Written on Thursday, July 23, 2009 @ 1:25 PM
Today, D5 had cg!
its was amazing.! Presence of God fell into the place.
Reassurance.
After cg, we hang out around church. Valerie wants me to say im important. because she skip her ballet.
thanks girl.
AFter that, they deicded to celebrate my farewell at kopitiam.
we went down. crap lots of stuffs. but all of them still doesnt want to buy food.
my stomach went "grr grr" hahaha!
so i was wondering, where did all of them went.
Peifen went back with soup! hahaha.
i was shocked o.0. they sing birthday song with me, then ask me say grace.
i said grace, then more food camp, i was even more surprised. i super paiseh. spend so much money man d5.. o.0
thanks guys! u all rocks! haha =D
went movie after that. Nic said : " I don't want to sit beside valerie!" and in the end, he still sat beside valerie! haha
After movie, nic said valerie grab his arm and her nails went into her meat when she got scared! haha
and i went " lucky i didnt sit beside her! haha"
God, i Thank you for all those things that you have done in my life.
I thank you for D5, For Jieru, Lynette, Dominic, Pastors!
Father, i pray that as im away from Your church, from HOGC, D5 will continue breaking through. People will start rising up. People will get even stronger in You, Church will Break through 1200!
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Written on Saturday, July 18, 2009 @ 11:30 AM
creativity, abilities and productivity
Woah! God spoke today.
God told me this : " hr, There are some responsibilities of this world that i have placed upon your life. Talents that i have put into You. Use them, Invest in them, Rise up like you once did."
I went like.. Woah... God, You knew everything..
Flashbacks came to my head.
The first time, i took seats for cg when i was 2months Christian.
I was in charge to organize D Zone Outing when i was just 4- 6months old.
God placed me in SOW drums when i was just a 7month old christian and i was sitting in Dom's follow up with Choongkai's follow up to learn how Dom give follow up.
After that, Restructured. in Heart2Heart with Fifi. Learnt lots of stuffs. Helped out more in d50, like seats, setting up things for CG.
proceeded to lvl2 Drums. Restructured to D5 again.
God, You showed me how i must loved people and how much i want a revival for guys in D Zone. I risen up, becoming a PTL in church.
Until then, things started a bit sluggish. i wasn't giving my 150% nor 100%. Sometimes, i just forget to spend time with You because i was tired.
God, I knew i had guilt in my heart, not spending that much time with You.
But today, i Had such conviction in my heart, that i'll never going to compromised on the time i am going to spend with you again.
That i know, You put me in SOW, To grow more in You spiritually, then rise me up as Your leader in church. Now, all i Need to do is to do the invisible work. The Diligence. The Hard Work. The Behind scenes Work.
Its not going to be the same again.
It feels like, I will be doing even more things once i enter army life and at the same time, growing so much more in You, Doing so much of Your work with You.
Friend, I know that you may feel not good right now, but i want to tell you, you are always in our prayers.
Don't think so much.
Just remember 1 thing.
God is there for you. God is ready to help you get on your feet up again. He is just only waiting for you to shout 2 Word. " Help Me "
We always be there for you. Even though i may be in the army soon, i will still always be there for you. Just drop me a message whenever you feel like talking =).
God, I trust You with all my heart, I worship YOu with all my heart.
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Written on Sunday, July 12, 2009 @ 12:10 PM
There was somethings in me for the past few days.
FEAR
I don't know. Part of me says that my visions about my team growth, Dreams, TL, CGL, WT Drummer might just be false hope, yet part of me is eager to keep praying and anticipate when God wants me to make the next move again.
It just feels so contradicting.
It just felt like whatever the visions, dreams that God has dropped to me, was just an another wishful thinking of mine. it felt like i was thinking too much. All those things would never happen. you are thinking too much, says the Devil.
Thus, I'm even more challenged to pray more.
pray that my team will grow in numbers, and not only just numbers, but qualities on the inside, the substances.
My visions will come to pass. My life to change.
Zechariah 3:6-7
6 The angel of the LORD gave this charge to Joshua: 7 "This is what the LORD Almighty says: 'If you will walk in my ways and keep my requirements, then you will govern my house and have charge of my courts, and I will give you a place among these standing here.
This verse came back to me again.
i was not very Holy, was not spiritual enough.
I know i was a sinner and i wondered why was this shown to me.
3 Now Joshua was dressed in filthy clothes as he stood before the angel. 4 The angel said to those who were standing before him, "Take off his filthy clothes."
Then he said to Joshua, "See, I have taken away your sin, and I will put rich garments on you."
God loved me. He was ready to take off my sin.
I have no fear of my visions now.
No more fear of what people might think, no more fear of not being able to, no more fear of people getting unhappy for i am here to serve God and not Man.
If He drops me visions, dreams, it means He believe that i can make it happen. If He believe that i can, then I can do it.
something within me
Written on Tuesday, May 26, 2009 @ 10:35 AM
Lead With Revelation
Faith by Prayer
Prayer Comes Power
something within me
Written on Friday, May 08, 2009 @ 3:10 PM
Its been almost 3-4 days..
God, You reassured me time and time and time again with Your words and voice.
But always, there's this war raging inside of me..
its always about people.
Father, You sent me into the world to sow, to reap. But I just cant seem to do it.
Even though that God, You made me a leader, but i d'ont seem to leading well.
It just feel like i'm not there to lead. not even my people that are regulars in church.
God, I'm a bit confused, a bit lost.
God, I feel so burdened, by those lives that are not saved.
yet i could not do anything.
God, I sing to You, that You will strengthened my weakened soul
God, I sing to You, That You will bring peace to my heart
God, I sing to You, that You will rescue me from troubles
Your the one and only Son, Is all I ever need.
God, I will continue fighting this war with You, with Your strength.
God, I pray for Your answers. No matter how long it takes for You to reveal all that to me, I will continue praying, reading Your word.
All it takes is Faith.....
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Written on Monday, April 27, 2009 @ 11:35 AM
" Equip Yourself with my Sword, My Shield, My Armor, For Greater things are coming and I want you to be prepared for it"
God is amazing. God told me this as i was listening to Mr Kasey lectures in class today.
Greater things have yet to come and its coming.
I had a good talk with nicholas during supper just now..
Indeed, this thought has came across my mind lots of times before..
what would i be like if God and Jesus was not in my lifee, what would will happen?
It is a scary thought.
Who would thought that once, i thought of leaving church in the toughest period of my life many times...
I was glad that i didnt do it..
God entrusted lifes to me, Responsibilities of the people around me... my friends, my families, my sheeps.
What would happen if i leave? just leave so suddenly.. that would definitely caused damage to my sheepzxzs.
The people around me would not be saved, they would miss their true destinies..
most importantly, they would not know the love of Christ.
I dont want all this to happen...
I want my family, my friends to know about the love of God that God has showered me with. All the things that He have done in my life.. everything... every single one of it..
Im going to build my altar even stronger.. Stronger and Stronger.. with You, God.
something within me
Written on Saturday, April 25, 2009 @ 11:19 AM
Its been a long time since i last updated:
Woah, i think 1 month has passed since i had become a PTL.
'Nothing much has change, it didn't feel any different.
Just that now, I need to plan my life more delicately now.
Today had a great service. Pastor talked about 2 points out of 7 things that people hate about christianity.
Wrote Pastor Lia's card. then went down for dinner.
i dunno why, but i feel spiritually irritated suddenly. it just came so suddenly. not because of the people or anything. i just dunno what just happened.
I went up to church with Nic after receiving information from KS that we have a rehearsal and run through for Pastor Lia birthday.
I went up, put down my things, and started to play on the dustbins that 3rd day used. it was not that good in the starting. we practice from 9+++ all the way to 12.30. it was good practice.
we managed to catch the gist of it.
The irritating feeling is gone too. and i felt super duper warm! i tell u nowadays the weather are mad man! my rashes all came back. so irritating.
Im going into God's presence again, before i go to sleep later.
As for tomorrow, i am going to wake up at 530 am to start preparing and go off to church. last day of BMT, Finally can graduate from BMT before the nation takes me away for 2 years within 100 days
BMT, service and Practice Run-through will be powerful!!!!
Father, I pray that Your anointing, Your presence and Your Power will be with us for tomorrow.
Father, I know i had great friends, like gabriel, val, annlynn, choongkai, john, nic and many more and I had great SHIFU like KS and Hong Hwee. Father i Thank you for having them in my life. I thank you for the Many things You have Done in My Life.
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