Sunday, September 19, 2010
Friday, September 17, 2010
The last chapter
I will never forget today in my life.
I never knew you can be so cruel to me until today. U have never treated me this way before, so cold & heartless... it hurts me alot to know that your love for me has faded..did not grow. Or maybe it has all gone like you said... with a period of time where i did not realize at all. Until today, when everything is too late.
I just want you to know that you are the best thing that ever happened in my life. I love your positive attitude and the strength to hang on during our difficult times. Like when we are far apart. We made it! Long distance relationship was nothing... it was amazing how strong our love was together.
I might have told you this a million times..But i want to tell you again, I really do love you with all my heart.
I am sorry for not being the perfect person in your life or how you have expected me to be. I always learn things the hard way. I dont know why. I get upset easily... and i expected you to cheer me up and make out. Unfortunately, the respond i got from you was just you didnt care less. This made me even more upset... it's normal right? Im sorry for all the bad image which i have created unintentionally. I didnt mean it... I was wrong about my feelings come first before the rest. Im sorry and I learnt the hard way again... the hardest way this time...
No matter how much effort i have put in now to fix things, it will not mend our hearts because it has been broken into tiny pieces and it will only hurt more when i try to fix them.
Time flies... we have been together for 7 years and 4 months. Never know we made it this far...
Im thankful & grateful to have you once in my life. I enjoyed every moments we had together, especially in Bali.
I guess, i should stop here... at least for now. I dont want to cry while i blog.
You are a wonderful person. I've lost you today but you will always have a special place in my heart.
Love,
Val
I never knew you can be so cruel to me until today. U have never treated me this way before, so cold & heartless... it hurts me alot to know that your love for me has faded..did not grow. Or maybe it has all gone like you said... with a period of time where i did not realize at all. Until today, when everything is too late.
I just want you to know that you are the best thing that ever happened in my life. I love your positive attitude and the strength to hang on during our difficult times. Like when we are far apart. We made it! Long distance relationship was nothing... it was amazing how strong our love was together.
I might have told you this a million times..But i want to tell you again, I really do love you with all my heart.
I am sorry for not being the perfect person in your life or how you have expected me to be. I always learn things the hard way. I dont know why. I get upset easily... and i expected you to cheer me up and make out. Unfortunately, the respond i got from you was just you didnt care less. This made me even more upset... it's normal right? Im sorry for all the bad image which i have created unintentionally. I didnt mean it... I was wrong about my feelings come first before the rest. Im sorry and I learnt the hard way again... the hardest way this time...
No matter how much effort i have put in now to fix things, it will not mend our hearts because it has been broken into tiny pieces and it will only hurt more when i try to fix them.
Time flies... we have been together for 7 years and 4 months. Never know we made it this far...
Im thankful & grateful to have you once in my life. I enjoyed every moments we had together, especially in Bali.
I guess, i should stop here... at least for now. I dont want to cry while i blog.
You are a wonderful person. I've lost you today but you will always have a special place in my heart.
Love,
Val
Friday, January 08, 2010
New year resolutions 2010
I am still thinking and my goal for the year 2010 is still yet to be set. Hmmmm....
What should I look forward to this year round? *thinking hard * Let me recall what I have acheived so far for year 2009.
# 1 - At last I have seen it and I have been to... EGYPT & TURKEY ( unbelievable)
# 2 - my first holiday with my loved one to Krabi ( i have always wanted to )
# 3 - i bought a washing machine with my own money ( without nagging )
# 4 - managed to save some money ( hehe )
# 5 - traveled and been around the world
# 6 - travel with my own money ( jakarta , Krabi, Bangkok, Bali & Yogyakarta )
Places I have went in the yr 09/10 :-
Apr 09 - Jakarta
May 09 - Bangkok
Jun 09 - Shanghai
Jul 09 - Phuket
Aug 09 - Bali, Krabi
Sep 09 - Shanghai
Nov 09 - Turkey
Dec 09 - Egypt + Bahrain
Jan 10 - Yogyakarta
that's all???
Resolutions for Year 2010 -
to be advised .......... am still thinking.
seems like im aimless... sigh. I think i should put " driving " for my next wishlist.
to be continued ...
What should I look forward to this year round? *thinking hard * Let me recall what I have acheived so far for year 2009.
# 1 - At last I have seen it and I have been to... EGYPT & TURKEY ( unbelievable)
# 2 - my first holiday with my loved one to Krabi ( i have always wanted to )
# 3 - i bought a washing machine with my own money ( without nagging )
# 4 - managed to save some money ( hehe )
# 5 - traveled and been around the world
# 6 - travel with my own money ( jakarta , Krabi, Bangkok, Bali & Yogyakarta )
Places I have went in the yr 09/10 :-
Apr 09 - Jakarta
May 09 - Bangkok
Jun 09 - Shanghai
Jul 09 - Phuket
Aug 09 - Bali, Krabi
Sep 09 - Shanghai
Nov 09 - Turkey
Dec 09 - Egypt + Bahrain
Jan 10 - Yogyakarta
that's all???
Resolutions for Year 2010 -
to be advised .......... am still thinking.
seems like im aimless... sigh. I think i should put " driving " for my next wishlist.
to be continued ...
Thursday, January 07, 2010
heart to heart
It happened one day in school where teachers will dress casual with their caps under the hot sun . Blowing their whistles to start the race. It was the day where the winners will be chosen to be in the next official race for our school sports day.
I kept my friend's cellphone with me when my friend was completing the race. There were hundreds of missed calls on her phone and it never stopped ringing . It kept vibrating in my pocket,I was wearing my pinafore of course. I couldn't stand it anymore and i used both my phone and my friend's phone to miss call back. well, it was a trend at that time.. ( came to think of it, it was childish ) hehe. But this is what we used to do back at secondary school time. I was using nokia 8250 when i was 15. Gosh, i still love the hp. How i wish I can get it back. okok.. so the other party do the same and used another cellphone to miss call my phone..non -stop!!! so there it was.... an unfamiliar number appeared in my cellphone. a day after, guess what? the same no still miss calling on my cellphone! I was curious who was it and out of no where, with valid reasons, we started to smsed each other... trying to get to know who is it and etc...
so there it is... the person who holds the unfamiliar no which appeared in my cellphone became my bf today.. =)
We were both so naive back then... we were friends for 3 months before we became lovers.
He said :
i taught him how to love.
i taught him what is love.
& his love for me grew fonder
------- at the other end ~ does he really love me at the beginning or it is just a routine and a matter of getting used to be with that someone?
it really does matter to me ... & i need to know...
I kept my friend's cellphone with me when my friend was completing the race. There were hundreds of missed calls on her phone and it never stopped ringing . It kept vibrating in my pocket,I was wearing my pinafore of course. I couldn't stand it anymore and i used both my phone and my friend's phone to miss call back. well, it was a trend at that time.. ( came to think of it, it was childish ) hehe. But this is what we used to do back at secondary school time. I was using nokia 8250 when i was 15. Gosh, i still love the hp. How i wish I can get it back. okok.. so the other party do the same and used another cellphone to miss call my phone..non -stop!!! so there it was.... an unfamiliar number appeared in my cellphone. a day after, guess what? the same no still miss calling on my cellphone! I was curious who was it and out of no where, with valid reasons, we started to smsed each other... trying to get to know who is it and etc...
so there it is... the person who holds the unfamiliar no which appeared in my cellphone became my bf today.. =)
We were both so naive back then... we were friends for 3 months before we became lovers.
He said :
i taught him how to love.
i taught him what is love.
& his love for me grew fonder
------- at the other end ~ does he really love me at the beginning or it is just a routine and a matter of getting used to be with that someone?
it really does matter to me ... & i need to know...
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Phuket 25 JUL 09
Finally, Im back from an exhausting yet enjoyable trip! Actually, it was full of actions and dramas...really dramatic neh... with all the mushy stuffs during Gala dinner.. yuck >.
I spent about RM 350 for the whole of 3 days 2 nights trip. This time, im spending it wisely baby! im not spending it unnecessarily. REALLY wan!!! I bought a couple of bras, dvds ( because no bf to watch with so have to buy dvds loh, all ur fault ws! ) , and some T-shirts as souvenirs for my hsemates. That's it! Im sooooo...... stingy eh. =( im gonna spend more when im in KRABI , NEXT WEEK!!! gawd, i want more moneyyyyy...$$$
Coming next week, 08 Aug 09 to Krabi, Again! Yes, AGAIN! Im not sure which island im gonna visit this time. hmmm..maybe just do some real activities to burn my fats away... im putting on so much weight already! =(
Looking forward for my Baby Wei Siong to be back next week from the UK. Im so anxious!! Wonder how he will look like after 1 year. sobs, im pretty sure his hair has grown longer...erm, bigger in size, erm perhaps darker? ahhh, im not sure what im expecting and the day is drawing nearer.
Time go faster lah... Damn...
ciaoz
I spent about RM 350 for the whole of 3 days 2 nights trip. This time, im spending it wisely baby! im not spending it unnecessarily. REALLY wan!!! I bought a couple of bras, dvds ( because no bf to watch with so have to buy dvds loh, all ur fault ws! ) , and some T-shirts as souvenirs for my hsemates. That's it! Im sooooo...... stingy eh. =( im gonna spend more when im in KRABI , NEXT WEEK!!! gawd, i want more moneyyyyy...$$$
Coming next week, 08 Aug 09 to Krabi, Again! Yes, AGAIN! Im not sure which island im gonna visit this time. hmmm..maybe just do some real activities to burn my fats away... im putting on so much weight already! =(
Looking forward for my Baby Wei Siong to be back next week from the UK. Im so anxious!! Wonder how he will look like after 1 year. sobs, im pretty sure his hair has grown longer...erm, bigger in size, erm perhaps darker? ahhh, im not sure what im expecting and the day is drawing nearer.
Time go faster lah... Damn...
ciaoz
Friday, July 17, 2009
unsatisfaction ~ MAD post ! ~
Irregardless with whatever is concerned, Im freaking MAD with almost everything since yesterday!
When I am mad, I will go to the mall and shop... I will enter any of the trendy restaurant just to sit down and have some nice food to cheer myself up a little. But all these doesnt seem to help anymore! I even nag and nag and nag the whole night with my dear roommate..poor thing.hehe.Sigh...I really need to find a new way to de-stress myself. Can anyone volunteer to monitor my mood status ? LOL.
Easily you will be able to detect my mood status from my face!
Fortunately, ever since i started working in a travel agent, i realised that we sometimes need to wear a mask and hide our facial expression no matter how angry we were deep inside. this is a valuable lesson learnt!!
Gosh my mood really gone real bad these days...... Due to that , now i am officially broke! moreover more trips is jumping in to my schedule..PHUKET next week!
P/S : if you think im not worth for your sacrifice, don't sacrifice. Don't make me feel like im forcing you to do something which you are unwilling to do..or you are just doing it just for the sake of completing your so called responsibility. It's worthless to me...it does not mean anything to me yet i feel furious!
When I am mad, I will go to the mall and shop... I will enter any of the trendy restaurant just to sit down and have some nice food to cheer myself up a little. But all these doesnt seem to help anymore! I even nag and nag and nag the whole night with my dear roommate..poor thing.hehe.Sigh...I really need to find a new way to de-stress myself. Can anyone volunteer to monitor my mood status ? LOL.
Easily you will be able to detect my mood status from my face!
Fortunately, ever since i started working in a travel agent, i realised that we sometimes need to wear a mask and hide our facial expression no matter how angry we were deep inside. this is a valuable lesson learnt!!
Gosh my mood really gone real bad these days...... Due to that , now i am officially broke! moreover more trips is jumping in to my schedule..PHUKET next week!
P/S : if you think im not worth for your sacrifice, don't sacrifice. Don't make me feel like im forcing you to do something which you are unwilling to do..or you are just doing it just for the sake of completing your so called responsibility. It's worthless to me...it does not mean anything to me yet i feel furious!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
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