Keep Will

Life is getting hard.

Yes it won't get easier - at least not until I retire. But retirement brings many intrepretations. I like doing what I do. And I'll do it as long my mind and body permit. 

I do a lot of things these days. Some because of I like doing it. Some are just simply responsibilities, love, denials, instincts, et cetera. 

My year 26 was a bit tricky.  Oh yea it was my birthday last week. I had BBQ and cake with my closest friends and that was outstandingly awesome. 

Half of the year was great. It kicked off with my best friend gotten married - with a girl that I think fits him perfectly and I'm very happy for both of them. I was the best man for both receptions and that was truly one of my best honours in my entire life. They were cool enough too to let me drive them (in my small car!) to the hall for one of the receptions. 

Then there was a girl. She was the sunshine when my days were drenched with thunder storms. And when the days were clear, she was this light that brighten paths I thought it never existed. I was happy. 

It was short lived.

And continue writing this is difficult - probably I'll keep it for some other time. 

Life moves on. And we try to get smarter, stronger physically and emotionally, and maintain heart that it will never lack will. We fall down all the time. It's hard to maintain heart. It's natural to be scared. We all know the right thing to do is to persevere. And maintain faith. 

And I promise this, I can take falling down all the time. The heart shall maintain its will. I promise that when the right person comes along, she will not bear a broken down heart. She deserves a full will. 

And that took me awhile to come up to here. 

Half of the year was filled with gloomy days. Meh.

Now I'm here. Life is getting hard. 

I love my work. But work doesn't love me back. It keeps getting tougher. But I'm holding on because I know this is what I want to do. And I owed it for losing attention in the past months.

There's family, friends and people that connects with me in the green community, basketball, music, schools, etc. There's a limit of how much a human being can take on but I'll try my best to take care of it - one at a time.  

Life is hard. There's no right formula for any person. 

We all try to fill it with things that keep us happy. Family, love, great friends, our own communities, shared interests, et cetera. 

Travel as far as down your neighbourhood. See if anyone might appreciate your quirky smile. Greet the cashier at the store and share his tiring long day. Compliment the lady at the reception for her outstanding skills of saying hello on the phone. 

How I want to be different coming this new era of the late 20s?

Probably nothing. Just the same. Life changes. I will not.

Keep heart. And faith.

An Apple a Day

Two things: looking back my past entries and my current literature joy.

I just wrote the above just to keep myself on track for what I wish to write about here today.

In my previous entry, when I wrote about what I wanted for 2008, I wished to improve my brain capacity by exercising my daily tasks. I just think it's worth doing it again because I haven't been practising it for so long.

The idea is quite simple really - just learn by heart a list of things to do, up to 10 or more stuffs, for a day that incorporate a route to something. It could be during your walk to your workplace, or going to do the laundry - try to mentally link each activity with one location; newspaper at 7-Eleven, coffee at Kopitiam, dropping clothes at laundry, etc. Then ask yourself these questions; What task follows the newspaper? What to do after laundry? Where to get coffee? And exercise yourself filling up your everyday life with more exciting things to do and try to add more activities as you become more happy going through these stages.

I cheated a bit there by copying what I wrote 4 years ago. But anyway, the point is, I think I wanna try this again. Probably I change the routine a bit because I don't buy newspapers since I can news online, I make my own coffee in my office and there are limited things I can do driving from my home to the office. However, it is a challenge and I'm happy to take it up again.

Now to figure out what I can do along Sungai Besi highway.

Oh, the second part.

I currently read Walking Wisdom by Gotham Chopra (Son of Deepak Chopra if anyone asked). Just passed 3 chapters and I probably could write something about it so far.

Wait.

No I actually didn't want to write about the book. Just the idea of reading a book is somewhat interesting to me.

Wait.

That's not true.

This actually relates to the first item above - filling up my daily activities. Just recently I have filled at least half an hour to read non-work-related non-fiction (because I don't read fiction) books. This is my third book of the past two months - the first two were Green Deen: What Islam Teaches about Protecting the Planet by Ibrahim Abdul-Matin and The Art of Loving by Erich Fromm.

Not an amazing statistic but to me, half an hour a day of literature bliss is like an apple a day for me. Oh, that would be my next plan too.

Now to find consistent supply of fresh fruits near my office.

So message of the day is: feed your brain and it shall make you happy.

It's Not Too Late!

Resolution.

It's a bit late but I thought I could just give it a go anyway. It's been awhile I last wrote a proper New Year entry. I guess have grown up much since and realized that resolutions are pointless.

Let me recap a little bit:

1. In 2007, I wanted to live my life to the fullest and enjoy things that are matter to me as much as I can. How cliche was that?
2. Later in 2008, I wanted to be more organized - fill up my daily activities with stuffs and be happy as I improved my daily routines. This worked out quite well - it was awesome that year.
3. In 2009, I wanted a complete life. Not sure where that meant - I totally forgot but this year was more awesome than the previous one.
4. In 2010, I just wrote 'Happy New Year'. How lazy was that?
5. In 2011, I have become more mature and didn't bother to acknowledge new years.

I hope this year could be more interesting. Last year was great. I'm too lazy to recall each stories but I can be fairly certain that by the end of the year, I have grown a lot faster than any of my younger years - well except in 2009.

I'm done developing maturity. I've laid enough of my ground work for my life. Let's do something great. I do think this deserves more writings but I think I can delay that for a bit - probably when I'm more in the mood.

And bee-tee-double-you, I tweet now, a bit. Lets say, that is my new year resolution - to start tweeting, and I've done it - finally, a successfully completed resolution! Lets achieve success by lowering expectation!