i don’t know

Throughout my life, I’ve been meeting people from all walks of life. Some are such angels that you just feel like picking them up and put them on your shelf for display (wtf) but some are like devils whom you feel like kicking them to the curb and spit on them. Yeah that’s how bad those people can be and how bitchy I CAN BE.

Am I destined to meet people who treat me like trash? Or at least spare me a life I have my own too. I am in no place to judge a person but I certainly can sense it when a person is being nice or rude. I don’t really care if you are a friend but treating others like trash isn’t the right thing to do. Sometimes in the state of confusion, frustration, anger or panic can make you a lot worse than who you really are. And I can relate. Yes I was stressed, I was frustrated, I was panic and I was angry. But it wasn’t all my fault you know? And I can’t help but to put the blame on you, well partly. You neglected our group project because you didn’t have time for your own. I am not trying to be an insensitive bitch here but look, you can cost us our 50% off our finals. We are third year students. Show some responsibilities or at least, show some sense of commitment. You are committed but to a certain extent, it turned out to be the wrong kind of commitment. You suggested us to do unnecessary things and it wasn’t even relevant to our work. If you were to do it, don’t drag us in. You can settle your own little “task”. The whole group against it. And I thought it would be some masterpiece but it ended up like an elementary school work. You can’t blame us for not putting your work in.

Also, your part of task wasn’t what we wanted and I particularly asked you to ammend it. Did you? No. You chose to tell me “I will do it when I’m done with my individual assignment”. And in the end, you still didn’t ammend the shit you pooped out. Alright, so we all didn’t have time to do the ammendments for you but no, it’s not a small part. It’s two huge part of our assignment. The introduction and the conclusion. We have to give an impact at the beginning and the end of the assignment but now it turned out crappy. So what kind of impression will it leaves the lecturer with? Effortless. Yeah that was what it tells me.

And you came in 2 hours late on the day we turned it in and you dared to leave early before we could actually include your part into our compilation. Actually we could have handed in 2 hours earlier than expected but because of you we handed in 2 hours later than the deadline. How could you? Have you any sense at all? I guess not. Sorry is not enough. I was angry to the extent that I wish not to speak to you again because clearly you did not take our work seriously. It was a group work not an individual. I don’t care how you fucked your individual work but I certainly do not wish to see you fuck ours. So what if it was your bf’s birthday? I didn’t celebrate my bf’s bday because we (me and bf) were busy working on our group project too. And you were part of it but you acted as if it was only mine and bf’s. So much for everything we’ve done for the group. Sometimes it makes me wonder if you’re that worthy of my anger.

I’ve tried so hard not to judge you but you do not give me any credibility not to. But I’m glad that the nightmare’s over. This tells me that you have to be wise in choosing the people you work with because the wrong people just fuck you up nicely and they won’t even feel sorry bout it.

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