31 Oct 2007

No news. Still waiting for WR to call me back about my chart. I called them again and left a message. Hope it doesnt take long, we desperatly need into the Jan. cycle.

Dawn's response to Military Wives- A bond thicker than blood-

Michelle,

Wow! I started crying at work! I can't do that, people walk in and ask
what the matter is.... oops....

I feel the same way about you. I never expected to love you and Nick
the way I do, and to have a friend that is strong and true. We trust
you with everything that we have, and feel incredibly blessed to have
you in our lives.

I know it has been forever since I've seen you, but I'd know you
anywhere, anytime. I'll come to your side if you need me, and I know
you'll do the same for me. I thank God for giving me the opportunity to
have you in my life.

I hope you and Nick have a wonderful day, you've made my day....

All my love,

Dawn


Isnt she great?!

29 Oct 2007- Shout out to Dawn

Real friends, will share a banana split from the Gelato Man!!!

Yup, your hearing from me again today!

This article I found in August's issue of Military Spouse magazine.

Military Wives- A bond thicker than blood

A few months ago, my son welcomed me into motherhood. Moments after his birth he was in the arms of his godmother. She is not sibling, cousin, in law. She is not a classmate, longtime friend or a member of my church. I've known her less than 3 years, yet I trust her implicitly. She knows my joys, my struggles, my successes and my frustrations. She laughs with me, comforts me, supports me and even checks me when I need it. She is a fellow military spouse. We are best friends.

Most friendships are mutually beneficial; that is, they create a sense of security and comfort for both parties. Friends often share parallel beliefs and engage in similar hobbies. They are a support, a crutch on which we can rely. Mix the common characteristics of friendship with deployments, dress blues, and you will discover the bond military spouses experience.


Military spouses share common ground unrivaled in the civilian world. We move- not down the street or to the next town, not once or twice in a lifetime. No, we pack up and move our families cross country- even across countries- 3,4, sometimes 10 times during our spouses career. We attempt to set up home with few belongings. Once settled we wait long hours for our spouses return home from work, the field and deployments. We never leave home without a cell phone, lest we miss the weekly call from our spouse. We know what a casualty notification looks like and we pray we never have to experience one. These are just some of the commonalities of military spouses share- commonalities capable of creating instant friendship.

Like a sorority, we have silent code of honor- a code marked by our willingness to open our hearts and homes to each other, bake a meal for the unit's newest mother and share our shoulder with the woman across the street as she experiences a trying time. A military spouse knows that satisfaction that comes from being independent, yet relishes the joyful dependency of marriage. Though we come from different backgrounds we stand on common ground as military spouses.

And there is scientific proof for all of this. Academic studies of friendship have produced evidence supporting the notion that the bond shared by military spouses is, in fact, one of a kind.

For those of you who have not yet experienced this distinct bond with another military spouse, I challenge you to step out of your comfort zone.

You may find that your best friend actually leads a different life than you. Sometimes the person you least expect to be friends with ends up being the one with whom you cannot imagine parting. Once you find a special friend, hold onto her, regardless of moves, separation from the military and family additions. This friend is your link to many memories. She may be the greatest source of comfort you will ever know. After all, she is a military spouse; some friendships are thicker than blood.


This article hit me right in the heart and brought back wonderful memories of Dawn and I and our special friendship. We developed more than a friendship, we are like family. She leads the exact opposite life as me. She was the person I least expected to be friends with. She has 5 kids, I have none and she is more than a decade older than me and one whom I cannot imagine parting...but have had to. We have held onto each other through military moves across the countries, and shes a great source of comfort in areas that no one else can ever understand. Some friendships, are thicker than blood.

29 Oct 2007

2 imagines in 1 picture.

Mr. Pumpkin
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Carving Mr. Pumpkin

Waiting on the word from Jones about our donor choice and waiting for Walter Reed to call me back about my chart and find out what the next step is. I will update as soon as I know, but for now..here are some pics of the pumpkin I carved a few days ago. I might do another one today too.

26 Oct 2007

GOOD NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nick's TDY has been cancelled!!! That means Thanksgiving together and Christmas together for sure! WHOO HOO! And more time for us to prepare for our big move to Guam! This is so great!
Other good news, I got 3 donor profiles sent to me today from Jones. Nick and I have chosen one and I will be emailing them back with our choice. I will post the info on him later.
Im off to make hot wings now...

25 Oct 2007-2nd post for the day

I just wanted to update and tell you all that I finally did get that call back from Walter Reed today. They did recieve all my preliminary workup papers from the fax and I should be getting a call around Monday!!!!!!!! If things keep progressing this fast then we should be able to make the IVF cycle in January. Just keep up the prayers everyone!!

And thank Tracy (sirfranklin) for sharing this prayer with me. I want to share it here on my blog in hopes that it might help some other people.

In the Face of Fertility Challenges


Lord, help me to know that You are enough. Take my eyes off of myself. Take my eyes off of the child I desire. Help me to delight myself in You. Mold the desires of my heart to be in line with Your will. I don't want to need to be a mother more than I need to be your humble, obedient child. I don't want wanting to have a baby to be a stumbling block between You and me anymore.

Lord, I want to give this desire, this drive, this ache up to You. Help me not to snatch it back as I so often do with the burdens I place in Your hands. Help me to be truly content with Your will and Your timing.

Lord, You know that I still desire a baby - someone to mold, teach, train, shape, guide, and help to grow in You. But until the day You give me that joyous blessing, help me to grow in You. Let me reach out to those around me. Let me witness and minister to the children You place in my path.

Lord, if adoption is the path You would have us take, prepare our hearts, and prepare the child who will share our home. If adoption is not Your will for our lives, keep me from pushing ahead of Your plan. Help me to stay submitted to my husband's will, and to Your will. If we are headed in the wrong direction, change our hearts.

Thank You for lifting my burden. Help me to keep You first! Let me seek Your face daily, and let me know that You are enough!

25 Oct 2007

Is it really October 25th already? Wow. Nothing much. Its a dark rainy day today. But I really dont mind it. I have to go into work for a couple hours but I dont mind that either.
Nick and I got a lot accomplished yesterday for the big move. I got my passport picture taken. I got my medical clearance started and I should be cleared come Tuesday. I also got all my lab work faxed to Walter Reed. If IVF Doesnt fall into the schedule I dont know what we will do to bring a baby into our lives. So lets pray that it does. I called Jones Insitute this morning and had to leave a message. I just wanted to make sure they recieved my paperwork since I havent heard anything from them yet. So Im waiting for that. I called Walter Reed yesterday also to make sure they got my lab work faxed and had to leave a message for that too. I had leaving messages. I just want to talk to a person. Tomorrow I go in at 10 am to get my passport paperwork done. Poor Nick has a zillion things going on right now. I feel so bad for him, but its the way the cookie crumbles for us.


Thats about all the news from here. I will leave you with a picture from our next home away from home, as of in 117 more days.


A big CONGRATS to Jody! She got her BFP 8 days before I did back in Feb. Unfortunaly I lost my baby...but the great news is that is now holding her little Miss Emily and she is a beautiful baby! YAY!!

UPDATED-Jones Insti. just called me back. Man that was fast. They did get my paperwork and I should be matched with some donors by Tues. or Wed. and if I dont get anything by then I should call back. WHOO HOO!!! Onto picking a brand spankin new donor from a new bank soon without paying for shipping!! WHOO HOO!!!

24 Oct 2007

Not much action over here. Yesterday I worked 9-7 and right after lunch I started feeling soooo sick. I hadnt eaten all day, I had no appetite. My head was heavy, all my energy just disappered. I was struggling by the time closing time came around. I got home, collapsed on the couch and ate some applesause. Then I was really starting to feel sick. My body was just radiating heat but I was FREEZING. I went to bed and had 3 blankets on me and still couldnt get warm, but the heat was still comming from me. It was a terrible fever...I fell asleep as soon as Nick hit the bed about an hour later. I remember him telling me that he can feel the heat comming off of me, then I was out. I woke up, and now Im fine. Weird. How can I have a fever and then it just disapper? Anyone know what it was or could have been?

Anyways, today just a bunch of errands. Gotta get my medical clearance going so I can move to Guam, and get a new passport. And Nick has other things he wants to take care off to since we will be out. And tomorrow at 7:30 I get my car inspected. Ughh. I hate it. Oh yeah, and I gotta call to see if my PAP test results are back yet.

UPDATE- My results are back! Which means that I can fax all my paperwork to Walter Reed and hopefully it doesnt take too long for the IVF doctor to look over my chart and accept us into the IVF program. Fingers Crossed!

118 Days until we move. Here is more info on Guam that I found.
Climate

Some days are utterly beautiful, while others are a bit "damp." Guam has two seasons, dry and rainy. It rains during both, but far more during the latter. Although clear distinctions can't be drawn from dates, usually in December the rainy season will let up until sometime around May or June. All the other months are the more rainy season. The early part of the "dry" season is usually the mildest time of year, with nice breezes blowing off the water.

Tips for surviving the rainy season:

Keep a couple small hand towels in your car.
Keep umbrellas handy. In your car, in your desk, briefcase, purse, etc. You can't have too many.
Rainy season = typhoon season. Preparing your family for a major typhoon is a must. Click here to visit the Guam Office of Civil Defense and Homeland Security Website. They've provided plenty of information on preparing for a typhoon.
Be aware that typhoons can strike at any time of the year.
Tips for the "dry" season:

Plan outdoor activities for the morning or late afternoon to avoid the hottest part of the day.
Get your car windows tinted as soon as possible. Military bases require a lighter tint on the driver's & front passenger's windows. The other windows can be as dark as you want them. All reputable shops on island know the rules, but make sure to let them know your vehicle will be going on the military installations.
Windshield sunscreens are a must here.
Dehumidifiers in your home keep it comfortable and make it seem cooler.
Don't underestimate the effects of heat on your body. Drink extra water whether you think you need it or not.

22 Oct 2007, tagged

I been tagged several times and havent done this. Sorry girls..but here it is now.

Jobs I've had
1. Mcdonalds when I was 15
2. TJ Maxx when I was 16
3. Fashion Bug when I was 16
4. Fantastic Sam's when I was 17/18

Places I've lived
1. Harrisburg PA birth until 2002
2. Aviano, Italy 2002-2005
3. Hampton, Virginia LAFB 2005-2008
4. Anderson AFB, Guam Soon! 2008-2012

Food I love
1. Italian stuff, pasta
2. Seafood
3. Chicken made a zillion different ways
4. potato chips

Places I would rather be
1. Italy
2. Guam
3. Anywhere warm and pretty
4. In the hospital in labor.....yeah, that's right. ( I will copy this one from Tammy )

Movies I love- I cant really answer this one. I have a lot of movies I like, but none that I really love.
1.
2.
3.
4.

TV shows I watch
1. Desperate Housewives
2. Tell me you love me on HBO
3. Pushing Daisies
4. Carpoolers

I'm tagging everyone that reads this that hasn't done it yet :)

21 Oct 2007

Our little Roo sitting on his quilt, while I am trying to make it..lol.

Here's a picture of our boy Pooh Bear sitting beside a picture of his pa, on top of a pooh bear pillow.




My heart, thoughts, prayers, and tears go out to Deena. She got her BFP on the 11th try. She went in to see her little p-pod on the ultrasound for the second time, and no heart beat. I cant imagine the pain she is in. There is nothing I can say or do to make her feel any better so the only thing to say is, Deena, if you read this..I will pray for you.

On another silly note...see the picture above? Well, is it pathetic or what to look at something as silly as a piece of string on the un-vaccumed carpet and think to oneself, "OMG, it looks like a sperm!" Well, is it?

A few of you have asked how the IVF stuff is going. Im still waiting on one last test to come in which I should have sometime this week. Just waiting for my PAP/GC screen/Chlamydia test results. When those come in then I can fax all my paperwork to Walter Reed, which hopefully will be this week. My next test will be that dang HSG. I will scedule that on CD 1 which wont be for another 2 weeks. How do I know that? Because on Saturday morning I know I was O'ing. I had my ovualtion pains on the left side most of the day but stronger in the evening. Right on time and without the clomid. Wish I had some sperm to put in there for that egg. Would have been worth the try. Dang it.

I got my paperwork mailed off to the Jones Insitute on Thursday via Ceritfied mail. The guy said they should have it Friday but its not gauranteed. So Tuesday I might shoot them an email just to make sure they got my paperwork. As far as I know, within 10 days of them getting our paperwork they will send us via email some donors that fit our standards and we choose from those. So lets hope to hear from them ASAP!

121 days until we move to Guam. It sure is going by so incredibly fast. I cant even hardly belive it. I did find some helpful information from the Air Force Crossroads chat boards that I visit reguarly. I've found some girls that are stationed there with their husbands, one of which is married to a guy that is in the same squadron as Nick. Anyways, I found some great info! I did find a lot of info, so I will share with you a little at a time.

*Lifesytle
If you're coming from the U.S. mainland, you'll notice a big difference in the way people live. Things move a little slower on Guam, people just don't seem to be as hurried. Homes are not as lavish, cars not as luxurious, and everyday products you need and want aren't likely to be of the same type you'll find in the U.S. Mainland. Barbeques are very popular here on the weekends, and there is always someone having a fiesta for one reason or another. People just find a reason to party here. On Guam, people tend to pursue a more simple life focused on family and friends. The community is more closely knit than you're likely to find in the Mainland. Let yourself slow down a little and enjoy the experience of a new way of living.

*Finding what you need

Shopping for some items you've grown accustomed to in the Mainland can sometimes be a challenge. If you have access to the military bases you're ahead of the game. Prices on base are at least 20% below what you'll find on the outside, including gas. And with bases at each "end" of the island, it's not difficult to make the trip. Each of our bases has different things to offer. We also have a couple of big retailers on the island like K Mart and Macy's. Otherwise, there are tons of shops lining the sides of Marine Corps Drive and "mom and pop" stores in every neighborhood.
Another option to find things you need is to buy from the internet. One problem you'll experience when shopping on line is shipping options. You may find Guam (abbreviated GU) isn't in the menu of U.S. States.

Another option is to have the item shipped to a friend stateside and have them forward it to you. Generally U.S. Priority mail takes about 10 days to get from the continental U.S. to Guam.

(when we were stationed in Aviano, Italy...I shopped online for most things. Im not lookign forward to going back to that. I like to buy things from the store so I can actually SEE what I am buying. But, what the heck..We get to live in paradise..so its worth the sacrifice. )

Thats all for now! G'night folks!

20 Oct 2007

My Fishy died today. Roo wasnt happy. He thinks the fish was his. Nick said I cant buy Roo another fish because we are moving soon.

17 Oct 2007

So here are the pictures from the zoo this past Sunday. Sorry it took a little while for me to share them. Havent been on the computer as much as normal and I imagine it will be like this until Nick goes TDY.
Speaking of TDY...now his return date is Dec 23rd...crappy. But we all know that it can change. Hopefully to sooner. We dont know his leave date yet. Sometime in November.

Not much going on. Im going to try to get a hold of Mary. My doc's secretary. Last time we were there for an IUI she gave us the paperwork to use Jones Insitiute donor sperm program and I misplaces the paperwork. We would like to get set up with them so we dont have to pay 159.00 for shipping through the bank we are currently using. Its a good chunk of change. Im hoping she can email them or mail them to me. I dont want to drive 45 minutes to pick up some papers. So we shall see, once I get a hold of her. Its not easy. Shes a busy woman.

Nothing much else. Gotta get to the bank today to deposit 2 of my pay checks, and maybe spend a little $ on a few Christmas gifts. I'll see what I feel like doing once Im up and about. Right now, still havent showered, still in PJ's and had no breakfast and its 8:15 am.

Ok, so I got a hold of Mary and she gave me the number for the cryo lab at Jones. They emailed me the paperwork. I have it all filled out. When Nick gets home he must sign it then tomorrow morning I have to go across the street to my doctor and have her sign it as a witness. Then the paperwork is off to the cryo lab via certified mail and within 10 days they will send me profiles for donors that would be within our standards. Then I tell them which donor we choose and then its off from there!
And no shipping costs! WHOO HOO!!

On another note, I totally did NOT go to the bank or Xmas shop. I went straight for the salvation army and picked up a nice pair of pants for myself. Oh well..

15 Oct 2007

Hello everyone. Nothing too exciting going on here still. We had a good weekend. Saturday We had our Yard Sale.

We didnt expect to have a good turn out, because we were selling just junk we had around the house. But turns out we had a good outcome. We made $150 bucks just from stuff that we havent used or seen in a year. Not bad at all. It was worth waking up early for.

After the yard sale we took a drive over to the Norfolk Naval Station and strolled around the NEX. I wish the Air Force would build our BX like that. They get a mall just about. We had lunch there then came home.

Sunday we went to the Virginia Zoo. http://virginiazoo.org/ It was free admission for all military. We had a great time looking at the animals and I had a great time petting the pigs. They are so cute. It was during the trip to the zoo I started having an emotionally rough day. It was just about all military families around, which means there were pregnant women and tiny tiny babies all over the place. I think there is a special water that military wives drink that causes them all to become pregnant so easily. I obviously havent discovered this powerful water yet. And all the pregnant women obviously went to the zoo the same day as me as if to remind me of something I dont and cant have.

12 Oct 2007

This is going to be a DCU quilt. Im still missing 1 fabric for this one and the BDU one. Just not quite sure what the 5th pattern needs to be. I havent figured that out yet.

This is going to be a BDU quilt.



The cats' quilt, front and back.


Above are my newest quilting pictures. I completed the cats' quilts and now Im on to making 2 quilts out of Nick's old BDU's and DCU's. I hope to finish them by Christmas and them make a baby blanket by Feb for a friend of mine. I think I can finish within my time line with Nick going TDY. It will keep my busy.

I had my PAP/History/Health screening yesterday. I got all my blood results back except 1, plus the results for the pap will take a week or so. So all of it is comming together. I just hope it all comes together in time to be in the Jan IVF cycle. We shall see. If not...then we move onto other options. I feel like our baby is forever away.

Nothing else going on. Nick is majorly stressed with preparing for all that is going on right now plus working. But he is just about done with work for a while. He is preparing for his TDY now and when he gets back he wont be able to work much with us PCSing soon after that. I cant wait. By the time he gets back, we will be well on our way to being out of Virginia. What Im not looking forward to is shipping all our household goods. Back to living out of suitcases for a month...yay. Not.

130 more days! I started this count down at 177...it sure has gone fast.

10 Oct 2007

Im around. Not really in the typing mood today but many of you have asked how I have been. Im doing fine. I havent been on the NW boards lately, sorry girls. Its hard for me to be on there even though I am happy for everyone. Maybe its a phase I will get over soon.
I've had all my blood tests drawn between Friday and Sunday. 10 vials all together and results will be back in 10 days. I have my PAP and Health screening tomorrow that I will get done and when CD 1 comes I get to call and scedule my HSG. Wow, I am NOT looking forward to that. Last time I had cramps all day long from it. For those of you who read my blog and dont know what that is...its also called a Saline Sonogram. Basically...the shove a balloon up your whoo-haa and inflate it with some ink and then deflate it and the ink runs all through the uterus and fallopian tubes. The purpose- to make sure all is clear. Last time I was all clear and I expect that this time too. Its just painful.

I think we will make our timeline, I hope, for IVF. If not, adoption here we come. And I dont know when since its so darn expensive.

Sunday after my bloodwork we decided to go stroll around the mall. On the way home were dead stopped at a red light for about 1-2 minutes. And all of a sudden, the guy in front of us in a big truck decided to throw it into reverse. Nick lays on the horn and the guy heard us, but didnt see us and....BAM! Right smack into us. I was in shock. Still cant believe it happened. And the front end of Nick's car..= GONE.

Yup, no kidding. The jackass didnt even have a reason why he backed up, at a red light.
So, on top of us moving, Nick deploying for a month, IVF and preparing the cats for the move and blah blah blah...now we got Nick's car to worry about. Its about $10,000 in damage and the guy is paying 100% of it all, including the rental car Nick got on Monday. Like I said...jackass. What was he thinking? He backed into the WRONG car. The whole front end of Nick's car is custom made.

Just our luck huh? It seems to happen this way with us, always. Atleast we have a great marraige.

Here's some pics..It doesnt look as bad in the pics..but really its bad. Click on them to enlarge. The whole front end of the car is smashed in. And the guy in the truck...not one scratch on his or his "As if I care" bumper sticker...yup. You read that right. Tells you a little about him doesnt it?

The ugly...errr..uhh..lovely rental car.






Now for a little bit of good news...Most of you know while we were in Italy we made great friends with the Williams. Chuck, Dawn and their 5 kiddos. Actually we made more than friend with them. We became a family. And 2 years later we miss them more than we ever imagined. I miss those kids with all my heart. It makes me cry just to type this and think about them type of miss. It makes my heart hurt to not see those kids type of miss. I got an email from Dawn asking us a very serious question. We feel so honored, so loved. God forbid this to ever happen though...They have asked us to take all 5 of their kids should something ever happen to them both. We both, right away, no question, no doubt have agreed. And they are going to be putting in their will so it will be official! GOD FORBID it ever happen, but we would not hesitate for a half of a second taking in those 5 kids who we grew to love as our family.

6 Oct 07

So, AF came full force yesterday and our next plan of action is in the works. I called the IVF coordinator again yesterday and got a hold of her. The great news is that we dont have to do orientation again which costed us over $300. And its required to be medically cleared. We are real happy about that. I got most of my blood work done yesterday and I go back in on Sunday to do my cycle day 3 blood work. Because all my tests are over a year old I have to redo everything. They said it would be about 10 days to get all the results in. I have a few appointments next week also that need to be done. When all the results are in I will fax them to the IVF coordinator and wait wait wait. Hopefully not too long though.
Oct 5, 07- CD 1. Did bloodwork tests for IVF. Results in about 10 days.
TSH
Prolactin
Rubella/RPR
Hepatitus BsAg
Hepatitis Cab
HIV 1 & 2
Type & Screen
Cystic Fibrosis Screening (not mandatory)
History & Physical (scheduled Oct 11th)
Pap Smear (scheduled Oct 11th)
GC Screen/Chlamydia (scheduled Oct 11th)

Oct 7, 07 CD 3 tests:
FSH
LH
E2

After we are medically cleared, we have to be financially cleared. We are working on gathering funds for this by selling things and having our yard sale next weekend. Through the military we get a huge discounted price on IVF, Thank God. Otherwise, we wouldnt be able to afford it.As it is, its a HUGE burden on us financially. I sure hope IVF works. Its going to hurt to see all this money do down the drain if it doesnt.

And as far as me needing a chaperone...Nick said he would make it with me to D.C. for the Retrival of eggs, and embryo transfer. That is most importnant but he doesnt think he will be able to go to D.C. with me for little things here and there. Which I am ok with. The friend I was talking about in my last post, Drena, said she would go with me. So chaperoning is not a problem either. So far, everything just seems to be falling into place.

The thing that kills me is that we are back at square one as we were a year and half ago. I got all my bloodwork done, we did orientation and paid for it. Everything was done and then we got a call from the IVF doc saying we didnt need IVF. I was young and healthy and I could get pregnant within 3 IUI's. Well, here we are, EIGHT IUI's later and 1 miscarriage, and thousands of dollars less in the bank and no baby. And we have to start IVF all over again. Why couldnt they just do IVF for us the first time? We could have had a baby by now. Its very frustrating. But I CANNOT give up. If I do, we will never see our dreams come true. I CANNOT give up. As Cindy told me..."Just don't give up Michelle, a mother never gives up on her child and you are already a mother inside, you are just waiting for the baby."
Thank you Cindy.

Here's a little something I got from my NW friends..I thought it was well said!
Some things never to say to infertile couples:
1. "It's God's Will."
2. "Wow! Why are you wasting this much money?"
3. "Why don't you adopt?" This remark is usually the first thing out of other people’s mouths and is one of the most insensitive. Infertile couples have already heard of adoption and know what it is without others suggesting it. Furthermore, the decision to adopt is very personal and adoption is not for everyone. Couples who do decide to adopt must first deal with the pain and disappointment of not being able to conceive. It’s a grieving process and idiotic remarks from well-meaning but clueless people only compound this.
Infertile couples don't want to hear stories about your friends who adopted and how great their experience was. They need support for THEIR hurt and disappointment.
4. Don't suggest that the couple just needs to "relax" and they'll get pregnant.
5."Gosh, how many times have you tried now?"
6." Wow, I sure hope I dont have those problems when I try to get pregnant."
Yeah thanks, that helps my confidence....I am aware that I have "problems" getting pregnant, you dont have to rub it in.
To sum up all of the above: Infertile couples need support, not advice. If
you really want to help, LISTEN to them talk - don't talk AT them. What
should you say? “I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I’m here if you
need me.”

And here's a link for you to read..Please read it if your my friend.
How to be Good Friends with an Infertile
http://tertia.typepad.com/so_close/2004/05/how_to_be_good_.html

Thanks goes to Wannabemom, Mel and Kim, Jacki, and Nan for these tips.

4 Oct 2007

Just wanted to let you all know that my temp dropped this morning and brown spotting started so Im expecting AF today or tomorrow. I am utterly speechless. I felt that this was it.
Our next plan we arent sure of, but its either 4 more IUI's until we move in Feb, or 1 IVF cycle in Jan possibly. It would be al Walter Reed and Nick probably wouldnt be able to go with me because of us PCSing in Feb and his TDY on Nov/Dec. For most appointments they reqiure a chaperone so Im hoping a friend is able to go with me. Not only for that, but because she is wonderful emotional support and is always so positive.
Its not definate yet. I called Walter Reed this morning and the lady said we could possibly get into the Jan. cycle if we are very proactive in getting things done asap. And you know I will.Im waiting for them to call me back to let me know what I need to do to start.
Im also waiting on a call back from the Jones Institute so we can buy donor sperm from them so we dont have to pay for shipping anymore from the place we been using. So instead of paying for shipping we can use that money for another vial of sperm. Ughh...BLAH! My life....I hate it.

3 Oct 2007

I tested this morning. It was negative. My chart has me disappointed today. AF is due tomorrow. Hopefully shes a no show and I get a late BFP like before. BLAH! I dont know what to think anymore. I was so sure I was pregnant. I felt it. I was never so sure of it. BLAH!

Today is a good day to find stuff around the house for a yard sale, because today, I just dont care.

Happy 1 October 2007!

Happy October first everyone! First I have to tell Michell...LOL! Yeah, he's our 17.5 pound'er boy. And hes not really fat...just big. He is really tall. When he stands on his back paws he reaches beyond my waist.

And Tammy, Im not going anywhere. Your stuck with me now. LOL!

So, here is my chart this morning. Take a look. I was so nervous to take mt temp this morning in fear that it might have dropped. Even though deep down I knew it wasnt going to. It was a whopping 98.2! Instead of dropping to prepare for AF in 2 days, the sucker went up .03 degrees! How GREAT is that!? I've never had a temp that high. I did test this morning with a Dollor Store test. It was BFN of course because Im only 11DPO. My plan was to test this a.m. and see a +. Then I would test with a digital test to see the words pregnant. Then I was going to head off to walmart and buy more digitals, a baby gift bags, and some small baby items. Then I was going to come home and put it all together and wrap up the digital test in the gift bag. Then when Nick came home I was going to tell him...lets test! Him not knowing I already did. Then I would walk out of the bathroom with the gift bag in hand and have him open a few baby things and then open the digital test. But...I'm going to have to put a hold on that for a few days. Im going to wait atleast 2 more days to test. I know Im going to get a BFP.

Above is my chart. Or you can click My BBT Chart link to the right.

Im going to go grocery shopping now...