Goodbye ...

... it's time for me to say goodbye to this blog. This link, and all the memories that I have with this blog, is no longer relevant to my life anymore. I started this blog, about 3 years ago, feeling happy and ended this blog in tears.

I'm not going to bring all the post here along with me to the new blog spot page that I'm about to tell you guys. I will close this blog down in 2 weeks' time. So read it while you can.

My new blogspot page is not named after any date, anyone or anything. Click here *www.squaredoutmc.blogspot.com* for my new blog. I have no idea why I named it that. But anything would sound nicer than the blog link that I have right now. If you read it properly, it actually says "squared out mc". Don't ask me what it means, I don't know.

Come with me if you want to, and leave me if you don't. I'm no stranger to people come and go in my life. You leave me, it will be your loss, not mine.

Never trust your heart with anyone.

faggot

I really don't know how can a person be so stupid. I fucking gave an example. I want a square table you gave me round table. I want a chicken, you give me duck?????

In the end you guys want me to do every fucking thing for this project is it? Just I fucking gave you the easiest shit to do and you gave me nothing. You are really retarded. Seriously.

walking down (bad) memory lane

I've been back from Australia for a long time now ... but I didn't really post up any pictures of the amazing sceneries that Perth had to offer.

Other than the scenery, Perth is a major nightmare.

I don't have a life there. I sleep, I shit, I study, I wait for phone calls/texts. (Oh ya, I online as well)

I don't feel like a human when I'm there. I have no one to talk to. I feel like I'm trapped in a place that is sound proof, and people that trapped me in there prolly just wanna make me go insane.

I've gone from insane to sane though. Cause I finally held the white flag high up in the air, and wrote an e-mail to my dad, telling him I want OUT!

I don't care if you give me a shit load of money, I will never EVER live in Perth, that's fo sho. (I mean "for sure" =.=)

Other than torturing myself with my own shitty cooking every single meal, what do I get from studying in this foreign place. Nothing.

I hate the subjects. I have no iPhone, no car, no friends, no money, nobody & I can't use air conditioner during hot summer weather.

You can take everything else away, but you can't take friends away from me, they are the reason I'm still sane today, like seriously. Take the car, money, and iPhone away, and you give me a shit load of friends over there. I'll stay as long as you want me to, sadly I have no one. Why do I need a VirginMobile line that can call out for free to any other VirginMobile number, when I no one wants me to call anyways.

To conclude all this, for sure you should visit Perth if you have the chance one day, it is beautiful if you ever have a car to go out and travel a bit before the sun set. The skyline is amazing and breathtaking. But to stay there, let's just say it won't EVER be in my list of the city that is livable.

Seriously, the only memories that I have about Perth/Australia are the bad ones.

Lesson of the day: Never make a decision because of someone/anyone, it's bullshit, you yourself should ALWAYS be the priority and everyone else can take the back seat.

P/S: Pictures of Perth coming up soon :)

::UPDATED::

Gotta love Woolies

Fremantle ;)

City :D

FINALLY had the chance to taste/try COLD ROCK!!!

A photo of me acting cute =.= I gotta go to sleep nao *yawn* Nite nite everybody ;)

make it work ...

Sometimes I love you more than you'll ever know
Other times you get on my nerves
Hey, that's just reality,
no, it can't always be kisses, hugs and beautiful words
This can only be as good as we both make it
Yes, sometimes it's gonna hurt
Hey, we can be as happy as we want to be, girl
But we gotta make it work
Thick and thin
The bad outweighs the good sometimes
That doesn't mean we're supposed to give it up
My problems are yours and yours are mine

Y2S2 - First day :)

I just finished my exam like last week -.- on Thursday that is ...

And today, its the beginning of a new semester for me. Today is the first day my Year 2 Semester 2 class commence ... Might as well kill me.

You emo one month on the exam, and right after exam, its the starting of a new semester? Honestly, I can't even breathe, coz right after exam, my friend told me there's something that needs to be hand in on the first day of the semester. In which I went nuts on, and finally hand it in today.

Oh, one more bad news. I *might/probably*, fail my database programming paper. *sigh* Some guy in my class went and asked the lecturer on the performance of our class on that particular paper, and it seems that the lecturer told him that most student in our class fail =.= fml.

Anyways, I really tried and did my best, database is not my favourite subject coz I always get shitty lecturer and I have to study myself.

oh, whatev! I couldn't care less, I've sat for the paper, and whatever the result is, I will try to accept it coz I can do no nothing anymore.

//

driving fast + listening to emo music seems to calm me down.

time to let 'tears', 'heart' n 'feelings' go on a long overdue vacation.

I would prefer if the three of you go and don't come back, cause you're always driving me nuts, I'm better off without you...

time to bring back the old me.

time to remind myself who I was.

I am strong, and I don't need nobody.

Happiness?? Maybe next life ...

I am emotionally drained, after yet another day of arguments that ended up in tears. (for me at least)

My eyes are sore, and it feels so heavy.

Honestly, I never really know what went wrong. The more I let you get your way, the worse the situation gets. I could list out a thousand things that I do and change about myself to make you happy.

You, in return, always give me the same reason. "I can't change who I am".

Well, you didn't bother to try.

You like to be loved without giving anything in return. Who doesn't like that? Even I, for once, wanted to just be loved without changing myself to meet your needs of having freedom, watching tv 24 hours a day, and leaving me here alone.

I'm being labelled as a "needy" person, a "control freak", who tied you up and made you can't breathe. Really? Did I ever ask who, where, or when you go out? Like seriously, I haven't done that for ages. I never say no to any outings with your friends or anyone, for that matter.

Your definition of "tie you down" is me requesting to chat with you after like, weeks of not having internet connection, and finally you're at a place with internet connection, and you're more interested in watching tv than chatting with me. So I tie you down by "not letting you watch tv". Like seriously, this is the biggest joke of the year.

You watch tv 24 hours a day at your own home, ok? You don't have internet connection and watching tv is all you can do. So now when you're at a place with internet connection, tv is still more important to you??? Does it make sense?? I don't know bout you, but it certainly doesn't make any sense to me.

Maybe we're both from like a two different world and nothing you do makes sense to me, and nothing I say makes sense to you. It's like I'm trying to communicate with you in your own language, but since it's not my so called "mother tougue" it is hard for me as well. You on the other hand decides to let me do all the work of learning the way you communicate with the people in your own little world, and all you can say is "I don't wanna learn how to communicate in your language".

Good example, right?

Anyways, no hard feelings if you ever read this. (I doubt you ever will)

Blogging and pouring my feelings out is what I love to do. I can't change who I am. Just like you :)

I swear to the wind, sea, cloud, tree, kangaroos, and dawgs that I will NEVER EVER go into another Long Distance Relationship, or you might as well kill me. No more Taurean for me as well, they just drive me nuts sometimes, fuck their tempers, too fuckin' emo as well. Great friends to have, kind to animals. That's about all the good things I have to say about them :D

I'm not anti Taurean, I have some great Taurean friends. Lovers? Think a thousand times. Don't say I didn't warn ya'.

Happiness just don't last forever. Well, at least in my life it doesn't. I've experience a couple of months of living in cloud 9, being treated like a princess/baby/whatshitever, a long time ago, and now, I'm back to being a pathetic lil' human. Hurray for me! :D

I will live my live to the fullest. As long as I get to rant on this blog about my life. I will be happy.

My wish for this lifetime? Is to be loved, and maybe visit cloud 9 once again :) This time, God please make it a longer period of time. If you're taking away after a couple of weeks or months, you might as well, don't give it to me in the first place. Because I am always jealous of every other couple around me, except for myself. I always think to myself "I wish I was treated this way". I always wish I was everyone else but me.

Pathetic right, but I don't need anyone's pity. It's just me ranting to get all these things off my chest. I will get my life in order again.

Loser

I don't know if some people are illiterate or just acting dumb that they had to ask other people to jailbreak their own iPhone.

If you know how to use PPS to watch drama series, I am sure you are smart enough to do everything else.

Google is there for a reason, duh! You don't know how to use a mouse? Google it! You don't know how to start your car? Google it! You've never seen porn? Google it!

You can even Google some stupid question that you're too ashame to ask anyone else.

So there you go, I've let the most powerful secret out. Google.

I've pointed out the direction to you. Now start Googling instead of asking other people to do the dirty work for you. You wanna get an iPhone? Then it's time to start discovering new things YOURSELF instead of asking people about it.

I'm pretty sure the iPhone will be of no use to people like you. You're just buying it to show off to us people that you're far superior and belong to a class higher than us. Guess what? You may own the iPhone, but your brain belongs to the third world country. You are never gonna fit in into the "upper class". Face it! Not even the iPhone can help you. Get an NDS instead.