because i am not self centered.

so there's this contest thingy majingy, in collaboration of Nuffnang and RealMart whereby, i should blog about what RealMart item i would give to a fellow Nuffnanger and reasons why.

i so kind and giving la riiiight.

got chance to win something,

wanna give away to someone else.

SO,

1. i am a Nuffnanger.

2. and its been long since i've been given something

3. so i'm gonna give something to myself.

4. so, i'm gonna participate in this competition

5. by blogging about... myself :D

whaaaat.

i am soooooooo not cheating. *bimbo hairflicks*

so RealMart's got... hmmm, quite a huge bunch of cool stuff that i really don't mind having. you mangkoks are probably like 'JuYi's gonna choose a bag. or a really pretty bracelet...' and i gotta admit; the accesories they have are tempting siaa~ but after much thinking and lifelessly going through 90% of their bapak cool items, i am going to opt for....

a HTC TyTN! *big jakun smile*

its a sidekick, right?

lemme tell WHY this suits me so perfectly.

its COOOOOOOL.

so eheheh, DUHH I SHOULD HAVE IT. we would go together so well, it'll make Justin Timberlake and Timbaland look disgusting.

got 2.8 megapixel.

comparing to my current phone, di mana memorinya pun sikit mcm kambing and cover literally falling off, i will take so many pictures with it, the screen of the thing also pecah.

i can look like one of the Gossip Girl people.

wahcheeeh~ stailo or not maan.

then all you skanks in the world can hate me for having it.

MUAHAHAHHAHA

i can actually let my mom have it.

because i'm checking out its functions on another web..

and its more based and suitable for the typical business person.

can download, view and edit documents laa, BUSINESS CARD SCANNER HOW CRAPPIN COOL IS THAT, and apatah banyak lagi functions and highlights that wouldn't do me any good.

so i can probably let my mom have it instead.

so HEY.

i am quite a kind and giving person after all. :D

on a more serious and less idiotic note......

WARNING! MAY MAKE YOU CRY!

i need to throw away old memories.

so.. most of you guys know that the phone that i have now, is actually one of the last memorabilias i got from my late dad. i no longer have the photo of him and i as the screen's background image. instead, i replaced it with the Jonas Brothers's. everytime i look at it, and i mean every single time i look at the phone, it reminds me of the many things that i hate to remember.

i guess i hold on to more of the bitter memories that i shared with my father instead of sweet ones. so maybe i should just stop using it. put it aside and keep it safe. and avoid carelessly losing it AGAIN like how i did a few months back. maybe frame it up in a pretty glass box or something lol.

so.... yeah.

i need that bloody phone. x)

any other Nuffnangers who wanna participate in this contest can simply... uhh... check your email. :D or visit Nuffnang or RealMart. and please, if you got no idea who to blog about, you can always blog about moii. ;D

because we're all still human.

so i received a call from dear L in Aussieland a couple of days ago.
and he called me a 'stereotypical girl'.


eh what the heck is that supposed to mean? lol
up til this day, i'm still not sure why he called me that.
because i love the Jonas Brothers?

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i notice that lately, i've been a little bit more private with what goes on in my life. i like being alone and just being with me, myself and I. i talk alot less and that is why i appear cold to certain people and i tend to move away from big crowds of people. i interact with only a certain number of people and am not as jokeful don't know if thats a word but what the heck as often. and MANY people have said that i am anti-social.

OHMYFLUBBERS.

did you see me at Sunway?

its a little bit awkward because i remember myself as being a happy-go-lucky, and generally a cheerful girl. i'm still a happy person, with a slightly more positive outlook on different things in life but it just doesn't show on my face, perhaps(?). however, i'm alot happier and satisfied with the way i am now more than back then. last time, i was known for getting people into trouble. read again; getting PEOPLE into trouble, NOT myself. and that really bummed me out because.... for me, the hardest thing to face is... knowing that you have caused any kind of misery in someone else.

yeah that pretty much sucked.

so to my dear friends,

i am not turning into an emo, i-love-black-nail-polish-and-eyeliner person.

i'm simply going through a mere,

human changing process. :)

today i saw my loved one cry

and it was all because of you

You'll Change- Machine Translations

because it can't go on.

http://www.svian.webs.com/

:D

site seems a wee bit dull sorry Lee heh so i'm gonna see if i can handle the account or not.
and add some little JuYi pizazz to it. HAHA

i am so egocentric its disgusting.

COME TO SUNWAY PYRAMID TOMORROW, PEOPLE!

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and she called me her best friend.

how is that logical when in her life, i stand behind so many other people?

why am i the last one to know?

no wait;

why am i the only one who doesn't know?

and i had to find it out from someone else.

wow.

i'm sorry.

i'm sorry coz i am one of those sickeningly pathetic people in the world who needs to know whether they're loved and appreciated. be it, through actions or words. and i honestly, don't know whether i am. maybe i'm not. maybe i never was.

i just...

kept on seeing myself as someone important to you.

turns out, i'm just a doormat.

now do i walk away

or stay?

Stand By Me- The Temptations

its nice to know that
someone will always be waiting for me when i come home. :)

because got prawn behind the rock.

CONGRATULATIONS TO LOGAN AND PAVITIRA

FOR GETTING FIRST PLACE IN THE

Y.E INTERNATIONAL TRADE CHALLENGE!

.... at least i think they got first place lol

i'm still ecstatic about this yesterday news and the fact that they will be one of the three teams representing Malaysia and competing with teams from six other countries in this programme is even better.

YE is such a terrible programme, ain't it, teachers?

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today i cried in school because

i lost the class marker pen.

and also because i lost four of my brand new markers yesterday :(

i appreciate my good classmate/friend-who-sits-in-front-of-me for consoling me and laughing with me as i cried and laughed at my patheticity at the same time.

'alaa tak apa laa. i pun selalu nangis kat rumah ape. :)'

and then my good-but-annoying-as-heck friend, Naveen for trying his best to cheer me up by threatening everyone in class to return my markers if they ever took it.

there's something about my class, 4 Azam that i love.
sure; we definitely hold the record of the worst 4Azam in Section5 history for the disciplinary problems and kurang ajar-ness that we've been reported for. oh, of course, not to forget our amazing sense of class and student hygiene.

not many teachers are fond of us either, that i'm sure of.

but just the fact that i know..
that deep inside; they are all nice people.


i'm sure not many people can see that as one of the school's worst discipline problem is in my class. but always, you can't judge the sky by its thunder. no one can be read easily. and i truly love each and every classmate of mine. truly truly truly :)

and now you have to fall asleep

with roses in your hand

Dreaming With A Broken Heart- John Mayer

because maybe, just maybe.

SoYouThinkYouCanDance live = AWESOOOME

thanks for the ticket, SiuWern! :D

next week must go again sia.

if the JB actually do come to Malaysia,
and for Kevin's case, again,
will i be able to go?


will i get super cun front row seats?
will i get to flash Joe my 'i know the muffin man' banner?
will i get to watch Nick sing from upclose?
will i get to look at Kevin and his guitar from a close view?


:(

there i saw the both of you

i guess its time i let go

The Dance- Charlotte Martin

because sumpah damn pelik.

nampak dia, dia, dan DIA

masuk teksi bersama-sama.

ke mana agaknya....

~~~~~

i'm so sad.

and therefore,

i stuffed my face with four full servings of dinner.

hahaha i not so pathetic la keh?
pathetic enough to do so, but still not so pathetic.
however i did eat four times, although i wasn't hungry.


okay la fiiine.
it WAS because i was sad. =l
my emotions make me eat wan lah.


so our dance video didn't make it into the shortlisted twenty.
i shall not complain about it here because i won't stop.
i truly understand if people say ours was too 'music video-ish' compared to the others but we still danced, wherever we were located.


if they say we weren't dancing enough,
thats complete BS.
if they say we weren't smiling enough,
thats also BS.
if they say we weren't creative enough,
thats TOTAL BS.
if they say we didn't use props enough,
BS MUCH?
if they say our outfits weren't as outstanding enough,
we changed 10 times. BS.

i know i'm being such an egoistical brat for ranting like this,

but its MY blog.

SUE ME.

just... watching a few of the shortlisted finalists on the disneychannel site already gets me furious so why don't you guys be the judge and watch it for yourself.

our video.

the other videos.

and of course, our bloopers. =DD

and oh, please please PLEASE click the high quality button at the bottom right of the video screen. memang much more cantik and clearer. heh.

still very weirded out bout the whole thing but aiyah.

as much as i and i know everyone else who supported us wanted us to win, it was a really really fun and good learning experience. especially me, for personal reasons. if we have the energy and semangat, we might do it again if there were still to be a competition regarding High School Musical and flying to Hong Kong for free lol.

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How are you feeling today? Pretty Young Thing- Michael Jackson
DEFINITELY not pretty.

How do your friends see you? The Ballad Of Gus & Sam- Ferraby Lionheart
’the conversation’s great… yeah I can tell…’

Will you get married? Believe- The Bravery
i believe so :D

What is your best friend’s theme song? Faint- Linkin Park
’don’t turn your back on me, I won’t be ignooooored~’

What is the story of your life? Chantek- Altimet ft Adeep Fabulous Cats
pretty it is :D :D

What was high school like? Never Dream Alone- Ashlee Simpson
because in school, you are thought to follow people’s dreams.
okay wait that made no sense.

How can you get ahead in life? A Thousand Miles- Vanessa Carlton
walk another thousand more miles -.-

What’s the best thing about your friends? Brighter Than Sunshine- Aqualung
yes yes yes they are.

What's in store for this weekend? Far From Beautiful- Push Play
cheerleaders; they super hot bodies.

Describe your grandparents. Numb- Linkin Park
ROFLL sorry ah pohpoh and gongong

How’s your life going? How Great Is Our God- Hillsong
truly, truly good to me.

What song will they play at your funeral? Just Like Heaven- Charlotte Martin
Wah. cry lah at my funeral kaokao.

How does the world see you? Hurry Up- Chenelle
yeap. I’m constantly running everywhere, hurrying everyone and everything.

Will you have a happy life? The Call- Regina Spektor
meaningful. should be happy la hor?

Do people secretly lust after you? Haunted- Rihanna
they haunt me maaan. that’s how stalker-ish the people who lust after me are xD

How can you make yourself happy? WhenYouLookMeInTheEyes- Jonas Brothers
’and tell me that you love me…
everything’s alright…
when you’re right here by my side…’

What should you do with your life? Cinderella- Steven Curtis Chapman
……………
I should wash the floors, get invited to a supercun ball, have mice sew my dress, drop my glass slipper at the ball by purpose and of course, spray some nice perfume all over it first lah and get married to a bapak handsome prince.

and then have rice thrown at my carriage that will take me to my far away palace. food really does revolve around my life.

Will you ever have children? After Tonight- Justin Nozuka
O.o holy macaroni?

What song would you strip to? This Woman’s Work- Maxwell
title sounds cacat, but eh the song actually can strip to. not bad.

What does your mum think of you? To Be Alone With You- Sufjan Stevens
because we’re never quiet when put together. hahaa

What is your deep, dark secret? Penyanyi Jalanan- Ungu
I confess lah okay. I’m that dude with the pakaian kusut masai by the Petaling street there, playing the guitar, singing with a Nick Jonas voice.

What is your mortal enemy’s theme song? Hallelujah- Paramore
coz JuYi doesn’t fight wan. so you menang without even fighting. wah. hallelujah maan.

What’s your personality like? Something Like That- Tim
……
camtu ah.

What song will be played at your wedding? I Kissed A Girl- Kate Perry
yeah dude.
I kissed a girl. and I freaking liked it yaww.
still want me ah?

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my blog is featured on this boxxet site. i quote;

"lyricalsteps ( lyricalsteps.blogspot.com ) has great The Killers news, photos, videos and more"

ROFL and i actually listen to The Kills more than the Killers.

the sun may come up

the sun may go down

the sun may come up

the sun may go down

the sun may come up and the sun may go down again

i still swear its a beautiful life

Charlotte Martin

because juyi's head is big.

JuYi, you are so procrastinative.
JuYi, you are so clumsy.
JuYi, you are so tardy and irresponsible.
JuYi, why can't you do anything?

JuYi, you don't care about how other people feel.

did i have the right to feel like i was being treated unfairly?

yes.

did i deserve the criticism?

yes.

did i feel terribly bad about it and cried?

yes.

did i want to change?

yes.

its been two weeks now.

i dare say i am not as procrastinative anymore.

i dare say i am not as clumsy, tardy or irresponsible anymore.

i take matters into my own hands and get it done.

i'm happy because.. i proved to myself and others that i can be a leader.

i'm upset because... from all this, i gained a temper.

a horribly, bp-raising temper.

never in my life have i been the type of person who showed my frustrations so clearly to other people when they make mistakes, or give the i-am-so-dissapointed-in-you face, or get easily angered by 1)people who need simple sentences to be repeated to them over and over again because they were not paying attention and 2)people who continue repeating the same, criticisive sentence over and over again. i've never been like that. so why am i adapting into that behaviour?

i'm still finding a way to control this newfound Hyde character.

i know i can and will get it down,

just have to figure out how.

i do this, i get criticized.

i do that, and i still get criticized.

JuYi doesn't care about how other people feel.

if i am willing... and daring... to go through all the difficulties of change, tell me how can i NOT care?

have you ever cared about how i feel?

at least i freaking realize my mistakes.

why can't you take me in your arms

why

The Music- Charlotte Martin

because family bonds are unbreakable.

my very gay desktop, yes saya tahu
sorry la but i cannot resist the Earth's hottest brothers ;p

i just realized that i haven't blogged about the new love of my life. :D
ladies and gentlemen, meet....

QueenBlacky :D

so her original name was Queen but she responds more to Blacky now :))

she is truly, one of the most beautiful dogs i've seen ever.

her eyes have this bright glow of warm brown and she's a mix of a Spitz, Sausage Dog and Dalmatian. sounds so cacatly weird but trust me; she is weirder than you think.

• she doesn't bark as often as most dogs do
• she DOESN'T REALLY BARK OMG
• she loves sitting more than running around
• and oh; SHE DOESN'T RUN AS MUCH AS MOST DOGS DO EITHER
• she merely walks, instead
• she's more obedient than my sister
• she likes to cuddle up in this specific little corner of my house
• and she won't go anywhere for hours
• she doesn't disturb/go near my kakak AT ALL thank God
• but she's still a very normal jump-on-you-and-lick-your-hand dog :)
  
  
  

yeap. i am definitely in love with her.

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i took a quick glance at all of the people who were gathered.

under the dark blue tent.

many were sitting on pale grey chairs,

tucked into tables covered with dark blue cloth.

what a haunting reminscence.

it reminded me of daddy's funeral.

everything was exactly the same.

tried my hardest to not let painful memoirs flood the corners of my mind.

too late; tears were already welling up.

and she finally came out.

her fair complexion was even whiter.

and a picture of devastation and sadness met in her eyes.

and all i could do,

was hug her and cry.

losing a mother,

at this age is just.... undescribable.

i know i would never be able to live pass that.

i love you WyeYee

promise me you'll keep that chin up

and i promise i'll be here to lend you a shoulder, hand, leg or any other body part whenever i can

an empty room can be so loud

with so many tears; drown them out

hold on, hold on

because the bleeding hasn't stop.

what a brave combo to Leona Lewis' song.
to all LL fans, tengoklah ini video.

Lyrical HipHop

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so after spending, literally the entire afternoon and evening yeah go count the hours sitting in front of the computer until bontot and otak sakit, editing the 30gigabyte or however you spell it videos that were taken, half of which were not dance videos omg daaaamn annoying,

the completely edited dance video has been submitted into the DisneyChannel site :D

after the siao days of dancing and countless recording under the Malaysian hot sun, chasing after curfews, borrowing the countless school shirts from so many different people, tearing pants *cough*, dancing in front of random strangers and other school kids, rushrecording ine between YE work and YE's important events, making my mother and other parents drive us to the many different recording locations, troubling my neighbour WaiHor for constantly helping me with the recordings and videotaping...... all the work is finally done.

now....

have to wait to see if our video makes into the shortlisted 20. *shrugs*

fellow loyal blog readers,

if you have free time or just have nothing to do because you currently got no life, hope you do check out disneychannel-asia.com when you can from the 11th to the 20th of July to see if our dance group, SVian, made it into the shortlisted 20 finalists. and IF we do, PLEASE PLEASE VOTE AS MANY TIMES AS YOU CAN BECAUSE I REALLY WANNA GO TO HONGKONG FOR FREE :D

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happy belated birthday, Ranjali :D

you have been one of the biggest pains in my ass ever,

but you are also one of the biggest loves of my life.

i hope you know that,

although we fight once in a while and act like extreme bitches towards each other, at the end of the day, you're my sister. its what we do. we've been family for years now and as much as i hate you at times, your name is all over my top-ten-most-loved-people list. :) please take care of yourself and your heart and remember to tell your mom to cook more curry mutton for me =DD

i keep bleeding

oh you cut me open

Dear God- Nick Jonas

because i'm red.

I AM SO FURIOUS.
OMG when will the video actually be DIGITIZED!?

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well, you're the artistic type you see. since God has given you that kind of brain, just go in that direction. express you creativity whenever you can.

thank you, Puan Tan. :)

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everyone's got skeletons in their cupboard.

mine wear super tight jeans and are brothers.

easy one to figure. ;p

you're the voice i hear inside my head

the reason that i'm singing

i need to find you

i gotta find you

you're the missing piece i need

the song inside of me

i need to find you

i gotta find you

I Gotta Find You- Shayne Gray