Psy...psy...psy!

I'm supposed to finish and settle my script for tomorrow's presentation. But here I am, writing for another post. ahaha. 

Psy is one interesting posting. Hearing the patient's story or having a class with the lecturer, make u feel like u're also having some degree of mental illness. Like seriously! ok, maybe not that far-fetched. At least, some sort of personality. I'm a lil bit worrier sometimes. Over-think stuff. At some point, pening-kan kepala sendiri. =.= hmmm. Okaaayy, let's end this before I self-diagnosed whatever I'm having or thinking. Lalala.

Today, one patient decided to be nice by 'suap'kan nasi to my fellow friends who were actually fasting today. I know I shouldn't be laughing, but yeah it's a lil bit funny actually. 

There r lots of funny events actually during this posting. It feels kinda bad to laugh. But, really cannot help it. Heeee. :D

One of my guy-friend has his 'laughing corner'. Whenever he feels like having an outburst of laughter in front of the patient (esp while clerking d patient), he will quickly run to any corner or at least, facing the wall, and laugh like gile there, even kick d wall as well. And then, return to the patient with a 'solemn' face. Hayya. Not only patients but the students are also behaving abnormally in psy ward. 

Very psy. 

and yeahh, writing can be therapeutic sometimes. hahhaaa. 

the one posting where we entered and leave the ward together. hahaha
sbb nak masuk n keluar kne pakai card. 

Endless Struggle

"Dun feel sorry for the Egyptian martyrs, but feel sorry for yourselves..." Dr Azzam Tamimi.

They have done their parts, meet Rabb in the best form, syahid fi sabilillah.

Kita?

Kita di mana?

"....Do the best in your fields..."

Kena berusaha lg.

Dan, dah masuk posting baru lg. Psychiatry. Kiranye dah 7th poster dah ni.

May Allah ease

us,

our brothers and sisters in flood victims,

our brothers and sisters around d world.

Amin.

No matter what job u r in, muslims are always in the heart. R4bia!

"Anywhere anytime we should put ourselves dalam posisi tertentu untuk kepentingan dakwah dan islam samada dalam kedudukan kita sebagai seorang insan atau kedudukan professional kita atau mana-mana posisi yang Allah berikan.Sediakan diri dengan ilmu mengurus manusia dan organisasi,mengurus diri, cara mempengaruhi orang melalui pembacaan, pergaulan dan berinteraksi dengan orang, belajar dari mereka yang lebih dahulu pada kita, sentiasa berusaha mengumpul orang/rakan untuk kerja kebajikan dan dakwah..." -quoted hehe

p/s: semakin lama semakin parah M'sia ni. Everyday in news, ade je sumthing yg bleh bikin panas hati...

Coping Mechanism

Ortho xde la relax sgt spt yg disangka. hahaha. Byk gile bnda xtau or xigt. Esp anatomy. huhu.

Mr A : what type of joint is this?
Student : ligamentous?
Mr A : wujud ke? Fibrous la....Sape yg ajar anat korang ni?
Student : *alamak*

Biase la student, ade igt, ade lupa, ade mmg xtau. Yg pasti, jgn penat utk terus belajar. Bila jumpe senior2 yg dh jd HO, semangat tanye..."akakk, how's ur lifeee??" reply sume lebey kurg. Kena marah, kena marah, kena marah.

I guess there must be times when scolding is appropriate, bile dh wat salah or etc.

Tp ade je yg unnecessary. Boleh je ckp elok2.

Mr A ckp, in this job u'll be meeting a loooooooooooong list of difficult people, who will surely make your life miserable punye...

So, nk nanges setiap hari ke? Mr A tanye.

Sume dlm kelas masing2 dah pandang bawah. Hening jap kelas. Everyone is contemplating on the future. Muka berkerut2.

Start thinking on how to cope with this all. And with that Mr A ended our practical session.

Coping mechanism, huh?

Needles to say which posting I'm in right now. Gambar xray bersepah...

Birthdaysss

Yesterday was baba's birthday and also PRK kat Sg Limau. I SMSed him. He was at Sg Limau. He replied, 'I want to celebrate my birthday today with Sg Limau.' 

and Alhmdulillah for both. :)

Selfie with baba's new phone.
He unintentionally 'terbuang' his previous S3 somewhere only God knows. =.='

and today is my eldest brother's birthday. But he never like to celebrate birthday. Instead arguing the need of it. And so, I dun usually wish him. Haha.  Nevertheless...may Allah bless u and ur family. hehe. :)

Mr Bony Bony :)

Alhamdulillah, finished paeds posting last 3 weeks?. Hehe. Exams was hmm okay I guess. Enough to pass i think. Hehehe. Started ortho posting last 2 weeks. No more laughing here and there, or cute kids running in the ward. But that's okay, there r still bunch of new areas need to be discovered and learned now. Ortho, sooo many technical and mechanical thingy's going on here. One week of seminars and lecturers was spent looking at the slides, wondering what happen to the anatomy learned during 1st and 2nd years; gone with the pro exam I guess. Hahaha. 

"Fibula is at the lateral side, right?" "I think..." =.=' (mann, that shouldn't be asked at all!)

Go Ortho! :)

De-stressing moments. What's the best food other than an ice-cream to eat at this time. Haha.

Sakinah. Bigger, cheekier, talkative-ier. hahaha

Orange-ians. haha. Previous session of MSC. 

Back from hiatus mode!

Bismillah.

Wow, I haven't blog on anything since the last 2 months. I want to blabber soooo many thing, that I turned up not writing at all. Haha.

Currently am in Paeds Posting. Oh yeeaah, kidddssssss. It's very interesting posting and one can surely unleash their childish side without feeling inappropriate. U can go crazy, laugh like gile, makes jokes and play as well. Hehehe.

But, the thing about examining a child esp a very young one, u definitely need courage to do it despite of the crying and everything. Sometimes, I make a mental note, that it is normal for them to cry when they're touched or pulled esp babies la kan. Ye la sape xcuak klau bdak nangis kuat2, gelabah pn ade. For older children, u surely need to have loadds of tactis under ur sleeve how to tackle them.

We already know how mothers r very protective of their young one. But mummies out there, dun worry, no any blood taking procedure will kill them, no matter how loud the babies r crying. Instead not knowing what's happening to them can kill them.

N my fav part of all is selfie-cam with them. Looking back at the pics can really make ur day. Hehehe.

Yeah, it's updated!

Fooling around hehehe :)

p.s. Thanks baba for saying dat out on my wall. Although, got to admit it was a bit embarrassing hhaha, but I wasssss really 'terharu' for u to say dat. Ahahaha. In sha Allah, may Allah bless us with knowledge and wisdom.

Random photosss

Let the pics speak for themselves. Haha. Mode mls nak menaip dah.

GMJ 8 Jun '13. Glad to see lots of young ppl coming to this event.
Video-calling with ust haris. Time ni, ust kt syria rasenya. 

GMJ '13. Despite of raining..

SaveSyria. Makhal presentations. 

BBQ-ing with Prof Shamsir n family. Great house and food, alhamdulillah.

Hurun ein - Ani's and Mael's intan permata.
Hehe. Mcm kna buli plak hurun dgn makcik2 ni. 

Girlfriendss. Usrah race. The cluees. Penat ok, nk cari dari tingkat 9 hingga 14.

Girlfriendss. Post-usrah race. Woo jung (read : friendship) abadan!

Birthdayss. Kak Nurin's. Usrah-mate.
Akak, be strong ye! 

Birthdayss. Dijat's. Besties. Putting up a surprise for her on the wall. 

Bukit Saga. Riadhah. Nak jd muslim qawiy la kan tp pancit (except Limah laa, haha). Tp muka budget laa cool.

Bukit Saga. Keriangan di kala sampai ke puncak.

Bukit Saga. With 2 so-called musyriffss. haha. Thanks sbb tunjukkan jln. 

Bukit Saga. Alhamdulillah, lagi bertambah riang bila sampai bawah. haha. Penat.

Just finish forensic posting and the exam. Next week dah start enterpreneurship. Ade SSM presentation, ade exam hafazan, ada exam makhal and of course, ade exam enterpreneurship. Pastu balik and start GP.

and the most grand-dest one is actually, Ramadhan is coming. Pesta beribadah is soooo near. Oh my. Have u prepare for it? hmmmm.

Father's Day.

Called baba last Saturday. Ckp basi-basi pasal flight balik, pastu...

Me : Baba, selamat hari bapa.
Baba : Hah?
Me :  Selamat hari bapa. HAAA-PPY FAA-THER'S DAAY. (semangat ckp, takut xdgr, haha)
Baba : *Tukar topik laiin plak*
Me : Alaaa =.=' 

Kelakar pun ada. The thing is I usually call mama klau nk say hi, nk gossip, or nk cite pa-pe laa. Hahaha.

But still, he is always in my doa, heart and mind. Thanks Allah for blessing us such a great father, who has done a superb job in mentarbiyyahkan kami, who always reminds us the purpose of life and the importance of dakwah to others.

He commented this when I wished his birthday last year. Hehe.
At least,we hav one thing in common - not good in expressing our feelings. Haha. 

Me & Baba. His hair is getting more whiter each time I got home. Huuu.

Random thots

1st week of forensic posting is soo free at some point u've to think of what to do next instead of rushing to do stuff on the list. Hehehe. And free time in medical student life is almost rare that u want to embrace and hold on to it tightly as possible. But time will pass by and it's up to u how to fill it. 

Teringat a quote from a book, 

"Sekiranya kita tidak mengisi ruang diri kita dgn Islam, maka jahiliyyah akan menyelinap masuk. Kemudian pertempuran akan berlaku. Kita tidak akan mampu mengatakan benar kpd 2 perkara yg saling bercanggah. Jika kita tidak berusaha menegakkan Al-Haq dlm diri kita, maka jahiliyyah akan menjd pentadbir dan penguasa. Maka kita akan diselebungi olehnya!" 

Busy pn ujian Allah, masa free pn ujian Allah. Huhu.

Hlovate's.  Good reading.

Bantai amik tp cam cantek plak angle nye.
Cycling utk bakar lemak katenye. haha.

Since this week, I've developed a new hobby ; reading hlovate's. hehe. and I'm loving all d quotes. Everytime lps habes bace, rase cam sedey. From somebody who has zero Islamic foundation turned to be a great person. Ok laaa itu just a story. The fact is ramai je tokoh2 from Seerah nabi came out to be like that. Buat sy rase nk korek2 balik buku2 seerah ni. Huhu. 

"It's not muslim who have made Islam great. It is Islam who has made muslim great."- quoted.

Some ppl said luaran  sy mngkin nampak mcm baik tp kadang2 dalaman tuu bleh jd mcm hantu. Hahaha. Nk gelak jugak sy dgr. Hmmmmmmmmm. The thing is, sy xde la org yg baik sgt. Yes, I agree to that point. But no harm in trying to be one. There's no way we can reach perfection but all the way to that, we will become a better person (ooh, ni mcm quote dr hlovate lg, haha :)). 

Agreed!

Klau diikutkan, I've been following usrah since I was in standard 4 (sbb time tu kan sekolah musleh). But believe me, despite of that, i was fighting with my inner-self. I dun even grasp the whole point of usrah n DnT until i stepped into university. Lambat gile kan...

"To fake it till u make it." -quoted

Hidayah Allah, it only takes a click to happen. That's why doa tu jgn tinggal. And evendo, u're on the right track, never forget to pray to always be on the right track. 

"Rabbana la tuzigh quloobana ba'da iz hadaitana wahablana mil'ladunka rahmah, Innaka anntal wah'haab." (3:8)

Walaupn kisah novel sgt la harmoni dgn happy ending comeeeeellll bagai, but we know life is not the same. Masalah ummah super laaaa byk. Endless mass killing kat Syria, Palestinians imprisoned in their own land, Rohingya, Pakistan etc. Pray for them, spread the news, donations. Anything to ease their burden. We're all brothers and sisters kaaan. Huhuhu.

Save Syria walk!

Okaayy, sy mmg under hlovate punye spell. Berjela2 dah tulis ni. Hahaa. 

Mum

Nk ambik gambar dgn mama.

Me, "mama xpenah nk senyum klau amik gmbr nii. Senyuuuuum plsss.."

Mama, "ok.."

Klik, klik (bunyik camera)

Then, she pulled her face.

Me, "alaaaaa...."

Hehe. Happy mother's day mama! Luv u! <3 

...

Semakin lama, semakin pelik. Simple things, yet ppl can be soooo manipulative.

Isu agama, isu perkauman etc walhal, yg dimahukan hanyalah keadilan dan kebajikan rakyat.

Muslim or non-muslim common purpose nya masih sama.

Why can't we all see that?

Kadang-kadang org yg highly educated dgn phd bagai tp common sense agk kurang. Mengeluarkan hujah-hujah yg agk unreasonable.

Sbb at the end, yg penting adalah kefahaman Islam.

Islam is simple. Spreads peace and justice. By right, it should be understood by all. Muslim and non-muslims.

Tp lain cerita nya, haru biru habes org buatnya.

Jd tanggungjawab org yg faham utk memahamkn org lain.

So, kuatkan lg semangat DnT. huuu.

Tarbiyyah diri dan org lain. huhu. Moga Allah kurniakan kekuatan dan terus thabat dlm perjuangan.

One day insyaAllah, it'll change. Janji Allah itu pasti pada pihak yg benar. 

Hati Batu

Bismillah.

My 4th clinical posting, Obstetrics and Gynecology, name glamornye, OnG la. 

Seronok. Ade babies merata-rata. haha. Dan ragam manusia pun macam2. 

Time ni la baru rase, peritnya seorg ibu nak lahirkan anak. Perjuangan antara hidup dan mati. Xterkira sakitnya. Diri sendiri xpernah lg merasa, tp sekadar melihat pun dah rase pedihnya.

Bila patient tanye, "Ni 1st time sy mengandung, xtau mcm mne nak meneran. Betul x sy meneran tadi?"

Gulp. Terdiam jap. Ape nak ckp? Ermm, I'm not even married yet, mengandung apatah lg? Tp professional je la, xkan nak ckp gitu. So, copy paste je ayat-ayat drpd nurse2 sekalian. Hahaha.

Ragam husband pun mcm2. Ade yg super supportive, hehe, alhamdulillah. Ade yg dari awl hingga akhir pandang kabinet je sbb takut nk tgk. Ade yg smpai nk termuntah dan nak pitam bagai. Hehe, baru tau betapa susahnye perempuan nak beranak. 

And i think this posting is a bit emotional for me. Ntah. Sedih segho. Byk babak2 rase nk bergelinangan air mata.

Cthnye, bile mak beranak...tp baby IUD (intrauterine death = meninggal dlm perut lg). Keluar2, lembik, biru and yes, lifeless. Nurse mintak mak confirmkan jantina baby. Lagi mencurah2 laa air mata si ibu tgk baby tu. Bab2 mcm ni rase meruntun jiwa tgk. 

Tp byk jugak happy moments nye. Esp those yang menimang ank 1st. Hehe. Menangis2 daah. Alhamdulillah. Mabruk, rezeki Allah bg. 

And I think I cleaned and wrapped babies more than I conducted d deliveries. Semangat gile, time org nk beranak, pergi cari kain baby siap2, stand by kt sebelah, dgn suction bgai. Hahaha. Baik bljr jd baby nurse gini. 

Ade course-mate ckp, after witnessing all the birth procesess, he will not demand many children from his future wife. Hahahahhaa, ok, sori. Xsengaja nak gelak. 

Hmmm, tp lain plak cite nye from the other gender. Sis Y ckp, "Women are crazy, no matter how painful the experience was, they still want to get pregnant. Hhehe, akk pun rindu nk mengandung lg :)." 

Perempuan walaupun fragile, complicated, skit2 nak nangis, terasa etc...tp Allah kurniakan mereka satu kekuatan, an ultimate strength to endure the birth pain. Melahirkan bakal2 khalifah ke dunia. 

Hoyyeaah, so, appreciate all women around u esp ur mother :)

p.s. Hati batu? haha, xde kaitan dgn isi post pn.  

Updated!

Alhamdulillah. Finally i got to post sumthing after a looong hiatus mode. (well, nak jugak update blog despite of SSM xabes edit lg) huhu.

#1 Int medicine posting and exam

Done internal med posting. MasyaAllah, it's among the best posting (setakat nie). And I love it. It was quite hard in term of the coverage of diseases and everything. But if u want to see the whole picture of medicine, this is THE posting.  Like Dr N said, "Everything is medical unless proven otherwise." Hehe, terbaik quote ni.

During clinical exam, my long case was bilateral lower limbs weaknesses. Whoaha. That was the last thing on my list and on my mind. I didn't study much on that topic kot. But fortunately, that was my seminar topic also, and electrolyte imbalance was d part I was assigned to present. Rezeki Allah is everywhere and during the exam, His guidance was relentless. And my examiner was a super sweet and motherly lecturer. Alhamdulillah, it turned out to be okay. However, the short case was hard as usual la. Since u've only 10 mins to match up the findings and diagnosis. Greater chance to mess up.  Hehe. But what's important is, awk berusaha2 dan tawakkal!

#2 Tajuk SSM

My supervisor was a microbiologist. So, nak xnak kena cari tjuk infection or anything related. Dunno how it happened, the topic turned up to sound like this, "The Burden of Pneumococcal Disease among Older Adults in Malaysia". Maaak aiih, mcm gile nk cari figures and stats kat Malaysia ni. Huhu. Ya Allah, permudahkan laa SSM ni!

#3 Solat and Patient

Let's ask ourselves, how many times after we clerked the patients, we asked them about the solat? Xbyk kali pn kan. Kalau ade yg mmg tabiat mcm tu, Alhamdulillah. Unfortunately, I'm not. Yes, tau, kena reflect diri byk2. Students USIM, bawa nama Islam, so, kena bawa attitude Islam jgak. Kalau x, apa beza mereka dgn kita? errmmm.

Ditakdirkan ada adik2 from MSC dtg interview kt hosp. Projek utk solat katanya. So, nk dpt feedback dari senior (waahh, semangat junior2-ku ni!). So, I brought them along to see d patients (alang2 tu, bleh kasi exposure dunia hosp kt diorg ni). We interviewed a patient. Seorang p.cik. Turned out p.cik tuu mmg xpenah tinggal solat since die masuk hospital. Alhamdulillah. (p.cik tu mmg nmpak alim sbnarnya, tp we'll never know kan, look can be deceiving. hehe.)

Pak cik : Kamu tahu x? Sejak p.cik masuk hospital nie, semua org asyik tanye soalan berkaitan perubatan. Ini kali pertama org remind kan saya ttg solat. Padahal itu yg utama.

Subhanallah, perghh agak tertusuk juga di kalbu bila dgr confession mcm tu drpd p.cik tu. Ya Allah, berikanlah kami kekuatan utk membawa agama-Mu di mata masyarakat!

#4 Plan-Allah-itu-selalunya-yg-terbaik!

Al-Baqarah Ayat 216 :

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.”

Ayat ni sbenarnye sgt famous and among my best penenang hati whenever things dun happen d way I wish it to be. Sy redha and accept everything with open heart. And Allah knows best. Hehe. Selalulah doa utk kita sentiasa kuat utk menerima ujian dia. Eeehh, tp ujian tuu bukan tanda syg dr Dia kan. ecece. :D

Ok, that's all. SSM is waitingggg!!

p.s. Lagu/nasyid? from Wali band - 'Aku Cinta Allah'. Best kot lirik die. Pengacara Amin Idris selalu dendangkan lagu ni at end of his talks etc. 

:)

#1

"Adah, asal tetiba ramai patient kena resus ari ni???"
"Sbb ari ni ari jumaat kot..."

post-intubation, usually keje medical students ialah utk pump ambu bag, samppaaai laaa ventilator dtg. huhu. no matter how long it takes...

#2

IVDU patient can the best and the worst patient to poke for blood.

Best part was when he guided u which veins to poke, how deep to put in the needle and when u should pull the syringe. Mcm tutorial nk amik darah plak. His suface anatomy was super-excellent la!

Worst part was, most of the veins had already collapsed.

and he was Hep C positive.

After a few failing attempts what would u do when the patient offered himself to do the blood-taking? ahaaaaha.


#3

An elderly patient requested for our phone numbers. Tanye sorang-sorang dari mane, ayah kerja ape and bljr kat mne. Tetiba cite sal anak die skit. Eeeh???

When u r reaching 20 and aboveeee, nak x nak, klau terserempak with any man who is at our fathers' age, mesti bagi nasihat sama - nasihat psl kaweeen. hahaahaaa,

:)

Random :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Hehe. Alang2 tenet tgh laju, rase nak update blog. Lame dh tinggal blog ni bersarang. Post kali ni sempoi je. :)

Alhamdullillah, sekarang tgh posting internal medicine utk 2 bulan. Senior ckp posting ni ibarat 'everything under the sun.' Mmg superb byk. Tp ilmu Allah tuuu lg byk. Ni br 1 drpd infinity ilmu Dia. huhu. So, penat mcm mane pun, kuatkan semangat dan ikhlaskan hati, moga dipermudahkan jihad menuntut ilmu ni. Jauuuuuuuuuh lg perjalanan ni.

Dlm field ni, tak boleh fragile, nnt makan diri. So, stay strong, stay ikhlas and lastly, stay human. Takut jugak klau asyik tgk org sakit, lama-lama hati jd batu. Treat patient mcm barang, lupa nk ambil iktibar disebalik semua yg berlaku. Na'uzubillah.

Pernah a few times rase nk give up, 'strong-will' yg dh semakin hari semakin merudum. Tp cepat2, igtkan balik tujuan sebenar. Bila letak pergantungan tu pada Allah, lega skit rase. :)

Hehe, posting medical walaupun agak mencabar dari segi diseases nye tp it has better environment and lecturers yg best. InsyaAllah, moga dimanfaatkan betul2 peluang yg ade.

Ok, that's all kot mampu dicoretkan. huhu. Maybe blog ni dah tak akan seaktif dlu. Huhu.