Good Morning...

A relationship is like a rose,
how long it last, no one knows.
Love can erase an awful past,
love can be yours, you'll see at last.
To feel that love, it makes you sigh,
to have it leave, you'd rather die.
You hope you've found
that special rose,
cause you love and care
for the one you chose....

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Just a simple message to boost up the spirits...

Have a nice weekend ahead...

*love. jean*

Alaska??

Ever seen Alaska before??? Better yet, ever had a good taste of it?? Well, I have. ^_^

Now have a look at it.



Yeap! I was talking about the Alaska cake!

What the heck is that??? Hrm, well its actually a cake with a touch of multiple desserts all in one, with what I would call erm, baked egg white coating. Inside there was pineapple, a thin layer of pandan sponge cake and my favourite, ice-cream! It was cocktail sweet and sour, which was nice. It was a cake that was one of a kind, and mom was so happy with the surprise..! Look at her!


Mom's Birthday was last Saturday. And at night after dad closed shop, we went to celebrate in Kepong. At my favourite restaurant. Where else if not D'Fortune?? Hehe... And it was a blast.

We were a whole big bunch that day. There was Fatin and Aunt Rose that followed us too. The food was tasty, as usual, and most of us ordered Super sized drinks. And the super was really, a super. At Rm 6.90 it was a real worth one. A good meal accompanied with a satisfying food drink..What more could we ask...Ahhh... Love the drink in a warm night...

But there was more. The Alaska cake was courtesy of D'Fortune, in the house. it was the friendly nature of mom who made friends with the Manager the last time we went there. And when it was known to her that we were there to celebrate mom's birthday, she made this sudden and pleasant surprise, which I thought was so sweet. Well, let the pics tell u more...



Had a video of the guitarist and the Birthday song but hey, with my voice at the background, it ain't somethin u wanna hear. Haha.

Hope she liked her presents. Hunt through the whole complex for that one. Haha. Tiring, but fun nevatheless. =)

Happy Birthday Mummy!

Losta love.

When Strings Didn't Connect...

Sometimes the things you say to people has a lot of effect on them. I myself have said many wrong things in the past and have hurt the people that were close to me. First of all, I apologise for all those things which have hurt. I have made mistakes and well, I guess I’ll just have to learn it the hard way.

It is understandable if you want to get a certain message across to the person on the other side to understand how u feel inside. Whether its pain, fury, anger, sadness, happiness, excitement, etc. But while the message stands its truth, at the moment while it was being sent, if the message was said in a way that when it was being read, it was so heart-throbbing to read, then tempers will flare and it changes everything.

When a person is angry, many emotional things start coming out like candies spilling out from candy jars and things get more hurtful than it initially was. If the intention was for the better, at that point it may not have seemed like it, and the reader feels that it was nothing else other than insults, then rage multiplies, and then fued starts. Especially if the situation (relationship) is hanging by a thread, everything that is said will be so vunerable and is prone to be excruciating to read and what more comprehend when the wrong things are said at that very moment.

And at the very end, we forget what makes the fundamental part of a relationship. While presents are nice, there is only one thing that mattered the most, and that was what that was always lacking. Its not understanding, no. But something much simpler.

I believe that everyone in this world is made for one other person to call their soulmate and hopefully, spend their lives together. And while some quest to find this person fails, it’s alright, because life doesn’t always go your way. And you'll realize that some things are just not meant to be. The person who really loves you for who you are don’t give up so easily on you, so you just gotta find that one person that is willing to go to the end of the world with you. Through thick and thin, right?

As I read in a blog, every end brings a new beginning, no matter what kind. There’s always a good side in everything, eventhough you couldn't see it at first. But the fog clears, and you finally do.

LIFE is an ever-learning journey, so what matters is the experience gained. Therefore, for those whose love couldn’t endure, let’s just wish happiness to the ones who used to matter... And hope that no matter where life takes them, they will find happiness, and the very best of wishes from the heart goes with them too...

The Hope-Danny Gokey

Every year, when Idol season starts, it becomes a tradition in my family to make Wednesdays and Thursdays as Idol evenings and we would sit on the couch and pick our favourites. There were a few of mine this year, and I'm proud to say that a few ppl that I have eyed on are still on the running. One however, has been a constant reminder to me as I recall of this year's selection. And he is Danny Gokey.

Danny Gokey is taking the world by storm with his story of hope and courage - one that he out pours this season. There were many stories that we have heard over the years but Danny's was unforgettable. Danny has touched the hearts of many viewers who have lost a loved one in their life. Danny tried out for American Idol just weeks after his wife died during an operation. congenital heart disorder.

The first time I heard him sang in the audition room, I knew he would be one of those who would go far in this competition. I remember he auditioned with his friend, Jamaa'r who was equally good but didn't make it to the Top 36. Many months from then, we watched him grow as a contestant and a singer, most of all as a person, who poured his heart out through the many wonderful and unforgettable song he has sung, most of the soft ones in which we all knew, was dedicated to his dear wife.

And this evening, he sang one of the most famous love songs of all time-My Endless Love. That song was mom and dad's wedding song. Well, just watch the video and you'll get why I'm rooting for him...

Beautiful, isn't it? If he can melt the heart of a girl all the way from Malaysia, I'm sure he has melted the hearts of millions in America. Although he may not be as popular as Adam Lambert, who is younger, cuter and FYI, is GAY, but I'm rooting for this guy simply because he is the simpler, innocent, more pure one and a person that holds love so dear to his heart, this is the guy who deserves to join the American Idol family.. I'm sure his wife is watching down at him, smiling and being so proud of him for being so strong and making it this far already...

Questions...

It’s been quite long time since I had trouble sleeping at night. Yesterday, was one of those nights.

There I was turning left and right repeatedly every 10 minutes. The clock kept ticking and soon I realized hours went by.

I was troubled. By this thought in my head. The whole scene kept repeating itself like a broken record, going back and forth every time it reaches the end.

After the meal we had in the food court, I didn’t want to switch ownership anymore. After all the discussion and explanation, going to the centre was the last thing I wanted to do. I didn’t want to do it.

I guess I didn’t make it clear enough…

I could sense the body language. Was I getting the right message??? If it is, why wasn’t I stopped??? Why??? Why did I let that happen??? Did he feel the same as I did??? Did he???? Why didn’t one of us stop it??? If there was love, why didn’t we??? Was it the ego that overpowered everything??? Or is it…because he was not at the same page as I was??? Or is it…he didn’t want it anymore??? Why???

Haih... The answer’s not important anymore…Its just…sighs… really hate moments like this...

Just wanna let go of the frustration…

The Beginning & End...

Whenever there's a beginning, there is always an end. No matter how you try to avoid, you can't avoid it. Like death, its inevitable. While some things shouldn't come to an end, when it happens, all you can do is just sigh at the outcome wishing things could have taken a better turn and have a happier ending...

But life is not a fairytale and we are not living in the Cinderella world, and as much as I love Cinderella (really do), living a fairy tale life was not possible. You see, the best part about cartoons is that they show only the good sides. What they don't show is the downside of relationships, how internal problems can be so frustrating.

And here I am, sitting down on this chair, reminiscing an advice a good friend gave to me just recently. How those words were true yet I let it slide by like it meant nothing, until it comes back hitting at me when all is already said and done. It goes like this:

"Everyone has their own story. Whether how the story goes ALL depends on the person living it. While problems always exists, there are always solutions to it. All that matters is that are you WILLING to take that step to solve the problem or not. If you are willing to take that step, then there won't be any problems left for you."

How come I never understood how simple it was, I'll never know.

One person said it all. It's true, nothing false at all.

Guess my life always evolves around regrets.

I'll make sure this will be the last time. The last.

And now that I have realised it, its too late...hearts are broken. One was truly broken.



I will never forget today...

Let it be a lesson well learnt...

Benny.

Years down the road and we have come to a full circle. Its nice how excursions can be so random yet so exciting and nice, and where we find ourselves quite little in common, it was surprising on how many things we laughed at. Though the duration was as long as 5 years, and wasn't that constant, it's nothing short but filled with great happiness which runs on strings on truthfulness every time.

With much happenings of recent events, its nice to have someone to confide into. Though there was no words needed, its just nice to know that someone cares.

But good things are never meant to last. Heck, that seemed to be my motto every time. Now my Benny is far away, and there'll be no such incidents such as a sudden I'll-pick-u-up-in-15 minutes anymore, at least, not for a few years to come...

Good Luck lil Benny.

Hope you'll do well in Scotland.

You'll be missed by everyone at home.

Missing you already.

Take care...