i cant believe that this is already my 256th post alr. still remember vividly the first time i set up this blog in sec 2 thanks to shirlynn ong. :)

anyways, school started a long time ago. this is already the 4th week of the semester and the stress is slowly creeping up on me now. it seems like i will have a very hard time this semester taking responsibility of more things too..

first test will probably be starting next week. will be bio theory test on nervous system and i have not revised through it yet! first ICA will be starting next next week and we have not really started on the planning and everything. it is plain horrible just thinking of the weeks that have flown past these few weeks.

i just obtained my certificate for the directors list and am pleased with it. but i am so unsure as to whether i can achieve it again this semester. i have not really been listening much in my bio lectures and trying very very hard to catch up with all my practicals and tutorials. i hope god can give me the strength to last through these weeks and teach me to remove the distractions to concentrate better..

as most may know, i am currently working part time at a clinic on some weekday nights. recently i am planning to take up this job offer from my friend. as a gift wrapper in precious thots on weekends until christmas day. you must be thinking why i want to take up so many part time jobs rite? well, the most important reason is because i want to be independent. i dun want to keep asking my parents for money. i feel very paiseh every time i want to ask for allowance and extra money for buying workbooks and such.

so i really dun know how my sister can actually be so thick skinned. i am not trying to bring her down or do anything to her. i just want to express my feelings here even though some of you may heard this story many many times. yes, as i was saying, she is now in norway on her study trip. i mean like, the trip is for 6 months and the cost of living there is super high? one month of renting the room in the hostel cost 1000 sing dollars a month. imagine 6 months. then the food there is so expensive, she keep telling us to send her food by post? one time is enough.. now she wants me to do it again. i am fine with it actually. but she only tell me on monday and now she wants me to send to her like by tmr! isnt it a bit too rush? furthermore, my days these week are like totally packed to the max and partly sacrificing my studies alr! i cant afford to help do so many things! the least she could do is give me a week to prepare! but ok. the things i bought for her using my money, i told her that i would want her to pay me back when she returns from norway. but she wants me to claim it from my mother! and the things cost 50-100 dollars if u want to include the postage to pay. pls tell me how to ask my mum or my dad for it??? i really dun want to add on to their financial burden! and doesnt my sis have lots of money? since she could afford the money to go sight see-ing and touring in europe with her friends? i feel so angry with her now. she is so insensitive to the things around her and back in singapore.

does she know the consequences? my parents may think that all study trips are so costly and troublesome and may not allow me to go on study trips! this is not the only time it happened alr. i understand my parents very well.

actually i would love to take the whole of tmr to rest properly and catch up on my revison. but since i promised you all that i would go out with you all, i shall fulfil it. i dun want to break my promise yet again..

now i feel so stressed and emo. the only thing i want to do now is to hide in bed and cry and wake up next morning, pick myself up from i paused and continue on with life. :)

GOOD NEWS! i got my wallet back alr!!! other than all the lost money, everything is intact!!! WOOHOO! i got it back by singpost. :) the theif took the money and dropped my wallet into the mail box. it was sent to me as loose mail! haha.. though the theif did a bad thing by stealing my money, i must still praise the theif. smart move. didnt get any police involved. so he/she wont be suspected. super smart...

DOUBLE GOOD NEWS! semester 1 results back alr!!! :) i scored a distinction in family and community health science and some As and B+s and Bs. :) overall my GPA was 3.673 over 4.0!!! the results were unexpected really. i thought i would perform really badly. i guess the rest were worse? which sort of pulled me up. i really hope to get into director's list. :) haha.. :)

initially when i got my results, i was actually upset. cos i was thinking about wat lecturers said previously about MANY students getting a GPA of above 3.5 over 4. so i thought 3.6 was only borderline and wouldnt let me be a "top student". well.. haha.. u may say i am too ambitious.. but i do have many big dreams and expectations of myself. :)

but after the next day i was feeling better. because i realised there were LOTS of people who had results of 2plus. but i didnt check the foreign students in the class. i wonder hows their grade.. :)

just ended my first week of attachment. doing fine. am building up confidence and comfort in my ward and cubicle. i like interacting with the patients. :) and it really feels good when patients get well and thank you for your care and concern during their stay. really warms my heart and brings out my smile and up my spirit. :) i have 2 more weeks of attachment! :) longing for school now. :)

PS: I REALLY LOVE MY PROFESSION. :D

haha.. too lazy too blog these few days.. but today i have the urge to update everyone about my life!!!

yups. i am having my 6 weeks of holiday now... (now left 4weeks) currently, starting from this week, i will be having my clinical attachment at a local hospital for 3 weeks. yups. wish me luck! :) i cant blog much about the place or my feelings since it is not permitted. so not going to elaborate. :) but joey was attached to the same hospital as i am! and she was in the same orientation group! it is so good to see her!

for those who see my facebook profile, would have noticed that ME have lost my wallet! AGAIN!

the first time was in school. i placed my wallet right in front of my desk. but when i turned my head back, it was gone! i remember going to every class to write announcement to request the theif to return my wallet. but to no avail. finally, after one week, a police letter came, asking me to retrieve my wallet. i was so lucky then! because other than 10 dollars cash being stolen, my NRIC and ez-link card were still inside, unused. the police said that it was found by someone near a rubbish bin. but i was so anxious then that i forgot to ask who was it.. but in any case, i was really lucky then because i didnt even make a police report then and i still got it back..

but this time is worst. because i lost it at a public place! specifically, Orchard ION! just calculate my chances of getting it back man. with so many people in and out, it is like finding a needle in a haystack. i finally made an official police report on sunday about the wallet. because it contained my ATM card and NRIC and ez-link card! there were lots more. but these 3 cards were the most important to me. i am still waiting for any police letter to appear in the mail box. i will wait.. for one week before making the replacement cards.. haiz.. so unlucky? yes. REALLY. i want it back.. will any kind-hearted person help me?? :(

well.. i definitely learnt my lesson this time round. i will use a more portable wallet and will not bring any unnecessarry card out of house anymore. and i will be more careful of where i put my things in future!

yups. thats all thats happened to me these days. so getting ready for work now. BYES!

haha... yup my blog is rather dead huh... too lazy to type that is..

ok just a small update on life now, exams ended 2 weeks ago so now i am rather caught up with my CCA, SA drama. our annual production is this saturday and i will be acting as a civilian. 2 dead scenes and1 injured scene. haha... excited? not really. i think more of scared. yups. give me ur moral support! haha.. :)

yesterday was 8 september which is also milissa's birthday and losers' 2 years anniversary! yeh!! but audrie is not here.. she has left on a long holiday /study to UK. (it is UK rite? not saudi arabia rite aijia? haha...) all the best audrie! i am sure u are safely there now rite? :) yup. starting to miss her alr... must wait till december alr.. aww...

oh yes, my baby cousin is here! she is going to be 2 years old in november! yeh! and my aunt just gave birth to a baby boy today morning! yup. look exactly like his sister. haha...

very cold now. in the TFA blogging. haha.. :)

I LOVE MY BLOG SONG. YES. IT IS S.H.E'S NEW SONG.. 锁住时间 !!!

HAHA... :) i am feeling like super hungry now. been awake since 7am. not eating anything. wanted to study but i wanted to surf the internet first. then, while waiting for the internet to get connected, i went to play theme hospital. so i wasted about 2 hours!!! OMG. my theory test is like on wednesday? i dun know wat i am doing now man. haha..

anyways, wanted to wish Singapore a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY! haha... :) watched the NDP yesterday. SO COOL. i was so hyped up at the beginning of the show. like at 6 plus? YUP. i like that story of Singapore about that 10 chaptes or something. :) "Yes Sir, you ask me I ask who?" HAHA.. mark lee is so funny! :D i loved this year's performance man. and i was simply screaming my heart out when i saw my idol, MM Lee Kwan Yew. he is so cute! HAHA... :) the contingents this year was so cool too! and i dun know why, i keep peering at the people to spot for cute guys. HAHA... but there were none.. HAHA...

anyway, after our President finished inspecting the contingents, i fell asleep on the rocking chair... OOPS. i was so tired. then i went into the room to sleep. so i missed the fireworks and the Singapore pledge at 8.22pm.. :( so saddening! oh wells.. there is always next year! :)

so i slept 11 hours yesterday? HAHA.. yups. i shall go find somethings to eat. haha.. :)

anyways, as i am listening to this song, i start to miss a lot of people... squadmates, losers, PSLs!!! :)

i am feeling like so stressed now.. because of my negligence, i have caused like so many people to be worried and disappointed in me... i feel so bad now...

because of it, i am in hot soup now. ok. maybe not as bad as that. but i made people angry and even worse, they are my lecturers! this i only my first year in poly. i really dun want to ruin my name now such that i suffer for 3 years! i dun wanna feel this way!

the only way to relieve this guilt, can only be finding the lecturer to apologise and explain to her. i really dun wanna make any enemies too... i ope the problem will be solved by tmr.. if not i can never find the mood to study...

i am stressed and sad... :(

i am watching spirited away now!! woohoo! so nice!

haha... but i am distracted now.. well.. apparently, my brother accidentally knocked over a friend's camera and it is spoilt. but he didnt do it on purpose and it is not his responsibility. but that GIRL wanted him to compensate her. and she actually asked him to pay him the full price which she bought it at which is $400 plus. SUPER EXPENSIVE CAN. and she used it for like dunno how many years alr? so why does she deserve a new one?

the market price of that object would have dropped like about half now since 1 or 2 years has passed alr. so even if my brother were to compensate her the full price, isn't it supposed to be around $200 only? is she trying to take advantage of him? do they think we are stupid? yup. so my father is now debating with her and her father now.

this is so irritating. that girl schoolmate of my brother sounds like such a bitch. so unreasonable. just goes to show how evil some school girls can get this days... SO PAMPERED... totally lose face to us as girls.

HAIZ... I AM ANGRY... :(

ooo... did blogger change its format and everything? haha... not used to this now.. :)

yup. so i went to red cross carnival on saturday with wan xin! woohoo! thanks jie mei!!! i ponned my CCA to come to this. be grateful to me ok?! haha.. had breakfast with wan xin at macdonalds before setting off to the big splash! haha... on the way, we saw the juniors! the sec 2s and 3s! HAHA... i think we sort of gave them a BIG shock. :D

they were so stunned seeing us walk there.. it is so nice to see them again after so long! they really make my day! :) but too bad they were going home after the carnival... so couldnt spend much time talking to them or anything.. :( oh wells next time perhaps! :)

so reached there after like 15 minutes under the sun? HAHA... super hot... saw milissa! but couldnt talk to her much because she was busy.. on duty and everything. :( didnt see jane there! its been a long time since i saw her.. kind of miss her.. haha... :) so went to see what they were selling at the carpark area. :) saw some nice clothes and hair clips!!!!!!! so wan xin and i bought some back! they were all handmade! :) and they were so pretty. i bought about 4 of them at 5 dollars. it is for a good deed! haha... maybe next time i shall try and make some. :)

stayed on for about 1 hour? cos there was nothing much to do too.. so we went home. haha... :) but it was still a fun day! :) thanks milissa! for telling me about this event! thanks wan xin! for accompanying me! the rest of our classmates, only some replied me... wonder what happened to the rest... ??? :(

haha.. went out to study today. not very effective but at least i understand the things that are happening around me more... and i will try my best to correct my behaviour. but i still wonder why some like to gossip about others. i mean.. it is a bad thing to do it.. i know others will gossip about me speaking my bads and everything.. and i dun take it much at heart.. but not everybody is like me. am i right? haiz.. 一个人不管做好事或坏事都不重要，只要不做错事就好。 i will remember this sentence. thank you. :)

haha... woohoo! had a really fun day on saturday. it was dear joycie's birthday! haha.. :) happy belated birthday squadmate! love ya loads! :) so that day, after drama, headed over to jurong point which is at boon lay to wait for hl and hh to come from school. waited super long. then i went to the bus interchange and just sat there and did some organising of my time. haha... typical of me man.. :)

finally they came. i was starving. but u know wat? i only had 15 cents with me then. haha.. i had to ask hl to pay for my 'Mr Bean lunch'. haha... i owe hl 2.30 dollars! i must remind myself like that. hh was so funny when she saw me. haha... she practically jumped up and got a shock or something. haha... was laughing at her the whole time.

so we went to JP to look for some cake and present to give joyce. had a hard time looking for her too since she was doing CIP for the Singapore Cancer Society. :) we were so afraid that she would like move to another location or something like doing flagday, running around the places. haha...

then we went to choose a cake for joyce. haha... super funny. because there was bengawan solo, polar and prima deli. we were looking at all the cakes then i couldnt make up my mind on wat to choose and went to each shop like at least 3 rounds before deciding on RASPBERRY SEDUCTION. haha... funny name. and the cake was quite big as it was our dinner too. supposedly... :)

wanted to surprise her from the cake but as we approach the booth, she suddenly turn to look towards us. WE GOT A SHOCK! and i squated down as she turned her head. all hl's fault! joyce recognised her! and so she started to walk towards us. haha... i almost cried on the spot man. so touching! haha... afer much hugs, we told joyce to return to the booth and pretend she didnt see us so we could 'surprise' her again! HAHA...

so funny. finished up the cake like some hungry ghost, eat until i want to vomit. HAHA... yup. i uploaded the pictures on facebook. go and see it! :)

but too bad there are only 4 of us there. sorry squadmates! didnt inform the rest of you to come! it was rather a last minute decision.. but there is always a next time! :)

I REALLY MISS MY SQUADMATES... MY LIFE WOULD BE SO DIFFERENT WITHOUT THEM. THANK YOU! :D

now, i probably will look like joyce, so troubled. haha...
want to take a photo like that but i dun have someone to take the picture for me. haha...

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