because overreacting is necessary.

YVONNE RUNS FASTER THAN MEEE

i am back to less than average again. boohoo~

but on the happier side,
hello wakil lompat tinggi ;D
i'll be the next Blanka Vlasic, people.

JOKE.
i don't even jump anywhere like that.

today was a bittersweet day. i'm thankful for having classmates like Shazni who can sing to Lez Zeppelin's Stairway To Heaven; GuyEon who conteng-ed in a form1 girl's notebook right before she came in looking for it and let me eat some of his KFC chicken; Naveen for proving that he can do high jump really well; BoonAun for his gay rabbit face that i now can do as well.

no, this is not it

7:15 a.m. saw the happier side of me until 3:40 p.m. its been quite a while or not HAHA xD since i cried in public. i really don't like people asking me 'eh apesal nangis?' and things like that. naturally, i will only cry more. and i think i cried straight for an hour. my eyes are completely sore and dry now but someone apparently liked my lepas-nangis face.

engkau pelik doh.
tapi tak sepelik aku.
:)

thank you for making me smile and laugh again.

though you were the one who made me cry in the first place xD

i apologize to anyone else who felt bad for making me tear! :P

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7. i want to get medal for marathoooooon!
i've started jogging since December, and for an unbelievably lazy person like ME, to get these thunder thighs up and out of the house AND RUNNING... is one bloody big deal okeh? and the longest i can go without stopping is 20 minutes. eee suckah

i wrote that in one of my unpublished posts last month. many and not so many know that i'm no where close to being an athlete, or for the most part, a long distance runner. not exactly a sprinter either though i got a gold for running last year. not a pedant either, so i'm very much the insipid average girl next to your wooden door.

the 13th place may not be much, but it meant the world to me, not only because i finished the race with sweaty pride or because i am right behind Yvonne whom i was running with the last half of the race; but because i pushed and pushed my body to such a limit, i actually felt my throat aching as the stiff morning air stumped in my trachea. many a times, i wanted to just fall to the tar ground and give up and let the First Aid people medicate me but i didn't. many times i wanted to just stop running and just stroll along and give up but i didn't.

i have never... never ran so hard in my life. my determination of getting a medal just moulded into place, i guess. and now, i wear this shiny plastic piece of gold with ego-tripping self glorification.

and there is, the poyo face ;p

i deserve to rub it in more than people usually do okay xD congratulations to all the other medallers as well. it feels nice to be in the same square box as you people as well. ;p ngahaa

i've been listening to Secondhand Serenade alot lately.

John Vesely has got killer sense of musicality yaww.

listen listen listen. :)

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QUESTCREWQUESTCREWQUESTCREWQUESTCREWQUESTCREW

don't you see

this world doesn't matter to me

Paperthin Hymn- Anberlin

back to you

it always comes around back to you

because its the night i'll never forget.

thank you for risking your life ( haha drama crap ) for mee!

i love you and all the silly risks you and i take :)

panicking with a fast heartbeat, i ran upstairs to wake my mother up. it was the same car that the neighbourhood has been talking about. it drove by slowly and stopped directly outside my house. it was there for a full sixty seconds. the dark red Estima.

what if my house was the next target? will i die? will they kidnap me? whats going to happen?

the both of us looked through the room's dark window. just starring at the vehicle as it sat there stationary. the spiky chill that sent down my spine made me breathe a little too fast than i normally do. it felt like an asthma attack. 1 a.m; why did they come two hours earlier than they did the last time?

after waiting for a close thirty seconds,

WATAFAACK.

it was my neighbour's boyfriend's car, just dropping her off. -.-

just a few days ago, my neighbour/family friend who lives two doors away from me got robbed. and not just any typical hit-and-run robbery, but one of the very few rare ones where the burglars not only did not touch the living room floor at all, but actually went up to their bedroom, banged on the door open and tied them up with cable wires.


according to the way the robbery went, it seemed as if the burglars had been planning on it for a pretty long time. my next door neighbour, uncle Wong, stays up/comes home late from work occasionally and has said that he's been noticing a dark red Estima circling past our road in the past couple days. unfortunately, that day he only came home at 5 a.m, two hours after the robbery occurred.


aunty was tied up roughly with big cable wires, leaving her with cuts and bruises on her wrists. she was forced to stay lied on her bed, facing downwards and not allowed to move. uncle was hit by a thick steel bar four times on the head as the burglars forced him to open his safe account that was in their bedroom. later in the morning, he rushed to the hospital for stitches. my friend ah Ying thank GOD stayed in her room and hid herself under the comforters as quiet as she possibly could, as distracting the burglars would be dumb as heck en.

the whole shindig was finished cleanly in twenty minutes.

sounds too fast but in actual, too long.

thank God so so much that although they're currently traumatized and staying somewhere else, they're very much alive and doing well. the possibilities of death were countless and their fortunate escape from it was one of the luckiest i've ever heard.


the noise that was created by my screaming neighbours, the banging on the bedroom door, the shifting and throwing of the room's furniture and materials.. unbelievably did not manage to shake me up from my sleep, being a person who suffers from insomnia and usually wakes up at the slightest bit of noise. my mom and few other neighbours were actually awakened but wasn't sure of what was going on.


imagine if the string of consequences were different. what if my mother actually went to the house to see what was going on? what if my neighbours called the police earlier? what if i woke up? would i have done something? what if ah Ying went out of her room?


i'm deeply saddened and horrified on what has nocuously happened but if things were to have happened the slightest bit disparate than the way it did, i'm pretty sure it would've turned out uglier.


literally a decade ago, my next door neighbour on my right was robbed.
seriously, my turn coming soon maan. *touch wood*
my house now has an alarm system.
so come la, you asshole pencuri. xP

this time i'll never let you go

I Will Be- Leona Lewis

because now i'm speechless.

Danny Gokey.

you are my American Idol :)

hello, this movie banyak baguss.





surprising as it is, i did not manage to tear during or after this movie. but the feeling when you watch it is so completely weird. funny in the most smallest ways but still drama kao kao lah. and oh, Cate Blanchett is so so pretty :)

exams are recently over.

but in around a month's time, the next exam comes.

and then in less than a month from there, midyears.

and then,

SPM.

*jeng jeng jeeeng~*

its very far to look but i really cannot believe i'll no longer be wearing a pinafore yes i wear a pinafore now and baju kurung in nine months time. school will no longer be my second home. i will no longer succumb to waking up at 6:30 every morning. and worst of all, i'll no longer be in the good presence of my good ol friends who some, mean the world to me.

to that special someone whom i had no idea reads my blog,

though i dengan bangganya was first and last to wish you on your birthday, i have yet to wish you with my public internet page.

Happy Birthday! :)

here's to years of knowing each other,

years of friendship,

and years of love that never faded.

i philic you! xx

thank you for spending the most amazing week with me <3

Kiss From A Rose- Danny Gokey

because i'm loving it.

no i am not giving it back this time ;p

because aku special. ah ah

the ultimate first,

and ultimate last.

a few times in my life, i am left speechless due to the impact from emotional brainblock. yesterday, i had such a heavy brainblock i couldn't even talk with a steady tone. or reply in complete sentences. i continue thinking back on those few minutes that made my day; the ones that i've been thinking about since i was in my pre-sophomore years. and i had to forcefully shut my eyes to sleep because the brain simply refused to switch off.


it better be worth it.
;p


What I Like About You- Lilix

DAN HUMPHREY HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO SERENA!

a great two hour conversation :)

because endurance is key.

People think, because we're young, we aren't complex, but that's not true. We deal with life and love and broken hearts in the same way a woman a few years older might.
- Rihanna

Chris Brown hits Rihanna?
the sound of it itself is utterly weird and impossibly hard to believe.



i'm reading so many articles and reports online now, its driving me nuts. she's probably scraping off her Malaysian concert this Friday and flying back to Barbados with her family. witness says she was admitted into hospital due to several injuries; bitemarks, contusions etc. it is actually confirmed that she is the victim and Chris Brown is due court session next month for assault with deadly weapon, although none were actually involved in the assault.


its upsetting that she just might be postponing her trip here,
or worse, actually cancelling it,
but its even more upsetting that she has to deal with all these crap right now, which hopefully is not the least bit true.

we should believe nothing unless it is the actual words said by Rihanna herself, or Chris Brown.

whatever it is,

i pray for the best for these two :(

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my name got written down for all the acara. MUAH AH AH

running, high jump, long jump and lontar peluru.

i'm pretty pleased because i just found out that i run faster than Yvonne =DD but not so happy because my big butt is always stopping me from going any higher when it comes to high jump. :( then again, i've always been an above average performer. asalkan can wakil for either of these acaras and hopefully get pretty shiny medal, i very happy already. *dances in circles*

and hello hello,

someone's birthday is coming very soooon~

i just might be more excited than you are ;p

entertaining is something i do for a living. its not who i am. when you're in the spotlight, everything seems good. sometimes i feel like i have it worse because i have to always keep my guard up. i don't know who to trust. i don't know who wants to date me for who i am. or who wants to be my friend for who i really am.

Question Exisiting- Rihanna

because you know what to do.

i'm supposed to mandi and get ready now,

but like i care right.

yesterday night, i went out to my family friend's cafe opening.


i wore my mom's old check shirt although i fought with her on the phone earlier and friends were all 'your shirt very nice aa' and my face like that; =DD

THATS what you call vintage babeh
;D

the cafe's located in Sungei or Sungai? Long.

see that boy there?

itu Adrian. WAH AH

some gorgeous Marilyn Monroe pictures on the walls. :)

extremely well decorated and designed.

cute right this candlemat!?

Grace, you know what to do lah yeah ;p

in all honesty, the food is SUMPAH CHEAP; as low as RM6 for a plate of spaghetti and the food that was served last night was amazing. seriously sedap. so Grace, you. know. what. to. do. :D

SPM Valentine's Day in a week!

come on people; no better day to show your love for family, friends and special friends without feeling the least bit embarassed about it coz hey; everyone also doing perrgh. and no i do not find it commercialized. thats why i'm celebrating it =)

like a heart candy with a surprise center

<3

Your Ex-Lover Is Dead- Stars

because my heart beats...

thank you for being the one who starts my day,
and for being the one who serenades me to my sweet dreams.

as time turns its way back to where it began.

Xin Tiao- Lee Hom

because it keeeeeeps getting better.

SORRY MEI FOR NOT STOPPING BY YOUR HOOOME :(

i went home after school. boo~

today, someone's phone tak kena rampas.
sumpah best.

'jangan ckp bnyk.. buat kerje kamu.'

classic and will never be forgotten.

after school,
Edna came home with me then we went to Eugene's open house!
all we seventeen year olds do; gamble, eat, gamble.
and exam's in a week know! and half the gamblers were Azamians WAHAHA

'its the experiences that i want you all to gain and the friendships i want you all to make. things like that are things that will last a lifetime. this is the freedom you all should be having.'

-Aunty Khoo

it was refreshing to hear those words uttered by my friend's mother. i never realized that there was actually a parent out there who thinks that way and it put my rapid heart into a room of ease. i breathed out a clear sigh. and i fell into a good nap on the couch as the boys fimbled with the guitars. i didn't go straight home after that. went to the Tan's house and menyibuk. and watch Lee Evan videos.


Lee Evans is one seriously ridiculous British comedian.
i literally laughed so hard, i fell off the little stool that was holding my butt.
think Russell Brands; but without the big hair and skinny jeans.

and oh,
did i tell you uncle Tan bakes the best tasting cakes? :)

everytime i hear them on the radio

i think of you

Your Call- Secondhand Serenade

because so gay man.

seriously. my class filled with jokers.

how do the pearl buyers buy their pearls from fishers?

... by cash.

- Guy Eon

sorry laa that made me laugh like crazy today.

i was ten. HAHA

look like pro, hor? *gives perasan wink* i think i was singing Make Me A Servant. this was kidsCAT's first production. i stumbled upon it in my old church, Calvary's online site. muahah

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Dzaliqa produces the most beautiful pouches!

its now my pencil case. and i seriously love it to death.

see my linklist under the randoms; she's there. ;D
check her out. her stuff are so so pretty.

photo by LeeJianYuan *click*


ain't this a pretty photo? :) taken during 08's Refuel Conference Concert.
and i just realized i'm promoting people's sites again.
for free samo. eii apa niii xD

Lee, you are officially my future wedding photographer.

and speaking of weddings...

so fifteen children, sap sap sui lah?

it is possible. the names leh?

you take seven. i take eight.

eh WHY YOU GET ONE EXTRA?

plis, you are just the factory. i'm the producer okay.

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exam's in two weeks. WOOH

and here i am. having not touched a single textbook or reference book ( yet i hope )

i know i've been lazier but this year got the Sijil Paling Mudah la. why is it not motivating or scaring the bajeezers out of me yet? sumpah gay this feeling. maybe i will pick up my Sejarah book tonight. MAYBE. this afternoon? tak free ye, nak pergi shopping :D

Why Do You Love Me- Garbage

because Divya needs to eat her words ;p

please lah.
Quest all the way, baby. ;DD

SHABLAM!

because it's worth it.

i had no idea the Beat Freakz were made of that happening girls.

Womanizer.

tribute to Britney Spears week

know that Asian chick, Rino?
do you know she's one of Gwen Stefani's Harajuku Girls?

she's the one in the far top right

copied from Wiki;

"The Harajuku Girls are four young Asian back up dancers featured in stage shows and music videos for American pop singer Gwen Stefani. The women also act as an entourage at Stefani's public appearances.

The Harajuku Girls are Maya Chino ("Love"), Jenifer Kita ("Angel"), Rino Nakasone ("Music") and Mayuko Kitayama ("Baby"). "


how sick is that?


and i can't even begin to explain how big these bgirls are. think Step Up2, You Got Served, Britney's choreographer/dancers, Avril's choreographer/dancers and Miley Cyrus/Hannah Montana choreographer/dancers. I KID YOU NOT and there are so many more but i cannot be bothered anymore to type em down.


its hard sometimes to see that they are competing against other less professional crews i.e Quest in this reality competition but hey; when it comes to dance, there are never any rules, are there?

go Beat Freakz!

:D

bust through the door

and take me away

Dinn Daa Da- George Kraanz

and there are still people gambling in my house.
-____-'


and oh,

happy 19th birthday,

Wong Loke Ken.

:)