IM 20!!!???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????!!!!!!!!

Time flies. In one blink and it has been quite awhile since I dropped an ink in this blog..guess coz' college's around..and its taking half my time the other half I spend eating, sleeping, and what not...

So what's been happening since the past month?? Well, not many, but for one, it was my Birthday!!!

Yeap, im officially 20...darn, I wish that day would have never come, but hey, I run how far also ill have to turn 20 one way or another. So I just stood there, and kinda accepted it..did some yoga to calm down all...haha..no lar..please..instead, I spent my last day being a teenager in the grounds of my college, and i was like, darn man! I should be bungee jumping, jungle trekking, or eating all the ice-cream in the world, or anything!! Anything but college!! I mean, it was my last day being a freakin' teenager for cryin out loud!!! But no. I had to stay...haih...stuck in the prison that has trapped my soul for three years already...sigh...I was complaining to Raymond and it shocked me when he said "Stop acting like a kid and grow up!" Darn man!! It was my last day being 19! At least let me throw fake tantrums a bit for a moment man!!! Coz after that very day, it will be semi-adulthood edy...darnnn........

That day was the 17th of October, and ill always remember the strage feeling I had on that day throughout...I was recalling on the past 19 years of my life, what I have achieved, what I have gained, what I have lost...Did I make a difference?? Would things be different after this??? Haih..I wouldn't dare to wonder either...But for this birthday, it was unexpectedly surprising.....the few very important people in my life celebrated my birthday with me.....After years of utter dissapointment, I started to loose hope that my brithday would go the way i want it to, and I did actually...I had the perception that it would be like any other day, where situations can get from bad to worse...But God has his own surprises, and for this birthday he gave me the sweetest present of them all-Happiness.

The one most important was my family..Dad, Mom, Sis, Bro..
Then there was Raymond....
And then Ken...
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After that there were my classmates....
Not forgetting, friends from one-upon-a-time-from high school life...

To everyone that made all the difference in the world for this Birthday to me, and putting all those efforts to get me all those wonderful presents, I Thank You so much..... I could have never welcomed the gate of my 20-s in any other way, but to spend it with u all just the way we celebrated it....I really appreciate all the effort, and I love all the presents... Words can't express the happiness I felt and how touched I was...Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love y'all!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *xoxo*

It's Your Day, Chris!!!

The day was 30th of September, the last day of the month. I was busy dressing myself up when i realised that this was only the second birthday party that I went for to personally celebrate a birthday of a college mate. That mate, was none other than Christian, my classmates for the past two years and 5 months. The first time was for my dear friend, Shi Qi. I was lookin' forward to it because i have not seen my old classmates for a month plus.

It was at TGIF, Pavillion. I was lucky to have Raymond follow me so that I didn't have to worry about transport or coming back too late. Yong Wei actually was supposed to send me back but I wouldn't want that incident that happened earlier this year to happen again. That time I passed my curfew because I followed my peers to another outing after graduation dinner, and that lasted until 1 in the morning. Perhaps for others it's still very early, but it's was waaaay pass my curfew. Yeap, I have a curfew and am not ashamed to say it!!! Haha! That's why im a goody girl!!!

Those who were at the party included Bianca, Hon Heng, Ah Mon, Shi Qi, Alan, Kam Kyu, Terrry, Elris, Raymond, Myself, the Birthday boy himself and his gf, Irien.

I enjoyed the food. I ordered chicken burger and fries, while Raymond ordered three-course meal which includes an appetizer (cheese balls), fish and chips, and chocolate fudge for dessert. The other dish we shared was called the Dragonfire something. It was one of the new dishes and it looked good in the pic so we ordered it to try. Truth to say, both of us were the one who ordered so much. ^_^ But the Dragonfire dish wasn't that sumptuous. It looked better than it tasted. Sigh...Even the cauliflower had a weird bitter-mint taste on it. Maybe is WAS supposed to taste like that..dunno la..And the chicken chop was not handled with very well too. Despite that, the fries were ever so crunchy and satisfying!!! Not to mention the ample amount they gave. At the end of the day, we were both full...It looked like everyone else was full too. Then we sang the Birthday song along with the usual TGIF tradition for birthday celebrant.

I managed to catch up with a few of them like Shi Qi, alongside had a few conversations with my other classmates. Christian opened his birthday present, and I hope he liked our gift to him. We bought him a Nike shoe bag. Blue, which I assume, was his favourite. ^^

After the dinner, they went out for their second round. Bowling at Times til maybe 1. Knowing them, maybe they went out for a third and fourth round. Haha. Raymond and I on the other hand, left for home after the dinner. Here are a few pics...



Chris and Irien

Mon Zai...

Here are the pics of the food.

Eaten by....

US! Haha!

Here are more pics...

Friends always... ^^

Does SIZE really matter???

Since size 4 is the new size 6 and size 0 becoming the new size 2, everyone has become more conscious about how they look like. At least in my world, it is. Watch in the movie Devil Wears Prada and you'll entirely get what I mean. But honestly, does size really matter???

I have seen friends slimming down and going through an agonizing diet just to look better. They don't eat at all, and exercise when they have the chance. The only thing they eat are probably bread and fruits. And drink nothing but water-sugarless, and tasteless. And Perhaps fruits and raw vegetables, since they have no fats whatsoever. Even bread has calories so it's probably out of the question. What they do is just smell and look at those moist, juicy, and filled-with-fats food, and watch painfully as others gobble on the sumptuous meals. Then there is vomiting out food from the belly. Putting stuffs into the throat, forcing all the nutrients out of the body before they are used by the system. Bulimic, anorexic, the list goes on. But the question is, why the suffering?? Is the torment worth?? Over months, or even weeks, yes they do loose pounds after pounds. For some. they look emaciated. Even for these stick-looking people, in their eyes they are still not thin enough, though their bones are just a layer away. It's sad to see these people looking so pale and weak in the name of beauty.

Then there are some people who are born with a-bit-more-weight. Especially girls, as they grow they become more self-conscious about themselves. Consequently, due to peer pressure and insecurities, they start to shun themselves from the crowd. Other people don't give them chances either, spitting out cruel words and names as they walk by.

Why does this happen? Is it a crime to be fat?? Is there a rule against fat people??? No. There isn't. It is just the minds of shallow people coming together to make a full out of themselves more than the person that they want to make a fool out of just to make themselves feel better. Who says that being 'thin' is the right thing, and being big sized is wrong?? There is no saying to that..I can't say that I'm speaking out of experience because my weight never exceeded 50 kg, but as I see these people, I know there is much more to them than how they look. There is so much more purity inside, and it just saddens me to see them being said things like that. It gets more sad when I see them being hurt by all the vicious words. Yes, honesty is the best policy, and friends say truthful things to each other, but some words said shouldn't be so shallow or hurtful. Just like they say, the person who says does not feel pain, but the person who hears feels it.

So for those people out there, don't allow yourself to be saddened by these people. Whether they accidentally or purposely say it, don not allow yourself to be struck by their words. Just love yourself for who you are, and other people out there will love you for who you are. I said this before. In life you have to make even the simplest choices. People say things. Some things may be good, and some may be bad. Whether it's good or bad you don't have the power to control, but what you can do is listen to it or not. If you choose to listen to it,you must choose again whether to be affected by it or not. This does not imply to just this matter, but other things that may be offensive too.

It is all in the mind, and the mind is a very powerful thing. So always think on the bright side. Because no one is perfect. For those of you who owns a beautiful and vuluptuous body, count your blessings. And do the world a big favour and don't criticize those who doesn't have what u have. Because nothing lasts forever. Even beauty diminishes over time. So just always feel good about yourself, even if your 50 or 100 kg. Because no matter what size u carry upon your body, remember, that there is more, MUCH more, than meets the eye...