Forgive and Forget

In evidence, every couple does have conflicts…Whereas, that might be a good way to get better understanding on each other… No matter how worst the condition is, forgive and forget are always the way to hold us tightly…

I know my fault, I apologized, I try to fix it up carefully as I used to be termagancy yet I’ve changed unconditionally because of you… This is the first time ever that I was trying so hard to cheer up a man, to be so femininity to him; I wasn’t that girl before… But to you, I know I couldn’t be the previous me anymore, as I know patience is a plaster to all sores… I don’t expect everything will be fine that immediately since that was my fault who turned this up, but I’d try my very best and which was the very best ever to hold you tight…

However, my effort didn’t work well or should say, apologize is no longer effective anymore… I turn my back and walk away because I was tired, whenever I done something that did not change anything… I need a silent space to blank my mind, to think who I am, to think what else I can do, to think how to make thing better, to think why I always would be the destroyer…

Whatever I did, whatever I try to do, I just hold one thought, that's LOVE…

I’ve seen the other side of mine that I can’t believe myself to be the one who never appeared in my life until I realized our love…. Indeed, I’m being the person that I never been in my whole life, so strange for me, yet so familiar…That’s me….That’s the one who love you so much and started to hate myself who usually done something wrong, but still, love my another side that being loved by you…

Apologize to gain forgiveness….

Forgive because of love…

Forget to show the impotency of love…

My Christmas

First of all, I would like to shout out to everyone
MERRY CHRISTMAS...
(Because I missed the chance to yell it out on time!!!)

Well, every girls wish to have a great, peaceful, romantic Christmas Eve with their loves one,
so do I... I prepared myself early after my class...(When a girl pay much effort on making up herself nicely, this simple means how much she'd care the date..)

Since I never truly celebrate a very nice Christmas before (especially with the loves one), I was paying so much expectations on this time X'mas Eve...

I expected him to bring me to somewhere to have a fantastic yet romantic dinner..
I expected him to plan something special or something that can surprise me on the Eve...
I expected both of us can have a very unforgettable countdown day even if only he and I...
(As you know, how much I'd like those parties!)
Expectation always just like a sweet dreams.. It makes you feel so real but its actually did not happen...
I was so excited to see him, but he was in serious sick...
We went out to have dinner, but end up with a little conflict yet cover it up with the "nothing-happen" situation...

Honestly, I was in tempered that time but I can truly understand the situation...
Sometimes, a lot of thing cannot be spoken by words as I myself don't even know what I should do...
Every single thoughts running around my minds, I can clearly read them but I couldn't open my voice and speak them out... I almost burst my tears that time but I was trying so hard to control myself, if not, tears would ruin my make up...T.T

Finally, we decided where to go..
But, I really can't enjoy myself without you...
Arrhh~~~...I don't know what to do that time....I was panic, I was really drawing a blank...What I could do for you is just staying beside you....
And end up, we had porridge together...
That's my Christmas Eve!!

I know you'd use your fragile energy to hug me and give me a Christmas kiss...
I've been touched blissfully...

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The next day, 25th of Dec 2009..
We'd a one day Penang trip...
T.T
What a waste...

I don't care, you must return me my Christmas Eve!

Sorry

I know i was wrong...I messed up the thing...When I try to fix it up, it doesn't work because it was too late... I didn't apologize because I know there is no longer useful... I try to calm your emotion, but the words you spoke had cut my heart...
I dropped my tears silently, because I don't want to let you feel that I was annoying...

I know I'm imperfect for u, the marks had deducted...That's a huge mistakes that I ever did... My personality in your mind have been decreased seriously...Besides apologize, I don't know what to do instead...

I hate myself, hate the one who always mess thing up even when I know thing shouldn't be like that... I hate my tears, when I know tears don't mean anything...

I hope I can be somebody else, to have a big changes of myself..I rather become another person...To gain back the 50 marks...

I hope your knife can straightly cut off my heart, cut it deadly, so that I don't have any feel on it anymore....Yet, I'm dead to see and feel anything....

Lost my way

It's my pleasure that I lose something and I get something else instead...

God is fair enough,
"He gave you something that you'd desired for years,and also took away the thing from you that had already be with you for years..."
People will only realize,
When the time you received something, that's the time you'll lose something...
Thing will probably comes and goes...As life goes on...

For love ---
I've lost to be the past "me" because I know how bad I was before the moment when you kissed me... I realize it when I was sleeping alone, I know I need your shoulder to lie on... I don't mean that I'm good enough for now, I just know something have changed after you've entered my heart... You're the reason that I start all over again to know the real me...

For friendship ---
It used to be so familiar to me, so close and simple... But,I've lost in my friendship definition...I've lost something that had already accompanied me for years, but I know beautiful moment will fly as a butterfly... I couldn't find the soul of being a real friend anymore...I know, I've changed after making decision as I said, I mean it...
The so-called "friendship forever", you know, I know...

For Future ---
But somehow, I'm too conscious on what I want and I've forgotten the thing happen around me...I don't know what I would be change when I need to get something for my future and let something goes just for the future...
I'm frustrated when I see a stranger of me in the future who may be completely an evil or angel neither...

For Maggie ---
Inside of her own incredible world, she keeps everything that she learn everyday... Her realistic is her symbol but besides that, there have actually more than that which she herself hasn't been figured out yet... Being a realism, is her only way to keep herself conscious on finding her own way... She lost when she let something go, but then she lock herself in a tiny room to think which door should her open to continue her new journey...

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"I've lost but I never forget the way to enter your heart..."

Wherever I go, my soul would be with you...

Kikko

The first time I meet Kikko today...
The first time I help a puppy take bath ( I was actually standing there, XD)...
The first time I see him, taking care of her puppy, Kikko...His action had truly touched my heart...
The first time I see him scold Kikko, he seems like scolding a baby, it's warm...

I feel warm and blissful when looking his action on how he treat his puppy... It makes me feel like, he is a real good daddy... The way he talked to Kikko, the way he clean up Kikko, they way he played with Kikko, I can feel his love and kindness thoroughly. I like to see him taking care on Kikko... It's really warm my heart....

Kikko was so afraid when seeing her daddy leave her alone... I might too strange to her yet, that's why she scared... She cried and I almost shed my tears for her frustration. I kept on comforting her but it was useless, I yelled to her daddy, asking him to come out as fast as possible....

Through out the day, I can feel even deeply on my love to him... I can't stop thinking of him even if he is just beside me....

...Part of my life...

Thanks

The day will come, as the fact is already started two months ago.... I can see through your words that you actually do still care on it even though you'd given up, obviously...

What's the actual feeling of yours? Sad? Disappointed? Numb? or Regret?
I don't know if the words are truly sincere from your heart, or just expressing it to stable your emotion....I know I shouldn't care about that since it's no longer my concern, but I used to be your good listener and his neither... Yet, and finally, thing turns up unexpectedly... I know you will be shocked when knowing the truth that has already happened so sudden... The unexpected thing can simply change just a blink which is so unconditional...
"When something was belong to you on the last second, doesn't mean it will not belong to others at the next second..."In fact, was you the one who loosen your hand to let it go...

Frankly, I can feel it deeply about your true feeling through your action and words...Wishes from your heart, I would like to give hundred of thankful.
But somehow, it's actually impact my emotion tho~ As I know the day on facing this problem will come, and it's really make me feel so insecure...I don't mean to not believe in anyone else, just the behavior of myself, the lack of confidence, the terror of losing someone who I just started to let him enter my heart....
But I know consciously that LOVE is just between he and I...

Anyhow, the decision you made, had given us a big changes...

~He and I know that~

It's actually NOTHING!!!

As I've been two weeks ago never update my blog...It means that there have actually nothing special happened to me... I wonder if there have nothing to blog, it's actually better because it simply means that nothing sad or bad happened towards me... When people are sad or heart broken, blogging will always the best company... Express everything out that you've already hidden for a while or even for years over here, yet you'll absolutely relief....

Luckily, I blog for nothing....
The daily routines are still the same, he and I are also the same that we'll meet up after his work... I seldom hang out because I only realised the fun of staying in my own comfortable room~ XD

Once a few times, people will wonder why he will forget our important day about this or that.... Sometimes, we'll blame on each other about why he cannot blah blah blah... Even if he had actually did everything for you, but you still don't satisfy and keep on nagging at this and that... But, after you consider deeply, you'll find out that they actually do anything for any reason to make you happy... They just wanted to see your sweet smile, yes, it's that easy...
So, always hang up a sweet smile on your face, to make him feel secure and happy too...

"Life isn't a fairy tale, happy ending are few and far between. Realistic world are always surrounding us but who knows sometimes
Love can still spring in the most unlikely places..."

Until now, I actually still couldn't believe, he's with me...
The truth will never running away from me...
And the truth of us...
He is with me....

I've let you go...

Every time when I mention it, my tears wouldn't be in my control anymore...
I cried because the definition of friendship has been changed... Because disappointment came around when I read every one of your words...Because my heart had broken which actually nothing fault between us....

I've nothing much to say anymore or should say, I have nothing else to say at all... I flash back the moment we've been together for the 3 and a half years ago, I felt so secure to have you be my side...But now, things have been changed... I can't listen to your heart anymore, and you're blinded to look at me...

It just so disappointed...
And my heart had been cooled...

Friend is not for sharing, friend is part of our living purpose...Friend is to be appreciated...
That's my philosophy of true friend but now, it only turns into good friend...
I've always remember every words that you said to me...Never ever forget one word from yours... However, holding tight on this philosophy has no longer be needed anymore, I guess...

I shed my tears because I've let you go...

I need you but I know you don't need me anymore...

True Friend

I don't know what to say anymore for us... Sometimes, explanation has already blacken... I don't mean that but you think it is... Psychological...It's so funny... Thing has changed unexpectedly and suddenly...And I finally know, when a girl doesn't know anything about the fact, it's actually better... I used to posted whether a girl doesn't know the ugly truth, is that call lucky or stupid...
And still, I can't find the answer because everyone got their different point of view...

I might be too tough on handling my own philosophy but sometimes this is just what I heard and I just telling the truth that you should know, as you kept on asking me to say it now with the rejection on my face to face telling request... I told and yet, saying that I'm putting on fire which the thing is already exist before I know...

I burst my tears and think even more clearly the whole night... Time can heal everything but time cannot forgone what had been happened yesterday for our friendship...It was hurt...Truly hurt...I started to confused, I'd taken wrong definition on friendship... It's been too heavy for me to defined and now I know, it actually doesn't need that over concern...Even you concern about your friend, better act you don't know anything...Because, concern will unconditionally turn into an issue...

I came towards for you not the one you love...I felt so unworthy for you who ever do anything for your love one and finally get this kind of threaten...I never forget what you had told me in my room, your words that you speak it out to me, I've never taken it for granted... Never let the love one to influence us...And so, I only dare to talk to you as I firstly decided not to tell to avoid the case like before...But finally, it was wrong...

Girls ask me about you...Because people also treat you as their friend...They don't believe on something, and tell me... Maybe our concern is no longer be needed by you....Or you just don't love to hear it...I wonder if I didn't know all of this like other girls, I think it could be better...

"Your sincere concern sometimes becomes a fault and yet, you will be the stupid, who firstly from a good one turn into the bad one...And I decide, not to be the stupid one anymore..."

Maybe it's time for us to think on each other and even our own self if we're still being that understanding...My sincerity in this friendship is no longer been appreciated by you anymore since your trust on me has been declined..

Explanation has become a futile

Perhaps, friendship can be perpetuated

Do you remember the first time you fall in love with him?

I used to ask myself whether I still remember the first time that fall in love with someone...
I used to struggle in the same question which is "what love actually is"....
I used to be not that serious in a relationship with those guys, then broke up with them with no tears...
I used to tell myself a girl doesn't need love if she is independent enough...
I used to not believe in true love...

But here are all the "used to be"...

Sometimes you'll never know you're already unconditionally falling in love with him...
Sometimes you don't even remember when is the time that your heart started to beat for him..
Sometimes you'll never know love is actually simple when both of your hearts are linked...
Sometimes you'll just feel simply good when he is beside you, watching him to sleep tight...

Sometimes, we don't need to turn back the clock and do it all again the -first love, first kiss,first drink...But, this time, we just need to do it right...From now onwards, we just need to set out to right the wrongs of the past, there's just one niggling doubt... No one knows if life can ever be better because better life has being hold by your own...


"I don't remember the first time
when I fall in love with him
because now the fact of loving him is already existed..." I've found a safe place to rest with...I've keep your heart in mine...

If there have a relationship with true love,
any problem will not be a problem anymore...

I don't remember the first time that I fall in love with you, but I wouldn't forget that I'm living in your heart...

Thing is actually better

The 1st day…

I’m still not sure what the feeling is but I’m pretty sure that we gotta make it work…
Similarly, my heartbeat was still jumping abnormal since this early in the morning… And, I am totally drawing a blank on how we’re going to face each other when we meet…I just don’t know what to do~~~blah blah blah!!! Because we used to be friend and just a night past, it's hard for us to change our action180 degree...
It's kinda awkward...
Be naturally is the best I guess… Naaaaah~~~

Sometimes, we just don’t jump to the conclusion too fast because you’ll never know what would happen mentally and break the chain that you always thought it should be in a very few seconds…

Sometimes, in the physical world, it might just look so "thing-should-be-like-this" always but, our mental is hard to control especially in LOVE stuff…Because the feel will always change until it find the right place to rest…
Yet, you’ll realized, the truth feeling will never lie~

Sometimes, thing will never goes well like what you've thought, but it maybe goes even better!!

If it is possible, just make it happen~

We'll never let the time pass with nothing!!

You make a change for me...

Heart Beating

Phew….my heart is still beating that fast…
I just couldn’t expect thing will be happened on this time…
He is always a good guy in my heart and I never expect the good guy is beside me…
I never expect the good guy actually appeared for few months ago…
A lot of thing, are never in my prediction.
And now, it’s happened…
I really thought we’re just friend at the beginning…

Who knows there have actually good thing exist, who knows the better thing maybe happened in the next second…

ARRRRHHHH I’m still in a very nervous status!!!!!!!

I know love from your eyes..

Dare not or Don't?

I thought I would be in a very good sleep this morning, but I suddenly become so conscious to think what's happening to me... Then, I can't fell asleep anymore.
I read his blog yesterday, I wonder how this would be... The differences between a pair of friend and lover... The dare not to love or don't love question, he wrote... I don't know who he was writing but the symptoms are so alike...
I am always surrounding in this circle, drawing a blank on don't love or dare not to love...

I read his blog again this morning, recall the things happen in these few weeks ago, it was great and simple... Isn't it? We don't make it complicated, we don't think too much... But, it doesn't seem like what we always done... The Feeling, I don't know how to describe, and so do you, we have no clue...

I always tell myself, I have a long long journey to go, I have various of people I need to know, I have plenty of dreams to accomplish... I plan for everything... My future, my studies, my money, my everything include I don't love... But still, I miss out something... I thought friends around me will always be that simple to hang out and having fun together... In fact, it doesn't seem like this...I miss out something, carelessly...

Yes, we've thinked too much...everything is just an imagination.... Everything is just for us to escape from being lonely, and to find someone to be our partner...
It is all about loneliness which has make us lost...

Like usual, I always tell myself, I don't love because I don't know what it is...

• When I know what love actually is, it never be that beautiful anymore...

• When I don't know what love actually is, it always looks like a mystery and you'll never know when you will fall for it...

• When I know what love actually is, it draws me like a stupid...

• When I don't know what love actually is, it simply because I never dare to step on it...

Some little thing happened yesterday, I thought the man is sincere to his gf, but he doesn't know the love's distriction... Eventhough it was not a fault, it might cause serious sadness...
It's no longer the first time anymore, I see the ugly truth agaaaiiiin!!!
Sometimes,
I wonder if a girl doesn't know the truth,
Is this call lucky?
or stupid?

"When I CLEARLY know what love actually is, it becomes a terror..."

If it is possible, let's make it happen

Stop the old one, and let the new one comes toward you~

Initially, everything go well in these few weeks. In spite of the exam period, my daily routines still have done as usual. Nevertheless, when sometimes I couldn’t focus on my revision, a lot of minds would suddenly pop up.

I’ve made my decision since my previous article to stop everything that I felt it is not suppose to be continued. And my decision was strong because at the same time, my mind has totally changed because I found out something that important for our entire life. My friend was right, I should stop this to let the new things come toward me.

Even though we’ve been gone through this, it doesn’t mean we gonna finish it. It is not necessary to be completed due to the pointless result that both of us know clearly.

When the other party doesn’t have the intention to stop it, I will stop it, because enough is never quit enough. It’s even worst if we don’t know “what’s enough”.

Well, things around me have been changed, I mean, I step in a different environment and start to view the different point. Everything which has been happened and over, it could make a change for us. "No matter the change is physically or mentally, I’m still holding my philosophies, tightly and gracefully."

When decision has made, I mean it.

Recently, I’ve received one video from my friend which I’ve uploaded on my Facebook as well. It is full of meaning with “everyone has their own love story which directed by themselves”. Story begins with how you treat people as whether in a good attitude or bad one. Story begins with how you handle your relationship and how you think love as.

And of course, I’ve truly considered what my character is in the love story. Then, I finally realized it had never been so serious since I started to live in the new environment last time. But now, it had past.

In fact, everything is just a lesson or a procedure for me to grow up and see through the real thing in the real world.

"I opened up my heart, see through the one who really live in, yet, a smile hang up on my face. I digest everything that stored in my mind, and read through the real me again, then I finally know, thing should be like this."

My first new ring might be a good start.

The Changing

During the exam period, I admitted that I didn’t really pay lot of efforts on it. It doesn’t seem like the same motivation that I had for the last semester. I don’t know why my motivation has gone and study for meaningless.
I would like to blog here to express myself tho’, express my boringness on reading “nothing special” subject, memorizing those “useless for your future” stuff.

Anyhow, the main purpose is to post my actual thinking for today…
Something happened today as usual, yet I realized that I’m sick on it aaagggaaaiiinn. My satisfaction has been declined and I can’t feel any passion on it anymore. I didn’t enjoy it at all as what I had done before. It was totally different feeling compare to last time that I did!!
"It seems lack of “something”, and the “thing” is actually didn’t exist since we started this."
At the beginning, I didn’t care about “it” because people always search for excitements. But now, I suddenly feel that “it” has become an essential on doing this.
Without “it”, the game is boring.
Without “it”, the game is meaningless.
Without “it”, the game is still a GAME.

Or should say something obvious, my playfulness has gone, I’m sick and bored on playing this, is it a time for me to find a stable life with a stable "him"? WOW~~ Sounds funny anyway~ LOL.

Anyhow, I don’t really think of it but the situation might look slightly alike, due to the incident that I dreamt for these several nights… The dreams were so real but in real life, it just too impossible. "The dreams' story weren’t same every time but the message to be delivered is obviously same. "
I guess, there would have some clues in the dream. It was a good dream honestly, but it just looks too unbelievable. I don’t know why, I just feel it is so impossible to be happened. Therefore,
I don’t give any expectation on it because I’ve locked my heart.
Stop entering in those relationship stuffs,
because I don’t know when I can learn how to love,
and
I don’t know when I can walk out the terror from being hurt.

I can only realize LOVE, if someday my love has been aroused.

Everything might have a change~

You're GAME OVER

Well well well, I've just finished up our conversation....oooppsss~~~ I end this up???!!!
Hell no!!!
We never step forward to improve our relationship after since you end up our relationship last time with the reason "not enough time"~~God pls, I can't feel your passion at all and even mine!!
I think you would never expected I could be so cold-blooded that sudden huh... hmm...
Simply because I wanna play more to reach my satisfaction before you reach yours...

Since you always wear your mask when you WERE together with me, I might as well hide my real personality too...dude..~
Since you created this game, let's play!

Who cares about the love.... You don't even take it seriously why should I do neither?
Really a big age gap between us huh...Your point of view really doesn't same as mine~!

Mummmyyyy.....oh sweetheart, calling that freaking sweeeeet to me huh...
AWWW man~~ Do you think I always be that kind on doing what you request for?
Hey, I need to have fun tho but it's not come from yours~ because I'm bored enough~~ *YAWN*

Who are u ?
A pass-by-ex-"lover"..
now, it's GAME OVER~
Thanks for giving me such a good moment.. You grow me up man~!!!
Thanks "daddy"~!!!

Be smart~

City Bayview Performance

hmmm...I seldom post my dancing life in my bloggie actually because it's a daily routine...
But this time it could be a little bit different..

In this article, there have no party, no pretty dress, no high heels and blah blah blah...

nah~~~ no craping here...just straight to the point...

Fresh Beat Academy

Terrence, nice post!


Vera & Maggie

RED & WHITE

Awwwww!!!!! Here's the "famous" celebrities!!

The muscle man and the little ladies~~!!

Tall VS. Short

Life goes on and luckily, I found myself with them...No pressure but only laughters exist...

I love being with all of you..

The fact of Guys & Girls in the city

Guys:

9 out of 10 guys are the same...They like to find girls when they're bored, when they're lonely, when they need girls....

I'll never say those girls who willing to accompany you guys are STUPID, but unfortunately, what I would say is...Girls need guys to have fun too!!~

~Don't forget, the fact is always ugly! ~

Guys always thought that they're the animal who can control girl's smartness, but indirectly, guys' stupidness might more than girls' tho~! As everyone can see, guys like to have affairs with another girl even if they have their loyal beloved one,but... advise to those guys who have fun at outside, don't treat girls as just only your toy, they even smarter than you

Do you thought girls will only willing to do anything that you asked for without any benefit?!

Don't be naive anymore~LOL..

Guys will never expected girls are actually treaten boys as their toys too...

"Guy want to have fun, doesn't mean girl will never play a fool on you!"

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Girls:
9 out of 10 girls are the same...They always live in sweet talks from guys... Girls always thought guys give sweet talks to them is because they're pretty or they're being loved...
However, sorry to tell that,
Guys are actually want to taste on girls and will be back when only they miss the enjoyable flirting moment... Or maaayyyybe that girl is just look too fuckable~~
Girls like to control their man and make sure that they're home punctually,
do you think they'll never have an affairs with other girls outsite when you restrict them?!
Don't be naive anymore~ LOL
Girls will never expected their action in controlling their man will indirectly make the thing worse off!!
Besides,
Girls only hope boys to be sincere to them, but girls like to flirt with other guys in fact~
Because girls' natural preferable is listening to the sweet talks...
So
"don't expect your man to be a loyal boyfriend to you, if you don't even give a fuck to him but to others!"

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Guys and girls in the city,
combine together to achieve what they want,
It's not actually love exist, but it's actually a deal,
guys wish to have what they want, and girls neither!!
She wants him to be like that, he wants her to be like this...
Isn't that a deal?
A deal with full of excitement, which can reach both wants...
No doubt...Here's the realist world...
Don't blame on any one of the party that they don't give sincerity to you, somehow, is you yourself who don't do your responsibility...

Guys, don't think girls as a stupid;
Girls, don't think guys are the bad one...

Because, sometimes both of these gender's has unconditionally exchange but they just didn't noticed that...
Which means....

"Guys is actually the stupid when they thought they're smarter than girls, and girls is absolute the bad biatch when they thought they're pretty good compare with guys!!"


So, don't blame anyone, because both guys and girls are actually the same species~
Since the natural human being is----> SELFISH & EGOISTIC

P/S:(Article above is based on my own opinion without pointing specific person...)

Learn to say "NO"

"People tend to do something that they think it is just alright, but it's actually wrong and definitely, they themselves know about their fault..." Yes, I know about it...

Things around, always remind me " you should stop all of this, you don't deserve these kind of conditions..." Yea...I know...I should deserve better instead of doing such "temporary have fun" things and get nothing at all..Listen up, it's nothing benefit me at all~!

Unfortunately, I don't know how to keep it back anymore...My playfulness has betrayed me until I can't find a way to stop it...I consciously know, we couldn't turn all of this back...Lies, insincere are always out there between us...
"I enjoyed the so-called "wrong" moment, yet feel bad on my enjoyable..."
How sad it is on being such a person like me!! Isn't that funny huh??!!

Everytime I tell myself, don't do the same wrongdoings again, eventhough it doesn't hurt me, it might be in someday. I myself don't even know why I am doing these...Imagine the worst thing happen to me if I still never learn how to say "NO", I clearly understand how life will be going on to me...

I can live alone without anyone no matter how bad the condition is, I really did before and now, I'm living so too...But, "my strength on being a good person seems to be faded away..."Should say, I've chosen to be the bad one...
I broke my promise, and still standing at the same point, never step forward, never learn how to say "NO" to the wrongdoings...

These can be the lonely days, and it's hard to know who's on my side most of the time...Friends around me are always so supportive, but sometimes it just couldn't be satisfied...
Because I never learn how to say "NO" to the incoming fun wrongdoings.

Is there anybody else to make a change for me? Hopefully, there has a place for me to be a good one, to have a stable life, to live and share happiness with someone I love... The one I love, is still staying far far away from me...And since I step in my current life, I do everything just to achieve my dreams, and so, I forget to see those people around me...I'm just blind on seeing people around me because in my eyes, there has only money, life styles, success exist...
"Yes, the realistic of me still never been changed and it seems getting worst until I don't know how to say 'NO' to them..."

Enjoy my wrongdoings, so I only get the wrong thing...
Since when I can learn how to say "NO" to the wrongdoings, to get a good thing I've ever dream for?? Since when....

Home Alone

Mummy and Daddy are having a date at Genting and so, the little poor girl has to stay alone in home....YAWN~ I want party~!!!!!T.T..

I'm bored here but there have actually a lot of assignments are waiting on me~! LOLxx.... hmmmm...That' s why, I try to control myself very well to prevent not to go any event or party tonight~! Yes~!! GOING OUT IS PROHIBITED!!! aaarrrhhhhggggg~~ HELP~!!!!!



I gotta do my web page design assignments and my business communication presentation which can simply choose any title that we like~...WHOOOHOOO...By the way, I'm wondering what interesting and suitable title should I choose to get the attention from my lecturer??? hmmmm...Any idea??



I've got lot of thing to do in my wish list currently...but they seem couldn't be complete yet..it's all about financial problem should say... gosshhh~~!!!!

1stly, I gotta dye my hair!

2nd, I want new dress since I've been a while never restock my closet...

3rd, give me more time so that I can go my facial treatment!!!

4th, choreograph a new dance for DISASTER.

5th, cool high heel searching is on da way!!!

and blah blah blah~



What else? This coming Monday I might have an interview to get a part time promoter job... Honestly, it is not an emergency job needed for me, but it's just....FOR FUN!! haha..

Maybe it's a good chance for me to know same hot guy? XD haha...sounds so biatch huh!~

Anyway, it's better for me to earn extra income so that I can buy extra dress to satisfy my fulfillment~!! HIAK HIAK!! And of course, know some hot guys!!! hahahahaha...

Hey~Say cheers to my assignments~!! XD

Randomly~

It's been a while I never update my blog, but hey!!! ladies and gentlemen, I'm here again!!! LOL

There have nothing special happened on me which my life still goes on with full of inspirations...lol...That's why, there have no updated post in my bloggie...It might be a good thing for me, it just lack of a lil' rumors around me... ( At least it is not full of sorrow!!)
That's even better, isn't it? hehe

I've posted an article on the previous post which was talking about LOVE between my friends...Regarding to their LOVE story, I notice that I'm just so lucky although I know I am lonely sometimes...Not frequently as well~! At least, I live happily in the single status, have fun on every bits of my current life...I mean it as I've the remain time to do whatever I like which not anybody can enjoy it tho~!

But I always would be the listener to one of my friends after they decided to only be FRIEND...And this was the 1st time I saw a guy crying in front of me, I was shocked but at least, I can accompany him...Whereby, things would be over, tears would dry as your love will getting less and lesser on her...I guess, this could be a good decision for both of them...
However, I've got a "not-so-good" feeling, seems like their story will not simply end just like this!! Sometimes, our thoughts just too subjective I guess....

During the weeks, I'm absolutely too freedom since I'm fully enjoying my single life now...And I'm unconditionally relax myself with no pressures and no worries! chillax here~! ^^V


Everything will be ok if you've found your own way to cheer~!

A sudden feel

Just done my revision for the test on tomorrow… I'm not happy for these few days even though there have nothing bad happened to me…

After having a call with one of my friend, I noticed that LOVE is actually incredible~


My friend, he loves a girl who has already has a boyfriend. It’s all about timing; they don’t meet the right point when they fall in love with each other… It sounds so sad when I heard that as I know love is actually unpredictable… They lack of the R-I-G-H-T time or maybe the fate??… The girl does love him but it can’t be at this moment… What else can both of them do?

He can either choose to wait or step backward to let her go…She can either choose to maintain the current relationship or start a brand new one…It is so dilemma!!!


I’m moody for both of them, a lot of feels suddenly crash on me~ I can’t even give them a hand because that’s a relationship stuff~ What I can do as a friend is be their listener, support their decision and comfort them…


Due to their case, I suddenly realized lot of things…When he loves her truly; he will do anything to make her happy without thinking on his happiness… But, no matter how much a man can sacrifice for you, he will tired one day and think to give up so that he can breathe better… A “wait” can be a short-term or long-term, just depends on how you gonna invest your love on him/her...So don't blame on him, if he decide not to wait for you..Sometimes, you just give him too much fatigues...


When someone forgets what the so-called LOVE is, it probably means that he/she doesn’t love someone truly or his/her heart already numb on leaving a place for love…

As I do, I’ve forgotten how the LOVE feeling is…

Because there have actually no one inside my heart during the years…


Love is not a necessity, love is a passion… It should be work together to complete a LOVE… "Sometimes fate just can’t stop meddling but sometimes fate doesn’t even across him and her…"


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~Appreciate your LOVE…~

At least you’ve been placed in someone’s heart; at least your heart is being lived by someone…

Sometimes be alone could be even better~

Lock M.A.N & DISASTER Night

Here we go, Lock Man & Disaster are in da house!!!!!

We decided to have a so-called party at Gurney Hotel Fusion Restaurant...
It wasn't a special event but it simply means a lot of things...
The party is created especially for Soo (bboy fire) who has teach us dancing and bring us a lot of fun~! We've won some competitions, all because of we have a good choreographer (Soo)!!
We've shown our appreciation by doing this party for him~ Using the prize that we won to make this simple but awesome party~

After having a great buffet, we went to Gurney to watch TRANSFORMER!!!
yeah~ that's even better right?!! hehe...Besides, we were also doing a farewell for Cisi and Jamie...Both of them are going to continue their education out of Penang...
We'll miss u girls always!!! DISASTER rocks~!!

Never miss out the pictures we've taken~!! ^^

Lock M.A.N

DISASTER


All of Us

Cisi And Maggie

Maggie and Ashley

DISASTER again~ ^^
Cisi, Maggie & Ashley

Maggie & Chee Hooi (Lock Man Manager) XD


Vera, Soo and Maggie


Jamie and Maggie

Maggie & Terrence

After watching TRANSFORMER!!!

Will never forget the moment we've been together~