because it's not just one note.

so AS WE ALL KNOW..........

my favourite show in the world is back. 

those who jizzed all over from watching the Britney episode, raise your hands.

i mean. SE-RIOUS-LY.

not that i was a mad Britbrit fan, i DID watch all her music videos when i was younger. watching it all come to life in the form of Heather my-future-wife Morris just made me jaw drop, literally. i was friggin munching chips and actually stopped because i was too in awe of the power behind Brittany S. Pierce. 

thats right; Heather Morris with a snake/in red spandex , dancing + singing to I'm A Slave 4 U made me stop eating not in a bad way

see, my sole reason of watching Glee is not just Kevin Husband Mchale or its stupid punchlines. it's because Ryan Murphy would let someone who has no singing experience, a dancer, take full spotlight of one entire episode on her own. what do you know; 13.3 million views. 

let me just say that i am so happy for her to have achieved such high status on her own as a dancer. dancers never get the spotlight all to their own, they NEVER do. the everyday common audience rarely value the effort made by the people who dance their hearts out in the background, simply to make the 'star' look better. i hope from the 13 million who tuned in, at least a few thousand of that group got inspired by dance and to dance. and also, SYTYCD; shame on you for letting her go in Season 2. 

i may not be a professional dancer like she is, but i can certainly imagine how much on Cloud 9 she is, having being a trending topic worldwide on Twitter, dance as Britney Spears and have people now recognize her face, name and talent. all this from just being a person who wanted to do what she wanted to do; be a dancer.

Heather Morris i love you <3

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i may have gotten the nickname Crazy Girl Who Runs Everyday in my neighbourhood.

no srsly i can feel them whispering as i jog pass them. PSHHH

i don't just run to keep fit or give a shot at losing weight ( epic fail this one ). when i go running, it feels like a whole new world to me. just to start running itself, i need my mentality to push me to do it. you think it's easy to force yourself to go sweat bricks despite having an already long day? well it's not, but i do it because at the end of the day it makes me happy and satisfied. the idea of striving to achieve makes me content because it trains my discipline as a person. 

running everyday is like my escape from the juggling of college, people and all the other personal things in life that irritate. for just that hour, i get to run from my problems and let the evening wind take them away from my mind. i get to let my problems sift in the big whispy clouds as i fall in love with the orange sunset over and over, no worries whatsoever. 

i run laps around this little circle in my neighbourhood. and i get to see young working mothers come home to their waiting kids. i see the old couple who sits together on the bench in the field, falling in love with the sunset just as i do. there was once this little girl who opened her gate as i was walking pass by with the dog, her dad protectively watching from behind. she said hi and we exchanged simple smiles. i asked her if she wanted to pat my non-harmful dog. moments like these give me such drive and inspiration. and all i have to do is run. 

for all these,

i guess i don't mind being Crazy Girl Who Runs Everyday.

Empire State of Mind- Glee

'thanks dear, you are very astute.'

astute i am. 

because it's not weird, it's just different

three times in two days.


i had so many more questions but there wasn't enough time. i wanted to know so much more. it was like i was starving for some form of inspiration that would come in the form of words. then again, i always do. for what reason? none perhaps. i guess i'm just your type of person who enjoys seeing and conversing with multiple personalities and characters. in my very humble opinion, people who are different from us should never be shunned.


it's always easier to stay within your dotted comfort zone line with the people you lepak with all the time. i won't lie, i enjoy it too and sometimes use that zone as a protection boundary from people that are socially dubbed 'weird' or 'too damn gay to function', which is very selfish and immature of me to firstly, believe the assumptions made towards these eccentric people and secondly; why should it matter?


why is it wrong to not be like everyone else?
why do we have to have this belief that everyone should be of one type?

i wish people saw what i saw in this man. the intelligence and the intellect with a contrasting side of mess and simpleness. sadly, all people see and talk about is his weaknesses and they let that overpower all the good sides of him. it's like a hunting game to find and count how many imperfections one person has, without consciously even realizing it. fuck human nature.


my next questions would be the books that he reads.


Weight Of Lies- The Avett Brothers

what is your favourite day of the week?

SPM English Choice Essay Question 2009.
rethink, remember, rewrite.

dear God,

i know i shouldn't have done anything to my beautiful class schedule. 

i should've just left it the way it was and not fiddle around with it, expecting better.

i ask that You forgive me for being selfish and unappreciative.

despite having been upset about the entire mess since this evening,
i realized today that there are more important things to life like hugging my dog and calming her shivers down when a few fireworks exploded too loudly, shaking her to her core.


and no i don't care that i smell like wet carpet now.

Black Swan- Thom Yorke

because it's something i need now

currently writing and rewriting essays from my time back in high school.


i managed to save some of the stuff that i wrote during those ol' times when i was alot more emotional than now. college has pushed and made me a bitch when it comes to handling people and work. either way, i'm still happy with myself despite the changes in my character. what i'm not currently happy with is my schedule and that i may have to reshuffle it, and the fact that i cannot be in my favourite lecturer's class despite how hard i try. 

BOOO MY LIFE SUCKS FMLFMLFMLFML! 

anyways, here's a snippet of an old essay;

'At that very second, everyone just fell into pits of silence as they stared at the passenger door. My grandmother struggles to come out from the back seat and I rushed to her assistance. Her face was the saddest I had ever seen. Every frown and wrinkle was in place, just deeper and coarser. Tears were dripping down her freckled cheeks and her face was a pale blue.'

wah,
i was so emo and jiwang back then man -.-


I Will Follow You Into The Dark- Death Cab For Cutie