i'm sorry lah, daddy.
my mood's just ruined from the no-reason-at-all cancellation of the new year's eve plan i had. *deepest sigh ever*


baik tak payah let me keluar at all right?
i don't get why you didn't let me go.
but i'm too nice; i don't want to show my frustration to you.

feel so dumb.

feel like crying.

why are all my new years' eve so shitty?

ada PMS kuut.
argh pfft.


I Do The Jerk- Ryan Shaw

on new year's eve,
nothing's better than.....

• having dark green flam thats been with you for a week
• feeling fat
• being at home
• with horrible Internet connections
• activity-less

nice, hor?.

Hallelujah- Paramore

i love reading my daily horoscopes on Friendster.
and this one on PMR result day made me laugh x)

A LITTLE overwhelmed? rofl

i still can't believe the fact that i got straight A's.
the feeling is so ... indescribable.



yeah sure i was upset when i thought i didn't get em straight.
a bit cocky eh, to have that level of confidence.



and the fact that my brother thought my crumply and slightly torn slip that i left on the computer table was trash so he threw it away.

crap right?

after searching through the trash, i found my even-more-crumpled slip splat on the floor nearby. HALLELUJAH

your brother jealous laa.

-a few random people-

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and my brother left for NS today.
i really hope to see him come back thinner. xD



so yesterday, he held a form5 potluck farewell party just outside. sorry for no pictures my brother took the camera around .... 40 people came? and food was literally on every table. and of course, being the adik i get to join in their celebration.



and i think i was fighting over a seat with Cheam .....



JuYehh:hey i sat here first okay?
Cheeam:eh no la i sit here!
Dwayne:eh Cheam .. please don't malu la. wanna lawan 7A's. how many A's you got ah?





and i was eating some chicken with my hand and then Calvin buka mulut ......



waaa why you eat like that?
... why can't i eat like that?
dunno how you got 7A's.





you sick people.




oh well, the partay was really fun.


Andrew Loh tried pulling off a few lame magic tricks.
which were so lame, we laughed for quite a long time.
only the four year old neighbour kids were like 'WHOAH'



Yuen Ken went to buy party and artificial snow spray.
like ... twenty cans?
yeah. go imagine the mess in front of my house and along the road.



YY got my brother all crazy happy.
how gay.
ugh.



party ended at 1.
and i slept at 3.

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oi.
you break up with your so-called girlfriend.
think what? can come running back to me?
think i forgot the last time you broke my heart?

men.

are disgusting. UGH

thank God i got over you, KIDDO.



Hide And Seek- Imogen Heap

let me tell you, you know.

• 59 students got straight A's in SV
• i am PMR-target number 37 in the student list
• Puan Pengetua wanna do ceremony for the straight A students
• so the straight A students would be called up on stage
• those who didn't get, too bad too sad la.
• my best friend whom i CONFIRM YOU is smarter than me, didn't get straight A's
• Katrina Yeoh and Joshua Cheah came because i made them
• i was crying even before names were called
• because i was too scared lahh kay?
  
  

• eventually, my name didn't get called
• i was so terribly upset, i cried even more
• aiyohh; i really couldn't accept the fact lahh kay?
• i've been dreaming about straight A's since form2 laa.
• i got up, went to my parents and cried LAGI more
• and they were so supportive; 'its okay JuYi. its okay'

i was quite surprised, because at the same time i was crying because i was really happy for so many of my friends who made it up there on the stage. those who got straight A's. it was really nice to see them smiling so deeply and joyfully; especially those who were not even straight A targets.

aaah.
talk about mix feelings. xD

• at the verge of wanting to completely give up,
• right after saying to myself; 'its okay lahh JuYi. you failed this time, next time can do better. don't get straight A's nevermind. still can aim for 6 and 5A's.
• after approximately 5 minutes, an announcement was made.
  
  
  
  
  
  

'ummm ... minta maaf ya ada seorang lagi.

Wong Ju Yi?'

...........................................................
POTONG STIM!





that feeling.
sumpah; won't forget until the day i die.



very the drama, hor?
imagine if you were in my place.
rainy day turned bright and sunny.

aaaah.

7A's.

i still cannot believe i got it.

like, the slip. straight dohh STRAIGHT! *jumps around*

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i made a few friends cry, and made a few parents cry as well.
well, today i made a teacher cry NOT in a good way, and i myself cried like wanna die.

cried until headache laa.

up til now, i still cannot believe that i achieved this.

it was amazing to have the chance to share the stage with you other straight scorers.

therefore.
i wanna take this chance to say;


thank you to all the teachers who have worked crazyass hard in educating my slow brain.
thank you for sacrificing time, esp those that i went to search for after school.
thank you for continuously teaching, even when you didn't want to.
thank you for keeping me in your prayers.
thank you for always being there for me when i need help.
thank you for giving me chances again and again.
thank you for not losing hope in me.


thank you to friends who have given me so much support.
thank you for always being there when i'm in a breakdown.
thank you for willingly and continuously convincing me.
thank you for always giving me help when i need to.
thank you for the calls and messages!
thank you for listening.
thank you for caring so much.
thank you for always trying to keep me positive.
thank you because eventhough i was so annoyingly negative about all this, ya'll never gave up.
thank you because without ya'll, i really don't think i would've achieved this today.

thank you to my family. both my biological and non biological one

thank you for always reminding me to study

thank you for talking to me a day before PMR.

thank you for always keeping me in prayers.

thank you for reminding me that its okay even if i fail.

thank you for reminding me that ya'll will still love me.

thank you for being you.

thank you to Aunty Shida Nadeem's mom and Aunty Lee Divya's mom,

for being the most supportive friends' parents ever!

for those who didn't achieve to their expectations ....

i really do feel sorry as well.

but please, don't ever give up.

so yeah, you fell this time. but the next time when you get to be standing, your hapiness will be far superior than mine. swear it.

i love you all.

Piece Of Me- Britney Spears

whoops.
didn't write two days left yesterday x)


oh well.
now its

1

those butterflies in my tummy ....

gotta be murdered.

This Woman's Work- Maxwell

Divya, WHO ARE YOU SIDING?

since well ... i know you love the both of them to death.

as for me;

taw taw only lahh hor who i siding.

if i'm not mistaken, they were from the same school. from rumours, Lauren had the reputation of being one of 'those girls' who are like those typical bullies in schools. Lacey i dunno. and these two dancing goddesses are only eighteen. Lacey third runner up while Lauren fifth runner up

drama behind the scenes many months ago, but i only found out about it now. from wild rumours, L and L have never been on good terms since the start of the show and all the way up until touring days.

Lacey blogged up the whole girlfight drama on her myspace

bad idea, honey. but then again, smart for deleting it early

the whole fight was catty, and slightly immature.

they were both wrong in their own ways.

as one of Laceface's crazy fans, i obviously believe her story, although i would love to hear the other side's story as well. i'm shocked to have found out that it had happened. i felt so sorry that you were crying so many times during your tour around the States, some of the times in hiding from being chased, and some because you felt hurt.

thank God all the drama has already been over.

i love you, Lacey Mae Schwimmer.

fans everywhere dooooooo~! *hyperventilates*

Kiss Me- Sixpence None The Richer

three days

EDIT

sorry for blabbing out less and less words by day.

honestly, all i have been thinking about is the coming day.

i've dreamt about it four times already *shivers*

BUT

i wanted to write about my church, Calvary's Christmas Musical that i attended just now.

its been quite a while since i stepped into Calvary, ever since i joined Metrotab. i haven't seen alot of people, i missed alot of friends, and i was sort of like the katak bawah tempurung whenever i attend Calvary those once in a blue moon times. as usual, Calvary would always be the only church in Malaysia that would HUGELY celebrate events like Easter and Christmas. please correct me if i'm wrong like any other previous year, this year it was held at Bukit Jalil as usual.

i walked into the stadium....

the same thing lahh people say to me;

omg JuYi how old are you ah?

aiyoo so tall!

about twenty people said the exact same thing, mind you.

i bumped into so many old friends.

some that i haven't even seen in a year or two.

i hugged them so tightly and they hugged me back even tighter.

since i arrived there half an hour early, i decided to go visit backstage.

aku special, okay? not everyone allowed to go backstage wan you know! *does some boasty face*

i slowly strolled to the back of the stage, in my new, crazy 3-inch heels...

my fellow kidsCAT teachers were having dinner at a small table nearby.

aiyohh.

i missed them like crazy.

and i was so happy, okay?

they still remember my name, even when i was only a kidsCAT member like, three years ago.

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for you sesat people who dunno ah what kidsCAT stands for,

its called the kids Creative Arts Team. =)

a team consisting of less than a hundred young kids/teens from the age of 7-13 that have been thought to act, dance and sing and perform for Calvary. I, WongJuYi, was a member of kidsCAT when i was 10 until 13 i think. i was lucky to be able to have main roles in all four years of participating.

i was known as...

Aunty Xtreme HAHAHAAA tax collector laa

Betty Bittersweet a doctor

Angel Veronica

Angel Alexandria paling best of all four

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then i walked further on until i reached a wide corridor.

there were two shut doors; but noise could be heard from inside.

the left one said girls, and the right one said boys.

i opened the girls door.....

JUYIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII CHECHE! *runs and hugs me TIGHT*

where you go!? WHY SO LONG NEVER COME!?

really thought i was gonna cry there at that moment.

and i was quite embarrassed a few times, coz out of the puluh-puluh young girls, alot of them remembered my name. i could only remember a few names. and some of them went 'JuYi you still remember ME? :D'

i saw all the faces i still remember.

most of them used to be seven; and now they're ten and eleven.

and those who were eleven; now thirteen and fourteen.

a few of them had Christmas cards for me entah la mcm mane they know i coming and at one point, they decided to give me a group hug.

'lets all hug JUYEHHHH!'

*little girls start squealing and screaming and squashing me*

i really loved these girls.

they were like my family; waaay back three years ago.

and earlier just now, looking right through their eyes,

just reminded me of the little girl i used to be. =)

aaaah what never-faded memories.

okay now back to the musical;

WAAAAH. upset la this year i never take part.

this year was the best Calvary presentation EVER.

i used to be quite active you know, taking part in the dance, the acting, the singing..... what happened la, JuYi? *knocks on head*

don't care maan.

next year MUST take part. uhuh uhuh

for all you musical junkies out there, if you have nothing on your list tonight yes Christmas Eve tonight :), do make your way to the Stadium Bukit Jalil with friends/family for a musical you won't forget. its called the Joy Of Christmas. 8pm-10pm only. can hor? :D i want to go there again tonight but aah i'm not too sure if i can make it or not. but please, if you can go, don't be shy. Calvary invites anyone and everyone to be part of the service. =)

Don't Give Up Africa- Bono ft Alicia Keys

four days; the day

five days until the day

six days left until the day

seven days left until PMR result day

today i go out jalan-jalan with my mummy and daddy

went to ou.
and its only the second time in my life going there.
and i was there at twelve.
and my dearest papa and mama came only around 2.





so ......
you can picture a tall, fat girl munching on some breadtalk, holding a directory map and looking at every shop wholly; from top to bottom for no reason, but looking very clueless.





since i had two hours to go walk around on my own first,
i entered every store inhumanly possible.
some even entered more than once.


i was bored la, alright?





i spent most of my time in Tower Records and a movie store.
mostly, trying to search for my favourite alternative bands that i didn't think would exist in Malaysia and indie movies the one that Blake Lively is starring in! that i knew couldn'tve made it here.





in Tower Records;
i found The Bravery, Angels and Airwaves, and Young Love.
was mentally confused whether i wanted The Bravery or Young Love more.
after half an hour, i realized i had no money to buy it.
so cabut.


2:30, my parents arrive. =)
we ate at Esquire Kitchen, then headed to theatres and watched The Heartbreaker Kid.






you see i was sitting next to these two white teenage guys.
at first i was like 'whoah they're kinda hot; saya sangat lucky dohh';

CRAP THEY WERE THE NOISIEST PEOPLE IN THE CINEMA

THE NOISIEST PEOPLE I'VE EVER HEARD IN A CINEMA.

whom non the less, made the movie for me. =)


they laughed like freaking goofballs, and laughed at basically everything. even during the quiet moments of the movie, they decided to say alot of things that didn't make sense or was related loudly. haiyohh; made me laugh also laa. xD





after the movie, we went window shopping for abit.
then my mummy asked me;

lui, what you want for Christmas ah?

.......................................... 7A's.

...................... okay that one i cannot give you. besides that?

i want The Bravery's album. =(

okay. lets go Tower Records now come. =)

woot woooooooooooooooooooooot~




i love you, Katrina Yeoh Su Yen.
and thanks for getting me this!

my first Christmas gift, ya'll ya'll. ;)



oooh.
and i saw Faizal OIAM, Ivan Ho and Serena C.
i nearly freaked out when i saw Faizal, but then i decided to buat bodoh; don't want to say something stupid lahh.



we had dinner at my favourite restaurant, Hong Lai. :D
then they fetched me home. hee

i love the both of you to itty bits.

my hard rock; and my comfort pillow

love love

Put Your Hands Where My Eyes Can See- Busta Rhymes

EDIT

WHAT a day lahh. *sweats*

tu laa; sleep at two. wake up at three. brain refuse to go back to sleep, so make Joel call you and talk to you until 7am.

i was supposed to go joggiiiiiiiiing this morning!
crap lahh. slept off until 11.


then walked my big fat ass to YaKaCan, and went to Desa with Ian.


i STILL look at it as a good thing.
that i've never entered a cyber cafe before in my entire life.
i don't know; i guess the whole cc-is-filled-with-students-who-smoke-and-ponteng-sekolah-and-stupid-rempit-girls concept stuck in my mind.


and today, was officially the first day I ENTERED A CYBER CAFE! WOOOOOO!~~
woit. clap laa. its a big deal kay. =DD


enjoyed three hours of CounterStrike, at times against Ian and at times with Ian.
i love expensive, can-aim-very-the-sharply snipers. *saliva meleleh*


then after that, grabbed a bite to eat at some nearby stall and walked around in JJ, then balik rumah. thanks for belanja-ing yaa, Ian. =)


okay bye.

Racey Lacey; boudoir beauty

Racey Lacey- Girls Aloud


saya suka kasut ibu beli untuk saya dari Nose =)

Mary Jane round nose pumps.

very the comel, hor hor hor?

i love it to death maan.

mine's nicer than this one in the pictures.

and it looks so much better with someone's feet in it.

its got thick white outlining around the buckle strap, shoe fit and heel.

ooh and also on that small nose round at the front of the shoe. =)

it costed RM50.
and i don't usually shop for shoes at Nose la so i thought it was worth it.
and i didn't realize it was 3inch after measuring it. HAHAA

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happy 13th birthday, Wong Ju Ann.

i have to admit lahh; you are quite the nice sister. WHEN you're nice only laa. when you're annoying i feel like throwing the remote at you. but then again, you buy me bra and underwear. you buy me sweets. you buy me food. you keluar, always nice enough to get me something even without asking me. unlike me, your selfish sister. you always listen to me when i have something to say. ALWAYS DOHH ALWAYS. you give me advice, like i'm the younger sister. you teman me when i'm afraid of being alone.


i hope you will learn more about life from me as much as i have learnt about life from you.


i love you, fatass giiirl. :)

Mei.

i'm sorry i don't have much to say as i'm not good at giving advice.

but i am a good listener, and i hope i helped.

kuatkan diri, okay?

i love you.

Baby Love- Nicole Scherzinger

congratulations to America's Next Top Model Cycle 9 Winner.

Saleisha =)

my favourite photo of her and throughout the competition :D

although i've been loyally standing behind Heather;

i actually expected her to win from the downright start.
i knew she was going to make it into the finale.
i am a big fan of her. right after Heather
i love her personality.
i am upset that alot of people are venting anger on how they didn't want her to win.
i thought she deserved it.
i do love her. =)

altough, there was this scandal going on about how unfair that Tyra chose her as the winner.



i'm sure its real.

there is also another video of Saleisha quite long BEFORE ANTM, strutting her stuff down the runway on the Tyra Banks Show as a local fashion designer's model. i am not too sure if Tyra remembers her, but if it was a rule that the participant must be a complete amateur; regarding to not have appeared in a commercial, magazine, walked down a runway, or be part of any publicized contract, then it was unfair lahh that she won.

many people wanted Chantal to win;



many people wanted Jenah to win;and she's like, exquisite beauty maan in photos.
but i didn't think she could handle holding the title.
and.............................................................

Heather should've won! xD

but then again, i do love Saleisha as well; her personality is attractive, she's easy going, positive and bubbly. so its fine with me.

congratulations, once again. =)


Goodbye My Lover- James Blunt

Lacey-Mae Schwimmer;
you have the world's best fans, i can tell you that.
as i am one of them as well, i love you to the ittiest bitties girl!

yes of course.
i love Hawk too. =)

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samba, chacha, argentine tango ..... all hot lahh.
i don't even know which one is the hottest in my opinion.

so for some viewing pleasure;

Argentine Tango.

by hiphop dancer Ivan and comtemporary dancer Allison of Season Two

ChaCha.

by ballroom dancer Pasha and comtemporary dancer Jessi of Season Three

Samba.

by comtemporary dancer Danny and ballroom dancer Lacey of Season Three

if you didn't feel the heat, something's wrong with your adrenaline system i tell you.

now for MY and many other girls, i'm sure viewing pleasure;

Artem Chigvintsev; latin ballroom god of season one.

technically the best.

Dmitri Chaplin; latin ballroom god of season two.

inarguably, the hottest. the whole shirtless part was totally unnecessary, but i enjoyed it non the less

Pasha Kovalev; latin ballroom god of season three.



he's not as good looking as the other two *drools*, but haiyohh girls love him like mad coz he's a real sweetheart.

of course i love him too!

i love all of them la, bodoh. x)

he is also the most improved and has the best personality compared to the other two. not much of a good soloist, but an awesome all-rounded dancer. he's the one dancing in that chacha video up there. *points*

and here's two hiphop performances.

one with comtemporary dancer Lauren;

one with my ever-favourite Lacey;

we women ....... love these hot, steaming, latin ballroom, Russian men now, don't we?

Bend And Not Break- Dashboard Confessional

i was being negative yesterday.
i looked at everything in the wrong way, and expected the worst out of even the most simple things. it was as if everything was wrong; right from the very morning until night.


i couldn't find hapiness in anything.
i really did try, but i couldn't.


the only thing that made my mind pause from thinking too much was when two young cats made their way into my house and purred hungrily for food. cats usually never dare to even come close to my housegate because i have a grandma that yells at them crazily. yet these two didn't care. they just sat, stared at my grandma and purred.


i was on the computer, gazing away at the blank screen until i heard the little noises. so i went to the fridge, took out some fish, milk and gave them some of my fried chicken i got from the nightmarket earlier. and really, i have never seen a cat drink so fast in my life.


as mad as i may sound, i was actually talking to them.
'good Lord you drink so fast ah? now i have to go in and fill up the saucer again.'


i sat next to the cats outside my house. and stared at them.
i stayed there on the tile floor for an hour.
and just stared at them bluntly.
until they finally were filled and went away.


wanna know why i'm so upset?


i was beyond hungrily eager to participate in the Huge camp that just ended yesterday but i couldn't go because i had to leave to Terengganu the next day for a family holiday. ended up; the plan got cancelled. because of the roadfloods there.

i blamed my parents for cancelling it.

but it was not really their fault.

my mom said she would find me a job this holidays, eventhough i applied for so many jobs in KLCC and so on. she said i didn't have to work there. so i cancelled all the applications and patiently waited for my mom to tell me whenever i had something to do. ended up; she didn't find me any. she said i'm too young.


i blamed her for not paying more attention in that.
but it was not really her fault.


i didn't have any money to pay for Huge camp.
that i couldn't even go for.



later that night,
i started crying.
gahh i've never felt so much pain in such a long time.
you know; the kind of pain deep in the throat thats making the tears come out.


i didn't know what was the reason i was crying.
but it was just so painful, i had to let it out.


then a good friend decided to call. thanks Joel ;)
and my tears dried up in a jiffy.


something re-stroke me.
something that i know i've always known; but forgot in that moment of time.

the only way to help yourself, is to help other people.

don't let yourself be the only one who knows your problems.

tell it to someone; and it will feel less heavy.

Personal- Stars

A Haunting

you know how your own dream can appear like a movie?

they have angles and shoots. and cuts to the next scene.

i had a bad dream yesterday night.
one that had never felt so surreal in my life.



the colour in the background was sepia.
like it was sometime in the past.




yet it wasn't.
it was something about now.
something that hasn't even happened yet.

PMR Results Day.

i was laughing with a group of rowdy friends.
i was laughing like a fool.
i was laughing like the world was going the right direction.



maybe in my dream, it was.
because i looked like the happiest kid alive.



i was laughing with J.
i was laughing with E.
because i looked like the happiest kid alive.



i didn't pray for the whole event.
i didn't care whether God was watching or not.



i opened my PMR result slip; i laughed and smiled.
as if i knew i was going to have flying golds and silvers.
as if i knew i was going to succeed.
as if i knew it was gonna be great.

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sorry for the dramatic writing.
i listening to a slow, emo song la xD


i shocked the hell out of myself.
because i only scored 2A's out of 7 subjects.
an A for Math and Science; and a B for the rest.
in my mind, i was screaming; 'how did i score a B for English?'


the look i saw on my face was priceless.
i was stunned, confused and was on the verge of crying.
immediately, i broke down and friends starting hugging me.


i pushed them away.
and started yelling;

how could i have not achieved straight A's? how could i?
its impossible! I SHOULD BE GETTING STRAIGHT A'S!
something's wrong with the results!

it was terrible.
teachers came to calm me down like i was mentally ill.
they were patting me on the back, and hugging me.
and i was still crying.


i fell to the ground.


crying out of pain.
crying out of sadness.
crying out of deep regret.

and finally, i woke up.
it was a moment of blur, and i slowly recaptured my nightmare.

it felt so real.
like it just happened yesterday.

my mind was playing around with me.
it really did feel like it happened.
it was .... so real.


i was so scared, i wanted to cry.
cry because of what happened.
cry because i have added an extra failure to my life.


snap!
what regret?
JuYi; it was a nightmare.
it was not real.
it was just a nightmare.

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its not the first time i've dreamed of the same thing.

i've already had two nightmares regarding PMR result day; nightmares, not good dreams.

and now, my confidence level is back to fat 0.

i really really want that 7A's.

i've been visualizing about it everyday since the end of last year.

i've worked the hardest i could.

i've gave it my all and everything.

what if my dream comes true?

what if the same exact motion happens on the real day?

will i be boastful?

will i be laughing hastily?

will i end up crying in regret?

It's Only Life- Kate Voegele

i went shopping at Midvalley yesterday.

six hours of walking with my mom, Adrian's mom and sis; GILERH AH.

i've only been there like, twice in my entire life.

so basically, yesterday was my third time. SICK LAHH

i went into Topshop, my ever favourite; Dorothy Perkins! :D, Miss Selfridge, Treats, Romp bla bla bla ........ wait, i went into Topshop like four times because i was eye-ing this top i have seen before in the Topshop KLCC with dear Amanda a few months ago.

it came in alot of colours and the one Amanda tried that time was blue.
the only ones left on the rack were white and dark orange.
and that time; RM60 right the top? mahal nak mampos.

that time it was RM39. YEYUHH

negotiated like hell for my mom to get it for me.
went in the stupid shop for the fifth time to buy it in dark orange.
worth it laa; coz i really wanted it x)



i really love going into UK branded shops like these, because as everyone knows, i'm quite the big girl. 5feet7 ain't small, honey! and i am not that slim either; my body type is actually quite big. so when i step into these shops, the clothes on the rack are of the normal sizes; normal sizes like ME. they're LONG. they're STRETCHY. they're LOOSE. they FIT ME. its upsetting when i go into other boutiques and shops and having to ask for the biggest size or a particular item and still be too short, too small or too tight.

waah; the tops and dresses here very nice hor? wait lahh if i'm going to England next year for my friend's wedding. buy back a sack of Topshop stuff for you.

eh bring me go also laaa

for what?

work part time at MCD's there. 5 pounds an hour woooo~

you work how much also not enough to pay your airplane ticket la

and who knew my mom used to be a member of Miss Selfridge?
well, she used to study in England and work as a part time nurse there. and she used to buy a hella lot of dresses of the rack for very low prices. like, 5 to 7 pounds?



so she made me go into Miss Selfridge and Dorothy Perkins to try on all these vintage dresses and tops. she wanted to buy me one of them but malas lahh. damn tiring also i tell you. then if my mom was deciding whether to buy a piece of clothing for my sister, i will have to be her muse and like, try on the clothes. i remember i went into Romp and i tried on at least ten tops non of them were for me for my sister. i nearly died in the changing room.

gila ahhh.

i want a sack of Topshop stuff maaaaaaan.

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so Divya is leaving to India tomorrow.
and only will be back sometime in February.


we had our annual four-of-us meeting at Sam's house. picts will be uploaded some other time
i love you la, Shaun my gay bastard.

next year; i want the same difference

Nolita Fairytale- Vanessa Carlton

the half-Aussie, half-Malaysian speaking girl.

why do i look so .... fair and pink?

its YOUR camera, Lauranne! :O




and i STILL want her accent. *saliva drools*




Believe- The Bravery

Lauranne's back from Aussieland!
and Ben got hit in the head by strangers with dumbbells!!!???

happened like a few months back.
lambat la you JuYi.
haiyoo.

well ANYWAY, i found his story amazing.
it freaked the crap outta meh, but it was amazing. and pretty cool.


I arrived home bout 4.30am, Saturday morning. As usual, I'll take the lift up to the 3rd floor. They were 2 students following me into the lift, so i thought, they're just college students. Its when I got out of the lift.... walking away... I heard 3 loud knocks. "Kock, Kock, Kock" I turn around and just realised that one for them had just banged me 3 times on the head with a dumbbell handle! Amazing... that I heard the knocks before I felt anything. Then I cant see cause suddenly blood flowed into my eyes and it felt like someone pouring warm milk over your head. So what to do?? I cant fight back cause i cant see.... So I started screaming like a girl and they started running.

Dumbbell Handles

I ran down to the lobby and tried yelling at the guard to try stop them, but he's fat. So you can guess how they escaped. After everything, Ah Jye was kind enough to send me to the hospital.


In the hospital... was just bad la ok. Managed to settle down and took some pictures.

hmmm.... bloody. Kesian right? (this was after they wash me up!)
Maybe if I closed my eyes I'll look better.


Hospital tag... while waiting for Xray.
And yeah.... Nothing major to the brains. Just 4 deep cuts in the area of my head, all on my favorite sleeping spot. sigh. So I had a jab, 18 stitches on my head, shaved patches on my head, and more jabs on my head. Then it was morning already, made police report and went home.


Back home. I dont look too happy though.

hahaa wtc la you Ben Ong.

Grace looking at my head. So puzzled.

Bloody shoes.

This was the shirt I love wearing. Gone..... sigh.

hmmmmp...... =(Well... at lease it'll make a SUPER COOL Halloween costume! ha ha... the actual thing!


But in all.... Thank God that this was all that got me. If they use a parang or something, I may be dead this morning. Thank God for His protection and also to everyone who prayed and their wishes. Dont worry, i'll be ok soon. I'll post more pics when i have them... maybe the stitching. and my hair now is a mess! they didnt wanna do a shampoo, cut and blow in the ER (besides, they're doctors) and they have to cut alot of hair where the blood clot is and shave like alot of places. they say it was all they can do, it was an emergency..... =(
well..... Thanks.

i actually got to see the scars on his head. :D

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back to Lauranne. :D

Lauranne is a Malaysian.

who went to Aussieland to study. for a year right?

who is now back in Malaysia. holiday kaan.

like, i saw her in church today and as usual, i gave my typical JuYi-look-and-wave and she was like 'JUYI!' and gave me a squishy hug. :)

have i ever mentioned how kecil she is?

TINY. TINY TINY TINY.

she's so cool laa.

a huge reminiscence of my dear Mei.

i can't really tell who's cooler; Mei or Laur.

but of course;

i love Mei more laa.

even though you're crazier and curse a whole lot more. :)

i literally can imagine the both of you, trotting down some road/alley together-gether like you guys are the bestest of friends or something. dahlah same height. goodness.

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I LOVE CATS WHISKERS.

after Dorothy Perkins la of course. xD

its the coolest boutique i've stepped into. ever.

EVERYTHING is aligned to colour; the clothes, the shoes, the accesories.

THE SHOES OHMYGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

cantik nak mampos.

sumpah nak semua kasut kat situuuuuu.

okay i don't love everything i see in there, but i am crazy about at least 85% of the stuff there. for once, there is a shop/boutique that sells bright coloured clothes without stepping on the lala line AND without burning your wallet. the accesories and bags are even more exquisite they make my mouth water, unliterally. aiyohh i can't wait to get at least something from there.

i've linked their site to linkies there on the left. :D

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i love you, Katrina Yeoh Su Yen.

i love you, Joshua Cheah Ching Yong.

sounds weird not calling you papa and mama huh? xD

the both of you are the ultimate best. =))

papaaaaaaa.

shopping in a week's time yaaaaa.

and i get a tee from Dorothy Perkins yaaaaaaaaa. :D

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Katrina Yeoh Su Yen!

Eugene ... Gerard!

Ivan Fredrick Yun Jia Wei!

Esther Wong .... something something!

Tan Boon Aun!

Jessica Wong Jia Li! you going, right?

you people are gonna enjoy camp together-gether without me. :(

we'd be so less fragile

if we're made from metal

and our hearts from iron

and our minds from steel

Three Wishes- The Pierces

I WANNA WATCH THIS.

starring Blake Lively Serena Vander Woodsen of Gossip Girl.

Elvis is a young, unlicensed mortician yeah, those people that help dead people look good in his family's funeral home. His sense of family obligation and and love for his eccentric, infirm father keep him from chasing his own dreams.

Anabelle is a small-town beauty queen being groomed for the big time by her pushy, show-biz mother. All her decisions are made for her; all she has to do is fit the part.

Their two lives are worlds apart, but those worlds collide when Anabelle, in a moment of triumph, collapes and dies on a beauty pageant catwalk due to some fatal sickness, and ends up on Elvis' embalming table. As he is about to start working on her, Elvis magically revives Anabelle with an impulsive, innocent kiss.

News of the miraculous recovery gained media frenzy, but despite her mother's efforts to capitalize on all the attention, Anabelle finds herself changed. Worn down by her mother and the media hype, and haunted by the visions of her uncanny awakening, she is drawn to the funeral home.

She and Elvis gradually start to connect.

but her past is closing in.

Elvis and Anabelle takes a mad dash to the Texas coast, where they discover a sense of freedom that neither of them had ever known, and where they soon discover their true feelings for each other.

But the world is just close behind, and soon the lovers are torn apart by tragic events that leave each of them alone to question their lives, their choices, and their love. In the end, both Elvis and Anabelle must face their own demons before they are able to realize that for every tragedy, there is always a miracle waiting to happen.

death brought them together.

only life can tear them apart.

how can love that starts at death survive real life?

i love weird, intriguing, annoyingly sappy and sometimes sad love movies.
big time sucker yaww.


i've watched the preview online quite a few times already.
and it seems sooooo like the type of movies that i watch again and again, and cry over them, again and again.



sadly, its not really famous not known at all.
and it was only shown in some local theatre in the US. ]
thats it.

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going off to church soon.
to meet up with fellow parents. teehee. :D


Ep 11; Hi, Society
better watch it asap because alot of uploaded videos have been removed due to terms of violation. however, this user is taking the risk for our sake and uploading it for the third time if i'm not mistaken. so if you're free enough, thank him/her. =)


All You Need Is Love- Across The Universe

oh my GAAAAAAAAAAAH fark you, itchy armpit.
and itchy hands, neck, face, legs, tummy.

its not like i'm getting some rash or whatever but there's this annoying lil mosquito i just wanna murder anytime now that has been flying around me for the past hour.

you haven't take your bath la!

-JuAnn-

smart kiddo.

but then again, there's my flu and flam thats not going away. yet. aihh.
thank God the fever has faded.

on special request from Samantha who wants to see pictures of Ryan with his family and when he was our age.

I'm like 15 here . And at a rave . Lots of material to clown me on .

yeah you know he's the one on the right alright.

can you believe that was Ryan when he was 15?
so handsome, hor hor hor?
note the sarcasm.


i can't seem to find that picture of him with his family anymore.
so hey, a picture of him with my lady idol. :)

thats Lacey Schwimmer yaww.

i killed that mosquito.
YEYUHH

daddy loves the cupcakes that my sister and I made n.n

Time Won't Let Me Go- The Bravery

New Face Of Failure

Gossip Girl is on FOIRE.

they won and became close runner ups for a lot of titles.

Winner for Best Dressed.

Winner for Best Kiss. Chuck and Blair in the limo

Winner for Most Evil. Blair la duhh

runner up for Most Dramatic. Blair, again

runner up for Most Likely To Succeed.

i'm so proud. *tsktsk*

With Me- Sum 41

sir would you like chicken or beef?

uhhhhhh........... . meat.

-danial nadir-

Heather wins the challenge and gets to do a photoshoot for Carol's Daughter; directed by Mary J Blige

my favourite from the very start.

she is really very beautiful in real life, and her PHOTOS can seriously blow you away. although she's a hunchback. how is that possible, yaw?



and its shocking that she actually has Augsburg's syndrome a mild spick of autism and therefore she tends to literally be awkward at certain times and have problems socializing. but she's been quite the judges' favourite many times already. its even more brilliant that not all of them know about her sickness, not even Jay Manuel. so it proves that the judges are not playing pity on her. YEYUHH YOU GO GUURL.

i love you, Heather.

i hope you win America's Next Top Model Cycle 9. :)

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greeeeeeeeeat.
now I'M the only one who's not going to go for HUGE camp.
everyone and i mean literally everyone is going.




Metrotab friends are going.
CalvaryYouth friends are going. IvanYun you fat pig i miss you!
Eugene also going.
KATRINA YEOH SU YEN YOU ALSO GOING! *screams*




oh btw, we are going out yaaaaaaaa.
come la see me cry when i see you again. i bet it. xD




WHY I NOT GOING, YOU KNOW?
i have to go to crappy Awana Kijal, Terengganu for a family holiday.
i've already been there before and its really just a beach, pool and good facilities.




i know.
its FAAAAAAAAMILY. spend quality time with your faaaaaamily.



but i've thought about going for HUGE since last year. it was one of the top after-PMR-to-do things in the list. i haven't gone for a Christian/church camp since two/three years ago? and since HUGE is such a big event i have always been thinking bout how my Metrotab friends can meet my Calvary friends, and my other school friends and we could all hang out together and all.




psh posh.
wait til the next time, huh?
x(

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so i was talking on the phone yesterday night with a good friend.

for two hours; from 1 to 3? YEYUHHH

the last time i've talked late in the middle of the night and for that long/longer was with IvanYun three years ago. pfft. you again.

and we talked about alot of things, you know.

i haven't really opened up to someone about so much in a long time.

so we came to the topic that goes 'What Do You Think About Me?', and that included physically, mentally and spiritually.

when it came to his turn to tell his opinions about me, he started with the physical.

'well .. you're tall. you're a pretty girl. and i have to say la, you know .. one of the school's leng-luis la by far.'

for a moment there, i stoned.

wait i laughed first .. THEN i stoned. xD

because lately, i have been losing alot of self confidence. every way; mentally, physically and spiritually.

just a few days back, i looked in the mirror and started crying.

because i despised how i look from top to bottom.

i hated the girl i saw in the mirror.

i felt like breaking it.

its ironic how i really think that everyone in the world is truly beautiful. i really hate it when people go 'omg that person is so ugly'. it really sets a bad impression of you to me. i hate it when people use the word 'ugly' only on how someone looks on the outside. because i think ugly can only be used if someone has got a bad attitude, or a terrible personality.

yet.

i felt ugly. and honestly, i still do feel ugly.

why can't i see myself as beautiful as i see everyone else?

what is going on?

and then i told him about all of this, losing self-confidence crap.

and he said 'i think its because you get torn down by what people say about you. and what people think of you.'

i have been thinking abit too much about people's opinions about me.

about what people think about me.

and what impression i give them.

and ..... maybe it does pull me down a little low.

maybe it is the reason why i am losing confidence in myself.

especially when i listen to someone i consider special saying something negative about me.

and not in a good way. x)

i've been trying to think of a reason.

of why you've been avoiding me. and acting all weird to me.

thats not how we used to be.

i admit, i've changed alot.

and hey we all change, so have you.

i refuse to believe what everyone is telling me and i still want to believe that you are who you were, even after all the change.

i know i am still who i am even though a year has gone by.

i have surrounded myself with different groups of people.

i mix with different people.

but hey i still love you, and i can guarantee that.

and maybe i love you more than i used to; cherishing the fading friendship that i still think we have.

but do you still love me?

Here It Goes Again- Ok Go

my Internet's being a pig.

a lazy one.

because not only can't i view blogs without refreshing the page a few kajillion times, i can't reload the chatbox either. therefore, i can't read certain blogs and i can't drop comments/feedback/replies and all that crap.
mangkok lahh. *throws bowls to the screen*



patheticpetitecreature;
YA LA don't come out with us samo la; your balasan. MUAHAHAH


chocaholic-anonymous;
i love you.
happy birthdaaaaaaaaaaaaay!


joshcheah;
i miss you. and BongBong.
so much i'm sure i'll cry the next time i see you again.


the-eroz;
those are the cutest elephant pencil cases. EVER.
and a denim skirt for 100 BAHT ONLY? O.O


exanimofromtheheart;
YEAH! i love photo posts. Yvonne kalah xD


rocketstorobots;
you and your lomocam. *sigh*
with the many pictures of me in it. YEYUHH

i love you, shawteh.


ezen;
you think you spm sudah habis can neglect your blog already la?
better go update it you you.
got stalkers wanna read wan okaaay.


katemoss-diva;
tikki, billybob, tikki, billybob, tikki, billybob, tikki, billybob
OIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIH! trying real hard to cheer you up here.........

i love you. :)


little-simplelifeofmine;
i miss you babes.
you so hot laa. ishh


bryars-babe;
YOU LUCKY GIRL. WOOOOOOOOOW.
my mom would kill me if i went for a concert 100 hours earlier. xD


dethoughtz;
those are some yummy looking cupcakes. who made them!?

Blake AI's album is quite good. heh.
and our miss Malaysia ( Deborah Henry ) looks a bit like your girl friend, Santha. heh.

lasts but not least;

bloggersreturn;
i
am
so
jealous
of
the
both
of
you
it
makes
me
wanna
cry



because i didn't appreciate something i had that is similar to what the both of you have.
because i was still young; and couldn't think outside of the box.
because i just threw it away, for no real reason at all.



i do wish i could relive those moments again.


but then, how can we walk the present when we can't let go off the past?
i don't want to repeat the same mistakes again.
so i'll take it as a life lesson; and treat my future with a little bit more respect and difference.

ryanimay;
i love you.

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it has been a hella week.
and it hasn't stopped.
birthday party after birthday party, and a dance workshop tomorrow.

i'm gonna die lahh by the end of this week.

i think that she knows

One Week Of Danger- The Virgins