v had BINGO time!!time to go to win some prizes!haha..then after that they had their tea time...then i began to give out da lucky stars that i bought yesterday night for each patient....just a gift for them...wanna tell them that the stars will always look after them...n when they r down..the starlight will nvr ever dim...will shine on them...so dun give up!!cheer up like a shining star!!i'll miss you all always~really must take care!!!love you all very much!!! :) after finish their tea time..now is time to say bye bye...!!feel so 'um seh tak'...tried to stop my tears from pouring out~~do1 let avbody feel sad...but as some patient trying to asked me bout my decision ,where to study..when...then i cant control myself d...voice started to "shake" cz i'm just gonna cry out anytime...so i tried to control it..take in lot of deep deep breath...n try to be as calm as i can....then i hugged av patient before they left...really hugged them...my heart really hugged theirs too...keep on telling myself don cry don cry...
when most of da patients had left....n is my time to go off ad...trying to say goodbye properly to all da volunteer...n finally tears burst out n i began to cry out ...just cant hold it anymore when aunt irene hug me...speech less moment~~~ i really feel very sad to b apart with u guys..especially da patients...my heart really cried...although i just serve there for 1 month oni...because when u really give out ur heart...n treat them whole-heartedly ...u really really very sad when its time to be apart...n is all of a sudden...nvr know i'll go into pharmacy programme...n nvr know it start next week...haihs...i cried myself on da way home... :(
tis few days really overwhelmed with lot of sadness n pressure from dad....really brokedown my soul....but wut tat brighten up my days was da moment tat i spent in hospis...tat was tues n thursday...thank you very much...
thank you to aunt maureen for giving me tis opportunity to serve as a volunteer...but she is on-leave..so i just wrote a short message for her lor..
i had learned a lot of things from there...things that when others look at it seems like an easy task..but actually had a lot of thing need to take care of...such as using a wheelchair..n now i knew how to use it ad!!...haha....thank you to aunt maureen too...!!
i also gave all my favourite oldies cd for them...hope they like it!!! hehe...
take care always~~~
next monday i'll start my programme...hmm!!!must study hard ad!!!tis programme might just be a stepping stone for me to continue into medical field only...so must strive hard!!!mayb i'll ffeel like giving up sometimes but i pray tat GOD will guide me!!!because this is HIS decision as well...so i hope i'll always seek for HIS words...n wisdom...n pray that he will guide me to where i belong in da future~~
kambate!!!
wednesday went for da orientation n i was OMG* almost all girls...but i tink most of them looks very sweet n friendly...tat day i really not in da mood to make new frens..haha..so impolite huh?hmm...i really not really good in making frens...
n also i wanted to thansk Kaven from S.I.T ....thank her for avting...n her care~~ ;)
so pray for me frens~~ ;)
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Wednesday, March 22, 2006
yeah!!finally got my streamyx!!!i know i'm so outdated ad...but stil...i got it!! haha....hmm so happy....now at least i can on9 like mad without need to worry bout my bills!!!hehe...so nice...
yesterday as usual go volunteer in hospis...just 1 weeks din go bcz of da youth camp i ad missed them very much...duno why...i feel so happy n really lively to be volunteer there....hehe...im happy can cheer them up...:) at least i try to do my best...oni missed 1 week of da job...now there r more patients ad..haha....
waiting for dad to come back...i'm ready for da worst decision from him...all im gonna do is to hv fun n outing outing!!haha...i know GOD had lead mi halfway through my plans....i hope his sign more clearer....medicine....hope i can go for it...but i'm hesitating bout my own ability n intelligence...i dun even hv some common sense...mayb i'll end up doing a course tat is totally out of my consideration...well..who knows bout it!!???haha...
feel so bad when outsiders feel so happy with my rsult while pp who r closed to me not....hmm....haiseh....
yes! today is wednesday!!gonna go psr malam at tmn connaught again!!!!hehe..nice..."aromatic" taufoo is waiting for mi again...hehe ...
yesterday night was browsing some webste in net...haha...al da island in m'sia....well...kind of attractive though...feel so desperate to go haha...wanted to go swhere special before start my course again...haha...
last thursday went to luna bar was my very very 1st time of clubbing(sort of i guess)...it was awesome...especially being with all my frens from college..is just feel great wiht them...always there is laughter...n u dun hv to worry bout ur security...hehe...thank you so much...very miss moments wth u guys n gals....
wutever my dad gonna decide...n whatever i'm gonna do....hopefully it is really GOD's will... :)
praise u lord!!!cheerss~~~~~
Monday, March 20, 2006
memories...
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memories
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haha smiling face....~~keep in on...
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yeah!!!nice place nice pp nice melody~~
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A42 ROCKS!!!
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Saturday, March 18, 2006
been away from home for 4 days three nights to da youth camp....it was fun n also not...n also quite tiring...but overall it was awesome!hehe...by the way,my 2nd, i tink,wisdom tooth had grown out during da camp...haha...sean i was saying tat aha u had grown wiser lor....!!!yes indeed after the camp..i had really learn a lot of thngs...n also draw myself closer to GOD..that HE lives in my heart....hehe...during da camp...i met new pp...a big gang of youngster tat had a rich spirit...GOD's spirit...i gone through great moments with HIM....n also listen n learn new stuff....done things tat i nvr ever wanted to do in my life....scary stuff...hmm...but i had gone through it...
result released the day i came back....16 march....wanna rush back to get it.....when reach klang ad 330pm....scolded @>--- like mad...just bcz he makes mi wait for few minutes...haihs,...feel so angry with my attitude..but at tat moment al i know is im so keen to know wut i got for my final..etc..aiya..duno la..dun wut i had done alsola...just hate him...hmm...too bad la...
hmm....feel nthg for my result la...just dun like it...haih...got AAB...no1 in my family wanna loo at it...feel so bad...
after tat..at night went to luna bar...hehe thanks to my college frens!!haha...if not i wont be there,...hehe...nice!!!after that...went to kei tak sek...so hungry mah..
hmm....hope i really live wiser...
as wut pastor paul said..let it be a comma after this....dun let it be a fullstop....hmm..yeah...
luna's night out
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nice place,nice drink,nice feel...& nice fren~~
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THAILAND*savadika~~~~haha
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special mission~~
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2006 youth camp!!D'VILLAGE
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Thursday, March 09, 2006
i need an anger management please~~~!!!!!!
avtime also i mad at something tats not worth o i can say is just nothing...n yet i dunno why...no matter to any1....including family...especially sista & gparent....i just cant control it...just went mad like hell...OMG* hmm too bad...i regret it after that though...fel so bad...why i can treat other pp better than family....feel so bad bout myself....
n another thing was...spent money like water...hmm..go psr mlm oni...also can spent up to hundred++...buy rubbish...hmmm...
hate myself a lot most of da time.....i wonder how am i suppose to love someone when i cant even love myself 1st....
devil inside me like taking control of mi more n more each day....but i know i will beat it sooner~~hmm....sigh*
so boring...went to hand up da application form to S.I.T. for pharmacy course.....dunno for wut...not really interested also...n i also dun hv the confidence....av1 look at my forecast will like "wow" but actually the exact 1 would not be as good as the forecast 1 la...cheh....i hope the forecast result is my exact result hmmm...but is all too late...
hopefuly i can further my studies in medicine field...it was d oni thing tat i hv interest in it...guess so...compared to others....nursing als quite good...but then avthing hv to wait until nxt friday oni will know....
no special feeling ...get-result-feeling....not much...just normal... i tink wut i had done...n i know wut i should get...hmm...lazy gurl!!!
wanted to go luna bar to 'dai hoi ngan gai' haha...thanks to rachel loo...da pict that she shot so nice....hmm...so attractive...hehe..hopefully nxt week can go loo.. :)
just nw after psr malam we went to keh tak sek lor.....hmm...not bad .....
now alli want to do is to spent av moment with my close 1 tgether...before i start my U life...im so afraid if i will go somewhere faraway...i mean IF oni...i tink 80% wont 1 la...financial pro !!! hate it!!! haih....
wanted to go travel to places tat i wanted to go with @>--- before....do things i nvr try b4..just try to do something wild n crazy!!! haha..
Friday, March 03, 2006
pig!
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tuesday was my 1st day as a volunteer in hospis malaysia...hmm...feeling quite good...i'm learning how to communicate with old people..morning when patient came in then ill make drinks for them...n serve their breakfast for them...then after that i bring their plates,cups etc...to wash...then another session begins!there it goes...the qigong session....started with some simple warm up exercise by an occupational therapist...after that we r celebrating birthday for the stars borned in the month of february!! haha...the patient there were all very cute...after that we have one massage session!!wow!believe mi not, i've learned some simple techniques to massage...-----foot massage!!haha...well i guess i havent really mastered it!!..
i always think,why i can treat outsider better than my own family,my bloved 1...is much more better...n i wonder why...i just cant control myself whenever im with them..i just cant stop for a minutes to appreciate times with them...i wish i could...but it just never can happen!!
thursday went to HM again ...wow!there are more patient compare to tues!! haha...although kept mi very busy n feel very tire...but i'm very happy that i can brightened up their day...at least i've done my best n with all of my heart...
since my last paper in A-lvl's final,i avday also..sleep sleep sleep at home oni!! really very fai chai..until now i feel so too...i've no proper direction in my life...i dunno where should i go...i dunno where HE wants mi to go...wut HE wants mi to do....i just dunno...feel so helpless..
i'm so hoping that my result can be out ASAP but on another hand,im afraid to face the truth...i knew it before i started my papers that tis time is really die ad ....i've totally screwed it up...die...haih...wut to do...
