tommorow i'll be riding on the big bird flying across the pond :)

明天下午的飞机
藏不住的愉悦
:)
有些朋友真的是
很奇怪
我甚至有一种错觉以前的一切都没有发生过
怀疑自己的脑袋哪里出了问题
我们以前真的曾经那么要好么
或许就是曾经咯
突然觉得我们的眼泪还有感动都很廉价
算啦
你不在乎
我又何必在乎
难道交朋友这种东西还要苦苦哀求回来?
我就当作自己年少无知
只记得那些美好的回忆就好了
我也不想假假说什么我理解你的现实

不要强求
也不要勉强
经历了一些事
觉得该你的就是你的
不该你的就算了
我也曾经天真浪漫努力追求自己心中的理想
心里喜欢的人
心里中意的学校
心里想要的未来
结果全部都徒劳
结果并没有因为我全心全意付出一切努力而有丝毫改变
每天太阳一样升起
每天夜晚照样来临
我的难过对这个世界根本没有一丝一毫的影响
所以可以的话
以后都不要浪费时间在难过这件事情上
我渐渐的相信命中注定
遇到什么事
遇到什么人
过什么样的生活
其实从一开始就决定好了
差别只在于你把路兜远了走崎岖了
抑或你一帆风顺直达目的地
如果你此刻在想
我是一个对自己的生活不再有热情的女孩
我不会否认
我已经失去了要掌控自己生活的那股热血
我真的已经不介意随波逐流
我不介意因为牙医这份工作前途无量即使不感兴趣我依然选择牙医
我不介意我不很爱这个男生但跟他交往因为他能给我安定幸福
我不介意稍微忤逆自己的感觉
我不再介意理性把感性打败
如果那样能够让心好过一点不再受伤疲惫的话

我没有很可怜
我只是变了
选择比较安分地过生活
:)

哪怕很痛过至少就不算错过:)

我想礼拜天大概是不太能读书的吧

无论是在家里

或者跑出来咖啡厅

好像都读不进脑

所以算了吧

我也无谓那么勉强自己

反正明天再读也还来得及

就是有点赶而已

不过出来坐一坐

感觉很好

身边的人都跟我很不一样

我突然发现我很喜欢这种感觉

大家都在自己的世界大转

大家都跟我不一样

外面终于有点阳光

比起前几天的阴郁

天空今天看起来比较明媚

很放松

用耳机把自己关在只属于自己世界的一角

我很喜欢

如果

现在坐在我对面那个帅哥鬼佬来搭讪我

搞不好我就会给电话号码他哦

可是

他手上好像戴着戒指耶

哈

我真的是一个很小气很小心眼的女孩

我真的很看不惯这个女生啦

真想在fb block掉他

省得我碍眼

我才不想装什么大方

那多累人

星期4考完试

就要开始准备回家的行李了

好像还有很多要买的

很多要收的

不过我一点都不觉得麻烦

要回家了耶

真的觉得很高兴:)

爸爸妈妈最近都不太跟我说话

不知道怎么了

大概真的太忙吧

姐姐讲他们是不想吵到我读书

跟妈咪我总是有很多的摩擦

从很久以前就是那样

尤其是在我升学还有做很重要的决定的时候

我们的意见总是不合

或许我看起来柔弱

每每人家问我意见总是说随便

一副大家高兴就好我无所谓的脸

但我自己知道

我的固执不亚于任何一个超有主见的大男人

性格太倔强

现在看回去真的不是什么好事

学着适度的妥协

原来也是一种成长

我的脑现在有一个人一直在转

不知道这样他会不会很累

大概会汗流浃背吧

哈

好可惜

好可惜当时的我不懂得珍惜

话说出去就收不回来了

就好像那个钉子的故事一样

我的心里有他钉下去的钉孔

密密麻麻的

他心里也有我钉下去的钉孔

相信也是密密麻麻的

而大家都还是要向前走的

或许我一步都还没有迈开

又或许我已经走得很远了

我也不知道耶

可能这次回去

我会把这些搞清楚吧

不过有一样事情很确定

现在的我适合一个人

因为我没有一丁点自信

可以让另外一个人幸福

所以我何必害人家

在一起又不是为了伤害人家

无论是他 他 他 还是他

我都不想给自己机会对不起人家

可能我真的是要再长大一点

才懂得怎么去爱

怎么去包容

怎么去关怀

现在终于明白

为什么有些人可以那么玩世不恭

却可以一下子那么的认真死心塌地

那是在等待对的时候遇到对的人吧

虽然

偶尔在那么冷的天

也希望有人可以握我的手

在酱舒服的环境

真的很适合放空东想西想 :P

我回去想要吃好吃的

很多很多好吃的

想去槟城

茨厂街

马六甲

要多回去看婆婆

妈咪讲我走了过后婆婆每天看到他就问我怎样

讲了很多话

听到我心都ngap 着ngap着

还想要去爬gasing山看日出

想要每天腻在爸爸身边

陪他去做工还有去练球

再听爸爸一副很骄傲的语气跟他朋友说

"neh 我的傻女咯...叫她不要来陪我他就是要来又不会打球...haiyor..hahahah"

还想要见一些朋友

还有一个很重要的

就是一定要趁大家不注意跑出去驾车把右边驾车练回来才可以

不然要去哪里都好麻烦哦

然后再回来美国的时候就开学了

要开始准备august transfer的东西了

我已经开始有点期待新的大学生活

希望不要好像现在那么平淡才好

houston的日子

除非你愿意每天晚上去party

不然还真的是闷到家

过了9点还开着门的商店真的是没有几间

有时想去吃宵夜都不懂要去哪里

每天吃包已经很闷很想呕了啦==

我现在在听郁可唯的好朋友只是朋友

很不错听:)

听你说什么我都很快乐

接近你连影子都微笑着

感觉再炙热

也不能让飞蛾去扑火

抱紧你的梦难道就能不失落

认识你也许我就足够了

缘分的深浅我都不管了

可能你感动

却看不见我心如刀割

哪怕很痛过至少就不算错过

好朋友只是朋友还是朋友不能够占有

好朋友疯狂以后就一个人走无所求

好朋友只是朋友只能保留一点点温柔

我知道什么时候回头不打扰你的自由

爱人不是最好的朋友

朋友再好也不能牵手

感情在天秤两头谁都怕太沉重

0551...12 December

1551...11 December

It's complicated

情绪很波动

:(

妈妈不高兴

姐姐因为酱也有点不高兴

然后有人不高兴

我不懂发生了些什么事搞得我在乎的人今天都不高兴

所以我好像也有点不高兴

我是不是又做错了什么啊

可是我最近真的很乖啊

要考试了我都很乖在读书

也有把该做的事做好

没有说错什么话

顶多就是去跟朋友抽个hookah

可能

是不是要哭一下再去睡?

可是我不哭很久了耶

所以

不如就不要管他睡觉啦

我今天做了所谓的鸡仔媒人

很auntie leh

不过如果有人能因为我而得到幸福那就没有关系

搞不好以后还可以有媒人红包 :P

wozhendeyouhenguai

yehuijixuhenguai

woxiwang

wohenzaihudetamenbuyaonanguole

buyaobukuaile

wolikaitamenhaoyuan

meiyoubanfazaishenbian

hongtamenkaixin

zhaogutamen

xiwangwokeyibazijidekuailehaiyouxingfugenwohenaidetamenfenxiang

suoyiqingrangwohenaidetamenkuaile

rangtamenjuedexingfu..pingan

xiexie :)

shuijiao

没有怎样读到书

不是太满意今天的进度

但是还是先睡吧

累了

看书的眼睛都昏昏的

今天起得太早了

我就快要回去了

不过要先把试考完

the end of semester is so near yet so far away from me

我觉得我天生就是那种不睡觉就会觉得自己很惨很惨的人

没有睡够一整天脾气都很不好

心情不好很毛躁

下次还是不要起得太早.哈

能让我牺牲睡眠的东西

还真的不多

18 days to go

我现在
有点不平衡
天秤如果失重
会垮掉
然后就会变得不再重要 丢掉
才能持续保持平衡
有一种情绪
是失望
怎么能够是你
我宁愿受一百次爱情的伤
也不愿意对你失望

旅行

失眠这种事

果然是久久做一次就好

明天我要怎么在那么冷的天爬起来去上课呢

哈

傻傻的

其实每一段故事都有它自己的精彩

然后就会突然长大一点

我觉得我有点太过分了

我又不是笨蛋

我 IQ 120耶

可是我现在真的笨到有点想打自己

然后我就去找我的天使

我跟她说我想去旅行

我跟她说我想走一走

我叫她带我去旅行

结果她告诉我

旅行是不用人家带的

我长大了

可以自己一个人去旅行

我莞尔

我真的想要去旅行

把那些我还放在心里

却都来不及被履行的

留在我旅行的途中

把它们都留在那边

就留在那些不知名的旅行途中吧

1811...30 November

0411...30 November

我不够爱你

我想我不夠愛你　

我不曾忘了自己 

沒那麼全心投入　

所以會一敗塗地  

我想我不夠愛你　

我忘了你的勇气 

沒辦法重來一次　

也只好聽天由命  

不能在沒有月亮的夜裡 

也不能輕易地閉上眼睛 

因為你會出現　

在天空或心裡  

不能在一望無盡的地方 

也不能鑽進那擁擠人群 

因為寂不寂寞　

都會提醒我 

我失去了　我不夠愛的你

恶心兮兮的一首歌:P

lalalala :)

生病

也不是生病啦

就女人病

真的很痛:(

我都觉得我快要晕倒了一直在冒冷汗

结果小凤姐就跟老板娘说让我先回家

老板娘人真的超好的

打工好辛苦

可是幸好我遇到了很多好人

大家对我很照顾

其实我真的很想再多些什么

可是我真得好痛

sorry my dear blog :/

下次吧

晚安

1350...28 November

2350...28 November

事无不可对人言

same feelings

same thoughts

same conflicts

tired yet annoyed by dramas

people are so different from me..so aliened

it's tiring when you have to listen to every thoughts and concept

and trying to convince me things that seem make-no-sense to me

i hope i can stay strong and be determined

i wont be influenced

i will keep in mind what my parents told me

what i've learned from my family

the art of social

the art of handling problems

所有一切待人处世的胸怀以及宽容的心

我家里赋予我的和善

我绝对会保护那份和善不被污染

ohana

too much consequences

too much considerations

i guess i just have to do what i think it's right

as long as i can be truthful

and face consciousness without guilt or fear

it's actually simple and easy

i love all of them

and i know all of them love me

i will try my very best to bring them happiness

and of course to myself too

:)

1153...24 November

African Child

woyezhidao

renshengyouxuduodeshiyuyuanwei

xiaoshihoushijiehenmeihao

henjiandan

wohuozaiwodechengbaoli

beichongaizhe

beihehuzhe

dangyigekuailewuyoudegongzhu

keshirenyaozhangda

ranhounihuifajuehenduodeshinimeiyoubanfakongzhi

yewufazhishenshiwai

zuixianshideyidianjiushi

nimeiyoubanfaxuanzhenidejiaren

meiyoubanfaxuanzheshuishiyuehuaitaibanishengxialai

wohenaiku

yehenrongyiku

kanyitaoxijiukeyimomingqimiaoluankuyichang

keshihoulaiwobukule

yinweizhidekudeshitaiduo

erwoyoutaiduodezhengshiyaozuo

womeiyoujingshenyebukeyikule

qishiwojuedewoyiqianzhendehenxingfu

17,8suishishiliandeshihou

wonashihouyiweishijiebunenggouzaigengzaole

duomexianmu

renweishilianjiuxiangshijiemoriyiyangdenvhai

shenghuogaishiduomemeiman

duomexingfu

erxianzai

duiwolaishuomeiyousuoweide"wohuobuxiaqu"

huozhe"wozhendeyijingnanguodaoyigejidian"

yemeiyou"wodeshenghuonanguodaowoxiangzisha"

ruguonihainengjiangnaxieshashadehua

gongxini

nizhendehenxingfunidongma

xianzaiwojuede

yigerenruguokule

buyidingshitahenrongyiku

kenengyanleileijiletaiduoyidingyaokuchulai

weishenmewohuibianchengzheyang

weishenmewoaidezhenxidedoubeiboduo

jiaren..henaideren...pengyou...ziwo...

ziyou..shijian...jingji...hexie

haiyounayikekuailedexin

tongtongwodoumeiyoule

wodedaoledongshi..chengshu...qiantu...duli...yanlei

haiyouyizhengkezhuangmanfunengliangdexin

meiyitiandouzaiyuyuguahuan

nayangdewo

zhendehaikeyiairenma

yigebukuailederen

yaozenmezhenchengdeweiaiderendailaikuailene

zhendehaiyouzigeshuoxihuanhuobuxihuan

huoweishenmeshiqingzhenchengdequnulima

duishengming

duiweilai

shibushizhendehaikeyihuaibaochongjingheqidai

haishiwojiuzhinengshishizaizaide

keshoubenfende

henchengshu..hendongshide...

wanchengledajiadeqipanne

yaodongshidezuoxuduoxuduoshiqing

yaodongshidebangbujiali

yiyouliangdechengjibiye

shishikekexiaoxinjingshenbugeishenbianderenherentianmafan

yaodongshidezhaogumeigerendeganshou

zhaodaoyifenxinsuihengaodegongzuo

zhaogebucuodenanrenjiehun

shengyilianggexiaohai

bahaiziyangdaranhouanjingde

bugeirenjiatianmafandesiqu

woxiang

ruguowozhendehenaiyigeren

woyidingbuyaogentazaiyiqi

nayangdewo

neixinzhuangmanfunengliangdewo

huibarenjiadeshenghuobiandeduomezaogao

duomebuxingfu

jiaren

kenengyebunengzhendejiaojiaren

wobingbuxiangwurulejiarenzhegexingfudemingci

pengyou

suoweipengyou

woxiangdingyikenengzhendebuyiyangle

dongshi

zhegemingcibaohandetaiduo

tahenzhong

henduoshihouwoyiweiwobeitayadetoubuguoqi

danwojieshoudongshiduishenghuodexili

shenghuo

taifuzha

wobuguoshiyigeputongren

ruguoniyuanyifangguowo

wohuixinchunganji

ruguobuxing

nawoqiqiu

jiuouergeiwoyidianjiaqiba

tuolishenghuoyixiaxia

chuankouqi

babujiandezijizhaohuilai

zaijixuqianjin

baituo

wozhishiyigehenpingfandenvhai

woyezhixiangdangyigehenpingfandenvhai

buyongxianxinyiyi

buyongchengshu

buyongdongshi

buyonghaipa

woyexiwangbeiai

yexiwangyougerennenggougenwoshuomgx

xiwangyourenzhendezaihuwokuaibukuaile

xiwangyourennengduiwoshaoweikuanrongyidian

erwoshuodezhexieyouren

bushibieren

shijiaojiarendeyizhongren

yinggaiyaodaibiaozhexingfudeyizhongren

successful life duh

what am i going to do with my studies

=/

feeling lazy and guilty but still doing nothing

i think i should quit that

procrastination is the obstacles in life

and i never am punctual

extremely unwanted habit

0320...17 November

0110...16 November

K :)

3 in the midnight just got back from chinatown

outing with alicia, chayxiang and well-i dont-know-his-name guy and some sort of them

it has been a long time since i last touched a mic and h*s* this is great

i enjoy my night very much:)

thought of my darling

no one there to order hot lemon tea for me :/

and i end up got myself a coke cause i decide that's a memory..some sort of 默契between me and ling :P

i remember how she always said "ling你要热的ice lemon tea 的是?"

and now i realize how important she is wahahaha

sometimes i hesitate to go out for parties with some of my friends cause i feel somehow insecure

*kays some of the friends refer to those new-made-friends...mostly open and gossipy*

like i would think of what if im drunk..what if they gave me some sort of drugs mixing in my drink without myself realising it? what if...x1000

okay i know im being over-sensitive..over-cautious..well anything u call it but im just afraid

didn't want to get myself into trouble...moreover im not in my territory...if sth's really up i don't have the ability to solve it..not to even face it perhaps...

eliminate every event that i think it might be harmful and attend those which seems okayy

which means events with trustful ppl or appropriate hours(lunch or dinner but not midnights)

i know..im boring and i hate myself being a nerd...duh :0

but comparing to those i cant bear to risk myself..so i guess im right..right? :) *winks*

that's why i hope my old friends are around...with them i dont have to worry of these sort of things...they are reliable and we take care of each others...

like..im quite sure that i can be a drunked crazy girl in front of hooi without thinking of anything else...i wont even worry that things might get wrong if i sleep over at his place...alone...not worried even if we are in the same bed*i never had that though*....this is what called trustful reliable best friend..trust without words...felt secure unconditionally :)

aiyor i hope next summer comes fast..i miss food...and many of em

AWWHH..sleepy..nite world (:

1734...12 November

0334...12 November

i think we are done with that

I love this new skin :)

neat and nice..

it's tuesday night

im not sleeping yet for obvious reason

mmhmm...i think i should cut off my fantasies

i wonder how many times i should remind myself that this is a realistic world

things wont be perfect

good to have dreams...however it's extremely dangerous to have 100% faith in it

got into the sudden rain in the afternoon..had pills but not feeling better

i guess this is the reason why im feeling quite

m...fragile tonight..yap..i guess fragile is the correct word to describe myself right now

i think i need a hug

nothing more, just a big warm hug

phew...let's talk bout something happy since this is the first post for this lovely skin

i watched johnny english reborn!!

this movie is awesome..brilliant..well you name it :)

it made my day and i certainly don't mind watching it twice

kinda late now

nite peeps

blessed ♥

1521...9 November

0121...9 November

it's thursday night :)

feel like changing my blogskins coz it's fall

well it has nothing to do with fall...i'm just trying to say something duh

bored of this blogskin..

mmhm...tried sth new lately and i kinda like it*i hope i can write it out but i cant*

i shop quite a lot...*half broke but satisfied* :P

celebrated halloween..a very new thing to me..it's interesting and fun :)

and the weather is changing...its chilly cold out there...

i think that this is the perfect weather to fall in love...

like it would be great if you got something warm in this weather

but...i'm satisfied with a mug of hot coco or cappuccino latte :)

you dont always need a big hands or hugs to keep your hands warm

something new lately would be...

i bump into a few americans

i do mean americans that would go party...hang out..stuff that i can see in the tv

i tend to keep distance from them when i first got here for obvious reason

i miss my old life so much and i refuse to change...and i was in the great depression mode and i got all those thinking like im afraid that i would change my own personality and culture or thoughts sort of sort of things etc. etc. *i just cant get enough of those negative thinking by that time..silly me...im not aware that ppl who truly loved me will have faith in me and just understand me*

erhem...back to the topic..i really do feel the difference between us...

it's a collision of culture and thoughts

they are much more straight forward and passionate

i can say they are easier to handle than asian friends when u first met them because they dont hide things and you dont have to guess and you wont have to 假假很客气一下酱...everything just seemed to happen by itself...joyfully and pretty neat...

but it's hard to get real close to actually talk something deep...and...i think trust are not easily developed.. all we do are parties and get crazy...everyone is an independent figure and you yourself is responsible of yourself...

i liked both ways

great news is i could now adapt to both culture and understand both culture :)

and even other cultures like korean and africans...the states is like the big blend machine of countries and cultures you can almost find anything you need there..*provide that you do love to explore new cultures*

i refuse to do so at the beginning wishing i will never leave my comfort zone and now realize that since im here i can do nth good to change this situation so i will have to adapt to it and like it...what so called 适应困境并且喜欢它(credits to my sanjie and my brilliant brain ;)

oh yeah and i can speak korean quite well now *well not literally..random words perhaps :P*

这两天有一个想法一直在脑里绕

不懂是好事还是坏事

心绪不宁

可能只是和荷尔蒙影响

虽然我也不懂哪来的荷尔蒙啦

1451...4 November

恋爱后遗症

会不会有这种感觉

一切安好

生活也在轨道上

但总觉得哪里不妥

心里少了些什么

最近生病了

医生说我被一种叫失恋的细菌感染

一般病患会出现像

食欲不振...

失眠...

恍神...

情绪管理能力大幅下降...

泪腺不受控制等症状

失恋是种韧性很高的细菌

能存活于体内任何器官

跟爱滋病毒有一个共同点

专门侵蚀人体中的白血球

破坏患者的免疫系统

严重的话会影响脑部与心肺功能的正常操作

脑部管理情感记忆的边缘系统将严重受创

情感成面的记忆将不受患者控制

彻底崩溃

偶尔也会出现心绞痛的症状

因人的意志力而症状各有不同

其实这是一种很普遍的疾病

几乎人人都有可能被感染

幸好这种疾病并不致命

就只是折磨着患者而已

而被感染的人

即使痊愈后也会落下后遗症

例如

患者以后将会对爱情过敏

再也不想接近...身体会本能地抗拒细菌侵入

或者性格想法上有所改变或是偏差

唯一正面的影响是使患者心智更成熟

医生开的方子:

1. 时间 500毫克

2. 新恋情 50毫克

医生说

让患者好好照顾自己

切忌自暴自弃

忌服含酒精饮品

忌期盼

忌自欺欺人

然后就是多喝水

多休息

最后医生给的忠告是

要明白失去的要不回来

把它留在美好的角落

最好就是把它彻底忘了刷新

很久过后才懂得

心里少掉的那一块

原来悬在你身上

1427...17 October

yes i know this is my blog not my diary :P

it has been ages since i've updated my blog...hmmmm...well my birthday just passed and it's kinda interesting...not as happening as i were in kl though but it's full of blessings and love...and yap im contented..you know what? actually i barely have the time to online and crap*obviously*...disappear for quite a long time and i miss out many things to be written on my blog :S...i've done many things and met many funny people....like....i've met a guy who has been wtching over a girl and kept stalking her for the whole full year without proposing to her....and got crazy when he finally got the chance to do so...i never knew someone can have such lovely aka funny expression when he is talking about someone that took his heart away...i thought that would only appear in those korean drama...erm...and i've tried several restaurants and found out many great food especially korean food...MAKJIBSTA!!..yap and i pick up many korean words taught by onyin...and...remember how i mumbled that there is no mamak stalls in the us?..i found 1...not exactly mamak...but you can call it indoor-more-expensive-mamak....it's Ihap and this particular restaurant serve 24 hours and the food is great too...i've watched several movies and seems great...without realising i can now understand the whole movie and conversations without subtitles *obviously they don' have english sub titles in the states*...i guess my hearing must have improved whole lot than i were 5 months ago...real steel is great but im shaking for the whole robot fighting section...im afraid of fighting scenes...and cant help blurting out profanes while im watching someone *or robots watsoever* wrestling each other....i pick up this bad habit since i was 14 or 15 watching my cousin brother fighting with some indian guys....ok now ack to real steel....yao it's touching and if you knew me well enough....no doubt im crying at the end of the movie.....same goes to the abduction....I LOVE THAT GIRL IN THE MOVIE SHE IS SO SO HOT!!!!!!!!Lily Collins...she looks like that girl from vampire diaries dont you think so? and lion king in 3d might sounds ridiculous but i have to admit i enjoy that show very much...though zain kept complaining that that's movie for 4 but not 19...and...wat wat so ever..haih wo qi shi you dian yu wu lun ci...wo hen lei...ke shi you zhen de hen xiang xie blog wo hen jiu mei you xie blog liao leh...mang dao ji dan gao jiang wo hen nan de you kong online....jie guo jiu ye bu dong zi ji xie liao shen me jiu jiang yi da dui luan qi bao zao....hao la wo kan wo hai shi qu shui jiao ming tian qi lai zai hao hao xie hao le....wo zhen de hen xiang xie dong xi ne....hen xiang fa biao yi xia wo zui jin kan guo de xi de yi xie xiang fa...hen xiang jiang yi xia wo de sheng ri zen me guo de....hen xiang jiang yi xia wo na ge hen hao xiao de psychology professor....hen xiang jiang yi xia wo hen li hai han guo hua liao...hen xiang jiang yi xia wo yu dao le hen hao wan de ren...aiyor wo tai duo dong xi xiang jiang liao...bu guo hor wo yao qu shui xian...lei si wo...nite nite world :)

1359...15 October

make a wish...saying "i hope u'll see this"

be good :)

stay positive happy and healthy

i miss you

a little more than you how think i would

1909...23 September

过得去

陌生的城市渐渐变熟悉

清晰的回忆滴滴被晕开

时间很匆忙

狂暴而理智

昔日身边各种角色换张皮又再扮演

不缺joker不缺伴也不缺疯子

旧替新似乎谁都无法避免

重新划定生活目标为此奋斗

塞满的生活找不出一丝丝空隙

就是有点懊恼睡前的那几分钟

总在提醒大脑其实血液里还有温度

变了大了家人欣慰地笑着

渐渐现在我也相信成熟了是好的

不过能不能容我保留最后一点童心

希望累了倦了有个对的怀抱可依靠

不过怕了慑了还是买个娃娃抱抱就好了

那点了不起的童心还是活在虚幻好了

现实生活太理智

它不相信那些美好得浪漫的事

一开始是压力后来是习惯再变成动力

没有什么是时间无法改变的

被期待的人生蕴含太多重量

而我骄傲我背负得了这些

绿茵蔚蓝人气归属

珍惜现在拥有的这些我每天都还可以微笑

失去的我放了都不属于我了

过去都不重要了重要的是人

远远地祝福我觉得比够更够了

其实一点都不糟该说很好

生活充实身体健康脸带微笑

不邋遢时还有男生停下吹口哨

硬要说点什么不好

就是很想家还有忙到没办法好好睡觉

其余的是个屁我不屑去上心

真正在乎的人过得很好那就好

烟花盛开了将会知道

所谓的美好只是几秒

人群散了将会知道

所谓的感动只是几秒

生活离不开感性

但事实是亲爱的

人必须活在理性

1509...18 September

0209...18 September

10 September

刚才在冲凉的时候

就在想

没有一双滑溜溜的眼睛呆在浴缸旁边

也没有粉红色的舌头舔着浴缸边的水迹

有短信进

那条笨狗也不会误以为是门铃乱吠一轮

好落寞

原来我也没有自己想象的厉害

其实不骗人也可以有另一种解释

其一当然就是那个人很重要

重要到你不要你们之间有不坦诚

你舍不得骗他

其二

也可以是那个人根本就是一个屁

你不屑浪费力气骗他

因为他的感受你根本不在乎

1210...11 September

2310...10 September

心有所属

今天是比较清闲的一天

功课不那么多

所以我就得空update一下:)

还可以看下戏

break的时候跟linh去china town吃饭

那家饭馆有sunway台湾的味道

盐酥鸡

然后我想起了桥牌

真的很久没有玩了

现在再上viwawa玩的话应该会气死我的partner

可能大家都是离开最熟悉的环境来到陌生地方读书的人

跟这个认识一个礼拜多的朋友还蛮聊得来的

看得出来是一个不省油的灯

大概也是疯子一名

虽然也是必须要用英文沟通

但是不知怎么的就觉得比起我之前认识的这里的朋友多了一份亲切

应该会是我人生中的下一个过客

其实也不是要把话讲到很悲

不过实际上就是那样嘛

大家都一样...没有分别

再也不要把谁看得太重

然后害自己好难过

自己活该笨蛋受罪

我今天又睡迟了

昨晚跟老婆聊得太晚

结果一起床刷了牙脸都不洗头发随便邦一邦就去上课了

我看在这里可以脸都不洗就去上课的人只有我一个

大多数都画到好像要走星光大道酱

而且每天都要贴假睫毛的话早上到底要及早起身?tolong lor..

也不懂我在骄傲什么:P

不过说实话

我觉得自己变懒了

不化妆出门

不化妆上课

每天睡前擦lotion的习惯也是记得便擦不记得便算了

手指也不涂指甲油了

也很懒惰敷面膜

衣服也穿得很随便

以前每天都穿裙子的

就算不穿裙子也是穿短短的裤子

可是我现在几乎每天都在穿长裤

有时不是那种比较可以看的jeans

是那种很asali的那种宽宽的在家穿的运动长裤哦

是不是开始有点缺乏身为19岁女生的自觉

哈

搞不好我回到去的时候我的朋友们都不认得我了

变了一个欧巴桑

而且是会烧菜的欧巴桑

不过也没关系啦

反正这里男生都怪怪的

都不懂是我遇到的大多都比较怪

还是他们本来真的就很怪

可是onyin说是我自己一直觉得人家怪

她说人家很正常

可是我听起来就好像她在骂我不正常

然后还要讲人家奇怪

哈

真的就是

你讲哪里有男生第一天认识就问女孩子同不同意婚前性行为的?=.=''

就算问得很不猥亵也很不正常好不好

长得很正常也不是大完的好不好

真的就不是我要故意看全部男生不顺眼啊

哪个女生不想有一个好男生好好疼自己

好吧就算有我也一定就不在那么清高的女生的行列里

可是总有好多事情

好多因素

而且我有点盲目到没有那个心情

我想我短时间内大概都跟谈恋爱没有什么缘分

讲真

我会怕

很怕

两次就够了

我没有那么多神经还有体力

再来一次搞不好就会把我弄垮了

所以我还是专心地继续gap 那个physic class的靓仔啦:D

突然领悟到的一句话

男生原来就跟漂亮的装饰品一样

眼看心勿动

动了心会痛

*yap laopo i will let u know his fb as soon as i got his fb...wahaha...i wont forgot i owe u this :P*

我好想家

一直在挣扎这个年尾winter break的时候要不要回家

如果回了

那我下一个summer就不可以回了

winter 3个礼拜

summer有3个月!!

而且jimui 也是summer从星加坡回来

他讲summer我回的话可以一起去旅行

ok我必须承认跟jimui去旅行是一个非常大的吸引点

我真的真的有够力久没有好好跟jimui去玩了

好像我离开中华过后就没有好好疯过

现在都只可以在skype看他给NUS这个变态大学折磨到半夜还没有得睡觉很可怜 :(

然后cwlp也是summer从英国回来

kel12月应该也不会在kl

虽然他就长一副见不见我也无所谓的脸啦:S

可是我还是很想见一下他

会想念我的疯子们

然后winter 的时候是christmas peak season机票比平时贵很多很多啦

可是 我很够力够力想家!!!!! :(

而且我一直在想我很怕冷

winter的时候很冷

可是hor

这里的christmas很热闹很漂亮的咧

搞不好可以去玩去滑雪什么的

可是我很久没有吃虾面了咧

而且我有点担心baby不认得我

如果有一条狗不认得自己的主人然后咬自己的主人是不是很搞笑?

但是如果我summer回家

就是说我就不会拿class

那么我就又浪费一个sem的时间

................................

*又再一次陷入典型的黄敏娴思绪混乱千头万绪矛盾中*

嗯

还有就是

不用担心我了

从出国到现在就一直在跟你说不用担心我

可是我好像一直发生那些会让你担心的事

我已经不去理不敏感不计较不去听也不在乎

所以什么都无所谓了

我会自己把该做的事做好

然后让自己开心

像你说的

你认识的那个我是很爱笑的

也不懂我哪来的自信

这篇东西好像很长

可是我就是觉得你会一个字一个字地看

也会耐心地看到最后然后发现我写给你的这一段

谢谢你朋友 (:

ok....finally im done crapping! :D

good night world...

may god bless my parents and my sisters

may all my loved ones lives in happiness and harmony

ily ♥

1216...7 September

2316...7 September

還是要幸福

ni hai shi yao xing fu

ni qian wan bu yao zai zhao re bie ren ku

suo you cuo wu cong wo zhe li luo mu

1632...5 September

0325...5 September

swing

如果小表妹再问我

"姐姐你的择偶条件是什么?"

这次我不会答

有feel就好

我会说

我喜欢帮我推秋千笑起来脸上有小酒窝的大男生

=)

0949...3 September

2049...2 September

jokes

今天上课还不错

就是有点累

明明就都还不错

现在的我

却感觉很空

心里空荡荡

好像没有着落点

感觉自己好像在一个不知名的城市流浪

想哭

但是哭不出来

还是可能现在对我来说

那么一件小事已经不足以让我哭了

不过就是情绪上出了点点小问题

所谓的

哭点已经变得很高了吧

该睡了

希望

真的希望

那个叫黄敏娴的笨蛋

今晚可以哭得出来

歇斯底里的

然后安稳入睡

1157...30 August

2257...29 August

fall semester

tomorrow is the first day of fall semester

which means it's time for new people and new syllabus of studies

so i've gotta switch my holiday mood off and get back seriously

know what

i really think i've changed

so much to learn

so much to lose

so much to gain

so much to realize

painful yet realistic

all packed in 3 months time

which i think it will continuously goes on for quite some time

and all of these contribute to a new me

there's only one thing i can be sure of

no matter what happens family is always my priority

always irreplaceable

and they are the reason why i kept telling myself to be strong and hold on firm

god

there's only one thing i pray for now

and im praying real hard

please send me an angel

an angel like my sanjie

whom i can throw away thoughts and apprehension and be loved

tomorrow shall be a good day right?

hope i wouldn't meet some cacat professors..

good night world :)

1338...29 August

0038...29 August

朋友

每个阶段都会有不同的人出现

珍惜当下

珍惜每一个出现在生命中的人

当时间流逝

走了那就是走了

热情不再

感觉不再

也不用觉得郁闷

新的一批过客又将注入生命中

只要以后翻开相簿

复习着点点滴滴依然觉得温暖那就足够了

在很久的以后...最后能沉淀下来的

很少很少

却会是所谓一辈子的好朋友

真真正正的好朋友

其实

也不过就是我把人跟人之间的感情看得太重

才会让自己感觉受伤

看淡些

现实些

也就好了

三姐的一席话

一语点醒梦中人

1304...27 August

0004...27 August

苦

分手很难过

再难过

都是说得出来的痛

都是可以承受的

时间把一切冲淡了也就会好起来的

过程很苦

也终究会苦尽甘来

我知道我早晚会没事的

但是我现在的苦

说都说不出来

不可以说出来

也不敢说出来

没有任何一个人是可以倾诉的对象

本来可以的现在变得不可以了

我也不想要了

家人以外的人不可以

家人却也更加不可以

也许比起很多人

不算什么

但是对我而言

这些就够了

已经很足够

可以毁掉那个快乐的我了

不是我的人生么

如果我想要选择轻松平凡

十年二十年后会付出的代价

那也是咎由自取

怨不得人

是我的选择

就算到时后悔了也是我的选择

说我短视也没关系

我的人生

是我的决定

不要变成负累

也不要别人干涉了

选择了不平凡

那我就丧失了快乐的权利

得到的会是辛苦还有非一般的努力

又有谁敢保证不平凡就一定会快乐

如果拼搏了数十年变成不平凡了

到最后居然发现自己连笑都不会

连哭都觉得多余了

毫无意义

人生只会变成一场可悲又可笑的戏

除了家人

我现在已经没有什么可以失去的了

不是爱我么

让我像一般人那样活着吧

我没那个能耐

也不要把你们的理想加注在我身上

平凡的苦

我甘愿担

未来的痛苦

我甘愿担

心碎心碎

不是都碎了么

没有啊

明明就还感觉得到

它就在我身体里面

扑通扑通地跳

没事没事

不是都没了么

没有啊

它明明就藏在每个角落里

提醒着我多么渴望被需要

会过会过

不是都过了么

没有啊

明明就还很在意

我又不是瞎了怎么会看不见

明明就没有过

明明就还在

明明就不舍得

明明就一直不停拼命地在吵闹喧哗我又不是聋了怎么会听不见

没有很想你--quoted

其实我没有很想你

我只有在听歌的时候才想起你

因为歌里唱的好像是我和你

其实我没有很想你

我只有在看电影的时候想起你

因为男主角演的很像你

其实我没有很想你

我只是在开心的时候想起你

你是我第一个想要分享的人

其实我没有很想你

我只有在一早睡醒的时候想起你

因为梦里出现的那个人好像是你

其实我没有很想你

我只有在一个人驾着车的时候才想起你

因为手心空空冷冷的有些不习惯

其实我没有很想你

我只有在翻日记的时候才会想起你

因为你的名字一直出现在日记本上

其实我没有很想你

我只有在打开电脑的时候才想起你

因为你的帐号被放在第一位会冒出来很显眼

然后因为怕打扰

就更加能够确定

其实自己没有很想你

我怎么就写不出那么感性兮兮的东西

真羡慕那些人有那么好的文笔

1449...22 August

0149...22 August

:)

And now I know

people remain silence

either it's because it means nothing

or it means everything

people decide to let go

either it's because it means nothing

or it means everything

1205...20 August

2305...19 August

wo shi yi ge hen yong gan de mei nv

好吧你爱怎样就怎样反正这些日子从小没有少过过

加油黄敏娴ok的没什么大不了的

使出你最拿手的一笑而过好好入睡吧

有一种爱不为什么

不是因为你做了什么

不因为你那里比别人好

反正就很无可救药的喜欢

打从心底的想要对你好

想让你快乐

就很纯粹的

就爱

可是我突然发现

很多人嘴里嚷着很爱很爱

那在很爱的名义下其实他们什么都没有做

我不懂爱一个人要怎么样

可是至少不是这样

每天只是不停地叫嚣着很爱很累很受伤却什么都不做吧

我最近当很多人的爱情顾问

讲话都有哲学去了

而且很可悲

好像世界只剩下下他们眼中那颗苹果

那父母呢

你的爸爸妈妈那么爱你

他们那么的宝贝你

你就那样一直为别人难过么

虽然

我也明白

所谓爱了就盲了

我很努力在用我的方式来爱

希望你可以快乐

Intro

tired

going to sleep

xoxo

1225...11 August

2325...10 August

furthermore

还有话还没说清呢

所以延续一下上一个post好了

我真的觉得

跟你暧昧的男生是一个屁

喜欢当然有

但真的没有到爱

爱的话就不会忽近乎远忽冷忽热

sorry

如果有人想跟我说这是情趣我会说那是bullshit

女生

如果闷

生活无聊

刚好没有什么事情忙那玩一玩还是可以的

毕竟甜甜的我想每个女生都喜欢

认真?

那就免了

就算做尽了一切情侣该做的事

那也不算什么

翻着旧账诉说过去只会让自己的结局更加难堪

玩得起

你就要放得下咯

明知道是放不下的

那就不要自以为是配合着人家玩

换一个出发点

一开始就摆明着只想跟你暧昧

不想给你名分女生

你早就该懂你对他而言不算什么的不是么

认真了

你怪得了谁

世界上笨蛋怎么那么多

比我家baby还笨

我是不会同情的

ok

发泄完了我要读书了

1313...10 August

0012...9 August

no such thing as eternal

life is short

and things change in a sudden every very next second

people might change out of nothing

and all these might happen in a glimpse of light

appreciate things and people while you can

most of all

stay happy

life's too short to have sadness occupying oftentimes

i can accept the fact

sincerely

1249...10 August

2349...9 August

=')

nevermind

dust

this picture froze in my mind

sunsets by the river

two figures with long shadows dragged by the rays

sitting on the ground

wind breeze

joyful harmony in the air

a large rottweiler and an australian sheperd pup playing around

im happy today

1208...9 August

2308...8 August

7.7

好累

打完这篇日志然后去吹干头发我就要睡了

明明就打算今天什么都不做的啊

结果我还是做了好多的事情==

弄到现在才刚刚回到家冲好凉

刚有一个朋友告诉我昨天是7月初7

我第一个反应就是

鬼节么??怎么了?

第二个闪过我脑袋的东西就是

"aiyor...如果我还在m'sia 的话就可以去看很多好看的鬼戏 =/"

才懂原来是七夕节啊

不过不懂为什么

七夕情人节听起来就很不浪漫

它就莫名地长一副很不浪漫的样子

有人在庆祝的么??

听说过是要去抛柑什么的

小时候爸妈带我去过一个湖边抛

我记得那时候健宏哥哥也有在

他就带着我抛柑

也不懂哥哥现在过到好不好

我小时候还一口咬定长大要嫁给他

叫他不可以结婚先要等我

真的是很好笑

看来我的幻想能力还有霸道是从小就有的啊

与生俱来的吧:P

哥哥会把我放在大腿上跟我讲很多很多的话

陪我玩很多我不太想得起来的东西

反正印象中就是很开心

后来可能我长大了吧

然后大姐出国读书

哥哥就比较少来我家了

就生疏一点了

有一阵子我还会一直追问妈咪哥哥出了哪里

会难过

希望哥哥过到很好很好=)

也不懂我现在乱七八糟在打些什么

今天晚上

睡觉前可能要花个几分钟时间整理一下我的脑袋

今天特别多东西在脑里面绕

狗狗该怎么办

我的final来了要准备的东西

我要跑去弄acc

什么时候约了朋友说话要写下来不然会忘记

整理时间表

这整个月里做了很多appointment要见很多人

counselor...tabulator manager...bookstore manager...vet...career pharmacist

要听一连串的很快的英文

我觉得我有进步了呢 :）

嗯...反正不懂为什么我就有很多诸如此类的生活琐事

好像一个大人一样

可能就是提前训练我成为一个大人对吧?

我很想念那个可以每天为所欲为的时候

我几时爱去喝酒我就去

我几时爱看戏我就看

我爱睡到几点就睡吧

爱怎么跟朋友疯我就疯

不去上课也没什么大不了的

现在不可以了呢

有很多commitment

答应了自己还有很多人很多事情

当大人好麻烦

好吧

我这个披着大人皮的小孩累了要睡了

晚安:)

ps: 我很喜欢这首歌...听起来心情就很好

愛是一場越過天際 落向永恒的旅行
原來一切只是美麗 當我終於明白我愛你
薰衣草田的夏季 每段小徑都很甜蜜
北方撿拾楓葉的那片森林 連松果落地時都在開心

天氣很晴你是一行 蔚藍色的詩句
湖泊很靜而我學著 朗讀無處不在的愛情

比利時的黑巧克力餘韻不如你
葡萄莊園裡的香檳清澈不及你
古典鋼琴彈不出 你微笑時的聲音
愛你才是我最重要的旅行

山腰蜿蜒的小徑餘韻不如你
琉璃瓦上的雨滴清澈不及你
你是這個世界 旅行中最美的 風景

1421...7 August

0121..7 August

BR

stop by br in the neighborhood after having my dinner :))

xing fu ying gai jiu shi zhe zhong gan jue le

onyin said i will smile unconsciously when im eating icecream

the magic of sweeeet dessert huh

swipes out bad mood

and gives you smiles in return

zui xi huan de chocolate mint

hai you rainbow

zhe li ye you :)))

this reminds me of the super random night of mine :P

i sure am crazy..poisoned...gosh

before and after editing makes a different isnt it? hmm ..=]

brought yuhoo to vet today

she's doing great! ^^v

she's pretty isn't she?

1218...6 August

2318...5 August

super power

when it comes to priority or the importance of things in life

i feel like im a big big big dummy

i envy those who can be carefree and yell out i dun care bout this this that that

i hope i could be one of them saying things like

"you know, this is just not my priority in life, i can have it, but i won't feel a thing without it"

AWWH...! =(

i care bout things...way too much than i should

and i hook up

and do crazy things

and emotion swings

eventually i got myself trapped

but im just so sorry

i care for it..and without doubt they will be my priority

i cant help i just love them more than anything else

ppl and not to mention my likes

oh god watever

im just wondering how can some of them be so calm and rational

these two things don't seems to exist within my soul -.-''

and this reminds me of lyrics of a song

我是该好好学习

说忘了就把你忘记

could a normal person forget someone else that easily?

we are humans not robots aren't we? *still confuse*

and one of my frens told me this is called rational

dude....i barely can let go of my ex after we broke up and that lasts for like a year...

and im sad of the death of my pet dog and eat vege for 3 months

i guess im way too 感情丰富

到有点无可救药的地步==

yap i definitely am jealous

of those who are rational

or at least could pretend they are rational and cry alone in their bed after the tiring play

i couldnt even pretend to be rational and calm..lol

i can imagine how funny it is

a girl smiling saying "i dont care, this is nothing, im done with it, im fine"

maybe with a cocktail..try to sounds cool..

but with tears flowing...lost of control...

believe me...this is going to be real funny and akward

the whole picture seems so wrong to me -.-''''''

so i conclude the ability to be rational calm cold-blooded as a super power

well it do exist

but not everyone posses it

i dont need super power

im not superwoman and didn't plan to be one

maybe minor power will do

minor power is good enuff for me

increase the level of eq a lil more

=)

ps: ily

0239...6 August

1339...5 August

不认识的你

我听说你很多的事

因为你

我看清了很多事情

那时候的我

说过我同情你对吧

现在

我该说我感激你

真的谢谢了

不过我不同情你了

自怜怜人会让生活变得很糟糕的

才懂

无论是谁都没有办法说同情

假装理解

因为没有资格

也不需要

只有你自己知道

就是

被判了死刑的囚徒

却没有被知会行刑日期

就那样被收押在死牢里

于是很焦急

于是很恐惧

害怕死亡的来临

却也没有办法扭转局面

也提不起自我了断的勇气

还期待着事情也许会有转机

哪怕机会多么渺茫

于是就那样耗着

还真是一种很高明的精神虐待

恭喜你

死后从生

犹如脱蛹蝴蝶

如今绚烂缤纷

祝福我

得到赦免

终究能换来重获自由的那天

还在期待

还抱着希望

0321...5 August

1421...4 August

meicidouyaojiangbukaixin

meicidouyaochaojia

meiyicidushijiang

yaowochuguo

haobawochuguole

woshenmeshihoubutingnidele

ranhouxianzaiwoyaolaodaoyigebuhuixiangdezhuiming

nageshihoushuodemingmingjiubuyiyang

shinizijigenwoshuoshenmedoubuyongdanxinde

xianzanigenwoshuonifudanhenzhongwohenbuhuixiang

shenmedoushinishuolesuan

woderensheng

woquefengcikebeihaoxiaodaowanquanmeiyouzizhuquan

niyaobuyaozhijiezaiwodeshoushoujiaojiaoshangfengshangxianrennibaibu

jiuhaoxiangyigebuouwawa

rangninengsuixinsuoyu

shila

wobuhuixiang

shila

xianzaiwodaizaizhegemoshengdechengshishiquleyiqieshiwoyaode

weilenikouzhongnaliaobuqideqiantu

nijuedehenhaodeqiantu

wogenbenbuxihanyebuxiangyaodeqiantu

nagerangwoyuyuguahuanzaiyebuxiangyiqiannayangxiaodetamadeqiantu

nixianzaigenwoshuonixishenghenda

shila

nishishouhaizhe

wodedaoleyiqie...xianzaiyisishijiangshima

nadaodishiweishenmededaoleshijiederenmeitianguodexiangshiqulequanshijieyiyang

daodishiweishenmededaoleshijiederenmeitianwanshangshuijiaoqiandouyaonuliburangzijikuzheshuizhao

daodishitamadeweishenmededaoleshijiederenmeitiandouyaobazijinongdehenmanghenmangbugantingxialai

shenpayitingxialaijingshenjiuhuizhilibengsui

duia

wotamadededaolehenduorenxiangyaoyaobudaodetamadequanshijie

blue monday

today is terrible

i got my averages and im upset with it

facing pressure from my studies

my life

and economic

worst of all my relationships

all these shouldn't have happened

maybe i've been abandoned by the goddess of lucky for a few days

i try looking on those documentaries of african child

as always crying while watching

despite i wonder the tears are flowing for em or for my own self

well it made me felt better

they are worried bout surviving instead of studies

and all those minor stuff compared

and then told myself 知足常乐

it's ok if things go wrong

im going to keep myself encouraged and make it better

its ok if u don't care of how i feel

im going to keep myself positive as possible

it's ok of getting hurt

im going to be strong

it's ok to feel sad

tears will do the job

it's all ok

life moves on

with smiles and enormous effort

i promise

im going to pick up yoohoo this evening from the animal shelter

im sure im going to feel better with her around

hello minxuan mummy:)

may god bless you

2343...1 August

1043...1 August

pet

我要养一只狗 :)))

后天就可以去spca看狗狗了

我连名字都想好了

就叫裕次郎

华语名字的狗住在美国一定很帅

很多日本戏狗狗的名字都是这个

我觉得很帅!=)

我很想念baby

还是觉得他应该会不习惯没有人的空得空蹲在旁边跟他讲话

虽然三姐一直强调他过得很好

还是酱懒看起来还是笨笨

我在这里再养一只狗应该会分薄我对baby的爱

是不是有点点对不起他

不过

哈

我还是很想养一只狗

索利

我真的对兔子没有好感

就算一只催眠自己喜欢兔子

还是没有办法喜欢

不喜欢

2353...29 July

1053...29 July

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0008...29 July

morning :)

it's 6.54 in the morning

was waiting throughout the night

no sign

i wonder if you ever know how it feels

off to test

mixture emotions of miserable and somewhat-unknown-emotions-called

i guess the purpose of this post early in the morning is to tell you i miss you

1959...28 July

camwhoring :)

这是一场美丽的意外

赶着出门

因为懒惰吹头所以戴帽子

因为夕阳很刺眼所以戴太阳眼镜

至于那个很丑的jacket完全是出自于summer我很怕晒

:P

因为穿成这副德性

所以还要在那边扮思考拍照

其实我明天有考试的

可是我还在edit照片

hmmm

真不懂我哪来的淡定

如果朋友们看到一定会说这样很好看

因为遮完整张脸了

anyway今晚要熬通宵

明天放学回家就好好睡吧

azaza minhyun thongseng! fighting :)

ps:imy♥

1256...28 July

2356...27 July

qeng qeng tap tap

午餐吃很饱很饱

怎么办呢

还是没有办法

可不可以不要给空间

空间大得我都摸不着你的心了

好像什么都不知道

可不可以就赖着不要动

不过每个人都跟我说不可以呢

妈妈

姐姐

悦

我身边的人都说我要更乖一点

更长大一点

不可以太任性

让我很矛盾

很懊恼

好吧

反正每个人是生命独立体

我会努力的

给我多点点时间

我还需要时间练习

练习不去依赖

练习体谅

虽然这样

有点点不幸福

很常会觉得小失望

不过我会把它变成幸福满满的:)

0355...28 July

1455...27 July

mgxwan

寂寞当然有一点
你不在我身边 总是特别想念你的脸
距离是一份考卷
测量相爱的誓言 最后会不会实现

我们为爱还在学
学沟通的语言 学著谅解 学著不流泪
等到我们学会飞
飞越黑夜和考验
日子就要从孤单里毕业

我们用多一点点的辛苦
来交换多一点点的幸福
就算 幸福 还有一段路
等我们学会忍耐和付出
这爱情一定会有张证书
证明 从此 不孤独

1241...25 July

2341...24 July

bibim bob ^^v

ok...a new spot for my life in america

the food is incredibly nice :)))

0830...25 July

1930...24 July

我想不到标题wtf

这两天我的日记心情不太稳定

大概又在闹脾气

可能是荷尔蒙失调了

到底是像谁

一本臭记事本还敢跟我闹脾气

其实我很想跟他讲

怕什么吵架

有的吵不是好咯

等到你连吵架的机会都没有的时候

你就不会再跟我投诉这些有的没的的了

吵架了还有我这个姐妹熬夜陪你说话

也算是酱了啦

瑜伽

羽球

星巴克

甜品屋

小说

认识一堆乱七八糟的人

有的没的

我有在很努力把生活填满满

很努力用美丽颜料为生活漆上绚烂色彩

对了

我病好了

不过写不写这个好像都没有关系

如果有人关心我病得怎么样的话

不说的不明白理所当然

不过如果是摆明着说了还不明白是不是可以去撞墙

那个感觉很像

画了还不美的

真的是很惨的了

已经退一步了

如果你一直打算前进

那就会把我压垮了

因为后面找不到路让我退了

我愿意闭上眼睛流浪

我才发觉美国是一个很适合背包旅行的国家

等我放假吧

如果有遇到志同道合的朋友

那就去背包旅行

完成我的梦想

拍很多很美的风土人情

吃很多道地美食

*到底是道地还是地道??*

那一定很有满足感:)))

不过现在真的是有点烦

因为对我来说很重要所以会烦

你怎么连话都说不清楚

又不是蔡依林

可以不要烦么

我没有办法跟你说

"i dont give a shit on you"

之类的话

所以有问题的可以不要是你么

1535...24 July

0235...24 July

history

也不懂自己是在心虚什么

讨论了这一些

说了那些

下意识地想把全部记录删除掉

好像做错了什么事一样

对不起

0107...23 July

updates :)

some updates from me :))

this is before my haircut and we were having bbq and a lil splash park for the little ones

i think i look pale without makeup

and i barely can see my eyes..haha

so this is the power of make up

although sometimes i think it's kinda fake up

like it can turn everything in to a virtual image

somehow i put on makeup too sometimes:P

and this is my cutest papa mama!!!

they went for a marathon on the Sunday

spot that Uncle McD!!!!!

im so in love with this picture

i can see happiness and love...

being together for 30+ years

i hope im that fortunate to have my life partner with me

even when we grew older and older by days

and maybe we'll go marathon together

and my lil doter will show my photos in her blog

proudly presenting her papamama :))

like what im doing now

i love my pama

very much

and the final photo for the day..

*phooow*blow blow blow

dajie made me hold that lil windmill and pretend not noticing i was being captured..

the old story...haha

im getting better...

it doesnt hurt that much...

and i had mcd for dinner..dining out today...

and i remembered the date with those insane every wed.

like we used to enjoy the time we spend together :))

i miss em

as well as my lp.jimui...zhu

not to mention home

OHH WTF..i accidently delete my songs from my playlist!!!

ar.....mei you li liao la wo

bu yao xie liao...yao yi shou shou ge qu nong hui lai liao

=/ hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

1200...22 July

2300...21 July

Not that bad after all

I didn't end up breathing hard

normal body temperature and still..pretty as ever *cough cough :P*

neither encounter any sickness from non-fb

Apparently im not that addicted to fb as i thought i was

it's kinda cool thing to discover this fact

though i was thinking of reactivating my account from time to time..haha

especially when i got tons of photo but no where to upload

and my mum's quite upset cause she can no longer update on me whenever she likes on her ipad

*i just found out that she's stalking me!!! my fb page is one of the top icon on her ipad..haha*

everything seems to be going smooth for me

well except im suffering from hfmd...which i think is not a severe problem...i will get well eventually ..

but i got this feeling of uncertainty

like something's swirling inside my mind

like it was keeping me off my track

and telling me something bad is going to happen soon...

it echoes "we are not okay at all......"

and i know exactly what's that about..

i hope hfmd affects the hormone too..and these will turn out to be the hormone imbalance fault

skipped class today cause i cant even walk properly with the red dots on my foot

so im gonna sleep now and head to class tomorrow*bu yao zu zhi wo!*

i hope that feeling will disappear as i wake up tomorrow

like the pine tree gradually invisible and sank into darkness as i watched for quite some time beside the lake...i hope this would happen to me at that instant...

i really am willing to give out my very very best

so please be fine

if it still turns out bad

i guess there's nothing more i can do

and that would be definitely killing painful..at least for me..it sure will be...

so tell me it's perfectly fine

tell me i will not get lost would you?

1331...21 July

yan lei

hen tao yan

shi bu shi yi ding yao wei zhe ge hua ti liu jiang duo yan lei

shi yao zen yang cai ke yi tao li

nan dao zhen de yao xue na zhong bakqi ren jiang pao qu zi sha cai ke yi jie tuo

wo hen ai

ke shi wo zhen de hen yan juan

1004...20 July

this is funny :)))

i just realize im in a good mood just because of this simple chat :)))

it has been a long time since that happen...

i really appreciate that..much

red dots popping out from my palms...

and i feel like my throat is burning...

luckily fever and headache are both gone! =)

im going to recover in a week according to dajie (well i got infected by her)

haha

this is the third day..so i've got 4 days to go...

after that i'll say goodbye to porridge and go for dimsum! ^^v

im surely not going to tell onyin im sick..so she'll bring me to the superb nice bi bi bob shop

i wanted korean food so badly

even i swallow real hard...and im sure it hurts a lot to have spicy food at this spot...

but..who cares...i just want to eat!

im in a good mood

llalala...suprisingly good :)))

good nite world..

ps: wan

1235...19 July

=)

hao la

ru guo ni jue ding shan diao na duan bu yu kuai de ji yi

bu yao rang ta ceng wei wo men zhi jian mei hao guan xi de wei yi wu dian

na wo jiu shan diao ta la =)

wo hen kai xin =)))

2145...19 July

friend

this is funny =P

and brighten up my mood a lil

yap im sick..

laying on the bed for two days

thrown out and cant barely eat...

hm...im infected hfmd(shou zu kou zheng)

bless me:)))

tata

0113...19 July

1213...18 July

我爱的你...你好么?

我度过了没有你的第3个新年

大家也都还很好

闹哄哄的

我总会想起关于你的许多小事

聊着聊着

话题总是很容易又绕到你身上去

说你的好

说你的不好

每次讲起来

脑里面都会有很多画面在绕

笑起来的眼睛眯成一条线

挂在圆乎乎的脸上

从我有记忆开始

那张脸便是那样圆乎乎的

肚子也那样圆乎乎的

手指头也那样圆乎乎的

全都肉肉的

每个小细节

你就是那样清楚地活在我心里

活生生地烙印在我们大家的脑海里

总是在谈论你是笑开怀

一人一句

一人一段回忆

一人一份怀念

一人一份爱

我想大家都没有发觉

其实在我们心里你从来没有真正离开过

在欢笑过后

没有任何一个人敢正视对方的眼睛

因为我们知道鼻酸在下一秒就会忍不住

在眼泪还没有涌现

必须把它止住

你好么

在哪一个角落

会记得偶尔回来看我们么

我很乖

我没有忘记那时候答应你的

我去美国读书了

读你那时候说的很了不起的大学

也有听长辈的话

也找到了爱我的人

你该不会还是那么爱喝酒吧

你知道么

每次别人说我是酒鬼...酒量很好...跟公公一模一样

我就打从心里高兴

对啊

我当然是一个酒鬼

我酒量本来就应该好的嘛

我是公公的孙女啊

我真的很高兴

我是你的孙女

对不起那时候的我那么不懂事

对不起我说了过分的话

我过得很好

我想你一定在保佑我

在很远很远的地方继续爱着我们

就像我们爱你一样

我很想念你

大家都很想念你

刚又跟悦聊起你

他说

他很想你

姨说她梦见你在一个很漂亮的地方

有很多没有看见过得水果

绿茵的草原

七彩的天空

我不知道那是不是姨姨太想你了所以日有所思夜有所梦

不过

如果真的有那么漂亮的地方

真希望你就可以在那边

快快乐乐

不要再生病了

不要再哭了

在那边一定也看得到我们吧

就像你打麻将时候会有的笑容

就那样一直笑着

开开心心吧

我跟你说过的

我答应你的

我会做到的

1222...16 July

2322...15 July

awake

im still awake with my heavy lids

fairly faint on my desk

and i've gotta wake up by 7 tml

and my dearest groupmate hasn't got back to me

or shud i say he'd never get back to anyone else yet

and it's night time 2337 now

and we're having presentation tml

i just wanna ask

What Wrong With These People?

haih

他们到底有没有那份自觉明天要present=.=''

还是其实他们没有那份自觉这个present占final的15%

所以

jin ma si an jua?

should i just sleep and leave everything?

or should i just keep waiting like a fool

haih

无奈

ok...给你多五分钟然后我就要去睡了(mou ren hen chang zhe yang jiang)

good night world :)

1242...15 July

2342...14 July

i find myself praying hard in my bed writing blog like a foolish

ok..now..i need the courage

i feel the desperate need of bravery

please bless me with that

and tell me everything is going to be good

please

thank god......

1017...14 July

2117...13 July

我还有话要说

我还有东西紧握着不想放开

所以可不可以请你千万不要选择沉默

class

I'm upset with the class

=/

you cant expect an international student who is not familiar with ur culture and us history to understand things that you think it's common sense

do you?

*sighing a big sigh out*

it's like...eating malay food with bare hands are common sense to me

apparently not to you

that's what it is...

:(

how would i even know the way us students working in group is so weird...

i mean...totally different with what i used to practice in school?

i will figure it out anyway

jiayou minxian =)

0044...14 July

1144...13 July

I'm who I am after all betch

ok i know im writing my blog more frequently than usual

but this is fucking mad

stop using my name to achieve your goal

you want something or wanted to know anything

go ask in a proper manner by your own fucking name

want to know anything come to me face by face

when i said no u should just spend a lil fucking of your time to think bout it

what made me refused to tell u?

what made me lost faith in you?

i just find out that she is freakening fake

even more than i thought

i didn't have that words

i didn't ask for anything

if anyone who should know me well enough

they should know it i wouldn't have do that kind of silly thing

naive and yet disgusting

soOo...

stop distorting the fucking fact about me

what you claimed u see and you hear and u feel

it has nothing to do with u anyway isn't it?

i have my own life and i'm happy with it so do my family and my sisters

we are faithful, loving and honest to each other just in case u don't know(U fucking know that for sure)

STOP SPREADING RUMORS LIKE I'M HAVING BAD RELATIONSHIPS WITH MY FAMILY MEMBERS AND WE ARE HIDING THINGS FROM EACH OTHER!!!

this is the worst part that i cant tolerate with

i can stand you for doing anything bad on me

even slander or faking things up on me

i really can and is always willing to smile and forgive you

but if you are going to say anything to do with my family

I'M SO FUCKING SORRY

then i shall not have to wear the mask for your good

and i'll just tear it off and speak out

letting you know...I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU HAVE DONE THESE YEARS

don't push me to my border

where i had made it clear

don't do silly things

you are just going to fucking annoying disgust me more

PS: sorry for all the profanity*just wanted to type out what exactly the hell im thinking directly, honest huh? =) *twink**

PS again: did anyone just said that im not truthful to her..not being honest? *sarcastic*

0250...12 July

1350...11 July

history

历史课

坐在我周围的

都很魁

我更加强烈感受到我体形很小

有那种感觉就是

如果我不小心被他们随便一个男生掐着脖子

一定很快就会死掉

大只到有点点恐怖=P

每天上两个小时的课

好像有点太得空

该做些什么让自己忙起来

不想也不能停下来

看到一些关于bersih的录影还有照片

会看到掉眼泪

看到我一直鸡皮疙瘩

暴力

流氓

畜牲

荒唐

政府

警察

军队

这些字眼如今对人民而言已经没有任何差别

而那些等号

正是政府亲自画上去的

到底是怎么了

可耻

站在一个人民的立场

真的很心酸

已经17天了

我才懂原来自己的忍耐力那好

我真的就可以那么浑浑噩噩得过且过

我真的可以忽略自己的很多想法感受

我真的可以每晚oneshot下去倒头就睡

会好的=)

0132...12 July

1232...11 July

Truth that Cannot Be Covered

this video says it all

heartbroken seeing these

0117...12 July

1217...11 July

night night

wanshangzongshitebiedenanao

hennanhennan

bitaoyansirendecompositionhainan

bunengrangzijihenzhuanxindezailuanluanxiang

suoyiwoyizhihenzhuanxindezaizhaoshiqingmang

keshiwofajuewochuncuizhishihenzhuanxindezaipianziji

bukeyiahuangminxian

yaoguai

yaodongdezunzhongbierendejueding

yaodongdebugaiweinanrenjia

yaodongdeyinweibierenkeyikaixindexiaoerxiao

zhishao

buyaorerenyan

jiayoubaobei =)

sayang

wanan

1342...11 July

0042...11 July

new

new hair cut plus a new color with a new start of school tomorrow

bless me :)

1005...11 July

2105...10 July

生日纸鹤我到底该怎么折

后天又要开始上课了

相信应该不会太忙

所以我会有很多时间复习clep test

看了professor rate

好像是一位很不错的老师

有点期待他=)

不过就是要很早起身

8点的课

我应该7点就该起床了吧

=/

我一定又很常迟到的怎么办

很懊恼咧 :S

那时候选时间以为早点放学比较容易联络到大家

但是现在再早放学都没有用了

时间又换不了了

几好笑一下的我

这两天考完试了

却也没有好好休息

我怎么那么忙

忙着做很多的事情

忙着熬夜

忙着发呆

除了这些无谓的

还忙着做好多的事

我越来越会做菜了

放心嫁得出去了=P

以后应该饿不死老公了

看了那个

我好像被扇了一个耳光

突然明白

原来大家最爱的

都是自己

没有别人

都只有自己

因为没有爱

所以没有得到祝福

落得现在这个下场

是完全可以被理解的

我开始适应这里的一切

没错

是比较少笑了

是比较冷清了

多多少少变了

可是日子还是照样在过着

也算过得很不错

夜了

该睡了

晚安

1454...10 July

0154...10 July

:)

wo hen gao xing

ke yi ba ni huan gei ni

1453...9 July

dao di hai yao duo nu li

wo mei you shuo de

ni dong ma

1828...7 July

final in summer

finally done most of the revised essay

now im left with one more self defense essay to complete the portfolio

but i realize i barely can concentrate on the words

the lines go like..from a clear image to a blur one..

and my retina seems to lost contact with the words...

continuous 8 hours of essay writing is driving me crazy.. apparently exhausted...

my dear blog...guess u are the only writing that im not disgust with right now

sympathetically i've got no choice but to take a short break...have more hot chocolate and keep on working..

have my face washed perhaps..despite i wonder if it helps..@@

aza aza ! *by onyin*

yi jing san ge li bai le

pian ren ye bu shi jiang pan de hao bu hao...='/

1646...6 July

0346...6 July

我很忙...可是我不是牛仔

每次都跟别人讲

"累就不要啦...辛苦就走...不好玩了那就不要玩了"

讲就潇洒咯

自己有事的时候就鸡蛋糕酱了咯

很好笑的啦

明明就很简单

可是我好像觉得现在我有十张嘴都讲不清楚

有一种爱值得一起努力

显然那种爱不属于我们

弄到我几emo一下

deng

我想念那天的海风

不过风吹过了不会倒吹回来的

追我又不够它快

所以往前走吧

0111...8 July

1211...7 July

i love my new blog skins =)

final is just around the corner and i'm still doing my blog

oh god i must be crazy

anyways=)

i will be good...

after final everything will be fine

stress-free :)))

good night

xoxo

1540...4 July

0240...4 July

想多无谓

时间开始过得很快

忙碌把生活填满

但对家的思念有增无减

面对了从来没有面对过的压力

所以也学会了从来没有机会学会的东西

今天有了一席不太愉快的对话

没有人看好

也没有人祝福

坚守的信念

总是被现实打败

败得一塌糊涂

我知道

我都知道

我现在紧紧握在手里的

对我来说非常重要的

其实

它们对现在的我来说比所谓前途还重要的

都会慢慢被牺牲掉

被我自己随着时间

一个一个

伴随着眼泪

被牺牲掉

这就是现实

最后

得到的

会是大多数人眼中梦寐以求的

或许也会是以后的我觉得感激涕零的

失去的

我心里清楚

那是我这一辈子都要不回来的了

被塞了很多

得到的越来越多

但我恐惧着

我害怕

因为我失去的会更多

最最让我害怕的

就是我会把最原本的自己给丢了

拥有的这份思维

处理事情的这种方法

面对事物的这种态度

被现实打败

那个黄湣绚就会不见了

那个时候

无论是什么

都不一样了

他们都说那是成长

人没有办法永远在原地踏步

我也向往着成长

向往着变成一个成功的大人

不过不是这个方向

这个与家人朋友我爱的所有人背道而驰的方向

当我的朋友们也经历着他们的成长

都变成大人的我们

我却与他们不一样了

因为遇到的不同

在身边的一切人事物也都不同

最后大家各自的经验把我们变成了不同的人

这个光想都让我觉得难过

不在家人身边

什么都无法参与体会

逐渐大家改变却浑然不知

尤其是小朋友

那种失去的熟悉感

最终你会变得陌生

光想我眼泪就止不住

我知道

这些从我踏在美国这片土地之前

我就都料想到

只是很任性地选择不想

总是抱着希望

说服自己一切都不会变

大家都会好好的

我诚心真意地怀抱着这个希望

这个或许是小事一桩的希望

我用了百分之百的认真

希望我不会失去这些珍贵的事物

并且愿意尽我最大的努力去守护

守护自己

守护他们

再虚伪都好

哄我也罢

真的很希望至少有一个人可以天真地告诉我

"都不会变的...你不过就是去几年读个书就回来了"

我很习惯性问自己一个问题

每次在难过生气或则有负面情绪的时候

我会问自己

"十年后现在你耿耿于怀的还有差别么?....如果十年后你还是会觉得在意.....那二十年后呢?"

我得到的答案总是

"对啊...反正十年过后我可能连这一回事或者这一个人都记不起来了...那我现在那么难过或生气又有什么意义...反正对我的人生来说这一点一点都不重要啊"

但是这一次我发觉

十年过后回头看

it still matter

二十年

三十年

四十年

IT STILL MATTER

这个是会影响我一生方向的决定

人生的转折点

直接影响我未来的决定

打翻了调味料了

像小学老师教的

心里百般滋味

感性过后

该理智一点

早点睡觉

明天好好上课了

好好过日子

*微笑* 加油敏娴!

1307...20 June

0007...20 June

我男朋友真的很可爱

永远听起来真的很很幸福

很吸引好浪漫

可是那么难办得到的东西

我还是不要插一脚的好

我自己懂自己事

我这个人真的很懒

又怕麻烦

重点是

他比我更懒更怕麻烦=P

所以

天长地久这种高难度挑战还是留给别人去说吧

现在

把心给你

我觉得很幸福

那就好了

我们都好好的

就够了

等那一天来了

我们不能再走下去的那一天

我相信我还是可以笑着跟你说

"aiyo我跟你分手了我很emo咧"

未来的路布满浓雾...我不懂那里有些什么...沿途有什么风景...不过我祈祷...希望那边有一个你...=）

1130...17 June

2230...16 June

all i want

need not commitment

just save me a place in your heart

and i'll give my world to you

1242...21 May

2342...20 May

糖果

如果有人问起的话

我会说我男朋友在距离我半个地球远的地方生活

我在等他

:)

0606...15 May

平安符

可不可以送我一个平安符啊?

我每次看戏

那些人要出国读书

都会有人送一个平安符的

好像除了教车uncle之外都没有人送过我平安符了

我要去庙里拜拜

:))

wan an...

nite nite

0050...20 April

一直很安静

要能说没关系还离得太远

不过不重要

我又要去睡了

nitenite

2346...16 April

骑士

真的不懂

不过没有人追究

所以变成没有关系

可不可以

不那么累

可不可以

什么都不理

可不可以

过了就算了吧

可不可以

不想多多

可不可以

不要被训练到习惯睡醒就忘记

这种都不懂是可喜还是可悲的习惯

什么都不要想

安心地把手牵着

什么都不要管

安心地把眼睛闭着

什么都不要听

安心地在怀里躺着

什么都不要问

安心地被宠爱着

应了那段歌词

若不想问也不想被通知到就把祝福留在街角

这两天都加班

两天里面把一个星期的工作量都做了

才懂

忙无所谓

赶才是重点

看着时间做人很压力

真的不明白

为什么有人真的可以好意思交待别人把工作做完

完全不要帮忙

重点

那是她自己的工作哦

我的手伤痕累累

一直被纸割到

新的纸张还蛮有杀伤力的 :P

肩膀酸腰也累

连吃午餐的时间都没有了

晚上又有事做没有睡到觉

幸好还有很多人疼着

就好像今天一早妈妈特地热了鸡精给我

看到会觉得暖暖的:))

没办法

受人钱财替人消灾

给顾客骂骂下我也习惯了

给人家欺负下我也算了

只好正面一点

当作是磨练吧

剩下不多时间

每一天我都要开开心心过 ♥

2329。。。12 April

很痛

真的痛

痛到想骂粗口

:((

2310...9 April

烧鱼啤酒

不可以在同一个时间点

牵两个人的手

但是你可以在同一个时间点把两个人都放在心上

孰轻孰重

自己心里明了就好

不可以让真心对你的人伤心

但更不可以骗了自己再骗了人家

把你想起会笑的人的手牵着

把你想起会哭的人放在心上

有些事再想要去做也不可以做

和爱你的人在一起

把你爱的人放在心上

为爱你的人做家事

为你爱的人哭

晚安

:)

0035...8 April

幸福是一起醒来说早安 ♥

had a bad tummy today

not feeling well :'(

i hope i didn't say that to him today

im unhappy now

i wish he could delete that sentence

cause i realise that i'm regretting...

i said it's easy

i said it's carefree

but i'm the one making things complicated and hard for us :(

sorry

gimme a chance and i would definitely take back my words..

sleep well

nite

2116...7 April

im tired :'(

a tiring day

plus a very tiring night

it happens that tired comes in a package...

compulsory...cut the crapss and accept is the only thing to do

yea im going to sleep again

sleep and forget bout everything

it's like a delete button on my memory

somehow feelings doesn't come with this delete button

sad case

0031...6 April

F

oahubgniqnixihsoaixgnohzehzoailiewoaykomozowgned

oailiuhsoayowtihs

收到的人记不牢

记地牢的人却收不到

2056...5 April

4 April

budongweishenme

kandaohaishihuijuedexinqingbuhao

juede

shuyunimendexingfu

shiwoyigerenshoulehendadeweiquchengquande

woyiweiwokeyiyixiaoerguo

yuanlai

zhendebushishenmedoukeyiwusuowei

haishiyou

wobunengyixiaoerguodeshi

bu...

yinggaishuo

haishiyouzaiwoyixiaoerguozhihouhuizijiduoqilaikudeshi

yuanlaiwozhendemeiyounamedafang

suiranbaweiqudourenlexialai

keshihaishihuizaibloglimianmaiyuan

haishihuijuedezijiweiqu

bukeyia

yaoxuezhezhenzhengdechengquan

zhenzhengdexisheng

zhenzhengdemgx

jiusuanshiweilejinianwomencengjingzhenxinxiangai

woyegaixuezhezhenxinshuoyiju

mgx...woyuanliangni...

2123...4 April

A place named after you :)

bring me to the highest mountain

where i can see the sun rises

bring me to the longest beach

where i can lay down with millions of stars accompanied

bring me to the widest field

where i can smell roses blooming sweet

bring me to the meandering stream

where i can see colorful fishes shining in crystal clear water

bring me up to the most beautiful hills

where dandelions and butterflies playing around in the wind

bring me into the deepest part of your heart

and i won't come out anymore :)

2231...1 April

战争

在我的认知里面

战争

是一大群人跟另一大群人之间的事

吵到要死又不好玩的事

到今天才发觉

原来很单纯的两个生命独立体

也可以称为战争

眼神...手势...语言...都是锋利的武器啊

而且

是雌性生命体的百分比大很多

为了不成为炮灰

大家都很识相地突然聋了

突然瞎了

突然哑了

当然

我尽我所能专注于手上的工作并且逃得远远的

很害怕会伤及无辜不小心被炸倒

我今天连说句话都会觉得有压迫感

气氛真的还可以在更僵一点

看来一山不能容二虎不是古代人唬烂的

加油啊黄缗绚

明天继续努力聋哑瞎

继续努力明哲保身

fighting! :)

1926...31 March

恶作剧

所以说

千万不要得罪女人

真的是可以很阴险的咯

:P

哈哈

超级无敌幸灾乐祸的

*Bling Bling 心情超好 :DD*

我是无所谓啦

反正我就孤家寡人

不过今晚应该有人会很惨

至少要解释个1个钟吧

实在是太高兴了我

原来恶作剧成功那么让人兴奋阿

我还真的很变态

:P

2155...29 March

辣椒板面

my alarm stops ringing finally :) *a big YEA!!*

i heard that gloria is coming back this weekends...

another good news for lovely today:)

hope we could meet up..

it has been ages since we last met

i remember the old time

that dajiejie who take very good care of her xuemei ♥

somehow sometimes i wonder if we still share the same topic

today is quite tiring

lots of work that i had to do over time

i plan to work till 22nd of April...

just a week before i leave

i need sometime to settle things and get prepared

it's quite a job i guess

i told jie and she agreed with me too

i hope steph can find an assistant as soon as possible after i leave

she got way too much files

obviously over loaded but no one seems to care :(

something happened today but i didn't tell steph :(

it hurts...i'm sure it is...it has nothing to do with me but i can feel my anger...

it's dark and unfair...as mentioned no one seems to care...

everyone is adapting very well to it..

finally telling others this is the technique for humans to survive

as lions have very shap jaws and powerful paws

so those so called EXPERIENCED and SUCCESSFUL people are telling me human beings are born to be crooked..wicked and *****???

duh~ it disgust me a lot seriously...sorry maybe i'm too naive for these...

i'm simple and i'll just do whatever i should

and will ignore whatsoever complicated and out of my understanding range things which belongs to the ******* but not normal human :)

*i just can't stop being sarcastic*

whatever im going to sleep now

it's going to be a very good night..sound and safe ♥

wo jin tian chi wu can de shi hou ting dao yi ge xiao mei mei yi zhi zai chao..

ta gen ta mama shuo "wo yao chi Mcdonald mama...wo yao chi Macdonald mama......"

zhen de hen ke ai ar... :)

wan an

0102...28 March

cheng cheng

今天我回家乡pd拜拜

天气非常热

大汗淋漓我驾车的时候不小心弄伤我的表妹

真的吓到我了

手都抖了

真的很幸运她没有事

过不了多久就又跑又蹦了:)

我今天傍晚的时候去了一个很美的地方

我自己觉得很美啦

因为呆在那边很舒服

就算风迎面吹来有点臭臭的我还是觉得很舒服

而且重点海鲜超新鲜超好吃的

我一定一定还要去那边多一次

在我出国留学之前

真的很让我念念不忘

哈

我在想我真的很不了解我的国家

很多地方我听都没有听过的咧

能够一个个去玩就好了:D

谢谢你今天把我带出去

谢谢你送了我一个瓶口破掉的玻璃瓶

谢谢你 (:

明天又要开始做工了...明明就累个半死可是我想起来居然有点喜悦:)

在读书的你们也要加油...不要太累太压力了好吗?

还有明天考试的你...不要太夜...

晚安♥

2334...27 March