because its done.

all i need to know... is whether its a yes or no.

no... no more feelings.

okay.

i'm sorry for leading you on.

its okay.

if only i could tell you its not okay.

for leading me on for 16 months.
for telling my friends you still love me.
for telling me that 'the feeling is still there.'


and the best part,
for mending my heart, but tearing it apart all over again.

for a girl like me,
i really thought you were going to be the one.

its over.
its done.


Go- Hanson

because the world's gone mad.

Ranjali's sick i think
Ines vomited yesterday.
FooFy fell of her stairs.
and her maid ran away, with her phone.
my new Physics practical teacher's not feeling well.
Caryn's eye infection got worse and she's down with fever.

the world's gone mad!

as much as i do fall sick quite often, i thank God that i still have the energy to come to school and tuition and study whenever i can. therefore, i should stop complaining about my super hectic schedule because alot of people go through the same, tough daily routine and don't complain. ehmagawd JuYi sissyyyyyyyyy~


and JuYi.
stop cursing.



what else is mad?

somehow........
i think they're pretty cute together.


When Did Your Heart Go Missing- Rooney

because you losers have no clue.

VANESSA and NATE!?

DAN and ...... GEORGINA SPARKS!?

they don't even look good when they kiss. yuck

NOBLEEPINWAAAAAAAAAY

chill JuYi.
the next ep's tomorrow.
the next ep's tomorrow.

because food = fat = i ugly = EEEEH

i'm sorry la i just really love Whitney.

before she gained weight omg cantik kaaan

now thats one fully grown foetus- Miss J

its her slight bitchiness that makes me grow so fond of her.
and despite all the snarky comments, i actually think she's real. like i can really connect to her for some sort of reason. maybe its because she's a plus size. hmmmm


oh,
and she's also very the funny.

'i hope i standout in this photoshoot... in that way, the other girls will look bad *big shiny grin*'

i mean, hello personality okay. i hope she wins.
first plus size model to win samo; fuiyoh i await that day.



next in favourite; Anya the blondee ;D

my most fav photo of the competition so far

so dumb blonde, yet so awesome in photos.
and her accent is EVEN funnier.

'like ohmygod. my first step into ______ ( see i not potong-ing so much stim for all of you who haven't watch xD ) and i eat the ground. how emBArassing!'

yeah. she actually tripped walking out of the bus,
and fell flat on her face.
enough said.

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after an awesome two-hour dance session with some awesome breaker-dude named Eddy from Urban Groove at Metro, Jeremy and a few of us went to makan at Meh To Yau ( anything also got ) restaurant lol somewhere near Stevens. food was okay. i sat next to Mei Ching and we pun chit chat laa. we talked for quite a while really.

i told her bout blacksheep.

she told me bout Mr J.

like exhanging life stories or something lol

well MeiChing, if you ever read this, you're a very nice person okay? you deserve more than someone who actually cheated on you. and you don't have to go find also lah. please laa i walk behind you in pasar mlm, OMG HEADS TURNING OKEH NO JOKE. make me feel like some ugly fatso oni lol. sure got one day, the right person will come to you. ;D

and at the end of the day,

Jeremy drove me home.

i cannot wait until the day people like Samuel, Dorene and Ian drive. wahlao my mom don't have to drive me around anymore man lol

ooh darling boy you'll always be my baby

because its just weird.

this morning i saw Mr Cher driving Miss Kong's car.

with Miss Tan in the back.

to fetch my sister and her friends to school.

one of the weirdest sights ever.

i think i'm losing my brains.
they're evaporating away via transpiration thru my open zits and pores.
booo :( i feel stupid being in Azam. i'm honestly, the paling tak-smart girl there okay? i know i am not supposed to compare with other people but i can't help it laa. being the last in class is NOT an option.

i wanna go to Cekal.

no wait; i wanna go to Art's class T.T

not that i don't understand what Biology or Chemistry has to offer..
i just don't understand the questions that they prepare during examination. like just now during Miss Pakia's Biology class,
we were given a short test..


i failed it.
OMGGGG
dahlah i like Biology. so the depressing

sometimes i feel like i chose the wrong stream.

Seasons Of Love- Idol Gives Back

hello i am in Yvonne's house! :D
omg her house damn cun okaay.
got no food laa, but still very cun.



okay bye.

because seasons are changing.

in YE, i am definitely one of the most slobby-est members.
and holding the position of a Marketing Director, its crap.

i don't finish my work in time.
i let my assistants and other people do my work.
which is umm, very the bad.
OMG JUYIIIIIII GET A GRIP PLIS -.-

currently,

happy because YE orientation day is gonna be in two days.
sad because i cannot go watch the debate between St Johns and CBN.
and root on for Mr Stranger. booo :( lain kali lah i guess.


midterms are in two weeks.
and i am far from prepared.
dear God, please help me.


dear boy,

i have your letter written and kept in the pocket of my bag.
the moment i give it to you, i hope you won't feel sad.
instead, a smile lights up and all clouds dissapear.
because all i want you to know is that i will always be here.

tell me you stil love me

and everything's going to be okay

and everything's going to be alright

Where We Went Wrong- The Hush Sound

because i'm still naive.

happy 16th birthday, Ednaaa!

you've been an awesome girlfriend for the past three years of my life

thanks for always being there for me <3

have a blasting week ;D

Edna's sweet sixteen birthday bash was ummm...

wahlao.

i'll start with the food.

had too much barbecued mutton and fried noodles.

felt like barfing. ugh

then, dare or dare.

the best had to be when BoonAun wore a dress lah, hands down.

and its not just any simple dress okaay....

its a low cut, diamond encrusted thin strapped chiffon double layer

knee length girl-beige dress. haaaa take that

that dude's got some hairy cleavage man lol

if possible, i'll get the video uploaded here on my blog,

yes; directly here on my blog :)


overall,

i felt like i was in a episode of Gossip Girls.

there was AHELLALOT of liplocking, slut dancing and making out.

all we needed to complete it was some alcohol, drugs and sex.

no really.

i'm still fifteen sialll~
i don't wanna do this kinda party anymore.


but of course, i had fun :D

tell me what was on your mind when i kissed you

Menunggumu- Peterpan ft Chrisye

because i am falling into something.

JuYi. tlg ambilkan botooooool~

uhh, asl?

tlg ambilkan la. pleeeeeeease

ummm, but why?

just please ambilkan? pleeease? *muke poyo*

asl? takut bile bgn, jeans you turun and then bontot nmpk?

aa =D

-.-

stupid Melydia lol

<3

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dear Mr Stranger,

i'm glad you actually remember me.

i mean like duh right we've seen each other three times already

if you forget me, you must be some super playboy lol

remember when our eyes awkwardly met twice?
should i have waved? should i have said hi? should i have smiled?

believe it or not, i was shy and i stoned and looked away.

i was too freaked to look your direction.

afraid i'd do something stupid or silly or embarrass myself.

why didn't you do anything either?

were you shy as well?

according to friends, you are pretty quiet in nature.

so i should've made the first move huh?

i know you saw me that day.

if i smiled, would it have made a difference?

dear Mr Stranger,

i know i've been abit over-the-top about you recently.

it is weird because we've never actually had a proper conversation.

but i don't know why, you just seem so interesting to me.

so disturbingly attractive for no apparent reason.

you just appeal so much to me.

and trust me, i've never gone through such feeling before.

dear Mr Stranger,

i hope you fancy me, even if it is by one percent.

even better, as much as i am infatuated by you.

i am not your typical fangirl stalker, as much as that is what i exude.

i really like you and hope to get to know you more.

p.s; i wish our eyes would meet again someday.

someone new is coming into the picture.

and i am letting that happen.

why?

you're vanishing.

and drifting so far away.

why?

Always Be My Baby- David Cook

because i'm now strong.

trying to balance an everyday, super-hectic schedule of brain-killing studies and curricular activities without forgetting God, fun and things that never fail to make me happy like ice-cream and blogging....

all in one life.

so far, so good :)

because i boring lah. can't think of titles no more

Current State of Dewan Rakyat

WHAT'S UP

Mr Suara Sedap

SV vs CBN

Jacob crackers

oatmeal diet. yumm

cheap knee-high leather boots from England

TopShop & Steve and Barry's from England

drama queen top from Zennie <3,>

banana

Hanif's woodbead bracelet

SYTYCD dancers on Idol Gives Back

staying up all night today

making cards for loved ones

Edna's upcming birthdaaaay <3

and a dress for her partayh

CF

Planet Shaker's conert

RM100 preloaded card from Nuffnang

WHAT'S NOT UP

getting C for all the Science subjects

chimpanzee swinging from tree to tree

Mr BeadyEyed Heartbreaker acting like i don't exist

i am fat. boo

headache.

staying back everyday after school

and only reaching home at 8

debate points

scary, murderer-like best friend's boyfriend

high school drama

overloading homework

*cough* Streamyx *cough*

What About Now?- Chris Daughtry

because i have people whom i love.

at times i feel like giving Samuel a hug.
because he's such a good friend, i can't even explain.
its like that silly fight we had last year doesn't even exist anymore.

oh well.
people change, right?
you change. i change. they change. we all change.
lets make the world a better place. LOL

public speaking today was off the hook.
Edna did pretty well; yeaaay i'm so friggin proud of you <3
her impromptu speech was so random; all the participants had to talk about vandalism. and hers sounded something like this;

I dunno bout you guys, but in MY school, students kick the wooden doors until they're like.... left hanging and dangling at one side... and then there are these students who take tissue, and pour water on it and then they throw it to the ceiling and it gets stuck up there... which is kinda funny... and then sooner or later, when the tissue clump dries it will eventually fall on the people beneath... which is kinda gross....

congratulations Julius of St Johns for winning.
your article on 'Falling In Love' was very interesting.
sorry if i seemed to desperate for your article.
i really wanted it. hah xD

Edna thinks your cute.
I think you've got perfect intonation.
see you tomorrow during debate :D

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Aida Khaleeda was there, representing her school.
she ask to say hi to you, L.


her article stuck in my head as well.
it was about Friendship.
and i was thinking about this one line for the whole day;

you can't consider someone a best friend just because you know him/her the longest, but only if you're always there and will never leave their side. THAT is a best friend.

that line seeped into my head immediately.
just because you know me the longest, doesn't necessarily mean you know me the best.


i appreciate all six of you to the ends of the earth;
Edna
FooFy
Ines
Ranjali
SiuWern
Suzanne


who knew that the seven of us would eventually be family. of different races, styles, attitudes and backgrounds, i still wonder how we hold such a strong bond together. i've fought with almost all of you. misunderstandings and miscommunication occurred. and we bitched bout each other. but aiyoh; family kan? thats what brought us closer. and now, we're tighter than ever. <3

new addition to my lovelist;
LeeMeiYing. *hugg*

thank you for being there for me all the time.
all seven of you; don't ever leave me please.
i don't know what will happen to me without any one of you.


Paperweight- Joshua Radin and Schuyler Fisk

because i sudah kaya LOL

i am rich.
winning RM100 from Malaysian Dreamgirl's blog contest cannot be any easier. :D

because you're still important.

i was so excited, i almost peed my pants.

kamu semua sudah tahu;

i gila crazy fan of SoYouThinkYouCanDance season 1, 2, 3.

watching them perform together is something i've been dying to see.

not enough;

sickfan of Quest as well.

wahlao like killing 2402718593 birds with one stone.

I CANNOT FREAKING WAIT OMFREAKINGPANTS

SiuWern;

your place. Wednesday. 6pm.

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when two people fall in love with each other, it is like a piece of blue paper and red paper getting glued together. when they break up, the papers tear away from each other. but notice; shreds of blue paper will be stuck on the red paper as well as shreds of red paper will be stuck on the blue paper. the after-effect is so long lasting, the shreds might not fall off. it also depends on how strong the glue is when it kept both papers together.

if the red paper finds another match, for example, green paper..

it either overlaps the blue shreds or the blue shreds burn its way through the green paper, leaving permanent holes. so the paper is gonna be blue, red, and green in colour, which is not right. it is what you call imbalanced.

our glue was strong,

but was it strong enough?

i am tempted to take this chance.

to find another match.

to breathe new love.

but will it overlap your shreds?

or will you burn holes, leaving permanent marks of imbalance forever?

i guess this is the hardest decision in life.

not knowing whether to continue holding on in faith or simply just letting go and moving on

Fly Away From Here- Aerosmith

NADEEM'S 16th BIRTHDAY PARTY
WAS FREAKING OFF THE SHIZZAAAAY
sorry didn't dance much.
malu laa. psh

because i can do it.

why does everyday get harder?
you can't fall, JuYi.
you can't.


have determination.
have courage.
have fearlessness.
have strength.
have patience.
have motivation.

i can do it.

because i'm one smart chicken.

kak JuYi. Faez nk tnye sumting bley x?

hahaha hiiii. nk tanye ape?

Faez syg syg gler gler gler kt juyi... juyi?

JuYi pn syg giler kat Faez. sumpah :)

........alaaaa nk Aprilfool pn xble. EEEEE

eeeee -.-

why this year's Aprilfool not so fun ah?
i didn't even realize it was the 1st of April until Edna's attempt on fooling me with some lame joke in the morning was a total failure. loser lol but who gives a crap lah, i love you loser <3>

oh,

and happy 15th birthday, dear Pui San :D

sorry didn't spend much time with you today.

in fact, i miss spending time with you. like, goofing around, dissing Eugene and other annoying lala girls at school and laughing really loud at our own amazing jokes lol. have a great week! ;D

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i'm pulling out of public speaking.

• because i'm scared
• i no balls lol
• got Pavitira =D heh.

i still wanna go and watch the competition though.

thanks Pn Geetha :D

i don't want to hear anything already

because if its a no, i'm still heartbroken

and if its a yes, i'm still heartbroken

Far From Beautiful- Push Play