Jesus Christ,
we surrender to You.

because i need to get back on my feet.

so i'm still sad.

its been quite a while, but i still miss the rollercoaster ride that just shut down the other day.

i have to say, its been the most topsie turvy rollercoaster ride i've been on so far. a damnass fast one too. i nearly fell off because it was hella unstable and parts of it were not fixed on yet. i honestly could've died, but hey ho, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger :) i also need to blame myself because i should've known that the track was not ready, but mati also nak naik. what to do, it was painted bright eye-catching red, and its wheels were so freaking fly. i'm human, i get tempted too. nontheless, the thrill it gave me and the way it made me feel; was unlike any other.

but looks like i need to get off already. backside and kepala sudahpun sakit. we'll see lah what happens when the ride is further refurnished and built. need to start walking on my feet and look at what other rides i can enjoy too.

of course,

i will definitely remember how much this rollercoaster meant to me.

contains my childhood and teenage life memories kot :)

because you're my last.

i've never returned precious things to its owner after they've been given to me, but i guess... there is no point in holding on to something that no longer contains its meaning. well, thats my way of saying goodbye to something i believed in, something that i invested hope and belief in.

JuYi, your eyes are a little puffy, are you okay?

sometimes it takes knowledge of a fact that other people are going through worse things in their life, that makes you realize that your problem is nothing compared to theirs

if you don't change, you'll never grow

PuanTan said that when we are facing a problem or difficulty that is hard to solve, He sends us help. well, i thank You for the help you've given me today; which are the dear teachers who mentioned those meaningful sentences to me. teachers who are not only hoping for us to score A's, but teachers who are genuinely concerned with the emotional wellbeing of the students as well as their growth in life.

i am also so very glad.....

i have the Azamians, SU's and Nadeem who managed to make me laugh UNTIL I CRY. terima kasih :) you all are fantastically awesomazing <33

Seven Nation Army- The White Stripes

because i won't hide how i feel.

the day i make it into a Yasmin Ahmad film, will be the real start of my career. mark my words.

just how much can one ingest in one day?

or maybe i should just be a cat. not having one damn care for the world around me, hahah. not even you. nak?

because its a good move.

1. Kupono is LOVE.
2. because he reminds me of another contestant from last season xD
3. its Mia freaking Michaels HELOOOO.
4. dood look at THEIR FACIAL EXPRESSIONS.
5. best performance of the season.

but you're on to me

all over me

Gravity- Sara Bareilles

well, because i don't know.

i thank my uberly lovely girlfriends of 5Azam who listened to all of my isi hati throughout the past two days. i love you bitches ;D and that includes you, Idzwan


i'm very much amazed that i didn't shed a single tear throughout this 48 hours, even when i unsucceedingly forced myself to last night. it felt like an empty void i needed to let go; but truth be told, maybe there was no void after all. maybe i was just tired.


i'm still not sure as to how i'm supposed to really react to this. i don't even want to think of the possibilities or non-possibilities in the future regarding this as that will just drain me out. i knew all along that this would happen, just not this fast. oh well, God and His mysterious ways. i will not lie; i am hugely upset with the conclusion but thankfully, i have adapted myself to focus on the silver lining of a dark cloud, and let that little spark of light outshine everything else black and grey. no more in-depth thinking except for studies now :)


for now, i pray to dear God that i can remain this stable, confident, and firm in my opinions as well as emotional fluctuations. despite everything that i have and hold on to, i've always seen SPM as my main focus this year. i pray it remains that way and that i will continue working harder to delivering some neat results. i ain't letting no one down. ;D

but of course,

at the bottom of all of this,

i will always pray for us.

Almost Lover- A Fine Frenzy

because human nature won't change.

eh, how to say in English ah?

a class in school caught fire.

everyone expects me to blog about this haha

actually was really ticked me off to my very last nerve, up to a point of giving a short lecture to my classmate of asking me a silly question that goes 'why you so tension? no one died whaat.' sorry bro, but you got the wrong person to ask a joke-sounding question regarding life and death matters.

i wanted to write a synopsis on how everything turned out but then i poured out all my thoughts and frustrations to 5Azam girlfriends. so too bad folks! no political argument from JuYi about the fire today :D

just really really thank God everyone is safe, despite the thousands of ringgit that the school has immediately lost due to the half an hour fire that happened in the computer room. thank God all you fellow 4Fadhil students are alright! and that includes PnSuriyati! :)

i stayed by you

i didn't have to

I'm Not Like You- Yuna

because there is no need for all this.

haa kan dah kena bongkar rahsia terpendam kau

its okay we still love you! ;p

was eating lunch with the usual ratpack after church and then we were talking bout why girls pout when they take photos. to be honest, i really don't know. being the JuYi that i am, i've been imitating pouts for many years. entahlah aku. i find it funny :D thus; the birth of the most recent pout photo..

and still after years of experience, BoonHoe beats me to it like a pro

i personally, really don't like how my face looks when i pout. or in my preference of words, squinge my lips into a tight small circle. it makes my big head look like its being forced into a vacuum suction from my lips. but i can tell you that i am amused at the many girls who constantly practice picture-pouting. because so many of them actually look alot better when they smile like a normal person, which is flashing their pearly whites and actual happiness when taking a photo. as a girl who is still waiting for her braces, i'd do anything to be blessed with perfect teeth.

but of course,

i'll let it stand as one man woman's opinion.

:)

This Woman's Work- Maxwell

synopsis : alcoholic making life decision.
SYTYCD : Australia
choreo : Napoleon and Tabitha

OFF THE FREAKING WALL, DOOD

synopsis : girlfriend boyfriend gaduh.
SYTYCD : America Season 5
choreo : Napoleon and Tabitha

that was unfreaking real- Adam Shankman

because mindsets have to be broken.

this came in a email from a close friend. at very first, i wondered... why is she sending me an email regarding a flower? then as i patiently opened the mail, i found out that as a rare species found in Thailand, the Parrot Flower is a protected species which is not even allowed to be exported out of the country. gorgeous, ain't it? :) reminds me of my beloved orchids.

it is a fact that the very reason why many of us are dubted intelligent and intellectual is because we have a very determined mindset. we are sure of what we believe and being confidently sure that when its right to us, it always will be right.

what happens if someone didn't see the flower in the shape of the parrot? because not every pair of eyes look in the same dimension. i may see A, you may see B. in real life, i'm the type of person who focuses on Z instead; things that apparently shouldn't matter most. this is where my little mindset comes in. i believe that focusing on the small and so-called unnecessary things may bring about good as well. i like to observe and pay attention to details that people don't always focus on. sometimes, i think they are more important than what society and the people around me consider more important to think about.

i strongly believe that in the future, all these little inspirational details with question marks will nurture me and mould my perspectives towards future sights.

going back to the caseline,

just as how i may view this random person as ugly-hearted or hopeless due to a previous quibble; to you, he or she may have changed and brought about a certain meaning in your life. so what does that make of this person? someone who is bad, or good?

the love of people is very clear in you

-Y

it gives me great pride that someone had stated something like that about me. however, i do know that... many a times, i still perform sinful actions; like criticizing a person's behaviour or action towards myself, and thus, immediately stamping the person with a 'NO GOOD' across its forehead. for that, God, i ask that You refrain me from ever keeping a bad thought about someone in my mind. even better, to not allow all these things from polluting my mind.

still, it is of mere human virtue to have love for the people around us; to love just like how He has loved each and everyone of us without judging. before thinking about saving the planet, the first things we have to save first is ourselves. because what truly makes one most intelligent and intellectual is the ability to have a clean heart and determined mind, but non-resistant to change and accepting difference.

people are never perfect.

but that does not give us the right to thrive from their imperfections.

thank you for your kind words,

dear friend

:)

We Are The World- Michael Jackson

SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE SEASON 5

bawak datang :p

okay, sumpah God testing my discipline.

i'll watch maximum one hour a day, can?

because i had to xD

was ransacking through old Friendster comments. hahaha omg gay

so this... was my first comment to dearest BoonAun,

back in the year of '06.

its easy to go through his because SiuWern's and my comments are overflooding. susah wanna go until last page.

Boon Aun rocks the world !!! yea he does !!! coz he's a pinky !! a pink boy !!! ONLY real men wear pink .. guys out there, learn from Boon Aun here .. ;) hahaha ..


well wat can i say bout Boon Aun ?? he's good looking .. very very the creative .. ;) also very smart .. hello u got 90 for maths !!! >< ( rite ??? ) cool, and he wears pink !!! pink so the rawkz !!! ( i said that already right ??? XD )

and u have definitely brought more fun and laughter to none other than .. 2 Gigih !!! hahaha .. as the *ahaks* former Ketua Kebersihan, we gladly welcome u to join our stupidity, silly-ness, corrupted-ness, crazy-laugh-to-deathness, and crappiness .. ;) and good luck sitting next to Naveen .. XD hahaha ..

owhh ya .. he also has this really different slang when speaking English .. different from other ppl .. no its not weird .. its unique .. ;) hehe .. appreciate this 1000 word testimonial that was typed by these oh-so-gorgeous-hands ( perasan-ing ).. belonging to :-

- JuYi -

1. i typed ' pink so the rawkz.'

2. better, i typed 'Boon Aun rocks the world !!!'

3. i supported BoonAun in his BoonAun-rocks notion?

4. my dots are always double dots with a space from the word. EEE
5. so are all of my question marks!
6. i used..... way too many emoticons. geez
7. Naveen was even annoying back then HAHAHA :D

8. i forgot;BoonAun does have a slang.


okay balik buat Chemistry.

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my sister turned on the DVD and i was like 'what the heck, mummy bought a Malaysian drama?' as the starting of the story begun with the filming of the buzzing of vehicles, existing old buildings and the panoramic sky. Felicia Chin who's not the main actress, fyi came on . ignored it for the first hour or so because i wanted to study. omg right

turned my head around upon hearing this damn sedap music coming from the drama... and i see all these women dressed in pretty kebayas and hair pinned to the back like makcik apetah. i'm like.... whaaat is this?

just possibly the best local drama ever produced

The Little Nyonya is about Ju Xiang eh same middle name like me ;p who's born into a large Peranakan family in Malacca where her mother is a second mistress of the Tauke. Due to a serious illness when she was 9 years old, she becomes a deaf-mute. She basically grew up working in the kitchen as both her and her mother asidelined by the Tauke, first bitch-of-a-wife mistress and bitches-for-children daughters. very Cinderella Malaysian version, except that this one, mother still alive. Storyline is set in the 1930s during the Jap and Brit war. SEJARAH FORM3 KOT HOW CAN I NOT LIKE!?


its hard to copy the whole synopsis from Wiki because i myself have only watched 6 out of the 35 ep drama series which reportedly has been MediaCorp's biggest splurge on production cost. but eh, this drama masih very fresh; baru habis production last year.

talk about GORGEOUS

basically, the set of the whole story is the BabaNyonya culture and what happened to the local community during the war. I LOVE IT. and i actually never knew that my mother was raised in a Baba Nyonya-cultured family with my late ahMa. its got this really good TVB-esque plotline. and all these dish names that were brought about in the show like Babi Pongteh, Kueh Nyonya... dude. its not worth not watching. go go get it in any Malaysian DVD shops!

did i mention the lead actress is so so pretty? :)

sumpah tak pernah tgk this face in Singaporean productions. or maybe, i just don't watch enough of local productions. i blame myself for stereotyping most of them.

eh, lead actor pun hensem ;p

like seriously, photos don't lie man

i dubted him Mr HotStuff

because his Jap name is hard to remember xD

wanna know who's the most familiar face in this drama series?

PHUA CHU BENG!

looks solemn here. but yeah because he is. kurang ajar kot his character sometimes. macam nak kena tampar.

i'm gonna continue watching it later xD

did i mention i love dropping by? :)

get well, love!

because i know how it feels.

congratulations, Blitzerz :D
langsung takde kaitan with BU4 but i think their whole team including supporters are amazingly dedicated. avid fan for three years yaww. finally win jugak. a victory well deserved :)

go Ashleeey :)

Vibrant
Pirates
Shirtliff
STUNNERS ALL BOYSSSS! hahaha sorry menjakun. my very masculine friend is one of the main male cheerleaders whom i never knew was friggin awesome at dancing. went a bit manic during their performance.

he's far left when they start dancing at 0:25

because finally, FINALLY man.

EDIT
FINALLY WATCHED IT!
sorry aa to Cursing Stranger who sat behind me, for jakun-ing like mad when Megan Fox came on the screen. xP but basically jakun-ed throughout the movie so... :)

and CONGRATULATIONS PAUL KEVIN JONAS!

though my love for the group has faded, i still stay a loyal fan to you :) invite me la hor to your wedding if can. ;)

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i want to write so much on how i am so upset i did NOT get chosen for NS and all three LIYAWERN got it! so as to 3/7 of my SU kaki who got it! GOD THIS IS UNFAIR!


BUT
i will proceed back to my books :)
i want to have a clean and A-filled SPM slip, people! and i will get it!
*does wonderwoman pose*


in other words,

SELAMAT HARI JADI MENTEE A.K.A IDZWAN FARIZ TAN

dh tua, dh besar. dh cukup don't share cake with me already. xnak gemook. bt still nk kena ckp thank you kerana kongsi cupcake dgn saye, mentee kesayangan anda. AUYAWW! SPM dpt straight A kot. saya doakan. wooseeh ;D

we're finally on the right track, love

Why Georgia- John Mayer